Hey guys I'm really sorry that this update took so long. I was and I'm still very stressed out because of the damn school. Today I have just time because I'm sick.
I've "spoke" enough here's my update enjoy it ^^
Forbidden Love part 4
A few days passed by since they had gone.
The last days I just sat in my room and thought about everything and I wrote songs, played my drums and listened to music, but my anger didn't want to stop. I totally pushed Carmen away. I didn't answer her calls and I didn't go to school. I know this is a little bit exaggerated but I'm pretty disappointed of him. I'm always just on the second place. Everything is more important! He's always busy and never at home! Now he has holidays for a view weeks but he spent it with her instead with me. This idiot! He hasn't even asked me to go to his stupid wedding. Maybe I would have done that.
My phone was ringing, of course it was Carmen again. I sight and answered it because she called me so many times and I didn't want to be that bad: "Hey Carmen what's up?!" I heard her sniveling: "Ashley, tell me if it's over, I can't stand that anymore! Every time if you're angry of your dad you push me away and lock yourself in your room! Isn't that a little bit childish? I know your upset of him but you shouldn't swallow in self-pity!" When she ended I was a little bit surprised and couldn't say anything. But when my voice came back: "I'm sorry! Come at my place honey I want you to be here with me!" I recognized that I missed her and I mean who can resist a crying woman?! Moreover it was the first time until now I've ever heard her crying, because Carmen was a pretty strong girl. She is the only one who shows me love. Carmen spoke quietly: "Ok I'll be there in a few minutes but I swear if you treat me that way like the past days it's over!" I was shocked but I could understand her. "Ok, bye!" I just said and hung up.
After 5 minutes I heard the bell ringing and went to door. I opened the door with a huge smile but as I saw who was there my smile fade away. Rafe looked at me and smiled: "It's so good to see you sweetie! I've missed you!" He wanted to hug me but I went a step backwards. "Ashley, come on what's wrong?!" I looked at him angry: "You're such an idiot!" I shouted at him and went to my room. I was still upset. He hadn't even called me. Yeah, he was to busy with his new little chica! I hate him. I heard steps and shouted: "Go away I don't want to see you!" I heard a female voice: "Ashley, are you ok?!" I rolled my eyes at that moment I really didn't want to see her. She was the reason that my father begins to ignore me once again. I didn't answer. "Can I come in?!" she asked shyly. I sight: "Yeah!" I said and wiped quickly my tears away. She opened the door and came in. "Hey how are you?! It's nice to see you!" she said with a sweet smile. Almost my anger went away but I could see in her face that she had pretty much fun with my dad. "Oh come on stop that you needn't play that I want to be your friend stuff that stepmothers always play! I'm not a stupid little child!" When I looked in her face I was shocked. Damn why is it me who causes woman to cry all the time?! She turned away and wanted to go to the door. I sight again and stood up. "heeey please wait! I didn't mean that! I was just upset!" She didn't turn around but asked: "Why?!" "Look… that's not important!" I couldn't tell her my feelings because I hate to speak about them with others. Spencer went on going to the door. "Ok, it's because you and my dad …you are so happy and I always fight with my girlfriend! " I didn't look in her face because I had the feeling that this girl had a six sense for lying on her. Before I could recognize anything I felt her arms around me and pulling me close to her. For a few seconds I've stopped breathing. "Eh…eh!" Spencer stroke softly over my hair: "It's ok! I know how you feel! I felt the same way with my exgi…Boyfriend!" Did I hear it right? Did she almost say ex-girlfriend? No that couldn't be true, because I read an article about her and her ex-boyfriend. I was pretty confused. I felt electrified from her touch. I tried to avoid her look. Her perfume smelled amazing and I got weak in the knees.
I startled up as somebody coughed slightly. Spencer and I broke away from each other. I saw that Carmen wasn't that happy about that situation. Spencer smiled: "Hey …I hope I remember it right …was it Carmen?!" Carmen looked at me and just nodded. She looked amazing. She wore court shorts a belly top and she curled her hair. I looked at Spencer she looked gorgeous too. She wore a sweet blue dress which made her look innocent. As Carmen saw how I surveyed Spencer she looked angry to me. "Could you please excuse me and Ashley I have to talk to her!" she said and faked a smile at Spencer. Spencer nodded: "Yeah, of course!" she left the room. Carmen locked the door: "What was that?!" she asked angry. I looked at her asking: "What was what?!" Carmen shook her head: "You'd totally stare at her legs!" she shouted. I looked at her in disbelieve: "Psccht Carmen she could hear you…!" Carmen walked to me: "I can't believe that! You want to fuck that bitch right?!" she yelled. I was shocked because she totally freaked out. "Carmen calm down! She's my stepmother!" She hit against the wall: "Yeah, your stepmother who is 3 years older than you! I don't let people make fun of me Ash! You know that!" she said and I could feel her anger. "Carmen, stop it please!" I wanted to hug her but she pushed me strongly away that I've felt down. She looked at me shocked: "Ashley, I'm sorry!" I was shocked and my ass hurt. "Are you fucking crazy? Leave my house!" Carmen looked sadly at me: "Baby I didn't want to do that! Please forgive me! I totally freaked out! Ash please!" she began to cry. I rolled my eyes: "Stop that!" I shouted. "Don't cry!" But she of course didn't stop. I didn't know what to do now.