DISCLAIMER: I don't own icarly
Sam's POV
I woke up to the smell of bacon. I get dressed and make my way downstairs to see Carly making breakfast.
"Hope your hungry I made bacon." Again I had to lie it's all I do now
"I'm not that hungry" I reply hoping she will believe me
"Are you sure I got bacon" She asks
"Yeah i'll just grab something at school" I said hoping that will be enough for her to drop the subject"
So we both grab our school bags and head to school. We arrive at school and walk up to our lockers everything seems pretty normal Freddie is stood by the lockers waiting for us. We walk over and Carly and Freddie start talking about todays history test. I completely forgot about it but I probably wouldn't have studied anyway. The day passes by so slowly just waiting to go home. The bell finally went and I run out of class cause i'm really not in the mood to talk to anyone right now.
I make my way home and go straight to my room and just lay on the bed. My mums not here I really don't know where she is she's never around. I just lay on my bed with my thoughts. My stomach feels so empty that it hurts. I just have to find a way to take my mind off it. I remember that my mum had bought a treadmill when she tried to diet. The diet only lasted a day so my mum didn't really use it I don't think it was ever turned on. I go into the living room and start running on the treadmill. I run and run for hours just to take my mind off my empty stomach. I didn't even notice it getting dark. It's almost midnight so I go into my room and stand in front of the mirror. I slowly strip and feel tears building up in my eyes from the reflection in the mirror. I hate that person. It's weird how a couple of days ago I could look in the mirror and feel fine now I look in and I feel fat, ugly, disappointed. I change into my night clothes and climb into bed. I feel tired so I close my eyes as I fall to sleep that moment goes through my head over and over again. The moment this all started.
The next morning I wake up I don't feel so good but I try to ignore it and get out of bed anyway. I set my alarm for 6 am. I hate early morning but I thought i'd do a little exercise before school. I change into a pair of sweats and t-shirt and head over to the treadmill. I run for about an hour. I didn't notice the time until carly called me. I ignored her call to go get ready for school.
I walk through the school doors and walk up to Carly and Freddie who are at the lockers. It looked like they were both in some serious conversation.
"Hi" I say as I join them
"Hey what happened to you yesterday you didn't come round after school?" She asked me.
"I had stuff to do home work" I replied. Since i've not been eating i've become very bad at lying.
"Ok" She sounds confused but I think she bought it.
So we head to class and again the day goes by so slowly. I kept spacing out. It's hard to concentrate since my head is so messed up right now.
I try to act as normal as possible I don't want anyone to know my secret. I don't want people to think she's that fat she has to starve herself to loose weight. I act as normal as possible. I ignore the horrible emptiness in my stomach and the sharp pains I keep getting in my head and chest and act like everythings fine.
The pains worth it. When I look as skinny as carly or all those models I won't even care about the pain i'm feeling it will just be an old memory. I won't even remember the day Freddie Benson called me a PIG.
AUTHOR'S NOTE: So I decided to ignore all the hate and carry on with the story. Thank You everyone for the reviews telling me i should ignore the hate and carry on. Sorry this chapters so short but my batteries
about to die so i'd rather upload a little than nothing. Please review :)