Ch 4 I Turn To You As A Place To Rest My Heart

No matter how many times you break my heart I can still love you with all the little pieces

I'd rather have a broken heart because that means I can love you more with all the little pieces

To the world you are one person, to one person you are the world

"You what?" I asked questioningly.

"I broke up with Toby" Emily said sadly.

"May I ask why?" I said looking down at her with wondering eyes.

"I think I am a lesbian" she said looking at me.

I did not know what to say, all I could do was stare at her. She looked confused, relieved, but most of all she looked scared. For me this was a dream come true, the girl of my imaginings said that she may be a lesbian meaning that I have a chance to be with her. She though looked liked she had just stepped out of a nightmare.

"Why do you think that" I finally chocked out.

"I have feelings for a girl" she sat up and was looking at me with her deep coffee eyes.

"Oh who?" I said praying that it was me.

She stared at me without blinking. I reached my hand out and grabbed hers, she looked down and put her other hand on top of it. I smile smirk snuck across my face as I looked down. When I went to meet her eyes I noticed that her face was ever so slightly closer to mine.

She pulled her hand away and slowly brought it to my cheek she looked down to my lips and then back to my eyes. Her eyes were screaming in terror as she slowly began to move her face my heart was beating a million beats a minute as it slowly began working its way in to my throat. I swallowed to push it back down. As her face was only centimetres away from me I put my hand on her hip. Than it happened...

Her lush lips pressed against me ever so softly, her hand gently pulled me closer making the kiss just a little bit deeper I inch my way closer to her but she pulls away.

As she pulls away I look at her, her lips are slightly apart just as they were when she kissed me, her eyes are still closed. She is breathing heavily, with ever breathe her chest rises and lowers, her hands are in her lap holding each other. I try to speak but nothing comes up.

She opens her eyes and is shocked with what she just did.

"Oh my god I am so sorry" she said covering her mouth.

All I could do was smile. "So it's me that you have feelings for"

She nodded.

"When did this begin?" I asked but truthfully I did not care at all, all I wanted to do was kiss her again... and again.

"A very long time ago" she said "Are you scared of me now"

"What! No god no... In fact I have been in love with you for as long as I can remember"

"You what?"

I did not bother saying it for a second time but instead I leaned over and kissed her once again. Her lips were incredibly soft and smooth. I placed my hands on her cheeks she placed hers on my hips pulling me ever so closer to her.

She pulls away from me and takes my hand "Can we go to your room?" she asks.

Instead of answering her question I just kissed her which she took as a yes considering she got up and took my hand. She kissed me until we reached the stairs. From there I took her hand and lead her up the stairs to my bed room.

I sat on my bed; she stood by the door nervously. I smiled at her and she walked towards me, I pulled her closer. I began kissing her neck her knees buckled until she was straddling my hips; I had a tingly feeling between my legs. As Emily got up to allow me to move up on my bed so my head was on my pillows. The second I laid down she was straddling my legs once again.

We kiss we tongue slides over my lips asking for permission which I without difficulty grant, our tongues battle for a short period before I gladly give in. Our hands explore each other's body as if it was completely foreign territory to one another.

My hands finally land on Emily's hips with my fingers placed gently on her perfectly rounded bottom. She smiled through our kiss when they landed there, her hands slid down my body until they were at the end of my shirt. She gradually began moving her hands underneath my shirt they stopped on top of my stomach muscles.

"Wait wait" I said pushing through our kisses.

"What's wrong?"

"I just... I am not ready for this to happen" I said regretting it right away "It's just all so fast"

"Oh okay is that all" she said surprising me "If you're not ready we can just kiss we don't need to go that far right now"

"Are you sure?"

"Yes I am positive but do you mind if I spend the night anyways" she said hopingly.

"Absolutely" I said happily.

We spent twenty more minutes kissing until she turned around and wrapped my arms around her, within minutes she was fast asleep. I had to pinch myself to make sure that this was not a dream. It wasn't... it was better.