Fangs: Alright, sorry I haven't been updating lately… I've had work, homework, and my insomnia is acting up again… but anyways I have finished the cover! Pease go to my profile to see it… also! I have the picture for this chapter as well… please note: If I have said Deidara's diary was Gray it is actually BLACK! Alright now that that's all cleared up… on to writing then maybe to bed if I can sleep.

"Thoughts"

"Talking"

"Two people talking at once or yelling"

"Suprise (will be explained next chapter)"

Story Start-

(Fangs: STOP! Before this I remind you all… I DON'T OWN FUCKING NARUTO! If I did… hehehehe)

Okay NOW, story start-

Deidara sat on the foot of her bed, her back leaning on the wall. Her hands danced across soft, silky the fabric of her diary. Her mind was going a miles a second, "Why did that have to come back? Why did I have to remember HIM!? I could have sworn I had left those memories back home"

Unbeknownst to her she was being stared at, and by a certain scorpion too. "Hmm… I wonder what she's thinking about, even Itachi doesn't stare off like that. Wonder what's up…" Sasori thought, "Hey Deidara"

"Un?" She answered as she looked up, her azure eyes locking with his cinnamon brown.

"What's that you have there?" Sasori asked, pointing to the plain book with the satin ribbon.

"Um…" She started biting her lip, almost like she didn't know what to say.

"Well?" Sasori asked, his curiosity was killing him… "I don't want to pry but this is killing me!"

"Erm… Well it use to be my si-"

Deidara never got to finish as the door of the room opened with a slight creak.

A nurse popped her head in, "Is Deidara Iwa here?"

"Un" Deidara answered nodding her head.

"Ah! Good, good please follow me." The nurse said opening the door and motioning Deidara to come out of the room. Deidara got up off the bed, putting her diary on her pillow and then following the nurse out the door. Once she was through the door the nurse closed it behind her, ending with a soft click.

(Because I am too lazy to tell you what is going on with Deidara we'll see what Sasori is up to…)

Sasori watched as the door was closed, his gaze shifted from the door to the black book on Deidara's pillow. He shifted his eyes away from it in hopes to rid the curiosity that inundated his mind, his eyes shifting from the black diary to the door. "Maybe just one page…" Sasori thought as he slid off his bed, walking over to Deidara's and picking up the diary. He carefully opened the cover and flipped through the first three pages. "Huh?" an entry in the journal caught his eye.

April 19, 2001

Rin hasn't been home lately after she met the Mizuki guy, Sasori growled at that name, he's so creepy but that's not a good enough word for it… AHA! He's … esoteric. I mean, I'm happy Rin found someone who likes her for her… but something about his is, well, off. He's always staring at her, but she doesn't notice. It's almost like you're a rabbit being stared down by a hawk. He also comes over nearly every day… Mother and Father don't care at all. I think they know something. I'm not a detective but I just have this strange feeling that he's going to hurt Rin…

Sasori stopped reading there; his mind was in a blur. "Who's Rin? Why does she know Mizuki? Who is Deidara really?" He flipped through a couple more pages, skimming over the neat script writing. His eyes stopped, the page he landed on seemed to have wrinkles and the ink seemed to have been splattered… He looked closer, his eyes widened, they seemed to be tear stains that caused it.

September 24, 2002

It's been over a year since I ran from home… But most of all, its Rin's birthday. I really hope she's happy up there in heaven; she deserves to be there at least. To think she saves me but ends up having her life taken by deaths hand. I should of died not her… she had so much more to look forward to. I'm not worth the time or effort to be saved, I never have been. She was perfect in every way, but me… I'm like a broken mirror. Useless.

I went to go get flowers at the nearest florist, but it seems everyone's after me. I couldn't enter the store without someone seeing me… but it looks like I'm going to have to cut some daisies. She really deserves the Hibiscus flower. I hope that I can get to the cemetery after everyone left…

Sasori stopped reading there and looked at the calendar, his eyes widened, it was September 24! He turned back to the diary and flipped through a few more pages stopping on the next month.

October 12, 2002

It seems that Mizuki is acting up more than usual; I've seen him twice this week… he's either moving, cocky, or foolish. It seems that there is something odd happening in the town I'm at… but then again; Mizuki is always around the corner. He's been in the open more, not in the shadows… but surprisingly it seems that he doesn't know I'm here….

A frown adored Sasori's face as he finished the paragraph, It seemed as thought Mizuki was after her. His eyes narrowed at that, but then he frowned deeper. "Why do I care what happens to her? I've just met her, but…" His eyes gained a distant look and softened. A small smile touched his lips when he thought about her. "I don't understand it… every time I see her, my heart begins to race and my stomach seems to have butterflies in it. There's just something about her that… well… makes me so calm. Her eyes seem to go on forever and are so innocent, her voice is so soft but it's beautiful."

Sasori stopped at that and shook his head. "What am I saying? I've known her for only a week and a half… but how can she have such an effect on me? But… this feeling I get when I'm around her, it makes me happier and calmer. It's strange really, who would have guessed it? You fall for your own roommate in the Akatsuki Asylum in only a week and a half. But from what little she's talked to me… I have this strange urge to protect her with my life…" Sasori shook his head in order to get rid of these thoughts; turning back to the diary he began reading last years first entry.

January 2, 2003

New Years was yesterday and it seems that others enjoy art as well. The blue and white fireworks were the best in my opinion, the colors truly brought out the night sky. I really hope that they continue with them… I really add a splash of color to this dark unforgiving world. The view is beautiful up here on the roof, I can see everything below and it feels like I'm flying. I've always wanted to fly, to let all my problems go away. Sometimes I wish I really did have wings, and then I wouldn't have to worry about any problems. But I really do wonder what would happen-

Sasori stopped when he heard footsteps coming down the hallway. Sasori closed the book with a clap and his legs flailed about as he tried to free them from the blanket. He finally freed his legs only for himself to land face-first into the linoleum floor. He scrambled up and brushed his hair back to its original state… a mess. He rushed over to the bed and put the diary down onto the pillow it once was placed. He then ran back over to his bed and grabbed the book from the table beside it. He flipped to a random page and pretended to read but his mind was in a whirl.

"What is Deidara hiding? Why it is every time I look at her my heart skips a beat? I don't understand what's wrong with me… my face heats up when I see those innocent eyes. What am I thinking? I barley know her at all, she's just my roommate nothing more. But… just the sight of her is intoxicating. Her blonde hair rivals the sun in high noon, and her eyes are just like the Hawaiian beaches… but that porcelain white skin just seems to glow. Gah… I sound like a infatuated stalker, but I can't help but think of these things…"

The white door opened with a creak and a nurse walked into the room and looked at Sasori. "Ah, Sasori-san I have a few questions for you… Tsunade-sama asked me to ask you."

"Hn." Sasori glared at her, but none the less he complied. "Damn-it I wanted to sort out these perplexing emotions…"

The nurse pulled up a chair that rested near the table. (1) "Alright Sasori, now I need to know a few things… are you willing to answer them?" Her eyes shown under her short bangs, her face was looking down at the clipboard and pen in her hand.

Sasori gave her a malicious glare, the nurse flinched slightly. He smirked but he shook his head. "Whatever"

The nurse nodded her head "Alright, have you had any more homicidal thoughts since Deidara came to the hospital?" She lifted her head and looked him straight in the eyes.

"No…" Sasori answer came in his monotone voice. He didn't like where this was going… Not. One. Bit.

The nurse frowned "Hmm… interesting… But moving on, have you wanted to harm Deidara in anyway?"

"No…" Sasori's eyebrows knitted together, "Where is this going?"

She frowned deeper even more from the answer he gave. "Alright… and your final one; do you feel lonely when Deidara isn't here in the room, or is talking to you?"

"No…" Sasori narrowed his eyes at the nurse in front of him… "Damn… I do feel this loneliness but I can't tell them that, what is this feeling I'm having???"

The nurse nodded her head "Thank you…" and with a overly-sweet smile she put the chair back in its place by the table and left the room.

Sasori glared at her back as she closed the door. Oh how he detested that woman… Her pink hair made him gag at the sight, her eyes held lust when she looked at him… and most of all he loathed the way she tried to seduce him. (2) The mere thought of sleeping with her made him want to commit suicide or worse… torture. "I swear if that woman… thing! Tries anything I won't be afraid to do the same thing I did to Chiyo-baa-chan… oh how I would enjoy doing that. Hehehehe" he began to snicker, which turned into chuckles, then to full blown laughter. An evil smirk dared to split his face. Oh how he dreamed of that day… to finally rid himself of that pink haired whore. (3)

Sasori continued to smirk as he sat on his bed, forgetting about finishing that diary entry he was reading. He was having too much fun planning the tort- Erm 'chat' with the pink haired woman...ly thing… Oh how he wanted to destroy her now… oh how he rally wished he could, he would probably be praised for getting rid of the thing.

Sasori's head snapped up and his face went blank once again when he heard the doorknob turn. Deidara opened the door, closed it behind her and flopped down on her bed… falling asleep instantly. Sasori's eyes softened at the sight before him. He couldn't help but chuckle lightly as he looked at the picture. Deidara way laying on her stomach her head facing him. Her lips parted slightly to breathe and her eyes closed… she looked like an angel. Something that didn't belong in this world.

He shook his head… "What am I saying? I'm a murder talking about an angel…" Sasori mentally slapped himself. "You fool, how can you talk about someone you barley know?! Your reputation would be shot if someone knew what you were thinking?" Sasori clutched his head with his hands. "Get out of my mind… I thought I locked you away for good when you put me in this place?" Sasori's eyes began to glaze over "Oh! But you did, but your thoughts on killing that home-wreaking whore brought me out. I wake up and here I find you thinking about the girl. Hn. You got so weak after she came here… you know what? Maybe I should kill her! That might put you back to your usual self… NO! Don't you dear harm her; she has done nothing to you! Ah… but Sasori, she has… she took away that sadistic nature of yours. She made you happier and even calmer and I can't have that. I won't let you lay a hand on her!" With that Sasori pushed the voice back into the depths of his mind. His hands were shaking, and his eyes shifted wildly from Deidara to the wall in front of him. "No… I won't let him harm her. Even If I have to protect her with my life."

(CUT!!!)

Fangs: How was that people? I hoped you liked it… It took me quite a while to figure out the perfect twist to the story. But anyways… onto the footnotes!!!

1) I've seen asylum rooms that are furnished after apartments… they're there to relax the patients there.

2) If you haven't figured out who this is you're a complete idiot… but anyways, I hate Sakura with a burning passion if you haven't noticed yet.

3) Yes, Sasori doesn't like her… no one does and you can already guess she's going to die…

Anyways…

At the end you noticed Sasori argued with him-self correct? Well… you'll meet who him next chapter alright?

Three (or four depends on the outcome of the poll below) new characters are entering the story next chapter… whether it is for good or bad, you'll see soon enough. Another note… next chapter will be M rated… no there won't be SasoDei lemons… sorry. It if for another reason you'll have to wait for.

Please note! Sasori still doesn't know its love that he feels… he thinks it's something else, but he'll ask next chapter.

~ Poll! ~

Who should Sasori ask?

Itachi

Kisame

Hidan

Kakuzu

Konan

Pein

Tobi

Or someone else…