Detox
I woke up hearing the doctor talking to my parents. I struggled to keep my eyes open. "This was a very close call, she's overtired and needs to rest," his reassuring voice comforted. "Eli," I thought. I looked over and across my room and there was Eli slouched on a chair sleeping. His eyes were red and puffy. To say the least, he looked like hell. It pained me to see him so messed up because of me.
My thought was interrupted when my parents flung to my side. "Oh, Clare honey how are you feeling?" my mom cooed. "I'm okay," I said as my dad tucked a piece of my curly auburn hair behind my ear. Eli turned in his chair, and rubbed at his eyes. My parents saw my gaze that lead toward him and excused themselves to get some coffee.
"Did you get some rest sleepyhead?" he asked sarcastically. "How could I get some sleep with you snoring over there?" I chuckled. He laughed and smirked that signature smirk that made my stomach flutter. The moment was harshly bombarded by his soft voice whispering, "You scared me." I looked him in his emerald eyes as his face was suddenly flooded by tears. "I know, the doctor said that I just needed rest," I assured. But something about that statement bothered me. I don't know if it was the fact that I didn't believe it, or the fact that I knew he didn't either.
"Ok, well then I'll leave you to get some rest," he stated getting up and grabbing his jacket. "Please, don't leave," I begged. "Ok, but only because you begged," he smirked as he lay down on the bed next to me. We sat there and talked about random stuff. Emotionally I was so high, that words couldn't describe the feeling. But physically I was just tired. Tired of hiding from Eli. Tired of hurting. Tired of trying to convince myself that everything was going to get better.
"I have to show you something," I blurted out. I rolled up my sleeve and showed him the bruises. His mouth dropped and he touched one of the bruises and I flinched at the contact. Tears rolled down his eyes and this time he didn't try to hide them. I tried to comfort him, but I guess it was just too much for him. And later that day when I started coughing up blood, he cracked. Blood was everywhere, and I was having a hard time staying calm. He started sobbing uncontrollably. And then he started hyperventilating so bad that they had to give him an oxygen mask. I couldn't do this to him anywhere.
That's why I had to this. I quickly wrote the note with tears streaming down my face. Dear Eli, I love you I more than you will ever know, that's why I have to do this. You're going to be upset, but please hear me out. I couldn't let myself be the reason why you are unhappy. By the time you get this, I will be gone. I'm not going to tell you not to look for me, because I know you will. I will give you a hint to who I will be staying with. "I'm losing everyone that I love." I'm going to be at a hospital, so please don't worry about me. I love you so much and I can't allow myself to keep hurting you. And when you love someone , you make sacrifices. I want you to be happy. Love, Clare.
Eli awoke from his sleep and discovered the note. "Mr. and Ms. Edwards!" he screamed. "She's gone!" he said as tears frolicked down his face.