A/N: Here you go, chapter 4 and like i promised, this will have McGiva romance so i hope u guys enjoy it. theres a bit of a suprise with this chapter that ill let you guys find out, hope u guys like it.
p.s. this chapter contains spoilers for judgement day, so if u dont know what happen (yet for some reason ur still watching the current seasons) then hold off and watch that first.
Just another Friday night. I'm stuck in this apartment again mainly because I'm not allowed to leave on my own. I can only go out with my master and follow his rules. Oh well, I guess it's better than the alternative. He saved me from the pound. Well the woman Abby did but he was the one who took me in and let me live here. Good guy…even after what I did to him.
I'm just gonna have wait for him to return so I can go outside and stretch my legs. But he's taking longer than usual. I may not be able to look at a clock and tell time like all you people but I know exactly when he usually gets home and when he's early or late in this case. A dog always knows.
I was lying in my bed by the desk wondering what was taking him so long. He sometimes gets home late but he always tries to get here as soon as possible when he is.
CAT! I hear it. It's around here I know it is, I heard it make a noise. I walk around the apartment looking for it but I can't seem to find it. It's here, maybe next door. I hope not otherwise it'll out of my reach. Enjoy the time you have, I'll get you, you damn cat.
I was walking back to my bed when I heard that familiar sound of the door unlocking and opening. I got excited when I heard laughter not just from my master but from another person as well.
When I got in view I saw coming in with my master McGee that woman he works with. That dominant one yet who is always so sweet to me. Ziva, I like her. The two of them walked in with Tim holding Ziva up and helping her walk.
"I regretted that last drink even before I drank it," McGee said continuing a conversation they had before entering the apartment, "I wouldn't have gotten this on my hand."
He held up his right hand referring to the large band aid on the back of his hand.
"You say you regret it MA-gee but I- I am sure despite your injuries that it will be worth it in the end," Ziva replied slurring her words, "hello Jethro."
She reached down and rubbed the top of my head as they passed by and headed to the bedroom. They both been drinking that much is obvious. They usually don't get this drunk, especially my master, unless something really dramatic or frustrating happened. I follow them wondering what could be causing them such stress, despite the smiles on their faces that mask it.
McGee sits Ziva on the edge of the bed then sits next to her. Ziva scoots over and places her head on McGee's shoulder causing him to blush but otherwise act as if he's use to it.
"Just relax, you had fun right," Ziva said to him looking at his lap.
"Yeah I had fun," McGee replied looking at his bedroom doorway, "thanks for taking me."
"Of course McGee. You were the best choice."
"I don't see how though. Abby or Tony would seem like the better choice for having a fun night."
"Maybe but when I asked myself who should I go out with tonight, who will I have the best time with before I have to leave for Israel, who will help me forget about Jenny, at least just for tonight and you were the obvious choice and nothing could convince me otherwise."
There was another reason. I could tell looking at her that underneath what humans would think is that is why she has this look in her eyes, I could tell there was more. She seemed almost nervous admitting it. Unfortunately my master is just human and couldn't sense it.
"I'm really gonna miss you Ziva," my young master said, "It's not gonna be the same once you're gone."
"I will miss you greatly too McGee," Ziva replied, "and everyone else as well. I will never forget any of you."
"You sound like you're sure you're never coming back."
Ziva didn't say anything, only placed her hand on McGee's thigh and lightly squeezed it. McGee suddenly turned his body to face her, causing her head to leave his shoulder.
"No, don't think like that Ziva," he said, "you won't be gone forever. You'll come back. Remember what I told you in the bar? What I said about Gibbs?"
"That he will not allow his team to be separated," Ziva answered, "he barge into Director Vance's office every day until we are together again.
"Exactly. Gibbs won't ever give up."
"I am just doubtful if he could do it. I trust Gibbs will do what he can but he is only a man. Vance seems like he will not easily be swayed."
"I will do what I can too. I'll talk to Vance directly and demand it. I'll hack into the immigration database and change it so that it says you're an American citizen."
"That is sweet of you to say but you will not willingly break the law McGee," Ziva said giggling, "especially over me."
"Of course I will," McGee exclaimed, "I'll do anything for you. I don't care if Vance fires me or if I get sent to prison."
"Do not say that. I care Tim. And I know you do too. I will not let you do or even think foolish thoughts because of me."
"I can't lose you Ziva. You're too important to this team. Vance doesn't realize that but Gibbs and I will make him realize that. Abby will make him realize that. When Tony returns from being afloat he'll talk to Vance too. There's no way he'll keep you away from me- us. There is no way he'll keep you away from us."
"I appreciate what you are saying but there is-"
"No listen to me Ziva. Quit thinking that you'll never return, that we won't be able to convince Vance because you are wrong and I'm gonna prove it to you. I'll be right there when you return. You'll see."
McGee held Ziva by the side of her face and jaw, his thumb caressing her cheek. She looked up at him to see his emerald eyes full of determination and resolve. Looking at them, getting lost in them she felt safe, as if what he said was possible.
"You'll see," McGee repeated, "trust me."
"Thank you Tim," Ziva whispered.
She removed his left hand with her right and intertwined her fingers with his. He responded by giving her a hand a soft squeeze. She looked at their hands, her eyes starting to water. She suddenly leaned forward and stopped inches from McGee's face, a momentary hesitation, causing the young man to gasp in surprise. Taking a deep breath she closed the distance and took his lips in hers.
Momentarily stunned from surprise, McGee closed his eyes and gave in, surrendering to her kiss. He could feel the tears she finally let out, fall upon their lips but ignored them as he savored the feeling of her soft lips on his, both of them tightening their grips on their hands.
She laid back onto the bed taking McGee with her, their lips never breaking their connection. McGee ran his hands through her hair as she placed her hands on his arms and wrapped both her legs around his left. When their lips finally separated, Ziva tried to regain her breath but McGee moved to her chin then to her jaw line down to her neck, kissing her skin the whole way. Ziva felt a tingling run up her back spine as McGee slowly kissed up and down her neck and stopping only to suck lightly on the skin.
"Ziva," he whispered his warm breath soothing to her skin.
"Tim," she replied back softly as she wrapped her arms around his back, grabbing the shirt into her fist.
"Ziva wait."
McGee listed himself up and looked down onto her pained expression.
"You can't," he said to her, "you-you can't."
Ziva looked up at him, into his eyes, and felt her heart breaking. McGee moved off of her allowing her to sit up.
"I am sorry," she said, her voice not indicating the break in her chest or the pain in her eyes, "I=I didn't mean to take it this far. I'm sorry."
"Don't be," McGee said.
"I must. I shouldn't have kissed you when you don't have feelings for me that are more than friendship. I could have ruined that."
"No that's not it. You're wrong. I-"
McGee sat up and looked at her nervously, his mind thinking up what to say.
"Listen, I-I was-," McGee stumbled; he started to absent mindedly play with his pant leg, "I do want you more than just a friend."
Ziva looked back up to him but he didn't look up from his legs.
"I've always had this crush on you for a long time now," he continued, "I think it started when we first talked a couple days after you arrived. At first I thought it was just an infatuation but it never went away as time went on."
"Why did not you ever say anything," Ziva asked in almost a whisper.
"Because I was scared. I didn't think you would ever feel the same about me. You're way out of my league. I just didn't see how a woman as great as you can ever fall for-for me."
McGee paused to take a deep breath for his next words.
"Ziva…I love you."
For a second Ziva stopped breathing, she couldn't believe what she just heard. She has been hoping to hear him say that but never thought he would.
"Then why did you stop," she asked, her voice still soft as if afraid to scare him off.
"Because I don't want you to regret going out with me tonight," McGee said.
"Regret it? What makes you think I would regret any of this?"
"You had a little too much to drink and right now you're vulnerable. You mind isn't in the right place. I just don't want you to regret it when the alcohol wore off and the morning came."
"Look at me Tim," Ziva said, grabbing his face and making him look at her, "look at me. I may be really drunk right now and I may be really broken up about Jenny's death but none of that is affecting how I feel right now. I have enough self awareness right now to know what I am doing."
McGee looked her with a look in his eyes that was a cross of confusion, doubt and pleading.
"Do you know the real reason why I chose you to go out with tonight," Ziva paused for a moment then took a deep breath of her own, "it was because if this is my last day in America, with NCIS and the team, then I want to spend it with you."
And there it was. The real reason I sensed she was not telling earlier. It was McGee's turn to be surprised. I saw his eyes widen and his breathing increase understanding what she was trying to say.
"I have also had a crush, as you say, on you," Ziva continued, "I can't tell you when it happened, just that for a long time now I have always liked you. Maybe it started around the same time as you, you were the first to accept me as part of the team and you encouraging words helped me keep going. At first you were just close friend to me, someone I could trust, then…"
Ziva went silent again; she released McGee's face and lowered them to hold his hands in hers. She could feel the band aid in his right but it didn't take away any of the feeling of holding his hand. She looked into McGee's eyes trying to convey what she wanted to say. She knew that he understood that she had trouble expressing her feelings but she couldn't help but hope he knew what she was saying without out having to say them.
"My goal tonight was to have one more chance to tell you-" Ziva paused making McGee hold his breath, "…I love you too Tim."
The whole world seemed to have frozen in time; nothing made a noise or moved an inch, not even my tail was wagging. The two agents looked at each other, her chocolate eyes meeting his emerald. McGee's mouth made slight movements as if he was trying to find the right words but nothing came out. Seeing this, Ziva brought her hands up to his face again and gave him a small smile.
"If it makes you feel better though, if you want to be absolutely sure that this is my true feeling, than I am willing to wait," she said to him, "we can hold off on this until another time when we both are sober and awake."
"But you're leaving tomorrow," McGee exclaimed letting out the breath he didn't know he was holding, "we might not get another chance."
"McGee, are you saying that you do not believe what you told me earlier."
"I-I don't…I do believe it."
"And I believed you when you said it. I know you and Gibbs will bring us together again. Then we can talk about this and hopefully we can make it official as they say and we can start dating. Now I got something to keep me going and never give up when I am in Israel."
"I'm…I'm just scared that-"
"That I would change my mind while I am gone."
"Yeah."
"Tim."
She gently pulled his head down and kissed his forehead then placed his head on her chest, wrapping her arms around him.
"Nothing will make me change my mind," she assured him, "I only want you and I will wait as long as it takes."
Tim fell silent and didn't move, making Ziva suspect that he was still doubtful. After being hurt so many times in a relationship that it has left him vulnerable and scared of being in another one so quickly due to fear that it will be another repeat of heartbreak and sorrow. She couldn't understand how anyone could reject McGee and treat him as if he just another play thing, to have fun with for a bit and later forget. A flash of anger crossed her mind as she vowed to avenge McGee and punish all those women including Abby herself.
She was suddenly brought back to that room when McGee stirred in her arms. He adjusted his position and snuggled his body closer hers.
"Don't leave," he said, "please stay."
"I never intended to leave," she assured him, "tonight, I just want you."
The two agents sat there for what seemed like hours before exhaustion overtook them both. They got underneath the cover, McGee behind Ziva, wrapping his arms around her stomach and Ziva placing her arms around his and gently stroking them. McGee placed his head at her neck and just held her before he finally passed out, surrendering to his tiredness. Ziva stayed awake longer, staring off into the distance.
I got up and walked over to her side and placed my head on the on the bed. She smiled and placed her hand on my head, rubbing my fur with her fingers. I looked at her eyes and studied her for a bit. She was different then the other females McGee has brought home. She was telling the truth to his master and best friend. She loved him and would anything for him. She will make the perfect companion for him. She'll protect outside this apartment where he can't go and she will never intentionally hurt him. This I can tell. I'm sure of it.
A dog always knows.
A/N: there you go chapter 4. let me kno what you guys think. i love hearing feedback. i'll try to have chapter 5 up in a couple days or so, so hopefully nothing stops me. See you guys then.