Amber and Aquamarine 4:

"If you don't know then I will tell you. This is the true form of despair." Urukirora Shifā to Kurosaki Ichigo before entering the Segunda Etapa

A/N: Kalzifar and Mr. Kurosaki09 thanks for your Reviews! Three-is-enough and Tara-Yo thanks for adding this FF to your Story Alert!

A/N2: That's it. I hate this chapter 'cause of my writer's block. It's trash. Worthless trash...

Shi: shinko

After that 'incident' we never talked once for over a week and both Rukia and me were blushing every time we looked at each other.

After all we didn't just kiss. We were actually French kissing. And that hard. Just thinking about it sent a blush up my face and made my new piercing blue eyes sticking out even more. Great.

There were – of course – some certain annoying people.

For example my lame excuse of a father. First he asked what happened between Rukia and me. He – being the usual pervert – suggested he would have grandchildren soon. I kicked him through the wall like I did with Urahara.

Keigo and Mizuiro weren't any better. Two days after the 'incident' they and the rest of the gang just took Rukia and me up to the roof of the school and asked why the two of us weren't talking to each other anymore.

I said that was none of their business but they kept bothering and asking the same stupid question. At some point I lost my temper and yelled: "You really want to know? We kissed. Not some kind of kissing, it was – actually – French kissing and now stop annoying the shit outta me!" With that I went for the classroom and left the group with dropped jaws.

Now, a week later, we still didn't spoke a word to each other until the seventh night after my collapse at the Urahara shop.

It was dark outside when I came back to my room after I took a shower. And there – sitting on my bed – was Rukia.

I looked to the side and my hands which where drying my hair with a towel loosened their grip on said piece of fabric.

"What d'you want?"

"I want to know the truth."

"None of your business."

"It's my business if your Konpaku looks just like the man I killed twice, isn't it?"

My head jerked around just to be met with her face really close. I blushed madly but tried my best to calm my voice down: "What did you… j-just say?"

"You heard me perfectly. Your soul looks just like the man I killed twice. So stop saying this bullshit about it's 'none of my business' 'cause it damn is."

"How the heck did you manage it to kill this guy twice?"

Mentally I searched his memories for anything like that and found what I was searching for: The night I dreamt about a week before and some hazy memory about him fighting her and being stabbed by her third dance.

'Why is this last memory so hazy?'

"Cause these memories are from the time after my Konpaku was eaten by the Ninth Espada and these are just recently your own."

'The headache nears…'

"Just stop thinking about this kind of stuff."

'Yeah, yeah…'

"His Konpaku was devoured by the Novena Espada I was fighting in Hueco Mundo."

"I see… Still, I won't tell you anything."

I totally forgot how strong she was. Rukia grabbed me by my shirt and forced me at eye level with her: "Tell me now or I guarantee you a slow painful death, Ichigo."

I mumbled something inaudible and my face soon made acquaintance with her right hand. My cheek burned where she hit me.

"You really want to know? FINE!" Slowly I got really pissed. I grabbed her wrist and forced her to let go of me: "I'm the reincarnation of the man you killed twice. Now you know it. Satisfied?"

Her eyes widened in shock: "What the heck?"

"You heard right. And I want you to leave my room now. You managed to kill my nerves." I went for my bed and when I looked at the door she had left.

'Damn, Rukia. Every time I see you I don't know what I should do.' I looked out of the window beside my bed and sighed: 'Kill you… or kiss you. Midget… you're really a pain in the ass.'

"My, my, teenager sure are funny in this sort of things."

'Shut up, idiot.'

~*~

The next day she never ever looked at me once nor said a word.

This went on for 3 days and slowly my eyes began to change their color back to brown and I was really glad about it. This piercing blue was irritating.

The evening of the third day I couldn't stand her ignorance anymore and grabbed her by her wrist while leading for the park.

She struggled at first but after a while she stopped complaining and let me drag her along.

At the park I made her sit under a tree and began to yell at her: "Stop ignoring me, goddamnit!!"

Rukia blinked a few times and then looked away: "You said I killed your nerves so I didn't want to be such a burden to you so you could calm down a bit."

I sighed. This girl just didn't make sense at all: "You aren't a burden nor do you kill my nerves… usually."

I hunkered down in front of her and took her face with my hands to make her look in my bluish-brown eyes: "You were a pain in the ass back this night but that doesn't mean I don't like you around me. In fact I prefer you than my father or my other friends. I just want you to be less penetrate and unnerving. Think you can manage that?"

She smiled a bit: "Maybe?"

I smiled back at her: "That's enough."

We kept this position and realized around the same instant I was still holding her face. The both of us blushed madly.

Slowly I removed my hands and turned my head to the right: "U-uh, we should head back home, don't you think?"

She only nodded in agreement and we both stood up.

While heading home I thought back to when I kissed her. Even though Kaien said I wouldn't have the power to resist a wish but I sure as Hell would have control over my movements as soon as the wish fulfilled, right? So why didn't I stop kissing her, damn?

"Because you're a teenager."

'Hell?'

"You don't think your two weird friends are just born perverts, do you? You father may be an exception but they surely aren't… yet. It's puberty. Get over it."

'I hate you.'

"You just stated you hate yourself. That's emo."

'Shut up, Kaien!'

"You're such a joy-killer!"

'However.'

~*~

We were still at the park when Rukia asked a question I sure as Hell didn't want to hear nor answer.

"Ichigo… back then… at Urahara's… why did you kiss me?"

I stopped dead in my tracks and looked at her: "Huh? U-uh, don't quite know it myself to be honest…"

"What? You must've had a reason, right? So WHY???" she demanded moving a bit forward and standing on her tiptoes to be at eye level with me.

Rukia blushed as I did but didn't move an inch. She sure is stubborn.

I chose to annoy Rukia a bit: "Don't you have a theory, eh?"

She blinked confused: "Eh? Theory? No, not at all."

I moved a little forward and smiled cocky while raising an eyebrow: "Eeeeh? Don't have a clue then? That's bad. I wanted to offer you some sort of deal."

"Huh?"

"Rukia" I said becoming serious: "Do you really want to hear the truth?"

"I asked, didn't I?"

I sighed: "Then I'll just spill it out. Because of all these memories I regain from his life my heart and mind are under a big amount of stress and therefore I can't resist a wish might it just appear in my mind for a mere second. And when I yelled at you back then in my mind appeared the thought to kiss you for only a second and when I became aware of what was happening I was kissing you."

Her reaction wasn't what I expected at all: "That wasn't exactly what I wanted to know. I wanted to know… why you kissed me not how it came to the kiss, Ichigo."

I blushed: "U-uh…" Again I became aware of our proximity.

"Oh boy. Ichigo for once in your life be a man!"

'Shut up!'

I regretted letting myself getting distracted by him.

Our closeness actually scared me to death but at the same calmed me down a bit. It kind of felt like a mix of an adrenaline flash and the drowsiness of sleep. Her breath sent a shiver down my spine and I couldn't stop my eyelids to close half.

I resisted as long as I could but then I couldn't help myself.

I had wrapped my arms around her and held her tight. I could sense her lips brushing against mine and finally let my lips rest on hers.

"Ichigo…" she mumbled into my lips but I soon felt her arms around my neck.

"Yes?"

"Is that – too – just a wish coming to your mind 'for a mere second'?"

"Actually this bothered me since the day I first kissed you."

"Why?" she leaned in closer and it got a real pain to continue talking with her lips on mine.

"Why I didn't stop… the… kiss…"

Screw that!

"Who cares?" I asked and let my tongue touch her lips, which she parted and again I could taste the wintery air. I began to really become hooked of this taste.

Due to the need of air we broke apart still embracing each other.

"Hell?"

She didn't replied. We continued looking at each other until we realized that it was dark around us. Heck! How long have we been away???

I've a huge writer's block and due to this this chapter is just trash. Honestly.

I won't update for over a week 'cause my class goes on a trip to the pampas -.- Gomen ne…

Please flame if you wish to… this OOCness is unbearable T-T

shi – four

shinko – truth