AN: heey!! Sorry I haven't posted ANYTHING in a loong time!!!XDXDXD but I've recently been listening to the AATC new CD Undeniable and I LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It inspired me to write another chapter…idk why.…it just did XDXD

Disclaimer: Alvin and the Chipmunks © Ross Bagdasarian, Jr.

The Chipettes © Janice Karmen

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Dear Diary: Is This Love?

Ch. 4 : No Good

November 7th, 2008

Dear Diary,

I'm SOOOOOO SORRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I haven't written anything in like….a month and a half!!!!!!!!! (gash I've been tooo lazy!!!)

I haven't written anything cause barley anything has happened!!!!!!!!! Hahahahaha I'm sooo lying (muh couldn't help it).

As you can tell I am insanely hyper.

Okay so we left off with Theodore (Heart) catching me in art class (ahhh what a beautiful day that was). Okay so in art class the next day I couldn't stop staring at him, I had to force my self to pay attention to my watercolours! We were working on our first watercolours and mine was of two horses eating grass….it was a pretty lame picture, I started getting bored with it about a third through the period. It sucked , they were just two stupid horses eating grass. Ugg. Anyway about halfway through the period Theodore turned around hesitantly and gazed at my painting for a few minuets. He finally looked up at me. Though I was watching him from the corner of my eye.

"um Eleanor, that's really good" he said. He seemed nervous to me…but his voice was totally mellow. I brushed the thought away. I was probably over thinking it anyway. I always over think Theodore's actions. I make them seem like he likes me, gash I'm soo stupid. At this rate I'll get my hopes up and if he…whoops and when he doesn't like me I'll be totally crushed. It's like in science class (I hate science class) I'm always day dreaming of weird things, like I'm flying in some forest or something .

Yep. I'm THAT weird.

ANYWAY, I seriously have to stop blabbing too. I should make a list. I smiled the best I could at Theodore.

"thanks! May I see yours?" I asked politely. Crap what if he thinks I'm some polite snobby person. Gawd!

He just smiled back and turned around.

"sure! Here" he turned back around with his painting and showed me. My face fell. IT WAS REALLY GOOD!!!!! Nooo!!! Why did he have to be such a good painter????????? I'm supposed to be the better artist as I have previously explained…..

Unfortunately I couldn't hide my disappointment. I felt my face twitch and fall a bit. Theodore suddenly raised his eyebrows at my reaction.

"uhhh…is something wrong?" he asked hesitantly. I quickly regained my composure cursing myself in my head for my carless mistake.

"no! it's really good!" I said truthfully. His shoulders dropped and he looked at me funny.

"if you don't like it you can just say so" he said, he totally wasn't bying my act. Though it really was good. I bit my lip. He smiled crookedly.

"I knew you didn't like it" he said jokingly. I blushed. GAWD!! I totally melt when he smiled those crooked smiles!!! (melts).

"no no no!! it's really good! …it's just…better than mine" I said pouting slightly. Theodore cocked his head.

"really? You think so?" he asked, surprised. I nodded. He smiled at his unfinished painting. But then his brows furrowed in confusion. He looked back up at me.

"wait, why do you care if mines better then yours?" he asked. I was taken aback and jumped slightly in my seat. Crap could he really tell??? I smiled nervously trying to cover up my surprise… which only an idiot could have not noticed.

"what? I don't care!! I mean sure I care if you're a good painter! Well not because I want you to be...I mean so you get good marks and stuff, not that I want you to have good marks, wait I mean!-…" I started, totally blabbing my head off. Man! This was soo embarrassing! My face was heating up rapidly and I probably looked like a tomato. Theodore put his hand to his mouth and held back a laugh. He was laughing at me!!!!! How stupid could one person be??? I felt like a complete dork with him sitting there laughing at my idiocy. I sunk in my seat and bit my lip so I'd stop talking. Theodore took in a deep breath and put his painting back on his desk. He smiled at me.

"wow, you're a dork, but it's cute right?" he said to me smiling then turned around and took his paintbrush and started painting. I stared at his back. My blush getting so much deeper. I might as well have just been a tomato. A smile crept up on my lips and I held back a scream of happiness.

HE SAID I WAS CUUUUUUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dude.

You know life's good when your crush calls you cute

YAYAYAYAYAYAAAAYY!!!! CUTE CUTE CUTE CUTE HE SAID I WAS CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was super happy alll for the rest of the day! I walked home with my sisters and they chatted about something, I just blasted my ipod and smiled like a complete idiot. When we got home Ms. Miller asked if I was alright. I responded with:

"I feel like baking a cake today"

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Ms. Miller totally thought I was mental I bet. I dragged my backpack upstairs with Ms. Miller looking at me strangely. My sisters followed giving each other confused looks. When we got to our room I set up my books on my bed and lay on my stomach to begin my homework. I kicked my legs in the air and the smile was still plastered on my face. I could feel my sisters gazes on me. Brittany sighed and stomped her foot.

"okay seriously what's wrong with you? You look like you just got back from teletubby super island adventure! What's up??? I'm dying here!" Brittany said dramatically waving her arms in the air.

"ya…I don't know if I should be worried or happy for you" Jeanette said, she was taking out her homework and placing it on her bed. I looked over at them.

"okay one: the teletubbies are soo gay, and i only whatched them ONCE, and two: you'll never guess!! Theodore called me cute today!!!" I gushed, forgetting my homework and sitting up on my knees. Brittany's eyes widened and a grin spread across her face from ear to ear.

"oh my gosh Ellie!!! Congratulations!!! This is really good!!" Brittany squealed running over and giving me a big hug. Jeanette didn't say anything.

I laughed and returned the hug. Brittany shoved my homework off my bed and made room for herself.

"okay seriously tell me girl! Tell me everything!" she said leaning closer to me, her eyes were all sparkly and excited. I was happy that she was so excited, Brittany usually cared about herself. It was nice she was paying attention to me. Not that she never did, just not this much.

"okay well he complemented my art, then I asked to see his, and Brit it was soo good! Better than mine and I got super disappointed right? Well he noticed it and asked why I was disappointed and-…" I began but Brittany suddenly cut me off.

"wait you were disappointed? Why?" she asked. I bit my lip and looked up and the ceiling.

"well…I kind of always want to be the best in art class….and I got really jealous that his was better than mine…I like the praise when people are amazed that I got the highest mark, then I get awards and stuff……" I said quickly. Brittany stared at me.

"wow…..your super well….like me…." she said, her eyes wide.

Oh?

So she knew she was greedy, egotistical, selfish, self absorbed, shallow, and an attention hog?

Not that I was any of those things…except maybe the attention hog, only when it comes to art though….

"jeez Brit not exactly like you…your more…well…" I said waving my hand to try and find a word to sum her all up. She glared at me.

"more what?" she urged, a hint of anger in her voice. I smiled quickly figuring where this was going.

"oh uh nothing! Your nothing! I mean well your not nothing, but your not something bad. I'm not saying you aren't anything bad, I mean like you might be something bad or you might not be. Wait uh I didn't say you are a…well like you might me…uhh"I said looking around nervously. Brittany rose an eyebrow.

"you talk a lot, dork, just finish your story" she said waving her hand. I sighed. I really do blab a lot.

It's like those people who talk really fast when they get nervous and keep talking and talking and your left wondering two things:

- if they said it all in one breath

- and how to shut them up

My old 7th grade science teacher was like that. His name was Mr. Milner and he was obsessed with his two daughters and he never stopped gloating about them. He'd be all like:

"hey my daughter Paige is going into kindergarten right? But she's soooo smart she'll probably be too bored, that's why I'm trying to get her principal to let her skip a grade and start grade 1!"

I mean really? Who cares? And is kindergarten even considered a grade? Nobody cares if your daughter skipped kindergarten! It's JUST kindergarten. Idiot. Also he'd tell us things like how his daughter saved up her money and bought a stuffed rabbit to give to the firefighters charity they were running. I mean sure that's cute and all, but do we really need to know that?

He also likes ultimate Frisbee and would sometimes randomly take us outside to play it. He even showed us a video on it's rules…But I guess it paid off because I'm the co-caption of my high school's ultimate Frisbee team. I gotta give him props for that.

OH MY GAWD!! I just wasted three pages of my diary talking about that stupid science teacher!!( the pages are quite small and my writing is quite big…) Okay I'm focussing on the MAIN story here!!!

" okay so yeah, he noticed and he asked me why I was disappointed and I told him it was because his was better than mine, and he was all like "why do you care if I'm good or not?" and I started um….blabbing I guess and he started laughing at me, then he said " wow, you're a dork, But it's cute right?" !!!"" I said re-enacting his words with a little bit more love intended. Brittany squealed.

"wow that's really good!!! Keep up the blabbing sista!!" she said hugging me again. I laughed, gushing with happiness. Then suddenly I realised Jeanette hadn't said a word. I broke me and Brittany's hug and looked over at Jeanette, Brittany followed my actions.

"hey…Jeanette what's wrong?" I asked, her head was facing away slightly. Brittany huffed and put her hands on her hips.

"yeah! You haven't said a word when something highly rare has happened to our younger sister!" Brittany snapped. I glared at her.

"hey! It's not THAT rare" I hissed coldly. Brittany just ignored me. Jeanette looked over at us and bit her lip.

"it's just, I don't want to be mean but…..I just…I don't think Theodore is right for you" Jeanette said quietly, and saying the last part quickly. I stared at her and a chill ran up my spine. A lump rose in my throat and it felt like my heart just dropped. Why? Why didn't she like Theodore? He was the nicest most honest person I knew, besides herself of course. There wasn't anything in the world that could have been wrong with him. Why didn't my sister believe that? You would've thought that all of my gushing over him and how times I've told them I admired him, she would've understood saying something like that to me would hurt.

I mean she even congratulated me before, and tried to help me get close to him!! What in the world could have made her think there was anything wrong with him!? I thought she had already approved of him!! I mean she liked his brother Simon! She and Simon hung out all the time, she must've been around Theodore too!

I felt tears rise up in my eyes. Brittany's mouth dropped open.

"what the heck!!? Why the hell would you say that Jeanette!? You know how much Ellie likes Theodore!!" Brittany snapped, she was glaring daggers at Jeanette. Jeanette flinched and blushed nervously. She started playing with the hem of her skirt nervously, like she was hiding something. Brittany's widened.

"wait….you don't….LIKE Theodore do you Jeanette?" Brittany asked slowly. My head snapped up and my mind went numb. What? Did Jeanette like Theodore…is that why she said he was no good for me??? Because SHE wanted him??? The tears overflowed now and I let out a big sob. Brittany quickly looked over at me and rubbed my shoulders. She glared back at Jeanette. Jeanette's eyes were wide and looked over at Brittany, a little frightened I suppose, I didn't see very well through my tears. Why would Jeanette do that?

"No! it's not-…" Jeanette started but Brittany overtook her.

"what's wrong with you Jeanette?? You want to take Theodore away from Ellie? Your little sister?? Is that it?" Brittany yelled coldly. Jeanette huffed and glared straight back, losing all sense of her nervousness before.

"Brittany stop yelling! What your saying is totally ridiculous! I do NOT like Theodore! I was only saying he was no good because of what I overheard him saying to his brothers today at lunch!" Jeanette hissed. She sounded more mean then I've ever heard her sound before. I looked up at her, relief flushing through my veins when she said she didn't like him. But wait…what did he say to his brothers?

"what? You don't like him?….oh uhh…..oh gosh I'm sorry Jeanette! I just…well" Brittany spluttered, probably feeling guilty over her yelling at her younger sister. Jeanette smiled warmly.

"it's alright you jumped to conclusions, you usually do so I'm used to it" Jeanette said sighing. Brittany's shouders dropped in relief and she sighed as well.

"I didn't mean any offense but I just don't like Theodore, I mean I thought you girls new I liked Simon" Jeanette said cocking her head and looking over at me. I wiped away my tears and looked down at my hands. My head was swarming with questions. What did Theodore say to his brothers? Was it bad? Was it good? Why did it make him no good? Gawsh! This is driving me CRAZY!!

"well hun that's obvious, it's just the way your were acting I guess it just seemed like it" Brittany said shrugging. Jeanette nodded.

"just tell me…what did Theodore say?" I asked quietly, but loud enough for Jeanette (who was across the room) to hear me. Jeanette frowned.

"well… I was walking down the stairway and I saw Theodore with his brothers. I wanted to say hello to Simon so I made my way over…but then Theodore said something and I stopped and walked away." Jeanette explained. I nodded urging her on.

"well… you know your friend Hannah? The one who makes her own clothes and she wears glasses?" Jeanette asked me. I nodded and Brittany snorted.

"yeah you mean the girl with the wacko sense of fashion? I mean really she thinks those outfits look good? She looks like a hippie! She should dress more like me!" Brittany scoffed. I glared at her.

"Brittany! She's my friend and her clothes are awesome! I think it's beautiful that she can dress whatever way she wants and not care what other people think! Unlike some red-headed sisters I know!" I said coldly. No one makes fun of my friends and gets away with it! I turned back to Jeanette who looked annoyed by the interruption. Brittany just sighed and flipped her red hair off of her shoulders, today she wore it down. it was odd because she usually wore it in a high ponytail that bobbed when ever she walked. like how my pigtails bobbed when i walked.

"anyway, well…I heard him say that….Hannah….smelled and wore weird clothes!!" Jeanette said quickly. I felt my heart drop again. What? Theodore…said that? No way! Theodore wouldn't say that! I mean he's Theodore!! He's kind and nice and cute and smart and funny and NOT mean! I think I had started hyperventilating by now. I crunched my hands into fists against my bed. Jeanette looked at me sadly and Brittany's mouth dropped again.

After a few minuets of silence I shook my head.

"no way! Theodore wouldn't say that! The Theodore I know wouldn't say that! Theodore's nice and sweet and perfect! No way would he ever say that!" I wanted to scream it but then Ms. Miller would have to come upstairs and investigate. Jeanette bit her lip.

"I swear I'm telling the truth…he said it to his brothers, but I ran away too quickly to hear their reaction." Jeanette said slowly. Brittany was still mute. I shook my head faster, tears spilling out once more. I felt crushed! But it had to be lie! It had to be!

"no! no! no! no! NO!" I said getting louder with each 'no'. Jeanette winced and her shoulders drooped.

"maybe…maybe you only think he's perfect and wouldn't say that because you like him so much….I don't know…" Jeanette said. I bit my lip so loud sobs wouldn't spill from my lips. I just sat there hyperventilating and crying.

No way.

Theodore would never do that.

Not to one of my friends.

Did he know she was my friend?

He still wouldn't say that.

No way.

It's a lie

A lie.

It' just a stupid lie.

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But when has Jeanette ever lied to me?

Whoops! I have to stop explaining whats happened these past month and a half! It's 1:00!! I have school tomorrow!! Dammit! I'll explain the rest tomorrow! Heey I've just left this entry at a cliffhanger!! Hee hee awesome. Well to bad so sad…wait why am I saying this…it's not like anyones reading this…..right?

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Right?

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AN: hee hee!! Of course no ones reading your diary Ellie!! (grins evilly). Anyway I thought if I finished the story the chapter would be too insanely long, so I'm saving it for the next chapter!! XDXDXD I'm sooo hyper!! I just finished whatching up to episode 7 of Ouran High School Host Club (the English Version). Kyyyaa!! Hikaru and Kaoru's voices are so hot!!! For you people who don't know what this show is WHATCH IT!!!! SERIOUSLY!! YOU'LL DIE LAUGHING EVERY EPISODE!!!! XDXDXD it's really awesome, watch it on you tube :P

Eleanor: what!! How could you B!! you posted my Diary on the INTERNET!!!! Whyyyyyyy!!! Now Theodore will find it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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