Hello everyone! I know it's been soo long and I am really sorry about that. My first year in the university... took my a lot of time to settle in but from now on I promise I will write much more quickly! Anyway enjoy the chapter. Once again I don't know anything Xxx
Cold and hard. Two words that described perfectly what Irina was feeling. She opened her eyes slowly and then close them again when she felt the blinding light. She moved her hands trying to explore exactly where she was and after a few seconds she opened her eyes again. The girl's bathroom..the only place she could actually hide the nights of the change. She tried to stand up but she slipped and fall down again. A curse came out of her as she saw she was in a bathtub. "I must have fallen asleep here", she thought. Actually she couldn't remember what she done after coming here, the only thing alive in her memories was Tom. She touched her chest, it still hurt a bit actually, but she couldn't do anything about this now. She tried to stand up again carefully this time, she searched for her wand and found it in her pocket. "The time…the time" Irina saw her clock, it was eight. "Oh shit I have to hurry" After a few seconds she was in front of her common room
"Password"
"Pureblood" Irina muttered utterly annoyed. She quickly stepped in the common room and without looking around her she headed to the stairs.
"Irina!! Where the heck have you been?"
Irina turned around and saw Lyssa. She seemed very anxious and angry. Irina opened her mouth to answer.
"Uh Uh before you tell me another lie I want you to know that I am aware that you didn't sleep in the common room so please find a good excuse"
Irina closed her eyes felling totally defeated. She didn't want to lie but what else she could do?
"Look I am sorry but I cannot say, please If you don't want to lie to you don't ask"
Lyssa took a deep breath, and then disappointed she sighed. "Ok I won't push you ,but If you need anything you know you can trust me"
" I know"
"So come on we have still time for breakfast, we have Transfiguration then so hurry"
"Give me a second to bring my books" Lyssa nodded impatiently
"Ok ready lets go"
They entered the Great Hall and took their seats silently. But before that Irina noticed that Tom was there, he seemed very angry. Irina couldn't understand why but then again she didn't need to know. The only thing she wanted was to leave her alone.
"So.. coffee?"
"What?" Irina asked bewildered
"Wake up!! I said coffee? You know.. drink??"
"Oh no no thank you I will have some pumpkin juice" Irina said damply
Suddenly Irina felt every pair of eyes in the table on her. She faced everyone with a "what-the-heck" expression but she felt a sudden pain in her right leg. She turned to the responsible person. "What?"
Lyssa moved her head slowly, she looked stunned as everybody else in the table. Irina actually noticed that they have stopped eating. She turned around and actually jumped from her seat.
"Hey" The handsome boy who was actually talking to her, said with a faint smile
"Hey Lucan" Irina said slowly, too slowly to be honest
"I am sorry I didn't mean to startle you"
"It's ok don't worry"
" I just came to ask you if you will come tomorrow"
"Tomorrow?" Irina asked bewildered
"Yeah in the match"
"Oh the match..yeah sure I will come"
"Great.. I just came to ask you because today we don't share any class"
"Oh right.. emm do not worry I will be there"
"And about next Sunday as I told you yesterday I will let you know this week"
"Sure" All Irina could do was answering almost without thinking his questions. That was a surprise definitely
"So cya later I suppose.."
"Cya" Irina watched him leaving and finally landed on her seat
"Oh my god that was so-"
A stronger noise interrupted Lyssa abruptly.
"A Gryffindor dares to come in this table? I think that he needs a good lesson"
"What do you care Malfoy?" Irina shouted angrily "He just came to ask me something I can hardly see this as a crime"
"Well I see that you might need a lesson too, but just a second just a second we have already said that, haven't we?"
"SILENCE" the voice made the whole table silent. Even Malfoy closed his mouth and lowered his head. Irina turned her attention to Tom.
His hands across the table were fists and his green eyes almost on fire. Irina swallowed hard as a wave of fear run though her body. She didn't speak, a small voice in her head told her it would be a terrible mistake. Tom abruptly stood up and turned his gaze to her, she was looking at death Irina knew it. He then quickly turned around and left followed my Malfoy. Irina was breathing heavily, she tried to drink her pumpkin juice, but she couldn't even support her cup.
"That was awesome" Lyssa finished her sentence slowly this time
"Are you kidding me?"
"Hah hello are you kidding meee perhaps? Have you any idea what exactly happened? The Gryffindor boy must be really interest in you"
"Pfff we just met yesterday"
"So? He came here by himself. Do you know how much courage did he shown?
"Well you are right on this one but-"
"No buts you will hell go to the match tomorrow and I don't know what that "Sunday" thing was but you better tell me now."
Irina explained briefly to Lyssa about the yesterday's event
"You are joking right?? This is the gossip of the week. I mean one of the hottest boys in school with the transfer student from Slytherin Ohh forbidden love"
"No no no noooo" Irina said panicked "whatever you are thinking please don't do.. it.. actually you saw Riddle you don't want to-"
"Tsk you are right…" she said disappointed
"See? Just forget it now we should go to class"
"Ok.."
"Oh don't be like this I am sure you will find something interesting to gossip about, you are expert on this sector so.."
"Yeah you are right" Lyssa said finally smiling "But" she continued "you will tell me everything from now on promise?"
"Promise"
"Excellent now lets go"
Irina and Lyssa entered the Transfiguration class and took their seats quickly.
For the first time this year Irina didn't pay attention in what professor Dumbledore was saying, part of her was really excited about Lucan and another really scared but overwhelmed about Tom. A loud voice woke up Irina suddenly. She turned her head and saw Lyssa 's face.
"Are you coming?"
"What, we are done?"
Irina confused saw that the room was almost empty
"Are you kidding me? We finished five minutes ago I thought you were thinking about the essay Dumbledore gave us."
"Ohh right..emm you go ahead I will meet you later"
"Sure"
Irina took her books and decided to go to the library.
"My dear can you please come here for a minute I would like to talk to you"
Irina saw professor Dumbledore standing at the corner of the room, his expression as calm as always and his smile faint but quite visible. Irina nodded and approached him.
"Sit my dear"
Irina obeyed and took a deep breath and closed her eyes tightly. For some reason she couldn't face him and she didn't knew why.
"Well the reason I want to talk to you is about yesterday night."
Irina bit her lower lip. "What do you mean professor?"
Dumbledore didn't laugh this time on the contrary his expression became more serious. "I will be straight with you my dear, as I said to you I already know of your nature, so obviously yesterday was the night of your change"
Irina stayed silent for a moment and then decided to lower her defences. "How do you know?"
"Well I have made my research"
"Please don't make me leave Hogwarts please, my mum had already discussed this with Professor Dippet I was lucky he agreed to give me a place to this school, but If you express your disagreement .."
"Don't worry Mrs Randall my goal isn't to kick you out of the school trust me, I just want to help you"
"But why?"
"Because, I know that you are different and I am aware that this isn't easy for you."
Irina took another deep breath and opened her mouth to speak but Dumbledore interrupted her.
"I know you are not ready to tell me some things yet, but I want you to know that you can trust me."
Irina nodded ad stood up. Everyone was saying the same thing "You can trust me"." It's not so easy" ,Irina wanted desperately to scream. " It's not something i can magically hand over".
"Oh and before you leave, I will await for you in the next full moon, come and see me."
Irina nodded again and finally made her way to the library. Why this wasn't easy for her..why it was so painful..No one knew. Not even her mother, Irina didn't want her to find out, her mother couldn't bear the truth, that her daughter was constantly fighting what she was. That's why Irina was hiding the nights of the change.. alone.. she was always alone, it was her choice but guilt was an emotion she was constantly feeling. Guilt that she was lying to her mother, saying to her that she was embarrassed and she just wanted to be alone during the change. Embarrassed..Irina smiled sadly it would be good if she was only embarrassed. "Well that's the reason I came to Hogwarts" she whispered. If there was a place she could learn how to contact with the feys Hogwarts was the only one. She searched for three years in her previous school, but nothing she couldn't find nothing. She couldn't give up, not now, not never.
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Cold so cold.."Where am I?"Irina tried to speak but her voice disappeared in the thick darkness. Her heart started to beat rapidly and fear consumed her. She started running , but nothing there was nothing she was once again alone. Suddenly Irina saw a figure she tried recognize who was it..but she couldn't she was too far way. She took a few more steady steps. The figure suddenly disappeared. Irina try to search in the dark but it was futile. Suddenly she felt a presence..she froze somebody was behind her. A cold hand brushed gently the base of her neck and made her shiver uncontrollably. She then turned around.
"Tom? What are you doing here?"
He wasn't looking at her with his usual "full of hatred expression" but with amusement. "The question is what are you doing here? This is my world..are you a fool to come here or you are so eager to die?"
Irina panicked took a few steps back and started running in the dark.
"It's futile to run I will always hunting you" he shouted half laughing madly.
Irina suddenly felt a strong grip in her foot, which made her lose balance and fall in the ground.
"Arrg…"
"Hmm…you really want to die then" he said while standing exactly above her
At that instance Irina's fear faded away only anger, pure anger was flowing through her veins. "What are you waiting for then huh??" She said leaning towards him. " I say you are only full of words Tom Riddle if you want to kill me kill me already" she shouted angrily .His smile instantly disappeared and his expression became hard and cruel, he raised his wand. Irina closed her eyes, but it wasn't from fear, a beam of blinding light suddenly appeared and replaced the thick darkness. Irina was feeling strange..it was like she was fading..the last thing she heard was Tom's screams.
"I said WAKE UP"
Irina suddenly opened her eyes. It took her a couple of seconds to realize that she was in her bed and Lyssa was screaming above her. "What was that", she thought … "a nightmare?"
"Are you all right?"
"Yes I think so.."
"Bad dream?"
"What makes you say that?"
"Well first of all you are trembling, second you are all sweaty, third you were talking in your sleep and finally I had a hard time waking you up..that's all."
"What was I saying?"
"To be honest I couldn't really understand, you were talking really quickly and I didn't just wait to listen, I was trying to wake you up. Anyway get dress we don't have time, it's the match today and as far as I know somebody is gonna wait for you to appear so you shouldn't be late"
All Irina could do was to smile weakly, she couldn't really pay attention to Lyssa's words. Dreaming of him again? But this was different it seemed..so real. She tightened her arms around her body and closed her eyes, but she felt something heavy coming across her face.
"Ouch!!! What was that for?" she snapped annoyed
"I really shouldn't use a pillow, something more solid should be more effective. Are you listening to me? HURRY UP"
"All right, all right, just give some time I need to feed Elvis…
Irina took her cat in her arms. "Hey sweetie good morning..be a good boy all right?"As a positive answer the cat licked Irina's fingers. She quickly put some food in his bowl, got dressed in her green-Slytherin clothes and followed Lyssa.
"Shit I forgot something in the common room…sorry just go ahead I will find you"
"Ok don't be late" Lyssa said in an alarming tone
Irina nodded and run back ti the common room
"Well,well, well look who we have wandering here alone, you really make this easy for us you know"
Irina turned and saw Malfoy with Lastrange
"I am sorry but I am in a hurry Malfoy" she said indifferently. Malfoy's eyes narrowed by her lack of attention.
"Oh yes I am sure of that, going to watch your Gryffindor friend right?" he asked with a hint of disgust in his voice
"What do you want?"
Malfoy smiled wickedly and raised his wand followed by Lastrange. Irina immediately reacted , the last think she heard were footsteps behind her and then nothing.
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Her eyes opened. It took her a few minutes to realize where she was…. Tom's room. She was lying in his bed but this time there were no restraints. Irina stood up and run in the door. She tried to open it but it was locked. She cursed and searched in her pockets for her wand.
"Shit" nothing was there. She run her hand through her hair, there was no way out."Calm down if you panic like the last time nothing good is going to happen, just relax Irina, relax" she told herself and sat in the corner of the bed . After five minutes which seemed like an eternity she was up again, there was no way she could stay calm. She started walking from the one corner of the room to the other like an animal in a cage. It was only moments later that fatigue started to kick in, she lied in the bed, tears started to stream down her face. She immediately whip them ,this time she would be braver, she promised herself and then let herself completely
A shiver run through her spine, made her twitch and eventually Irina opened her eyes. She was still in Tom's room but this time not alone. She gasped when she saw him and tried to stand up.
"I wouldn't move if I were you" the smooth voice came from a dark figure in the corner of the room.
Irina stayed still. Tom smiled obviously satisfied with her obedience. She didn't say anything, she couldn't…. Tom broke the silence first.
"I suppose you want to know why you are here..again.."
"Yes" that was all she could say, her mouth was dry, and she had to focus to breath properly
"I wanted to speak with you..alone" he admitted
"You could speak with me Alone without locking me in your room and leaving me here for so many hours" Irina almost shouted
"Watch your tone!" he warned raising his wand. "I had something to do this morning" he finished off with a smile
Irina recognized this kind of smile…that was bad really bad
"Oh I am sorry, but of course you don't know the news..your little Gryffindor friend had a terrible accident..bad really bad indeed.. it's such a pity.." he tsked his eyes glowing from excitement.
"Lucan?" Irina asked "What happened? What did you do to him?"
"Me?" he asked clearly amused "As far as I can remember I just told you it was an accident"
"I don't believe you" Irina answered immediately
Tom laughed loudly.
"Do you find this amusing Tom? What do you think huh? That people exist merely for your satisfaction? That you can hurt them and use them as many times as you want?"
Tom's eyed narrowed dangerously. He started walking towards her. Irina shivered she could feel his anger boiling. He reached her in mere seconds and pressed his wand in her neck.
"Yes"
Irina bit her lower lip, her hands fists, she tried to speak
"What do you want to tell me then?"
Tom raised his eyebrow and withdrew his wand.
"You spoke with Dumbledore?"
"How do you know?"
His nostrils flared
"Yes" she answered closing her eyes in defeat
"What did he asked you?"
"Nothing"
"So he doesn't know?"
Irina hesitated for some moments. "He knows" she finally admitted
Tom growled in fury
"You told him?"he hissed, his face only inches away from hers
"No, he just knows"
"How?"
"I don't know… Look why do you care If he knows about me he won't.." Irina's voice broke as she felt a sudden pain through her body.
"No one is to know about you…No one is to ever see you..no one but me" he hissed in her ear. Irina nodded in response and the pain disappeared. She tried to breath while staring at Tom's face. He was angry really angry.. Irina knew that.. she could feel it deep in her flesh, but there was something else there..something different but Irina couldn't understand what. He also looked tired she could notice the black circles under his eyes. She swallowed hard.
Tom suddenly stood up and walk away from her.
"Can I-I ..leave now?" Irina trembled
Tom's eyes narrowed one more time
"What else do you want from me?" she nearly screamed
"Why are you in such a hurry do you have to go somewhere? Perhaps the hospital wing?" He asked furiously
Irina looked down without answering. After a few moments realization hit her. Her wand…
"Can I have my wand?" she demanded
"No" Was all he said
Irina's mouth fell opened in surprise
Then he walked out of the room. Irina run towards the door, but it was already locked, she started screaming but nothing. She knew that if Tom wanted to keep her in here there was no way to get out. Exhausted and defeated she went to the bed and closed her eyes. Her only pray was to fall asleep so she wouldn't need to think, and especially to feel.
"Please I just want to sleep" that was her final whisper