Edward: A lot has happened since I have written last, Levi is 8 today, and I really can't believe how fast time goes. Every time I write in here I look back and read what I have said before. It's crazy looking back.
Levi is so sweet; he tells me every day that he will never get too big to love me. Our boy is extremely smart! He is top in his class, and not only is he book smart but he knows what to say and when to say it.
Anyways, I would like to let you know that I am dating someone. His name is Jason; we have been together for about 5 months now. He his bring his brother to Levi's party, his name is Jasper. I feel bad for Jason, I feel as if I can't let him in because you are still such a big part of who I am. –Bella.
"Happy Birthday, baby!" I said as I kissed Levi's cheek.
"Thanks Mom" Now what 8 year old boy would let his mom kiss him in front of his friends? That's right, my boy.
As the kids ran around, I felt someone come up behind me and snake their arm around my waist.
"Hey Jason" I said giving him a kiss.
"You having fun, babe?" I nodded at him. He is really nice guy, and I keep waiting for my feels to turn as strong as they were for Edward, but it just isn't happening.
"I'm just standing here thinking" he laughed and smiled really big.
"Don't hurt yourself, honey" Jason is what you could call the prefect guy, he is sweet, funny, and loves Levi. Jason's face then went humorless. "You're thinking about Levi's dad aren't you?" That's Jason's one fault, when it comes to me; he always knows what I am thinking.
"Jason, how can I know be thinking about him today." He looked down at me and I see something I have only see a few times before. Jason is mad.
"I will tell you how" he said rather loudly, some people to look over, and then hushed down "you could be think about me, you could be thinking about how happy we are together, and we can forget him. I could be his dad"
Jason doesn't get it; he doesn't know how strongly I feel about Edward. Yes I love Jason, but not like Edward. It's like, Edward is the one I want the one that I think about before I close my eyes, and as soon as I open them I want to see him. Edward is everything I can't have.
Jason is safe; I know that he would never hurt me. He loves me and my son. Knowing this make me feel happy, because it means that someone is capable of loving us. When you are left like I am, know that someone cares is the best feeling someone can give you. Yes I love Jason, but the simple fact is that I am not in love with Jason.
My heart belongs to the father of my son, it always has, and it always will.
I look up at Jason and he was waiting for me to say something.
"I don't wanna talk about this here, is your brother here?" I asked changing the subject
He rolled his eyes but looked around, "Yeah, he is right over there, his wife couldn't come, and she has a lot of work to do or something. He said her brother is getting married next year, and she is going nuts. He said something about she hates the bride."
"Oh, well I am going to say hello." He just walked away. I went to find Levi so he could tell him hello.
Jason's brother, Jasper has talk, blond hair and blue eyes. "Hello, I am Bella, and this is Levi." I smiled at him. But Jasper just stared at Levi.
"Ohhh my god" he said still staring at my son, I moved Levi where he was kind of behind me. That when Jasper looked at me.
"Oh, I am so sorry; it's just that your son looks A LOT like my brother in-law. I swear if I didn't know any better I would say, he was Edwards."
OH MY GOSH.