not much to say atm. so just read dis shiiit. :D
The Fourth Night
And we meet again, my dear readers. I've come back to tell you the next piece of this story...
kitXinXtheXdark: hey man
midnitemarexxx9: Hello.
kitXinXtheXdark: so how was your day?
midnitemarexxx9: Okay, I guess.
kitXinXtheXdark: mine was a bit scary.
kitXinXtheXdark: remember Takai got mad at me?
kitXinXtheXdark: well...
kitXinXtheXdark: he...he freakin' started makin' out with me in school
kitXinXtheXdark: and people saw.
kitXinXtheXdark: and now EVERYONE is going to know
midnitemarexxx9: I'm sorry.
kitXinXtheXdark: fuck, i'm so scared now.
kitXinXtheXdark: Takai says it's just natural, and that i shouldn't worry so much.
kitXinXtheXdark: but he hasn't seen what i have.
kitXinXtheXdark: he hasn't had to watch someone he loved start to hate him because they ended up hospitalized!
kitXinXtheXdark: ...damnit...
midnitemarexxx9: Just calm down.
midnitemarexxx9: You'll figure out what's going to happen tomorrow.
kitXinXtheXdark: -sigh- yeah...
kitXinXtheXdark: i just hope it's not bad
kitXinXtheXdark: i don't think i could go through that again
midnitemarexxx9: This is why I don't make friends.
kitXinXtheXdark: shit...but, still, even through all of this, even if this goes terribly wrong again, i wouldn't trade my time with Takai for anything.
kitXinXtheXdark: there are some things that seem like they'd be terrible, but for the good parts of friendship, you never know how much it's worth it until it's too late
midnitemarexxx9: If you say so.
kitXinXtheXdark: you'll know one day.
kitXinXtheXdark: i don't think you'll be alone forever
kitXinXtheXdark: it messes with your mind
midnitemarexxx9: Mhm.
kitXinXtheXdark: one day, you'll find someone that you feel the need to be with. i'm not saying, like, boyfriend/girlfriend specifically, but just someone to be close to.
midnitemarexxx9: I'll take your word for it.
kitXinXtheXdark: -sigh- you just are adamant against relating to anyone, huh?
midnitemarexxx9: You could say that.
kitXinXtheXdark: but why? i mean, i know you've had the problems with your brother, but why avoid people alltogether?
midnitemarexxx9: Less pain.
kitXinXtheXdark: are you so sure that it works out that way?
kitXinXtheXdark: for all you know, the person who will make you happiest in the world could just slip right by you
midnitemarexxx9: They would leave even if I talked to them. It would hurt worse to talk to them and then have them leave me then it would if I just knew they could make me happy.
kitXinXtheXdark: damn, man...you're such a coward.
midnitemarexxx9: You can put it that way.
kitXinXtheXdark: it's the truth. i mean, i'm afraid of things, but i don't try to avoid them altogether
midnitemarexxx9: We' just have different thoughts on the world.
kitXinXtheXdark: i swear i will change you
kitXinXtheXdark: somehow, some way, i will make you not a coward anymore
midnitemarexxx9: You continue with saying you'll change me.
kitXinXtheXdark: i will.
kitXinXtheXdark: you may not realize it yet, but i will.
midnitemarexxx9: If you say so.
kitXinXtheXdark: just you wait
kitXinXtheXdark: you'll be admitting my victory soon enough
midnitemarexxx9: Mhm.
kitXinXtheXdark: -sigh-
midnitemarexxx9: Yes, yes.
kitXinXtheXdark: anyway, how was the weekend without your brother around?
midnitemarexxx9: Good. I was able to sleep peacefully.
kitXinXtheXdark: that's good to hear.
kitXinXtheXdark: i don't know how you can live with the bastard
midnitemarexxx9: Its not like a have a choice. I'd already be gone if I did.
kitXinXtheXdark: still, you have the option to disappear off the face of the earth
kitXinXtheXdark: it's possible to do that
midnitemarexxx9: He'd find me.
midnitemarexxx9: He always does.
kitXinXtheXdark: you're just doing it wrong D:
midnitemarexxx9: And how would I do this right, may I ask?
kitXinXtheXdark: well, you gotta leave no trace, and you gotta leave when you know he won't know you're gone for a few days.
kitXinXtheXdark: change your appearance
kitXinXtheXdark: get some clothing that's not yours
midnitemarexxx9: He never lets me leave the house except for school.
kitXinXtheXdark: and how does he keep you in the house when he's not around?
midnitemarexxx9: He's got camera's up everywhere.
kitXinXtheXdark: that's...kinda creepy...
kitXinXtheXdark: but still, there would be ways for you to leave...you just gotta be creative.
kitXinXtheXdark: i mean, it's not like he has you chained up in a cage.
midnitemarexxx9: Theres a lock on my door.
midnitemarexxx9: From the outside.
kitXinXtheXdark: what kind? like, is it big?
midnitemarexxx9: No, but There's a lot of them.
kitXinXtheXdark: hmmm...there's got to be a way out...
kitXinXtheXdark: does he pick you up from school?
midnitemarexxx9: No.
kitXinXtheXdark: how do you get home?
midnitemarexxx9: I walk.
kitXinXtheXdark: hmmm...
kitXinXtheXdark: you could run away during school
midnitemarexxx9: I could.
kitXinXtheXdark: do you have access to money?
midnitemarexxx9: No.
kitXinXtheXdark: hm...none at all?
midnitemarexxx9: None.
kitXinXtheXdark: damn, that dampens things...
midnitemarexxx9: Yes.
kitXinXtheXdark: i was gonna tell you to buy, like, several bus tickets for the same time on the same day for several different locations...but if you have no money that won't work
midnitemarexxx9: It won't.
kitXinXtheXdark: hmmm...but, you'd definitely need to run away during school.
kitXinXtheXdark: that's the best chance you'd get, probably
midnitemarexxx9: He'd catch me though
kitXinXtheXdark: -pouts- i bet there's a way to do it right
kitXinXtheXdark: it will need to be carefully planned though
midnitemarexxx9: Yes.
kitXinXtheXdark: damn...this would be so much easier to plan if i lived there...i mean, i could help you out or something.
midnitemarexxx9: Mhm.
kitXinXtheXdark: damnit...
kitXinXtheXdark: you could...eh...
kitXinXtheXdark: knock him out good and lock him up somehow?
midnitemarexxx9: That wouldn't work.
kitXinXtheXdark: why not?
midnitemarexxx9: Just trust me. It wouldn't.
kitXinXtheXdark: -.-
kitXinXtheXdark: jeez
kitXinXtheXdark: i don't know what to say at this point.
kitXinXtheXdark: i mean, there HAS to be a way...
kitXinXtheXdark: but, i just can't think of anything
kitXinXtheXdark: i may not be booksmart, but i'm a schemer
kitXinXtheXdark: definitely
midnitemarexxx9: Mhm.
kitXinXtheXdark: you should see some of the pranks i've pulled
midnitemarexxx9: I'm sure.
kitXinXtheXdark: -cackle-
kitXinXtheXdark: there was this one time, at my last school, this guy was buggin' one of my friends...
kitXinXtheXdark: and, like, i trashed his car
kitXinXtheXdark: but he never found out it was me.
kitXinXtheXdark: because i'm awesome like that
midnitemarexxx9: Isn't that amazing.
kitXinXtheXdark: what? that sounded pretty sarcastic
midnitemarexxx9: No sarcasm.
kitXinXtheXdark: psh. but, yeah, i pull pranks all the time. most of them are innocent ones though
kitXinXtheXdark: i don't trash people's cars without good reason
midnitemarexxx9: Yes, yes.
kitXinXtheXdark: and then there was that time i pantsed that guy.
kitXinXtheXdark: he was an ass
kitXinXtheXdark: i got suspended for a week
midnitemarexxx9: Isn't that fun.
kitXinXtheXdark: you just have no appreciation for this kind of stuff. i mean, yeah, i've been the victim of pranks myself, but that doesn't stop me from pulling some myself
midnitemarexxx9: I understand.
kitXinXtheXdark: you should have some fun once in a while and do some yourself
kitXinXtheXdark: :3
midnitemarexxx9: Of course.
kitXinXtheXdark: what the hell do you do to have fun, i mean, seriously?
kitXinXtheXdark: do you just sit in a corner and be emo all the time or something?
midnitemarexxx9: How many times do I have to tell you, I'm not emo.
kitXinXtheXdark: right, right...
kitXinXtheXdark: but still
kitXinXtheXdark: you can't tell me that you never do anything
midnitemarexxx9: I listen to music and read.
kitXinXtheXdark: -sigh-
kitXinXtheXdark: you should have FUN.
kitXinXtheXdark: REAL fun
midnitemarexxx9: Yes.
kitXinXtheXdark: gawd...i seriously wish we lived closer together.
kitXinXtheXdark: i'd make you have some fun
kitXinXtheXdark: :D
midnitemarexxx9: Mhm.
kitXinXtheXdark: you still don't believe me, do you?
midnitemarexxx9: Not really.
kitXinXtheXdark: you just wait, i'll come out of nowhere someday and steal you away to go have some fun
kitXinXtheXdark: and you'll never know what hit you
kitXinXtheXdark: :3
midnitemarexxx9: Steal me away?
kitXinXtheXdark: well, since your brother seems to keep such a close eye on you, that'd be kinda what i'd have to do, yeah
midnitemarexxx9: Have fun.
kitXinXtheXdark: you should put some more faith in people :(
midnitemarexxx9: I probably should.
kitXinXtheXdark: yeah!
kitXinXtheXdark: :D
kitXinXtheXdark: jeez...we've talked for what, four days now?
midnitemarexxx9: I think so.
kitXinXtheXdark: wow...i've said a whole shitload of stuff too.
midnitemarexxx9: You have.
kitXinXtheXdark: but, i did learn some...well, for lack of a better word...interesting stuff about you too
midnitemarexxx9: If you think so.
kitXinXtheXdark: well, i mean, come on, how many people in the world do you think get fucked by their psychotic murderer older brother?
midnitemarexxx9: . . .
kitXinXtheXdark: seriously
midnitemarexxx9: That's true.
kitXinXtheXdark: see?
kitXinXtheXdark: you can be a freakshow like me!
midnitemarexxx9: Oh joy.
kitXinXtheXdark: you sound thrilled
midnitemarexxx9: I am so thrilled.
kitXinXtheXdark: :D
kitXinXtheXdark: ah well. you'll understand how awesome it is eventually
midnitemarexxx9: Okay.
kitXinXtheXdark: damn bookworm
midnitemarexxx9: What's wrong with that?
kitXinXtheXdark: well, i've known some, and they always act like they're better than me
midnitemarexxx9: I'm not acting like I'm better than you.
midnitemarexxx9: Am I?
kitXinXtheXdark: well, no, i guess not...
kitXinXtheXdark: but you're not very nice to me ;-;
midnitemarexxx9: I'm not a nice person.
kitXinXtheXdark: i don't think that's true.
kitXinXtheXdark: you just need to open up more
midnitemarexxx9: Mhm.
kitXinXtheXdark: but, i guess i've made some sort of progress with that
kitXinXtheXdark: maybe
midnitemarexxx9: If you say so.
kitXinXtheXdark: well, you say you don't talk to people, right?
midnitemarexxx9: Yes.
kitXinXtheXdark: but you're talking to me, in a way, right?
midnitemarexxx9: Yes.
kitXinXtheXdark: therefore, we've made some progress
kitXinXtheXdark: because, you don't have to keep replying to me, yet you do, right?
midnitemarexxx9: Thats true.
kitXinXtheXdark: see?
kitXinXtheXdark: i'm just awesome like that
kitXinXtheXdark: :3
midnitemarexxx9: Oh course you are.
kitXinXtheXdark: you will agree with me enthusiastically one of these days
midnitemarexxx9: If you say so.
kitXinXtheXdark: psh
kitXinXtheXdark: Takai! on mah phone...
midnitemarexxx9: Is it good?
kitXinXtheXdark: well, he still won't apologize for earlier today...
midnitemarexxx9: I'm sorry.
kitXinXtheXdark: damnit...why did he have to go and do that...
midnitemarexxx9: Because he wanted people to know about you two.
kitXinXtheXdark: yeah...i mean, i understand where he's coming from, but no matter how much i've told him about my personal experiences, he just won't believe me
midnitemarexxx9: I'm sorry.
kitXinXtheXdark: -sigh- nothing i can do now but sit back and wait though
midnitemarexxx9: Yeah.
kitXinXtheXdark: jeez...i seriously am gonna break down if i have to see Takai get hospitalized...
midnitemarexxx9: I'm don't really know what to say..
kitXinXtheXdark: yeah, well, most people wouldn't
kitXinXtheXdark: it's not a normal kind of situation
midnitemarexxx9: It isn't?
kitXinXtheXdark: well, no.
kitXinXtheXdark: i mean, it's happened to me before...but most people don't end up with their boyfriend/girlfriend hospitalized because people ridicule them that much
kitXinXtheXdark: and then said person eventually works up a hatred for you...
kitXinXtheXdark: and that's the worst part
kitXinXtheXdark: it makes me feel like i've failed them somehow
midnitemarexxx9: More reasons to not have friends.
kitXinXtheXdark: hey, even though that isn't the best experience in the world, i've told you, the upsides outweigh the downsides.
kitXinXtheXdark: you just have to make sure you don't get stuck in a downside
midnitemarexxx9: Are you a downside?
kitXinXtheXdark: eh?
midnitemarexxx9: Well?
kitXinXtheXdark: i'm not sure what you mean...
midnitemarexxx9: Well you said you were my friend, correct?
kitXinXtheXdark: yeah
midnitemarexxx9: You said don't get stuck in a downside.
kitXinXtheXdark: yeah, i did.
kitXinXtheXdark: but what's that got to do with me?
midnitemarexxx9: Are you downside in this friendship thing?
kitXinXtheXdark: i don't think so -.-
midnitemarexxx9: That's what I was asking.
kitXinXtheXdark: hm...
midnitemarexxx9: What?
kitXinXtheXdark: i'll try my best not to become a downside
midnitemarexxx9: Thank you.
kitXinXtheXdark: :3
kitXinXtheXdark: wait, i've got a question...
kitXinXtheXdark: you're so tightly kept by your brother, yet he allows you to get on the internet?
midnitemarexxx9: It's on thing he allows me to have.
kitXinXtheXdark: jeez.
kitXinXtheXdark: i just wanna hurt him or something
kitXinXtheXdark: he has no right to keep you cooped up like that
midnitemarexxx9: Yeah.
kitXinXtheXdark: i swear i'll find a way to get back at him
midnitemarexxx9: Calm down.
kitXinXtheXdark: :(
kitXinXtheXdark: i'm surprised you haven't killed him yourself yet
kitXinXtheXdark: i would have if it was me
midnitemarexxx9: I should, but he's not worth it.
kitXinXtheXdark: so you getting raped isn't enough reason!?
kitXinXtheXdark: i mean, seriously...
midnitemarexxx9: He's expecting it.
kitXinXtheXdark: what, that you'll kill him?
midnitemarexxx9: Yeah.
kitXinXtheXdark: eh!?
kitXinXtheXdark: i'm confused
midnitemarexxx9: He's expecting me to kill him. He's just waiting for me to do it. I'd rather let him live his miserable life then kill him and make him happy.
kitXinXtheXdark: jeez...he's one sick mutherfucker...
kitXinXtheXdark: i just don't understand people like him
midnitemarexxx9: Its... complicated.
kitXinXtheXdark: and?
midnitemarexxx9: And what?
kitXinXtheXdark: what's complicated?
kitXinXtheXdark: and how?
midnitemarexxx9: My brother.
midnitemarexxx9: And how he thinks
midnitemarexxx9: And the way things are.
midnitemarexxx9: And basically everything about us.
midnitemarexxx9: Well I have to go now.
kitXinXtheXdark: okay
kitXinXtheXdark: ;-;
kitXinXtheXdark: buh-bye Sasuke.
midnitemarexxx9: Good bye Naruto.
Some problems are beginning to develop for Naruto. But where will they go? Will they simmer down like most things in high school can? Or will they instead become the beginning of an even bigger issue? My readers, you'll just have to wait and see in the next night...
meeeeeh. so, yeah...nothing much to say this time...other than zOMG i'm turning in my first essay for english tomorrow. i hope it doesn't suck ass.