AN: Hi! I am so, so sorry for making you all wait so long for an update. And for anyone who read my profile, my three chapters were in my notebook, but tragically, I lost those in the rental car, so someone else has my work. I am sorry for anyone who was angry. Anyway, here is the next chapter.
Because of You
Chapter Four
By: Alexandra Warkel
Due to my "conditions," the hospital would not allow me to apparate or floo to the Burrow. They rented two ministry cars. Mr. and Mrs. Weasley, Charlie, George, and Ginny went in one, while Bill, Harry, Fred and I went into the other. The seats were on the sides of the vehicle, making the inside seem like a limousine. Bill and Fred sat on one side, while Harry and I sat on the other. When the car started moving I purposefully stared out the window; I didn't want to talk.
"What's wrong, 'Mione?" asked Harry. If he thinks he understands women, he's wrong. He might as well have asked "What's in your life that doesn't make you want to kill yourself?" It would have been a shorter and a whole hell of a lot easier answer.
"Nothing's wrong, Harry. I just wanted to think and sort things out."
"Wanna talk it out with us. Might be better if you had some advice," said Bill gently.
"I just…." My voice trailed off.
"You just what?" asked Harry. My eyes started to become tear-eyed. Next thing I know, Harry is no longer sitting by me and Fred is, wrapping his arms around me. Once again, I broke down crying; I did that for about twenty minutes, before crying myself to sleep.
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I woke up an hour later to find myself positioned between Fred's legs; my head against his chest; his own sleeping breaths beating down on my bare neck. I shivered in pleasure. I looked at his face and realized when he was sleeping, he looked like an angel. I found myself wanting to touch his face. I looked over at Bill and Harry. They were asleep and decided to give myself a little bit of happiness. I turned back to Fred and I gently placed my hand on the right side of his face. My thumb started to caress his face when all of a sudden Fred leaned his head towards my touch. I was so memorized by this, I didn't realize his eyes had opened.
"Fred! I'm so sorry! I don't know what came over me," I said as I started pulling my hand away. But Fred didn't let me get that far. He grabbed my hand with his and placed it back on his face keeping his hand covering mine, he once again leaned his face on my hand, looking into my eyes. He started lowering his face toward mine and I tilted my chin upward. He was so close; I could feel his breath on my lips. He started to close the gap and…
"Aren't you guys cozy?" Fred and I sprang apart only find Bill and Harry laughing hysterically. Fred turned bright red. I, however, was sad. I had never been kissed other when He forced me. I had never known how it felt being kissed by someone you liked. Was it the same or was it tender and gentle like all those romance books I read that my mother gave?
Bill noticed my change. "Something wrong?" Luckily, I was saved from that question by arriving at the Burrow. I opened the door of the car and ran to the backyard. I had gone to the single tree in their backyard and sat against the tree trunk.
I heard footsteps coming near me. "'Mione?" That's when I realized it was Fred. "Why are you here? How can you stand being around me after all that ahs happened to me? I am gross, used, and defiled. How can you be around me?"
"Don't you ever think that!" This was the first time I had ever seen Fred angry. "Did you want your father to rape you?" he yelled. By now, the Weasley clan and Harry (from now on, when I say the Weasley's, I mean Harry too!) had come outside to see why Fred was yelling. They, apparently, had never seen Fred angry either.
"No," I whispered in a timid voice.
"Did you get pregnant on purpose?"
"No."
"Then why the bloody hell do you think that about yourself?"
By now, I was getting angry. "Because that is what He said every damn day to me for the past three years! What else am I supposed to think, Fred?" I yelled back.
"You are…" He stopped yelling. "Wait a minute. Three years? Hermione? Are you telling me that your father raped you more than once?"
I turned my head away from him and the rest of them. "Hermione? Answer me please?"
"No! I don't need to tell any of you anything!" Fred grabbed my wrists.
"Hermione! I understand that, but..."
"NO!" I yelled as I tried to pull away. Tears were pouring down my face. "Hermione?" I fell to his chest where he held me. "It will be alright Hermione. You are the most talented, smartest, and most beautiful witch I have ever had the pleasure of meeting. You will get through this," he whispered in my ear.
"C'mon. We will go to my room where we can talk without the rest of them watching okay?"
"Okay," I replied weakly. And with that, Fred picked me up bridal style. I felt pleasurable electric shocks where his arms held me. I felt so safe and secure with him. He carried me past all the Weasleys and inside the house to his room.
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Fred gently laid me down on his bed and sat down near me head, his hand stroking my hair. "Want to tell me what's wrong?"
"Which time? The one where I wouldn't talk in the car, the one where I ran out of the car or the argument by the tree?"
"Let's try when we were in the car."
"I was thinking about the doctor and when he told me I had lost my baby girl. When you miscarriage, you are supposed to vomit blood. I never did. I don't think my child is dead."
"There is a way that you did miscarriage, but not due that. You could have been pregnant with twins, or triplets, or something along that line," whispered Fred.
"I want a second opinion. Is there any way your family could find other doctor in St. Mungo's that would retest me?"
"Yeah, we could do that for you." I fell silent. "What about the argument by the tree?" he asked hesitantly.
"What about it, Fred?"
"I still am waiting for an answer from my question. I understand if you don't want to talk about it yet, but talking about it will help you heal and get over this 'Mione. Did your father rape you more than once?"
I was hesitant. 'What if Fred turned against me? What if I told him the truth, and he left me, feeling disgusted by me? No, this is Fred. He wouldn't do that to me. Would he?' He could tell I was having this inner conflict. "Hermione, I would never hurt you. I won't leave you and feel disgusted. None of this is your fault. It never was." I nodded at his words and felt reassured.
"Yes, for the past year. The first year, he beat me about once a week. I guess that wasn't enough because the second year, he started beating my mother too, only it was every night. It was this year when he started to… to."
"It's okay. I know what you were going to say." He was silent for a little while. "I want you to remember this. This whole thing was your father's doing. It was never yours or your mother's fault. You did not bring this on yourself. Do you understand me?" I nodded.
"Please tell me why you ran away from the car."
I shook my head furiously. "It wasn't important."
"It is something important to you. You wouldn't have left that suddenly and been so affected by nothing."
I sighed. "I have never …"
"Never what, 'Mione?"
"I have never been kissed by anyone other when he forced me. I was upset that Bill and Harry stopped that from happening."
"I see. Well, I am going to let you sleep Hermione. You need rest, doctor's orders. Oh, and I think I can help you." With that, Fred Weasley kissed me gently on the lips. I was wrong. It was gentle and tender, but it was also wonderful and loving, something I never had expected.
AN: There is the next chapter. I hope you liked it. From now on, the actual plot is coming in, and it will be moving more quickly.
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