A/N- Hope you enjoy it!

Sam's pov

I could hear voices talking. I figured that I could safely assume that they were talking about me considering I randomly fainted in the middle of a workout. I try to open my eyes but the light is blinding and it is too much for my body. I fall back into unconsciousness.

I'm standing beside my little sister on the sidewalk, I know what is going to happen but I am powerless to stop it. I watch helplessly as she gets knocked off her feet, right out of her shoes and dies in front of me. I remember the look of pure agony on my mother's face, the horror on Natalie's, and the General's emotionless face when they found out what had occurred. I let that happen under my care! I mentally scream at myself. How could I cause everyone so much misery at such a young age, once it started it never stopped.

Now I'm in Afghanistan, I'm being given the go ahead to shoot everything in the area. I try to stop, screaming in my head that I have stop, that Matt is down there and if I go ahead I will kill him, but I can't keep my finger from pulling the trigger. I see myself staring down at the pieces that used to be Matt and feeling the raw pain of grief all over again.

I see the General standing before me, looking as unfeeling as normal, but I can still tell that he is enraged. He raises his fist to strike me…

I wake up sweating and breathing heavily. Immediately I sit up and search for as many escape exits as I can find, that is when I notice my team standing around me anxiously waiting for me to speak. I realize I'm not in a war zone anymore, I slowly lay back down with a throbbing head. That's when I become conscious of the fact that they can see the bruises, I quickly try to cover them up.

Spike says quietly, "We've already seen them buddy".

I grimace and mutter faintly, "What do you want to know?"

In which Parker replies, "Everything."

I've immediately decide that I won't tell them about the flashbacks because they seem so worried about me and I haven't even started my story. I commence by saying that the General had come to town for a visit.

I hear Jules say, "Yeah right", under her breath, but she speaks up when she says, "Is that why you have been acting on edge this past week?"

I nod, "He said he came to see me and I almost believed that he missed me. Of course that was foolish to think, the General never does anything for pleasure. We had been talking one night and he brought up the idea of going back to the army." Seeing the looks on my teammates faces I quickly say, "I immediately refused it by saying that my place was with the SRU. I told him that I can still make a difference with them. After what happened in Afghan I wasn't going to go back. I told him that I had followed in his footsteps long enough and I was done with that, it was time I started to be my own person. I suppose that you can figure out on your own what happened next." I spit out with contempt.

The shocked looks on everyone's faces quickly turn to anger. I could tell that everybody was silently devising a plan to get rid of the General.

I speak up quickly, "As much as I despise him he is still my father."

"Has he gone back to where he belongs?", Spike asks. I can feel the hatred rolling off of him in waves.

"Luckily the answer is yes", I replied smugly.

"Don't look so happy yet mister, you haven't told us yet where those older bruises came from", Leah says almost as if she is my mother.

I quickly make a lie saying that I fell one morning on my daily jog, not wanting to tell them whole truth yet. Parker looks dubious, for a second I think that he will call me out on my lie, but instead he just shakes his head.

"We have somehow managed to have an eventful day with only one hot call, how about we call it quits and ask team 3 to come in earlier for their shift?", Ed says looking for confirmation from Greg.

Greg nods his head, " Sam go home and get some rest and for God's sake please take a break from work tomorrow before you end up in a hospital!"

I shake my head yes, but I already know that I will be at work tomorrow and that I definitely won't be getting any sleep tonight. Because I know that when I sleep that's when the demons will come and I won't be able to wake up from the never ending horrible flashback of my life.

A/N- Thank you for all of the lovely reviews! Also to my friend for helping me a bit with this chapter. Please keep reviewing and reading!