April 7th
Letter to Norah-Year 1Disclaimer: Still own no one!
A/N-Again, thanks to Evie, my wonderful beta. Collins quotes belongs to some ancient guy I can't name.
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4/7/1994
Dearest Bright One,
One year has gone by since you came and left so fast, stealing our hearts in the process.
Your dad and I are trying our best to cope. We're doing as well as can be expected, even though we almost didn't get through the first month or so without you. However, the second anyone mentions your name, we both end up sobbing. We miss you so much.
Most people avoid mentioning you to us. Yet, some don't hesitate to call you by name. I lost it today. Collins looked at me and said, "The Life of the dead is placed in the memory of the living." After noticing me looking confused, he added, "Norah Juliet will never be forgotten as long as someone is around to remember her." Hearing your name, Precious Girl, made me cry, and as he always is, Collins was there for me, just holding me.
Every night I sleep with your special blanket, the one you were wrapped in right after birth and the one you died in. It smells you, Our Bright One. Only Daddy knows I do this though. I don't want it out in the open. I don't want to appear weak, even though I am a mother, grieving the loss of her baby.
Words cannot truly get across just how much I miss you. Your bassinet, a gift from Uncle Roger, is still set up in the loft's corner. Sometimes, I catch Auntie April staring into it and fussing with the blankets, but only when she thinks no one's looking.
Your short visit impacted us more than you will ever know. Everyone, (Uncle Benny, Auntie April, Uncle Roger, Collins, me and Daddy) treats life a little differently.
The pain of losing you is still so fresh, but moving on gets easier and the pain gets less raw every day.
I love you, Bright One.
Love.
Mommy