Our lips meet and the world we knew shattered. Lavi's self control was broken and everything he knew, everything he was brought up to be was gone in a flash. He was to be a Bookman...a man who was to only observe and record all things to be important in history and have no ties to emotion. Yet here he is kissing the one woman who has ever been able to bring this side of him out. He just couldn't deny himself anymore. He was foolish to think he could control himself and be the person he is to be expected of. As our lips move together, he knew this will be the beginning of something that could jeopardize his whole being and the way of the bookman. We both pull away for breathe and we both just stare at each other. I could see a war going on in his eye. Conflicted between reality and what he truly wants. Why does it have to be like this!? Why do Bookman have to be rid of there emotions!? I'm unable to do anything, but stare at him. I can feel her eyes on me and I can't seem to bring myself to look at her. I just told her how I feel, so why do I feel guilt building up!? I feel totally lost, being with you has opened my eyes. I feel cornered, because I want her so much! I can try to forget this ever happened and tell her it was a heat of the moment...but knowing we both feel the same for each other has me going crazy! " What doe's your heart tell you?" I suddenly look up at her to see tears at the side of her eyes. I couldn't help but blurt the question out as it was going through my head. My eyes started to water as I aske the question. I can't live on a fairytale of lies, but I can't seem to run away from these feeling because they feel so right! I must know what he wants to do. He's the one who is struggling with his emotions. Having your emotions under lock and key for as long as he has must be hard to come to terms with.

For most of my live I have been brought up with the way of the Bookman. I have had 49 different alias and have completely forgotten my real name. I want to be with her so bad because...because I love her! I'm so tired of all of this! I look on at Lavi as he battles his war. I can't take it! I hate to see him suffer for what he truly feels. Before I could register what I did, I capture his face in my hands and kiss him. He's shocked for a second, but soon starts kissing her back. God her lips feel so good! He soon takes dominance over the passionate kiss and turns it into a fierce one. He slows down a bit when he tastes the salt on her lips from her tears earlier. I know it's wrong, but it just feels so right. If the old panda ever found out, he would certainly kill me. Although I'm pretty sure the old geezer knows I have feelings towards Yuri. Lately I've been spacing out and I'm sure he's noticed it. He won't say anything until the very moment he thinks I've dropped to deep into my emotions. Although I think I have already hit the bottom and he's not here to tell me so. I suddenly feel Lavi tense and I feel him push deeper into the kiss and I moan. It's like something switched on inside his head and he's going with his emotions. The old panda isn't here to control me! I can let go of all the emotions that I have been holding in and finally show her of how much I care for her.

Before they both knew it, Lavi had pushed Yuri onto the bed and is hovering over her. They both are breathing heavy now from the intense kiss." What happened?" I ask as I stroke Lavi's hair. He looks at me with a soft expression on his face." I realised that I can't run from you anymore." I was stunned for a second, but then a smile comes across my face. I'm so happy he decided to finally realise his emotions." But what about Bookman?" He looked sad for a moment, but then said" I will deal with him when we go back. But for now I just want to be with you." I give him a troubled look, but he just smiles." Keep making that face and it will get stuck like that." he says whiles chuckling. I pout and give him a slight slap on the arm" your so mean!" I say, but he just laughs." Come on. we better go back out into the town before Duncan goes on a rampage to find us." he says whiles pulling us both off the bed. He gives a small peck on my lips before heading to the door. Can it really be as easy as that. I look on at Lavi and I feel a twinge of worry built up. What's going to happen!? I don't really know how the Bookman clan deal with this sort of stuff. I mean, surely it's happened before. Lavi can't be the only one who has gave into his emotions. Once we go back, I think I'm going to do some research into the Bookman clan. I would hate for Lavi to be punished for giving into his emotions over a silly little girl like me. I'm only a spec of dust in the larger scheme of things and if he caves in over that then they might not see him fit for a Bookman anymore.

"Lavi! Yuri!" We see Duncan running towards us from the town market." Where have you guys been?" He asks us. He then notices the bandage on my head." Yuri! what happened!?" my hand instantly goes to the bandage" oh this. me and Lavi came across some akuma at the top of the hill and well..." I say whiles chuckling. Duncan shakes his head." Well as long as your alright." Duncan's face suddenly goes serious" I've got some information on the woman who has disappeared." Me and Lavi nods for him to continue" The parents of the young woman said that she was acting weird a couple of hours before her disappearing act." I suddenly feel a chill go down my spine." What do you mean by weird?" Lavi asks." They said she was spacing out at dinner, and that her eyes looked lifeless." Lifeless!? what in the world could be happening!?" Okay. we need to investigate more." We all agreed that we would ask more questions and try to find out a bit more about the people who have gone missing. Me and Lavi go one way and Duncan goes the other as we search for more answers." We would like to ask some questions about your son. If that's alright?" We go to the house of the first victim, who was a young lad who was a farmer with his dad. The father of the son, looked at his wife, who was just staring at the floor with a sad expression." As you've properly heard, our son disappeared about week ago." We both nod." He...he had just finished working with me on the farm, just a few hours before he went missing." The mother of the son still hadn't even said a word and was just staring at the floor still." Did he act strange at all?" the father gave us a questionable look." What do you mean by strange?" We look at each other." Well...the family of the young girl who has just gone missing, said she was acting weird before she disappeared. Was just wondering if your son was acting odd at all." I say. The father suddenly looks mad." How dare you ask such ridiculous questions!? who are you two anyway and why are you interested our sons disappearance!? I want you both to leave at once!" We are shocked from the sudden outburst." We are sorry sir, if we have caused an offence. We just wanted to know what was happening. don't you want to know what's happened to your son?" I say with a stern look. Why did he act like that all of a sudden? has he got something he's not telling us. Before the man could respond, the mother suddenly speaks up " I do!" We all look at her from the sudden comment. She looks at me straight in the eyes and says" I do wish to know what's happened to our son" I could tell this was hard for her, but she had a look of determination on her face.

"Lila..." I look to see that he had a look of guilt on his face. He sits back down, and he holds her hand in his." I'm sorry strangers. It's just...it's been very difficult to handle all of this." I give a faint smile." I know. I too have felt your pain, but you mustn't give up." She looks at me intensely." I recognise you from somewhere. What's your name child?" I smile a bit and say" Yes. I used to live here long time ago. My name is Yuri." Her eyes go wide " Oh! your James and Lizzy's child aren't you! I thought I recognised those warm eyes of yours." She says smiling at me. I feel warm and fuzzy when she mentioned my parents names. I'm glad people still have fond memory's of them." Yes I am." She then give's me a pained look" I'm so sorry for what happened all those years ago. Not just your parents, but Kaylin as well. You were only a child. You shouldn't have gone through all that." The room falls quit for a while as I recall what happened again for the third time that day. The father suddenly spoke up " I don't mean to bring up the past but...what happened to you? After all that happened you just went. No note, no goodbyes, nothing. Even all your stuff was still at the home." I could feel Lavi's eye on me. Did she do that!? As I look at Yuri I could see a cold haze in her eyes. Why would she do that!? She clearly had good friends here, so why? Here parents seem to have been good people and they have fond memories of her and her brother when they where younger. I could see a confused Lavi beside me and I didn't know what to say. Lila suddenly speaks" Perhaps she had her reasons. Brian didn't mean to bring up the past Sweety." I snap out of my trance to see a warm smile of a caring mother. My heart aches." No...it's fine." I say giving a reassuring smile." Anyway. back to the question if you don't mind." I say. They both nod." He did seems a bit odd when he sat down for dinner after working with Brian. I didn't say anything, because at the time he was having problems with his fiancé." " He had a fiancé?" They both nod." Yes. They had an argument that morning." So he has a argument the morning before he disappears." Actually, I do believe the young girl who has disappeared had a fiancé as well." So they both had a fiancé. Perhaps she had an argument as well? Maybe what is happing, is targeting the ones who are having a problem with there love ones...

~Author note~

~Heya guys! Thank you for reading my story thus far. I hope your enjoying it! I am trying to get as many chapters done as quick as I can, but obviously reality calls so I don't have much time spare :( This is my first ever attempt at a story so bare with, and hope Lavi and other -Man characters aren't to OOC. Thank you again for taking the time to read my story!~