6 months later.
It was the middle of April and Sakura was staying in Institute of Brain Disorder and Psychological Affects for almost a half year now. She had had therapy, meeting with other teens and young people that are suffering from shock and panic attacks caused by trauma. The Harunos were with Sakura trough all those dark months of winter when it seemed that she could take her own life any time. Sakura hadn't speaked for the whole winter and a half of February. Then she had finally opened up and started to take therapy and medication willingly. She was feeling a lot better now. She hadn't had a panic attack for a while now. The Harunos were informed that most of these cases are because of a head trauma that happened under psychologicaly traumatizing conditions.
Sakura had taken the fast homeschooling course so she could finish 10th grade properly. Her friends mostly sent her cards with „Get well" sayings, a lot of chocolate and flowers. Ino and Hinata even came to visit. They felt kind of awkward at first, but then they started gossiping about school and teachers and everything was good. Eventhough Sakura had learned in the same school with them for only a month and a half, they all felt pretty close.
It was time for Sakura to come home. She had a medication she has to take every 3 days and a special one to take when she's feeling stressed. When all three Harunos entered their house everything felt strange at first. Sakura's parents had spent most of their time either at work or the hospital, so the house was abandoned for the most time. It was kept clean and ready by the maids though.
-We'll watch the news honey, you can go up to your room and go on the internet or something.
Sakura went up to her room, slipped out of her black converse and put her favourite pink, fuzzy slippers on. She went to her laptop. She pushed the on button and waited for it to respond. When her Macbook was on she went to check her e-mail.
-785 new messagess – the bold, red letters were stating.
For five minutes Sakura sat there and stared in the monitor. Then she typed a name in the contact search box.
Sasuke Uchiha no results showing this contact in your inbox.
Sakura opened her music library and put on Nickelback – How you remind me.
Then she clicked on the Delete all button and closed the internet. She layed on her bed for a while and then decided to take a bath. She turned the water on and spilled strawberry vanilla bath foam in the hot water. While the bath filled Sakura turned the music louder and left the bathroom door half open. She started stripping down slowly in front of the big mirror. She touched her skin were her finger nails had dug in. There were lighter scratches. Her hair had grown out where she had pulled it out. It didn't look bad. It kind of looked like she had a punkish hair cut. This one thing Sakura actually liked. While staying at the hospital and having a nervous breakdown Sakura had gotten realy skinny. You could actually see her ribs. She had to take on some weight in the next week so she wouldn't look like a walking skeleton.
Sakura dropped her skinny jeans and button down shirt on the floor. She took off her cute underwear and let her hair loose from the bun. She slowly put one foot in the bubbly and hot water. She slowly slid in the bath. The hot water felt so good. It made her weal so warm and safe.
-I could use a good shave – Sakura said to herself and chuckled. She then proceeded with shaving, hair washing and healthy masks for both hair and face.
One and a half hour later Sakura was feeling like a whole new person. She had listened to many love songs during this time. Sakura put on her silk playsuit/pyjama and decided to read something.
Harry Potter seemed like a fair enough choice, it would keep her from thinking about other things.
2 hours later Sakura was curled up in her satin sheets and reading Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets enthusiasticly. She finally felt like a normal teenager. In 3 a.m. Sakura put the book down and turned the lights off. She fell in a light sleep. In 6 a.m. she saw a nightmare.
Her father went in her room. He closed the door behind him and turned the lock. Then he went to Sakura and slaped her in the face. He was hitting her face. She was screaming and trying to defend herself. He pulled the light t–shirt she was wearing in peaces. He undid his pants and tryed to undress Sakura. Sakura tried to resist, but he was so strong. She screamed for help, but she knew no one would hear her.
-Hush, hush... – a familiar male voice said quietly.
-Hush my dear. Everything is all right.
Tamiko had hugged Sakura and sang to her while rocking back and forth.
-Hush, little baby, don't say a word.
Mama's gonna buy you a mockingbird. – Tamiko sang while Sakura was breathing heavily and crying. After this Saburo brought Sakura a glass of water and calming medication. Sakura took it.
-I'm all right, I shouldn't have read Harry Potter for so long. I swear, I'm all right, it was just a bad dream. I will go to sleep now. I think a calming shopping trip tomorrow will set me back on my feet.
Tamiko was pleased to hear that Sakura was finally interested in shopping. Both Tamiko and Saburo left her room and went back to sleep. After they had gone Sakura wanted to forget her nightmare. The abusing part wasn't the worst. The worst was that she heard a familiar voice sing to her, but she couldn't think of its owner. She fell asleep soon after and woke up in 11 a.m. Her head felt dizzy from the medication. The unconscious sleep did not make her feel very refreshed, but she didn't feel tired as well. Actually, she didn't feel a thing. She knew the side effects, but it was youte shocking to feel nothing. Scratch that, it wasn't even shocking.
After a shower, waffels and a big cup of steaming cafe latte, Sakura actually felt better. She knew she promised Tamiko to go shopping, as much as she didn't want to. They left the house at 1 p.m. and went to the great shopping street of Tokyo.
After 5 hours of chaning constantly and trying on about everything, they had spent 4 thousand dollars of which about a half was spent for Sakura's Louboutin heels and prada bag. Sakura didn't let Tamiko buy her any more expensive stuff so they just turned upside-down Topshop, Forever 21, Urban Outfitters and other teen stores. Tamiko insisted on buying another 2 sets of lacy lingerie for Sakura. She also bought one for herself. It had been a long time since she and Saburo had a proper love life. As for Sakura, she never knew when this beautiful girl would get a boyfriend. So she better bought her lingerie in advance. Or just because she loved buying cute stuff.
When they were finally home, both of them felt exhausted, but happy. Sakura was actually pleased with all the new stuff she got. She wantedd to look beautiful this year. She didn't know why, but she did.
School was about to start next week. It was spring holidays currently. Sakura had few days to get all of her homework together.
It was the morning of Monday, first back to school day for Sakura. She was nervous. Oh so nervous.
She could barely eat French toast, the cook made for her. Tamiko said she would go with Sakura in the car. They both sat in silence for a while.
-You know, all your friends are going to be there. Just be friendly and you will feel comfortable with them again. Just do me a favor... – Tamiko left off.
-Yes? What kind of favor? – Sakura asked eager to know what Tamiko wanted from her.
-Maybe, if you can. Try avoiding Sasuke Uchiha...
-Why should I? I like him, he is also one of the friend group I am trying to fit in. – Sakura answered, wondering why such a favor.
-Well, if you can't then don't. His father came to talk to Saburo a couple of times. He used many bad words, but we understood that he doesn't want his son to contact with someone like you. I'm sorry to tell you that, but I just wanted you to know. If everyone is friendly then be it, but if he is ignoring you, don't push it. – Tamiko told Sakura and waited for a burst of arguments, but instead had a normal answer.
-That actually sounds reasonable. I do understand him. Uchiha-sama I mean. I will try if I can. – Sakura answered calmly, but inside she was slowly getting angry.
What does he think he is? I am not a nut, yes I have problems, yes I have been abused, yes I tryed to kill myself twice, but I am not a nut! Oh... who am I kidding. I am obviously crazy...
Sakura thought to herself and calmed down. He was right and she knew it.
Sakura walked trough the hallway filled with students. Most of them looked back at her. Some whispered, and gossiped like she wasn't even standing there. Some tryed to see her vains and face. Sakura felt awkward walking all alone. She felt sick of these predators who only cared for other people's pain. They were mean, but they didn't know what Sakura felt, they only thought that she is one crazy person.
Sakura went into the classroom and everyone greeted her warmly. They were truly happy to see her.
-Wlecome back Sakura. I hope you are feeling better and won't scare us like that anymore. – Kakashi sensei said.
-I am glad to be back and I won't. – Sakura answered during a hug between her, Ino and Hinata.
-W...www...we...welcome back Sakura! – Hinata said and hugged Sakura awkwardly.
Naruto jumped to Sakura and hugged her and was speaking way too fast to understand. He did feel kind of responsible. But Sakura didn't hold a grudge on him. She understood.
-Since you were gone for such a long time, Ino is now sitting with Hinata, but you can sit with Sasuke. – Kakashi sensei said.
-Ughu... – Sakura murmured while her mind was racing for a solution. She didn't know if she should talk to him or just ignore him. Also by this moment she saw that no relationship between her classmates had changed. Naruto still glanced at Hinata now and then and made her blush wildly. A half year still didn't give him a chance to atleast become good friends with her. She did hear somekind of a gossip that Sasuke had left his 4th girlfriend. Sakura did believe that he was that guy every school has, the one that makes every girl want to have sex with him. They were all so disgusting. They would look daring just for him to notice and go sleep around so he would think they are good enough for him. It really made Sakura sick. Now shehad to sit with him.
-Hi. – Sakura said and sat at her chair not waiting for an answer.
-Hn. – he murmuredand ignored her.
I wonder what she thinks of me. She has changed a lot. What happened to her was horrible, but she is sick. I shouldn't even bother. But why do I even car? I don't. No, I am lyingto myself. I do care and I don't know why. Not that she is like any other girl I like. They are all hot. She is too, but she is also awkward and doesn't know that. It makes it even more as a turn on. Awkward sexy girls are the best. And she smells so good. Are those strawberries? Her skin looks so soft... arghh, I am getting turned on by a psycho! I need to get a new girlfriend. Or just a good fuck.
Sasuke's inner fight was over and he decided to ignore Sakura and get some great sex to forget her instead.
The rest of Sakura's day went well. She decided to ignore Sasuke aswell. It was going great this far.
While she was standing in the line at the cafeteria, she noticed this red headed punk dude. He was very good looking, also she could see his muscles from under his shirt while he mooved. He wore liner. Sakura lol'd but continued to look. He was kind of hot. She didn't feel an emotional interest in him, but she would shure love to let her fingers slide trough his smooth hair and touch his perfectly sculpted muscles.
What am I thinking. I have allmost planned a whole evening and night with him. I don't even know what's his name. Stop thinking this Sakura. You just got out of nut house. Chill girl. Okay, I can't. He is so damn hot! Of course he is not like Sasuke with whom I would like to spend the... not a damn moment together. Yeah, I could try this guy. A boyfriend would wonderfully take my free time away. I wouldn't be able to think that much about death. What am I kidding, he probably has a girlfriend...
Later at their table Ino started whispering to Sakura.
-I saw you looking at that hotty! His name is Gaara. He transfered here after New Year. He is single. I think you have a good chance. Girls love him. Although he isn't as popular as Sasuke, few of Sasuke's „fans" have switched sides for Gaaras good. Sasuke hates him. Also Gaara thinks Sasuke is an arrogantt jerk, which he is eventhought he is our friend.
Sakura thought about what Ino said and decided to try her luck with Gaara. She hadn't dated a single guy before so shee didn't quite know how to aproach him.
-Just go and sai hi! – Ino suggested seeing Sakura's struggle.
Sakura chewed on her lip and then went to him. He was standing in the hallway looking at tehe bulletin board. When he saw Sakura he gave her wink. Sakura was quite shocked.
-Hi, I'm Gaara. I see that your'e a new student here. Why would such a cute thing like you change schools? – Gaara asked in a low, sexy voice. Even his voice was sexy.
Sakura giggled like a fool and just then answered.
-I'm Sakura. I'm not new, I was learning here from September, but then I left on October due to an illness. – Sakura answered still looking in his dark brown eyes.
-Sakura, eh? You must be the girl who went to psychiotric clinicc, right? Well, I do hope that you are feeling better know and that they didn't give that awful tranquilization medicibe? – Gaara asked and seemed like he knows a lot about medicine.
-Mmmm...yeah it's me. Yeah, the tranquilizator sucks. Instead of calming your emotions, it erases them. How do you know about that? – Sakura was quite surprised. Did he had a relative in a condition like her? Did he had a friend with problems like her's?
-Meh, I spent 3 months there. Last year. It sucked hard. I hate the medication they give. I was a junkie, you know. Serious drug addict. Overdosed with a purpose to die. Didn't quite work out. But I am trough with it now. You kind of pull bad memories out in the daylight... – Gaara spoke while Sakura remembered to close her mouth from jaw dropping.
-Oh...I'm...I'm sorry...I guess... – she said and thought it would be a great moment to leave.
-Oh no! Don't feel sorry. It's ok. I like it actually. I can feel like myself, you know? It was nice talking to you. We should hang out sometime. You know, Tenten is having a party this Friday, if your folks trust you it is going to be an all nighter. You should come. It'll be fun. – Gaara asked Sakura for a date! It was so strange to hear his smooth voice say her name like that. You know, like that.
After school she, Hinata and Ino decided to go for a coffee at Starbucks. Sakura called Tamiko to reassure her that everything is fine. Ino and Hinata were sipping on their coffees, but Sakura was seriously thinking about Friday.
-Gaara asked me to Tenten's party. He said it would be fun if I came. – Sakura said while Ino and Hinata were spitting their coffees out.
-Holy fuck! Gaara! You go girl! He is like, so hot... mm sorry, he might be your's soon. Anyway, what are you going to wear? You have to wear sexy lingerie. Agent Provocateur, atleast. And a dress, or thight pants. And you should leave your hair out. It looks better like that not like now, in a bun. I have to see this. I am going aswell. Hinata, what about you? – Ino said all this in allmost one breath.
-Well, if Naruto is going to be there. I might go. – She said and blushed furiously.
-He'll be there if I tell him you're going to be there. And you are, so I will. So, Sakura, how about that lingerie? – Ino asked in a suggesting voice.
-It's not like I'm going to fuck with him. Don't go oveer the top. I might kiss him and blame it on booze or something. But I'm not intending to have sex with him.
-Well, it would be too soon. But still, better come prepared than sorry. Also, sexy lingerie makes you feel sexy even if no one can see it.
-That might be the reason why Tamiko bought me six sets of lingerie, they are all very grown up and do-me-here looking. – Sakura responded, but decided to wear it anyway.
They talked about school, boys, fashion, sex, parties, school, home, parents, school and oh, did I mention, school?
Sorry for not updating. School is getting on my nerves. Sorry for all the spelling and other mistakes. My laptop's keyboard is glitchin' for some reason. It might e the food stuck in there. Anyway, I hope you enjoy this chapter. Thank you for adding this story to your alerts. It is my first and means a lot to me.