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It was Adrian. I didn't know what to do. Was he still mad at me? Has he forgiven me? I don't know, this is one of those moments were I need Dimitri.

"Hi" I said shakily

"After all you have put me through all you have to say is hi. Typical Rose Hathaway for you" he said with pain written over his face and I flinched.

"If all your going to do is yell at me I don't want to hear it. Yes I regret hurting you I wish we could be friends and I know you don't want be but I do not want to be yelled at"

"I didn't come here to yell at you Rose"

"Then why am I here? Thought you never wanted to talk to me again?"

"Because I want to know why? Why did you do it to me Rose?"

He didn't need to ask the full question I already knew what he meant.

"Because Adrian, I said I would try to get over him I never said I was. When we were away Dimitri came through he started to see life again. Feel other emotions other then guilt. I had tried to convince myself all the time I was over him but I wasn't. I tried so hard not to hurt you. I can't tell myself to love someone and not the other it doesn't work like that. I am very sorry, I wish that we could be friends ever so badly." I told him the complete truth; I wasn't going to lie to him not after what I did to him.

"Yeah well it isn't that easy to see your world come crashing on you."

"You don't think I haven't seen or felt that? How do you think I felt when I found out that Dimitri was turned strigoi? And then when he was turned back he told me love faded his had. You aren't the only one who knows that pain Adrian." I said walking closer to him "please Adrian can we go back to the way it was before our relationship, please. I know we won't be the same straight away but at least we could start talking normally." I begged. It wasn't normal for me to beg but I love Adrian, but as a brother nothing more.

"It isn't that simple Rose, I can't forget what happened." He said looking away

"But you can forgive. The rest is up to you because all I want is to become friends again, like family."

He turned around and moved closer to me looking down at me.

"So now the pressure is on me? If I choose to forgive you I have to pretend like nothing happened but if I choose to not forgive you, you are going to hate me? Great choice I have."

"I didn't mean it like that. I mean that it is up to you to decide if you want to be friends with me again, I am not choosing for you. And if you did say you wouldn't forgive me I would understand seeing as I put you through hell." I was on the verge of tears.

"My feelings are still there for you Rose. How can you expect me to get over those? As you said I cant tell my self to love someone and not someone else."

"So it's a no? You aren't going to be friends with me because you still have feelings for me?"

"Yeah that is the reason why I am saying maybe"

Thankful I accepted this answer

"Thank you, thank you for at least thinking about becoming friends again." I said leaning forward and giving him a hug catching him and myself too by surprise.

He patted my back embracing me, relaxing. The tears started to flow from my eyes.

"I miss you Adrian"

"I miss you too little dhampire" he said a smile coming to his lips.

He pulled away and wiped the tears away from my eyes.

"No need to cry. I promise to visit soon ok? I promise you"

"Ok. Promise?"

"Wouldn't even think of breaking it," he said with a reassuring look. "I have to go now little dhampire someone is waking me up. See you in a couple of months"

With one last hug he was gone in an instant and I was looking at Dimitri who had worry written all over his face. What was he so worried about?

"Rose" he said carefully "What happened?"

I was confused, what did he mean?

"What do you mean what is wrong?" my voice cracked and I felt something wet flow down my cheek and I soon realized I was crying. "What? Why am I crying?"

"I don't know, you just started crying in your sleep and I couldn't wake you up. What happened?"

"It was Adrian. We are …. Ok now. I think. He said he will come see me in a couple of months." He flinched when I said Adrian's name.

"Are you really going to believe him? Do you think he will really come see you?" he said warily

"Yes, he isn't one to lie."

There were a few moments paused. I deiced to break it.

"Are you ok?" I asked him

"It's just you were, well, you were crying and screaming out my name and that you needed me, you needed help."

"I was? I did feel like I needed you there because I didn't know what to do but I didn't think I would say it out loud."

"Yes you did and I didn't know what to do" there were very little moments when Dimitri didn't know what to do.

I cuddled into his chest and closed my eyes "I'm scared. I don't know what I will do when he comes. What if your not there?"

"I will be there. I will make sure I am." He reassured me.

"But how will you know when he is here?"

"I have my ways," he said

I knew he did. He would find a way.