For the rest of the day I avoided Tawni. I didn't need her yelling at me anymore. Zora acted like nothing happened, which I was fine with. That's just one less person to have to deal with. As I was leaving the building for the night I got a text from Tawni.
I get that your pregnant and there is nothing you can do about that, and I think I know why you don't want to abort it but what about adoption?
I hit reply and texted back.
I don't think I could ever bring myself to give it away. I want to keep it. I hit send and before I even had time to take in what I just said Tawni texted me back.
Why? That was a good question. I signed and wrote back.
I don't know.
Tawni never wrote back after that. I stood in the parking lot for ten minutes waiting on my mom. Chad had offered to take me home earlier but I said no.
When my mom finally got there I got in the car and didn't say a thing. When she asked me how my day was all I said was fine and turned to look out the window. I think she got that I didn't want to talk because she didn't say anything else. I knew I needed to tell her but her but I couldn't find the right words to say. So when we got to our apartment complex I jumped out of the car and went straight to my room.
I hated being so distant from my mom but this was for a good reason. I needed some time to think about what I was going to say. I sat there laying on my bed for about five minutes then stood up. I had decided that I needed to say something, even it was just I'm pregnant. I stood up ready to march up to her and tell her but my feet wouldn't move.
Maybe I'll wait until tomorrow, give her one more day of thinking I'm the best daughter a mom could want. Waiting one day won't hurt. Just as I sat back down on my bed I heard my mom walk through the front door. It sure did take her a while to get up here.
"Allison Monroe! Come here now please!" she sounded mad. Oh crap she knows, how does she know? I stood back up and walked out to the living room. Mom was standing there waiting for me, if looks could kill I would have dropped dead.
"Yes." I said sweetly. Then she pulled my phone out for me to see.
"What's this!?" she said.
"That's my phone, maybe we need to get your eyes checked mom." I said sarcastically. She didn't seem to get the joke.
"No Allison, not the phone, what is in the phone. This text, is it true?!" I snatched my phone from her and took a step back.
"You read though my texts! Have you ever heard of a thing called privacy?!"
"You seemed so down on the way home, I wanted to know what was wrong and you left you phone in the car so I thought it wouldn't hurt to just skim through your messages. I know it wasn't right but you are not turning this around on me. Is what that thing said true? Are you pregnant?"
I looked down at the floor and signed.
"Yes." I said very low. My mom just shook her head and sat on the coach.
"How is this even possible, you have a curfew, your never alone, I have you tell me where your going to be at all times. When did it happen?" she asked.
"Do you remember last month when I told you I was going to stay the night at the studio?"
"Yes. I remember. She said.
"Well… I didn't exactly stay at the studio. I went to a guy's house." I couldn't even look at my mom. Telling your mother when you lost your virginity isn't a very comfortable conversation.
"So you lied to me?" she sounded angry.
"Not completely, when I told I was going to stay at the studio I meant it at that time. Then the situation changed and well you know what happened."
"Allison, how could you be so irresponsible!? I trusted you enough to let you stay out one night and this happens. Do I need to start going everywhere with you and hold your hand!?"
"I'm not a child, I made one mistake, I'm only human and stop calling me Allison, my name is Sonny!" I hated it when she called me Allison.
"Fine Sonny, you may not be a child anymore but now you have one inside of you because of your foolishness. Are you ready to be a parent? Are you ready to take care of that baby and give it everything it needs? She looked at me intently.
"No. But I will try my hardest." I said finally looking up at her.
"Sometimes that's not enough Sonny, you'll need someone to help you, other than me." I think I know where she's going with this. "Who's the father?" Darn I was right. I hadn't told my mom I was dating Chad yet. She didn't really like him after I told her how much of a jerk he was when I first got here. Me and my big mouth.
"Chad Dylan Cooper." I said it as fast as I could and looked back down at the floor.
"Sonny I thought you hated that boy and now your having his baby!"
"Well I don't really hate him anymore. We've been dating for about a month now. And actually I don't think I ever really hated him." I looked up at my mom. She had her hands on either side of her forehead. She seemed in shock. I saw a bag of chips on the coffee table and picked them up and started stuffing them down my throat.
"This is all to much in one day." she started massaging her temples. "Does he know?"
"No, not yet but I'm going to tell him really soon." I assured her. Like maybe tomorrow or the next day or maybe the next or the next day after that, maybe next week.
"Alright, just make sure that you do." she said. I continued eating the chips like there was know tomorrow.
"Gosh, why am I so hungry?"
"That's what being pregnant will do to you Sonny, your eating for two now. But if you don't like it don't worry I'm sure you'll throw it back up pretty soon."
"Thanks for the comfort." I said sarcastically. I mom stood up from the couch and walked towards the hall.
"I have a headache, I'm going to bed." she said. Then she turned around and looked at me. "And Sonny I'm going drive you to the studio tomorrow and tell Marshall myself."
Before I had time to say anything I got this uneasy feeling in my stomach. I threw the bag of chips back on the coffee table and ran past my mom towards the bathroom.
I stayed up half the night puking and eating. It was terrible. I fell asleep around 1:00 A.M and had to get up at 7:00 A.M to go to the studio. I didn't feel like putting a lot of effort into my look this morning so I just put on a cute pair of sweats and threw my hair up in a ponytail. The ride to the studio was very quiet. I couldn't look at my mom so I just looked out the window the whole way. I could tell when she would look over at me. It felt like two holes were burning in the back of my head. The fifteen minute ride felt like hours so when we finally got there I jumped out of the car rushed to the door. Before I made it safely inside mom called me.
"Sonny, would you like to be there when I tell Marshall?"
"No, I've been yelled at enough in the past day it would be nice to have some piece for a little while." I turned around and walked inside. When I got to my dressing room I stretched out on the coach. Tawni wasn't here yet. I heard mom come in and walk to Marshall's office. When I heard the door shut I got that uneasy feeling in my stomach again and ran for the bathroom. Gosh I hate throwing up. When I walked back into my dressing room I knew I had to start getting ready to rehearse a sketch. I pulled a pretty heavy box out of the closet that had the props in it we needed. As I was struggling with the box Nico and Grady passed by and rushed in to help me.
"Wow there, you don't need to be carrying heavy boxes." Nico said.
"Yeah, let us take that." Grady said.
"Okay, thanks guys." I said a little shocked. No one had ever helped me before.
"No problem, you just go sit down and relax." Nico said. I did exactly that. Nico and Grady then put the box on a little table and before leaving turned back to me.
"Do you need anything, maybe some water or something." Nico said.
"Maybe some cake." Grady suggested. This is to weird.
"Alright who told you, was it Tawni?" I said starring at both of them.
"No actually it was Zora." Grady said
"Dude, we weren't suppose to say anything, now Zora is gonna kill us." Nico said whacking Grady.
"Your right I will, you better watch your backs." Zora was sticking her head out of the vent then she leaned a little to far and fell out with a big thump. She did that a lot.
"Sorry Sonny we gotta go, but let us know if you need anything." Nico said. Then they both ran out of the room as fast as they could with Zora right behind them. They almost ran into my mom. She stopped at the doorway and looked at me.
"I told Marshall, he didn't take it to well. He's busy today but tomorrow he wants to talk to us both so we can figure out what to do. I have to go, have a good day." she said then turned and left. I seriously hope this day will be better. I sat down and stretched out on the little lounge thing that sits in the middle of the dressing room. As soon as I got comfortable my phone buzzed which means I got a text. It was from Chad.
Do you want to see a movie, go to dinner, or both tonight? I had forgotten about our date tonight. I hit reply and wrote back.
Just a movie will be fine. I don't need Chad seeing me stuff my face at dinner. I sighed and put my phone down.
"One more to go." I whispered to myself.