Silver and Cold

"I, I came here by day,
but I left here in darkness
and found you, found you on the way.
Now, it is silver and silent.
It is silver and cold.
You in somber resplendence,
I hold...
Your sins into me,
oh, my beautiful one." - AFI

As I heard the words come out of his mouth, my heart bit stopped. No, really. Here he was, telling me how beautiful I seemed while I've been trying to dress up as someone I'm not for him to like me. But it doesn't matter. None of it, he said it. I smiled, the biggest goofiest smile I've given to anyone since last year, when I got my own laptop as a birthday present."Well.. You've been my secret crush since I first saw you, too" I almost choked on my bacon, trying to look away. He picked my plate and fork up, placed them gently on the sink and asked for my hand.
"May I?"

I stood up and followed him outside.
His shiny silver Volvo was on the driveway next to my opaque red 50's truck. I wasn't ashamed of my pick-up, really. It represented me, in every way. It was slow, I was slow. It wasn't the most, greatest good looking out there… I wasn't either. It was short, so am I.
"How about a ride to.. Well anywhere you want?" He asked, still holding my hand and walking me to the Volvo.

"Edward I don't think I can.. You know,, just go have fun right now. Jake's funeral is tomorrow, I think" I stopped walking and let go of him.
Edward narrowed his eyes and looked away. Something was bothering him, I could tell.
And without saying goodbye or even looking at me, he got in his stupid shiny Volvo and took off.

When Charlie got home, it was almost midnight and I was already on my fifth slice of pizza and second can. How could he? Revealing his feelings in my face then taking off just as easy? I loved him, I feel like I do so much, but his rudeness turn everything off. Twenty minutes after being blown off and still standing on the drizzling rain, I ran in and ordered pizza. What is it about food that made me feel a tiny better and with some manly courage?

"Bells? You still up?" Charlie knocked softly on my door.
I fixed myself and replied "Yes, just taking a little time before.. Tomorrow"
He walked in without asking, and sat next to me on my bed. He sucked at showing his support, but dad was dad and I thanked him for even trying.
He hugged me for a while, and left quietly.
I put the pizza box aside and got under my covers right after, tired of everything lately.

The whole town of Forks seemed to be here; family members, boyfriends and girlfriends, babies and even people coming from out of town that didn't even knew these kids, only visited to pay respect. There were exactly 26 coffins arranged horizontally next to their empty grave. It was like a party for… dead bodies. Charlie and I arrived just on time, seeing that Daliah wanted to handle Jake's memory on her own. The funeral took place outside Fork's Christian Church, in the beautiful garden that surrounded it. Here, it didn't matter if you were from a wealthy family, everyone had the most breathtaking and unique spot for their grave. Obviously, the depth didn't matter. I'm sure 6 feet under looks exactly the same everywhere.

We took a sit next to Daliah and Billy Black, Jake's grandfather. I wasn't so sure Charlie and I were "normal" dressed for a funeral, last time I checked movies do it where everyone wears black. This funeral seemed more like a chill place. Not that the sobbing and screaming weren't around. But everyone was so casually dressed and seemed to mind their own business. I wasn't really paying attention to the mass ceremony that was taking place because it wasn't something that was going directly to Jake's memory. It was a general speech, only pronouncing Jake's name in it but that's all. I kept staring at his coffin. What if the stood up out of nowhere? Will it give his mom a heart attack? Will he come back from the dead? Don't vampires come back from the dead?

I couldn't stop thinking about the 'vampires' responsible for this. Sure it was an odd option, but who else could've done it? And there is previous proof vampires once existed in Forks. What do real vampires even look like? What if, oh I don't know, Daliah were a vampire? Could normal society distinguish vampires?

The whole buffet of people started to make different lines next to each coffin. The time to pay respects had come. Charlie and I were right behind Jake's mom, holding a bouquet of yellow roses; mines and Jacob's favorite flowers. Daliah went off on Jake's coffin. She cried and cried until I'm guessing, her tears dried up. She kept saying how unfair life is, and how she will herself take revenge on whoever did this.
Billy took her hand and took her away.

I was first, Charlie knowing Jacob was my best buddy. The tears came straight out, and without noticing, my nose got a little runny.
I love you Jacob. Anywhere you are, I know you will protect me, right? Help us catch the ones responsible. I will never forget you or all the bad and good times we shared together. I'll see you in the afterlife.
I placed the roses carefully on top of the coffin and walked away quickly.
Last time I'd cried so hard in my life was right before I got my braces. But it still doesn't compare. Nothing can compare to the lost of someone you love.
The bells announcing the end of the mass played loudly. I stopped cleaning my boogers with my sweater and looked up. Almost everyone dispersed around and some even left, and that's when it hit me.

Where were the Cullens?

I'm so so sorry I took forever. My life just took a random busy turn.

My Chemistry teacher passed away a month ago, so I kinda got a little touchy with this chapter and the clothing thing is funny 'cuz it did happen there ha! We were all dressed in black and his family was so casual…even eating pizza and all.

Next chapter should be up by tomorrow. I'm rewarding your patience with two chapters

Feel free to ask questions and all.

1. IS EDWARD JUST USING BELLA ?

Not at all.
2. WAS IT JASPER AND EMMET THAT KILLED THOSE PEOPLE WITH EDWARD ?

We'll see.
3. DO THE WAREWOLVES EXSIST ?

Not at this point no.
4. IF EDWARD'S DIET IS HUMAN BLOOD THEN WHY IS HIS EYES HAZAL(GOLDEN BROWN) ?

Edward's diet is not human blood ;D