September 3rd - September 9th

I have been at Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry for almost a week and I've learned three things that I know to be a fact. One, when you use real pens and pencils people stare at you a lot and ask you about them. They are even more amazed when you take them apart and show them how it works. Hey, I bet I would be great at teaching Muggle Studies. Seeing as I am a muggle…. Were a muggle. Sorta. Two, I'm almost 100% sure that I don't have a single magical bone in my body. I have yet to do anything magical since the day at the wand shop, but that was all the wand and not me. The entire week has been rough whenever we have to do magic. I get weird looks when suddenly nothing is happening for me. And three, Severus Snape is rude as fuck. However I am determined to do at least one good thing while I'm here. At the moment, it was gonna get Snape to open up and to be a normal adult. I am going to make him smile before I go back to my world. Or before I die if I can't make it back. It was my own personal mission.

But today was the first day off of the year, and to be honest, I needed this. I was so worn out from trying to be a wizard and from learning three full years of classes. I could barely rolled out of bed and dressed in casual robes before finding my way into the common room. Which was now had plenty of student relaxing in it. I let out a small cough as I cleared the last step of the stairs. Before I could even start to scan the room, I was presented with a cup of hot chocolate. I squealed and took it greatfully. Aaron gave a small smile as we started our walk. He has cup of his own that was filled with tea. We walked into the courtyard in silence as he let me wake up.

The courtyard had plenty more people here then normally, which was slightly annoying but understandable. But that didn't mean I had to enjoy it. We made our way to a short tree and made quick work as we climbed up to a low branch. After a few moments Aaron and I were people watching.

"He's coming over here," Aaron snickered at me as I glanced in the directions where his eyes had come from. Matthew was making his way over to them with his little group of pureblood Slytherins. How did I know they they were pureblood? Because he made it known to me that he only thinks purebloods should be allowed at school and they were the master blood race. He didn't ask me if I was a pure blood but he didn't leave me alone either. He must felt like I was a challenge to be beaten. Good luck with that kiddo. I took one more silent sip of my hot chocolate before it would be ruined with Matthew being there.

"Morning Princess," He smiled up at me and sent a slight glare toward Aaron. Aaron wasn't a pureblood wizard in fact I think he came from a muggle family. Which I guess was a no no here in Slytherin. I didn't care but apparently its a big deal. "So you didn't tell me you were from THAT Chizmar family. You're as pureblood as they come. That's a trait any real pureblood family would want in their lineage tree." His smirk grew a little as his words leaked from his mouth.

"Meh, I don't really see how my heritage is important," I took a sip of my drink but it wasn't as sweet now that he was here.

"It's one of the most important, didn't your parents teach you that Love?" He leaned up against a tree opposite of the one we sat in and began watching me. I felt my skin began to crawl.

"My parents are more than likely dead and I have no memory passed about two weeks ago, so nope," That shut him up pretty quickly. His face fell and now he felt like an ass. At least he has some real feeling somewhere in his soul. Maybe.

"Well sorry to hear that Princess, but I'd more then happily inform you," His smirk once more playing on his lips as he slightly looked at Aaron as if implying he was bad company. I hopped down from the tree and got in his face.

"Ok honestly, I'm fucking done with you treating my friend like crap. How about you fuck off and mind your damn business. And stop fucking trying to get in my fucking pants. I'm way out of your league and it's never gonna fucking happen. Cause you fucking disgust me you close minded pig. You can't see past people blood let alone see their true talent. You are useless and pointless. You should consider yourself lucky your "pureblood" cause if you weren't you wouldn't even be able to weld that magic that you hold so dear. So fuck off and leave me and my friends alone." As I spoke the whole courtyard grew quite. Not just because I was yelling but because as I spoke something seemed to start to choke Mathew. He had started holding his throat and gasping for air. I shattered my mug that I was still holding into fragments, not knowing the magic that was flowing through my body and mind. Soon Matthew's lips started to turn blue due to lack of oxygen.

"TAMARA," I was grabbed roughly and broken from the trance that I had been in. Snape had grabbed me by my shoulders and shook me. I blinked a few times then looked at Mathew. He could now breath and was gasping trying to re-oxidize his blood. Snape let go of me and went to Mathews side. I almost killed him. My eyes started to fill with moisture and I ran for it. I didn't care where I went but I need to get away from just everything. I found the nearest fireplace and made my way to Diagon Alley. I didn't have a real plan but I had a backup plan if hogwarts didn't work out. I went to Gringotts and retrieved muggle money. Reeny had told me about how to get to the muggle world if I ever needed to get something.

Making my through the Leaky Cauldron, all the while people watching me softly cry. I found the place where I could go into the muggle world and quickly did the pattern. I ran out into the real world and removed my ring. I hid my wand as well as I walked the streets. I let my mind remain blank and void as I looked for a hotel to hold up in. I needed to cry. A lot. But I didn't want to do it on the streets of London. Or where ever I was.

Finding a decent hotel I walked in and got a room for the night. Getting my room key, I took the elevator and soon found my room. After the door shut behind me the dam broke and I crumbled to the ground. I didn't even have time to make it to the bed. With my back against the door, I cried.

I had almost killed Mathew. I never wanted to kill him. I was just so fucking mad and I didn't know what I was doing. I COULD HAVE FUCKING KILLED HIM. HE WOULD HAVE BEEN DEAD IF SNAPE HADN'T STOPPED ME. I bit my lower lip so hard that blood started to ooze out. Thats when I remember the mug shattering in my hand. Bringing my left hand up, I found that the woundI had gotten from the shards of the mug were already congealed enough to the point that they didn't bleed. I had a few minor cuts on my palm and a large one on my wrist. I could feel my body shaking as I tried to get to my feet. It was a lot harder than I thought it would be. The adrenaline from the day had worn off and I had almost zero strength to do anything.

Doing my best I leaned against the wall as I made way toward the bed. The wall didn't quite go straight to the bed so I had to put the last bit of energy I had left and made a small jump to the bed and thankfully I made it. I was still crying as my body shut down.

I awoke to a phone ringing close to my face. I squinted in the general direction and reached out to answer the annoying thing. After a few tries I found it. "Hello?"

"Miss Chizmar, we need you either to pay for another night or we need to rent out the room to someone else." The front desk must have called me. What time was it? I turned slightly to look at the other side of the bed to see it was two in the afternoon.

"What are you talking about I've only been checked in for a few hours?" I rolled onto my back and stared at the dull ceiling.

"Ma'am, you checked in yesterday for one night. If you'd like to stay another night, you'll need to pay for another night." I didn't feel like arguing with the lady and quickly did a round trip to pay for another night and return to my bedroom. Shortly after I returned to my room, I found the bathroom and took a quick shower and wrapped my body in a towel. Foooooood. Going back over to the rude phone, I called in for some food and sat on the bed trying to decide what I was going to do. The wizard money that my family had was more then enough to get me a start here. In the muggle world that is. I nibbled my lip then let out a little squeak as it was sore from me biting into it yesterday. Before anything could be finalize on a empty wall across from me a fireplace appeared out of no where.

"What the hell?" I looked at it confused until a certain bat like Professor walked through. I stared in awe as he dusted himself off and glared at me.

"I'm here to take you back to Hogwarts," His eyes looked down my body then he averted them. I looked down and remember that I had just got out of the shower.

"Oh," I pulled the covers to cover me more so that he would feel more comfortable. He looked through the window waiting. "I'm not sure if I'm going back Snape." I look down at the bad design of the bed covers as I thought over my options.

"I'm not giving you the option," He said in a cold voice with no emotion in it. I looked up and glared at him.

"You aren't allowed to use magic in the muggle world. What are you gonna do, drag me out naked? That'll look normal." I growled at him then tried to calm myself. I had still made a vow earlier this week to be nice and play nice with Snape. "I don't belong there. I'm not really magical and I almost killed Mathew yesterday just because I got mad. I should just start a new life here in the muggle world and be normal. Forget about Lord Voldemort and Wizards and be a muggle." I dropped my gaze from him.

Snape looked at me and remember that the last week was my first week being a magical creature. Most wizards grew up in the environment and are used to magical things happening. Even if they are muggle born wizards, when they get to Hogwarts as a first year, they get to learn it in a safe environment where people know they are gonna mess up. That they don't have to know how to do everything right the first time. I've been thrown in where I have to know half the things already. Snape looked back out the window and ran his hand through his hair. Then started to walk over the other side of the bed and sat down. I looked up curious.

"But you didn't kill him. You didn't mean to do any harm to the boy. It shouldn't have gone on as long as it did. A professor should have been near by to stop you a lot earlier than I did. Though you look like one of them, you aren't," I felt my heart drop as his words started to sink in, "You never will be, that's why you can't compare yourself to them. You'll need to be better, smarter, and more incontrol. Dumbledore has asked me to be more hands on with you after classes to help you with your magic." His voice had started off kinda sweet but ended on him being told to baby sit me. I couldn't help the smile the spread across my face and I gave a small giggle. He turned his head toward me to see why I was giggling.

"Thank you Snape," I gave him a honest smile and he just glared at me as he stood in his bat like manner and walked to the window.

"Get dressed so we can get back to school," I stood and let my towel drop. I slowly got dressed in my previous days clothes. I watched as Snape never turned or tried to see me changing. I bet he's really old fashioned. I wonder how he tried to court Lilly. I bet it would be a sight to see. I walked up behind him and wrapped my around around him in a hug.

"Thanks," I smiled into his cloak as I could smell that he smelt smoke. Not like cigarette smoke but like food smoke. He almost smelt good enough to eat. I felt his body stiffen when I hugged him and I didn't my best not to laugh. Not letting me touch him too long he pulled away from me and walked toward the fireplace. Though he wore a mask, I wondered what he was really thinking. He waited for to join him and slowly I did. He chose the destination and soon we were back at Hogwarts. Snape walked out and headed off. I stood there not knowing what to do but soon followed his steps.

"What should I do?" It was annoying to try and keep up with his strides but not impossible. I was about to say something else when Snape suddenly turn around and pulled me into him and he shoved us into a closet. Uh what? I didn't know what was happening but all I did know was I was alone in a dark closet with Severus Snape. I could feel my face turn different shades of red. "Sn-Snape?" He cover my mouth as we heard a few student pass the door.

After he was sure they were gone he let go of my mouth, "You aren't wearing your ring," was all he said as he left the closet. Leaving me alone with nothing but my naughty thoughts. You were expecting a making out session you dirty perv! Oh god my mind is talking to me I'm going bonkers. I reached into my pocket to put my ring back on and calmed myself before leaving.

As I walked out I found a pair of ginger twins stare back at me. "Oh, um Hi." I looked away my face once more returning to a pink like color.

"You're coming with us!" They said together as they both looped an arm around my waist and took me to places unknown.

I found myself and the twins in one of the high towers that looked over Hogwarts. "We like to come up here to hide from classes. It's pretty nice uh?" I think George asked me as they both found their own spots. The place had candy and snacks everywhere. I think I know where I'm sneaking off to now.

"Yea, I like it," I leaned out the window a bit watched everything.

"So what happened yesterday?" The other twin, Fred, asked. He had opened a bag of the every flavor bean thing and waited for my response. I could feel my face drop as I watched a few birds fly by. I thought hard, deciding how the best to explain what happened.

"I got mad and I wasn't able to control the flow of magic that goes through me, and well you know the rest. I feel really bad. Does the whole school hate me?" I looked back at the boys waiting for them to tell me I was the most hated student at Hogwarts.

"Nah everyone thinks you're frickin' awesome!" Fred said with a grin as George ate a bad bean. "Matthew was taken to the nurse but he's fine. Everyone thinks you're awesome for standing of to that dick. You have a lot of admires now," He teased me as it was his turn to eat a bean. I groaned and looked back out the window. Thats all I needed for everyone to want to be my friend. Oi why did I get thrown into this place. I sighed as I saw Snape walk across the hallway parallel to where I was, but he was soon gone with his large strides.

"Earth to Tamara, you alive in there?" One of them called as I let a small smile crawl its way onto my lips.

"I don't know yet. All I know is that I'm existing here."

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