Izaya lay on his back as he stared up at the dark corners of her bedroom. When he was alone he had time to think about things and it scared him a little. It wasn't that he hadn't had time to think before; it was just that before he would think about what he was going to do that day to entertain himself. Now, he had time to rethink things, and most of the time his thoughts drifted around until they came to Amaya. He thought about the past, her past with him, and the parts of her past he knew nothing about.

"Where have you been?" Shiki had demanded from the nineteen year old girl who merely shrugged silently, "Orihara-san do you know where she was?"

"I found her walking down the street in Shinjuku by chance." Izaya scoffed at the lie but to Shiki it had seemed he was scoffing at the irony.

"Is this true Amaya-mei?" Shiki asked and she nodded.

"She isn't the same." Akabayashi noted and her eyes drifted over to him.

"I don't know what happened to her but she…" Izaya shook his head. He had wanted to tell them the truth right then. Amaya had been staying with him the last three months and she refused to talk about the three months before that. He wanted to tell them that she had been on the brink of death when she had stumbled through his door, he wanted to tell them that there were scars on parts her body that only he had ever seen but, he hadn't said any of that, "… she sure is quieter than before."

Amaya looked up at Shiki and spoke. She had hardly spoken to Izaya in those three months but then again she had done nothing but sleep and eat the first month.

"I'm sorry jisan," she said and even Izaya could hear and remember the sincerity in her voice, "I'll never run away again."

"Promise?" Something in Shiki's usually hard exterior crumbled at the sound of her voice. Izaya remembered realizing how much Shiki really cared for Amaya. He loved his niece like she was his own daughter. He treated her enough like she was his daughter, so it made since that the old gangster had come to think of her as the real thing.

"I promise," she said to him with the first smile Izaya had seen grace her face in six months, "I'll never, ever, do that again."

"Miss me while I was at work?" The angel from that nightmare leaned over him and he noticed that her long hair had a colored streak in it.

"What's with the change in appearance?" he asked her and she flopped onto his chest and he grunted even though she weighed no more than a bar of soap.

"Don't even give me that crap, I didn't hurt you." She said curling up to seek out the warmth of his body, "I like the color red."

"That's auburn." Izaya said to her with a smile, "It's the same color as my eyes."

"I love the color of your eyes." She said to him with a smile, "But black and red have always been my favorites and its red not auburn, it just looks auburn 'cause the room is so dark."

"Okay, whatever you say." He said putting an arm around her as he realized she was cold. It was strange how she was always so cold even when it was summer and ninety degrees outside. They sat there silently for a while and Izaya remembered the times he had held her like this before. It was usually during the winter time when she curled up in his arms like this. She loathed cuddling but when she was cold, like she was now, she would let Izaya hold her.

"Why are you so quiet?" Amaya asked him and then dug her cold nose into his chest.

"I'm tired." He lied to her. Honestly he just wanted to enjoy the moment and he knew talking would ruin it. They always argued, although he liked arguing with her. Neither of them wanted to give in and let the other win, they would argue until they forgot what they were yelling about.

"What are you so tired for?" she asked him with a chuckle, "You don't do much here?"

"I worked out for… I don't know I lost track of time." He said honestly and she giggled as she moved and snuggled up to his neck.

"I can tell, you smell like a hot, sweaty, man…" she purred into his ear and then nibbled his earlobe. Izaya smirked as he slid his hand under her shirt. Their lips connected in a hot lustful kiss. Izaya broke their kiss to pull her shirt over her head. She did the same to him and then he unclipped her bra in the back.

"I need to take a shower…" Izaya whispered in her ear and she stiffened against his body like he had just said something terrifying to her.

"No." Her voice was loud and serious. It brought Izaya's thoughts back to when she had come to his apartment when she was nineteen. She hadn't let him touch her for nearly three more months after she went back to live with Shiki. There were things they had done before that she wouldn't let him do now, like sex in the shower. It was obvious to Izaya what had happened to her and it angered him to no end that someone would touch his precious human like that. He wanted to find them and watch them suffer a horrid and terrible agony before he finally allowed them to die. No one touched her. No one. No one but him.

"Okay." Izaya said lying back as she straddled him and then she smirked and leaned forward. The rest of their clothes joined their shirts that were tossed carelessly to the ground. The pleasure Izaya was feeling was the only thing that poured through his mind. They ways she was touching him and the ways he was touching her. He wouldn't deny that he cared for her and worried about her when she stayed out later than normal but he didn't love her. He couldn't love her. Feeling love for an individual was impossible. Lust, however, was a whole other world.

"I-Izaya…" she moaned softly as her back arched into his body now that he was on top of her, "… uhhh… don't stop…" he gleefully complied to her mewled request until she finally climaxed, long after he had.

Shiki faxed more work over to his niece as he thought over what he had recently learned about her. She had cared for Orihara Izaya but he still didn't know just how much or if they had been friends or maybe even more. He feared that if she learned where Izaya was hiding that she would hide with him and Shiki didn't think he could handle losing her again.

He had been worried sick about her when she had run away. He still didn't know what had happened to her but she wasn't the same when she came back. She had always been talkative, cheery, and she would snap. It was kind of like Heiwajima Shizuo snapping when she would – she just wasn't as strong of course. Sure she was thin, short, and gentle but, if you made her angry to the point of her snapping she would beat you relentlessly. Akabayashi and Aozaki were the ones that had taught her to fight and so they were the only ones that could stop her. Her body just moved on its own when she was angry and whoever was the object of her angry would either run like hell or get the crap beaten out of them.

Shiki couldn't remember the last time he had seen her talkative, cheery, or the last time he had heard of her snapping. Something happened to her but he didn't know what and neither had Izaya. If she cared so much about Izaya how was it that she didn't tell him what happened to her? Maybe Izaya lied to him about not knowing but Shiki guessed he'd never know.

He thought about the few times he saw the two of them together and it made since that they had been more than acquaintances. They argued like some married couple and at times even fought but Izaya never did hurt her. He probably hadn't even known they were being watched but Shiki eventually trusted Izaya with his niece. She was the only thing he ever trusted Izaya with. Maybe that had been a bad idea, to let Izaya and Amaya become friends. Shiki didn't think she would be interested in him since she had never been interested in men before.

That tone in her voice and that look on her face had told Shiki that she and Izaya may have been closer than friends. She was hurt by Izaya's disappearance and Shiki hoped that Heiwajima could take that pain away from his niece. They had gone out on four or five more dates since their second one – according to Shiki's contacts that was – and they both got along. It didn't surprise Shiki, of course, Amaya had a personality that just drew people in, or at least that's how it had been before she ran away.

"Shiki-san…" once again Shiki's thought were pulled away from his family and back to work.

Izaya's eyes opened when he heard her whines of distress. She was having another nightmare but she wasn't tossing and turning just yet. Izaya could hear her fax machine faxing something but he didn't feel like waking her. She was always so worn out and tired. Unlike Izaya she was all work and no play; she needed the break sleep gave her.

"No…" she whimpered and then clawed the air where no one was, "… leave me alone!"

"Shh." Izaya hushed her as he rolled over and began to stroke her cheek, "It's okay, Izaya is here, I'm not going to let anything happen."

"Muhh…" she whimpered but Izaya could tell she was calming down. He pulled her close and whispered calming things into her ear until she was sleeping silently in his arms. Izaya felt annoyed with himself for caring so much about her. It made him feel so human to actually feel attached to her. She was of little use to him, other than sex of course, but she never fit into any of his plans. She had been the one to offer that he stay with her rather than running off to some strange place which made her a very small part of his latest plan.

He wondered if it was because she would worry about him but he kicked himself for thinking that. Izaya told himself he shouldn't care about what she thought of him. He thought of her as a friend and she thought of him as a friend. That was all there was. She cared for him as much as he cared for her, nothing more nothing less.

Izaya rolled his eyes at himself and closed his eyes. Sleep took over him within minutes.

Ladybug's Ramble: Yeah this a bit of a filler but it does give you a bit of Izaya's POV of Amaya. I gave you guys a we bit of smut! I hope your happy...? I sure do wish I had some reviews for the last chapter... )= I would've answered some of them on here... I guess I'll just wait for your reviews on this chapter... (YES! I am subtly/ not so subtly begging for reviews once again!) Oh and self-promo time once again! Entertain Me has a new chapter up and now I have two reviews on that one (I'm so thrilled inside!) Anamithim Twins is getting a smutty chapter soon, it's OCxIzaya btw. Now for what you've all been waiting for...! Ladybug out~!