Clueless

Chapter Four

I was really looking forward to seeing Sonic. Every time I'm around him, life always seems to be happier. He has such a lively glow that would make any depressed person smile. I feel so fortunate to be his best friend. The person he turns to, the person he confides in (I hope). I tidied the bedroom a bit because I was starting to get behind in tidying. I even did my hair properly. It makes me laugh at how much effort I put in when he comes over. It's like an imaginary date for me. I bet he would be so freaked out if he knew what I was thinking.

But my happy thoughts were taken over by the memories having a desperate kiss with Knuckles. It was so embarrassing thinking about it. Very shameful! I didn't even know if I liked him like that. My feelings were very strong for Sonic.

Speaking of Sonic, the door knocked. I ran downstairs. My parents were out and Amy was over at a friend's. So the whole house was to us.

"Shadow, you ass, hurry up and open the door!" I laughed and swung it open. I pretended to punch him in the stomach. He played along and tried to swing one back. We soon ended up play fighting in the hallway. Sonic won by shoving me against the wall, with my arms pinned against it. Damn he is strong! I noticed how close we were standing near each other. I imagined that he would pull me into a passionate kiss that would send us into bed. But instead of that fantasy he stood back and laughed at me. Oblivious as always about how I felt.

"Wow, Shadow you're getting weaker by the day." I grumbled as I walked into the kitchen. I could hear him follow me.

"So, what could we do today?" Sonic asked. I took orange juice out of the kitchen and poured two glasses.

"We could just stay and play video games." I suggested. He shrugged.

"Sure why not?" I gave him a glass of juice, as it was still early in the morning. Sonic stared at the orange juice. Normally, he can't afford proper orange juice so he would savour it. It made me feel sad so I just walked into the living room and turned on the TV and games console. Seconds later, Sonic walked in. I could hear him sit down on the sofa behind me.

I threw a game controller at him, he caught it swiftly.

"Thanks. Man, I wish I could play at home." He said, pouting. I knew he was joking but I could a hint of sadness and shame in his voice.

"At least you can focus on your homework."
"I never focus on my homework." I laughed and started the game. We played Call of Duty and Saint's Row for the next three hours. Even though, Sonic didn't have a games console at his house, he was really good at playing it. He seemed to be good in everything.

We soon got bored and stopped playing.

"What do you want to do now?" I asked him. He shrugged and watched the TV.

"Let's just go out." We grabbed our coats and went for a walk. I live in a rather good area, with loads of parks and fields. I was starting to feel more fortunate for the area I lived in.

"How's Tikal?' Sonic asked.

"We're good."

"What is she like?" Oh no.

"Sonic, I haven't done any of that yet. Unlike some people we're taking it slow." It was becoming easier to lie to him, because he believes every word I say. I wonder how Sally is keeping my feelings a secret from him?

"Not even a blowjob?" I shook my head laughing at his stupidity.

"Honestly Sonic how long did you wait before jumping into bed with Sally?" He thought about it.

"I think one month of dating. She was asking me for ages that she was ready. That's all she ever asks for. But hey, I still lov…" I interrupted that sentence for the second time.

"Is it raining?" Sonic looked up at the sky. It wasn't raining at all and he still looked up, so gullible. How can anyone take this guy seriously? He is such a joker. He realised and then punched me in the shoulder, laughing. God, when I'm with him, I realise how much I want him to be mine.

Two hours later, Sonic left. I wanted to drive him back. But he said he was going to Sally's. So I didn't ask anymore. I wonder what they do? Was Sonic right about Sally always wanting sex? I guess he was. He looked like he was getting sick of it. Just then, the phone started to ring on my bed. I answered it.

"Hello?"

"You haven't answered any of my calls and texts today." I sighed.

"You didn't call me yesterday."
"Sorry, didn't know you were waiting for me."

"Don't make me sound like a lovesick puppy!"

"Didn't say you were." I was happy to hear Knuckles' voice again. I was starting to get worried that he was avoiding me.

"Knuckles, about that kiss yesterday."
"What about it?"

"I'm sorry for being desperate. I had a lot on my mind."

"Why are you thinking about it? That was yesterday."

"I know. I worry about things." I could hear Knuckles laugh on the other side of the phone.

"You're so cute." There was a pause, "Come over to mine tomorrow."

"What? After school?"

"Yeah, you can say you're visiting Tikal, if you're looking for a excuse to say to your…friend."

"Well…ok." I don't know why I obey his every command and request. I guess I liked seeing him. Funny, I've known for only two days.

"See you then." He hung up before I had the chance. Great.

The next day I picked up Sonic. He looked upset about something. He jumped into the car and slammed the door.

"What's wrong?" Sonic didn't say anything. He looked out of the window and leaned his head against it. "We're not going anywhere until you tell me what's wrong."

"My dad said he'll be back in a month. He's been away for three months now." Sonic finally said. I knew Aleena made that up to buy Jules some time to return. I had a feeling it would be longer than that. I did promise I wouldn't tell him.

"Maybe there's more work for him to do." He sighed in frustration.

"I miss him, Shadow." He mumbled. I reached my hand out to his shoulder and rubbed it gently.

"I know you do. Just don't think about it too much and the month will fly by. You've managed well so far." He nodded. I started the car and headed to school.

"Sonic!" Sally squealed; she ran up to our table where Sonic and I was eating our lunch. "Brilliant news."

"Oh really what?" Sonic asked, cheerfully. He got better when we arrived at school. He can't be sad for long.

"I'm going on vacation to Hawaii!" Sonic's smile dropped.

"Without me?"

"Yeah, it's a family holiday." Sonic was starting to look desperate.

"How long for?"

"A month."

"For fuck's sake." He muttered sharply under his breath, looking back to his lunch. Sally sat beside him.

"What's the matter?"

"Nothing. I'm sure you'll have fun." She kissed him on the cheek and ran off to her friends. Sonic looked at me.

"I can't believe it, everyone's leaving me." He said.

"I haven't left."

"Yeah, but you will soon."
"With who?"

"Tikal?" I acted like I knew what he was referring to. Shit, I forgot that I had a 'girlfriend'.

"Aw, don't worry. You can always come along to one of our dates." I teased. I looked back at Sally who was giggling with her friends. "Is she going to give a goodbye before she leaves?" He shrugged, eating his lunch.

"I don't know. She seems more occupied with her friends."
"That's not cool of her to do that."
"They say girls should put friends before guys." He looked at me and smiled.

"I guess that makes sense."

"True."

After school, I slowly drove to Knuckles and Tikal's apartment. I was nervous and totally dreading it. I didn't want to fuck up with kissing him again, if we ever do. I knocked on the door. Tikal opened the door.

"Hey, Shadow, I didn't call you over."
"I know, your brother called me over." She raised an eyebrow at me.

"So are you guys dating?"

"No!" I defended.

"I know you are. You're starting to blush. Besides Amy told me."

"I'm going to kill that girl."

"She is my friend and we're both helping you out so you should be grateful." She teased. I sighed.

"Can I just come in now?"
"Not until you say that Knuckles and you are dating."
"Ok, fine…we're dating." I didn't mean it. It was just so I could get through. Knuckles stepped beside Tikal, with a huge smile on his face.

"We're dating, huh?" I blushed and took a step back.

"N-No. Tikal made me say it." She giggled. She's evil.

"It's ok, if we are, don't be shy." He teased.

"I've only known you for three days!"

"So, what did you call me for?" I asked him, I was sitting on the sofa drinking coffee. Knuckles paid Tikal to go to her friend's house. Weird. He better not try and lead me to the bedroom.

"I want to talk about our relationship." Knuckles informed me.

"Well, don't expect sex anytime soon because I…"
"No, that's not what I meant. How do you still feel about Sonic?" I sighed and put down the cup.

"I don't know; I still love him. But I wasn't as desperate as I was before. I guess I've just started to get over it."

"Is it maybe because you've got someone else who is interested in you?" He asked. I knew he was referring to himself. I smiled at him.

"A great way to be humble, huh?" I teased.

"But it's true, isn't it?"

"…Maybe." I was just joking with him, of course he was the reason why I have less interest in Sonic. But I still have lots of feelings for Sonic. I can't let them go easily.

Knuckles leaned in to kiss me. I panicked. I didn't want to mess up again. His kisses were gentle and soft. I tend to think what Sonic's kisses were like. No, why am I thinking this when kissing someone else? Knuckles pulled me away.

"You're thinking about him, aren't you?" What? How did he know? He read my mind!

"N-No." I lied. He got up and walked into the kitchen. What the hell was wrong with me? I want to kiss him, but I feel so guilty. What am I feeling guilty for? Sonic doesn't like me, he's straight, end of. Knuckles walked back in.

"I'm sorry." I told him, looking at my lap. I just wanted to leave. I made such a fool of myself.

"You don't need to apologise. Loving a straight guy sucks." He assured. My phone suddenly rang; I gave him an apologetic look before answering it.

"Hello?"

"Where are you?"

"I'm at Tikal's place, Sonic, I told you earlier." I looked at my watch. It was seven at night. By this time, Sonic has probably gotten himself drunk. Stupid kid.

"Aw, I'm so lonely here at home by myself." I could hear him moan in a high-pitched voice. Knuckles raised an eyebrow.

"Sonic, could you stop drinking what you are drinking and go to bed or something, please?"

"Wow, since when were you my mother?" I was getting pissed. I always helped him out when he was in trouble and yet he gets drunk whenever he feels like and takes what I do for granted.

"I'm not coming over."

"…Some friend you are." Something snapped in me. I hung up the phone immediately. I was angry. How dare he speak like that to me? I've cleaned up most of his mess for the past three years!

"You ok?" Knuckles asked. I slowly nodded, "Was he drunk?"

"Yes."

"How often does he get like this?"

"Probably once or twice a week." Knuckles didn't say anymore. He sat down next to me on the sofa.

"I always try to be there for him, but I feel like he takes advantage of it. I sometimes feel like I'm not a true friend to him. I just his nanny."

"Well I'm proud that you told him to leave you alone. You need your own time too and do things you want to do. If you wanted to leave, I would let you. Because that's your decision."

I received a text from Sonic minutes later.

'Why did you hang up? That was rude.'

I ignored the text. He was stupid. I didn't want to talk to him. He's such an asshole sometimes.

'Why are you ignoring me? You angry at me?'

Again I didn't answer to the text. Knuckles looked at me and then turned back to watching TV. Another text arrived two minutes later.

'You know you want to be around me. You can't live without me.'

Why was he talking like this? He has never been so manipulative or mean to me before. He was just taking full advantage of me because he was lonely. I turned off my phone to avoid any other texts from him. Why has he changed so suddenly? He was definitely drunk. But, I couldn't help think that some of the things he said were true. That's how he maybe felt about me.

At ten, Knuckles drove me home. I was so tempted to see what else Sonic had texted me, but I decided to wait. I thanked Knuckles and got out of the car.

"Wait." He called out. I turned around, "What about my kiss?" I sighed and got back in the car. I gave him a quick kiss. But the 'quick' kiss turned into a long, slow, passionate kiss. Out of no-where. Luckily this time I didn't mess up. I didn't think of Sonic. I just thought of Knuckles. When I pulled away, I recognised the achievement I just made. Knuckles smiled.

"I'll call you soon, I want to see you again. Please don't get upset about your friend."

"I won't." I got out of the car and waved as he drove off. I was actually starting to like him, despite meeting three days ago.

When I got to the bedroom, I turned on my phone again. Surprisingly, I didn't receive any more texts from him. He probably realised he was being horrible and stopped. Thank god for that. But I was still mad at him.

I never really questioned if Sonic and I had a strong relationship. We never really fought or argued. We never really had any disagreements. Was that the problem between us? So, when serious things happened, we might not be able to help each other? I shook my head. Of course I could. I've known him for years. I know how he feels about things. He was just being drunk and stupid tonight.

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There goes that chapter. Things will happen soon don't worry.

Still writing LS, don't worry peeps!