A/N: so finally i m able to post the story from serena side... i had thought about writing it all in one chapter but as i tried to deal with her relations with the other two important characters of her life too... it kept getting bigger and bigger...

so this chapter answers a lot of the questions you guys might have had... the writing is lots of rubbish in parts as i tried to get it up without any more delay...

next up... the much awaited D-S showdown...

hope u enjoy.

Serena had kept herself busy by talking to blair on the way over. Trying to avoid her mind to think. But as soon as she entered the chapel she had this feeling. This feeling that something was about to happen. Like a sense of impending doom.

She finally got into her wedding dress and looking at herself in the mirror. Seeing herself in the mirror she started remembering the past year and how it came down to this day.

'don't cry serena, it will ruin your make up' blair said noticing serena.

'could you guys give me a minute… alone' she said.

Blair was about to say something but serena spoke again. 'please B…' in a tone blair had become familiar with. So she moved out along with the others to leave serena in the room alone.

As soon as blair shut the door behind her, serena let herself and every thing she had been holding came pouring out.

It had been two days since the fateful night. She had been in the hospital ever since. Dan had still not woken up. She could not think of moving herself away from dan. She had tried every thing to get dan to wake. Right from crying and pleading him to wake up telling him to she loved him and would not be able to live without him; to getting angry and blaming him for being selfish for lying there blissfully unconscious as she and every body else had been dealing with the pain and getting worried sick about him. But he was still lying in his hospital bed not aware how much she had wanted him to wake up. She would give anything for him to get up, to be okay.

Rufus' funeral had happened today. But she could not bring herself to go to it. She didn't want to leave dan alone. But more than that every time she thought about it the image of the accident came to her mind. Plus she didn't want dan to feel alone when he woke up. Not able to even attend his father' funeral would surely affect dan she knew. So she had thought that if dan didn't get to go she shouldn't either.

The next morning she received a call from vince. She let it go to voice mail not wanting to talk to him. Serena thought vince was fine and was always friendly towards. She knew he had been trying get her attention but it was all pretty harmless she had thought as she had made it pretty clear to him that she was with dan and nothing could change that fact.

Dan on the other hand had never liked him. It was mostly jealousy she had thought initially as he kept on trying to hit on her which had not gone down well with dan. But she had assured dan that she had told him there was no chance of them breaking up so he should just back and find someone else. After a little while he had reluctantly agreed to try and be civil towards him. But all that had broken down a few weeks ago at a party. Dan had lost his temper and punched vince right in the face. She had tried asking dan what had happened but all dan had said was that he didn't trust this guy. His intentions were not good and she should not meet him. She had avoided him ever since as dan had requested her to. But today he kept calling.

She finally picked her up the fifth time getting fed up by the disturbance of her phone vibrating.

'hello' she said.

'hello serena' vince replied

'I cant talk right now vince…. I m busy'

'I know but this is for your own benefit' his voice smooth this time not his usual flirtatious tone when he talked to her.

'what is it' she said flatly

'I know about dan… I think I could help' his voice turning colder.

'I somehow doubt that… you know …you trying to help dan out' she replied sensing something was up.

'I know dan is in the hospital bed next to you lying still as a rock. The doctors had given him a 72 hour window to improve but so far his condition has remained the same. He needs another surgery on his brain for him to even move a muscle again on his own accord. The risk of him getting worse from the surgery is more than you think. I can get the best surgeon on the planet fly in tonight and operate on him but it is up to you. If you want him remaining a lump of flesh and bones for the rest of his life you can hang up. But if you want him to walk again then come and meet me at my place in a couple of hours' and the line went dead.

The thought of dan not ever waking up from this hospital bed sent a shiver down her spine. She knew from the way he spoke that the help was not going to come free of cost. But she had to do something, whatever the cost. She could not just sit around and let dan slip away. Not when she had a chance to make him better. It was dan. What could be of more worth than dan's life. With that final thought she got up went outside his room.

She reached her home to change she didn't want him to see her in this way as she reeked of desperation. She told her mom that she had a meeting to get a second opinion on dan's condition as the doctors were planning the surgery for next day. She could not tell her the truth not till she had decided whether to go through on his offer or not.

She reached his house half an early. The butler asked her to wait in the study.

She had been inside for 5 minutes when he entered.

'so you decided to come after all' he started with a smug look on his face which completely betrayed his words trying to make it seem he was surprised.

'dan is a lucky guy…' he continued slyly

'not lucky enough…' she said painfully.

'he is still alive isn't he… I would call that lucky after the accident he …'

'what do you want' she said cutting him off. Not wanting to be reminded of the accident again.

'who… me?' he replied trying to make it sound like a joke.

'yes… you said on the phone that you could help dan get the best care in the world but it was upto me…. So what is it that you want from me' she said getting agitated. He was getting on her nerves already.

' you are smarter than you show' he said smirking

'what do YOU WANT'

'I … oh… I just want you' he said staring her up and down.

She could feel his eyes on her. The look on his made her want to punch him in the face like dan had. But she knew this was more important than that.

' so this is all about this again… dan is lying on a hospital bed and you want me to leave and be with you' she huffed.

' correct' he said looking amused by himself. She had enough of him.

' you know I had earlier thought of you as a friend but dan was right… you are just a stuck up asshole with more power in your hands than to know what to with it… how cheap can you get? trying to steal the girlfriend from a guy lying in a coma… you know what I can ask chuck to get any god damn surgeon to fly in tonight…. So I don't care what you want… I am leaving' she said starting towards the door.

' no you are not' he said simply as she tried fiddling with the knob only to realize it was locked.

'you seem to constantly misunderstand me serena… I do not take no for an answer… I told you in that in my first meeting… you should have listened.'

'let me go' she said wanting nothing but leave and go back to dan.

'you will go when I allow you to' he replied with a chill in his voice that made her scared.

'you asked me what I want of you… but you didn't ask what I want of dan' he said staring at her. Looking for a reaction but she couldn't move so he continued.

'I want him resting in a grave alongside his lame rockstar father'

'just because of me' she asked shocked.

'you seem to forget… he punched me in the face in front of whole of new york… in my business I cant get a man get away with such kind of thing… it ruins your reputation.'

'what business…..import/ export' she enquired.

'have you heard of Bryan Anderson…' he said waiting for her to catch up

' you mean don Anderson… the mob boss' she said finally. The revelations of the day already had her head spinning and she did not like where this was headed.

'yeah well my actual name is Vincent Bryan Anderson… and I launder money for his businesses.'

'you…. You are his son' she exclaimed

'yes… and the son of a mob boss cant really let some punk writer fist him and get away with it… so I did what had to be done' he said calmly as if it was no big deal.

'you… you caused dan's accident… you are responsible for rufus' death'

'yeah…. his dad was not the part of the plan but I never liked him anyway… I wanted him dead instead… but he survived ' He said.

'… at least for now…' Malice dripping from his words.

'I am willing to let him go in exchange to the one thing I have wanted always' he said looking at her.

'he lives… if you stay with me and never meet him again… those are terms'

'what if I say no'

'don't think that your step-brother and his little group of investigators can help you…. I own the muscle and the police in this town.'

' but… but I cant leave him' she said breaking down. She knew she had no other choice but the thought of her life without dan in it made her cringe.

Sensing that he would get what he wanted he hit the nail in the coffin.

' you know his father sacrificed his life to save him…. It made me think that maybe I can let him live as he had thought that his son's life was worth more than his… but you hesitating like this makes me think you don't consider his life to be worth it… you are not willing to give up on your relationship in exchange for his life… maybe he is worthless on his… maybe I should really go ahead and kill him'

'no' she said hurriedly.

'is that your final answer'

' no …. I mean… yes… I agree to your terms' she said

' good… now you are free to go… he will be taken care of' he said unlocking the door.

She went out of the house inhaling hard so that she could get some air to her lungs. It felt like a ton of bricks had landed on her chest as soon as she had said those words. It was getting difficult to breathe. But she tried to remember all of this was worth it. He was worth it. She closed her eyes trying get all of his memories imprinted in her mind. Because that was all she had now… memories.

The sound of the door click bought her back to the present. She looked down hurriedly and started wiping her tears with a tissue so that no one could see her crying like this. She had struggled to keep her emotions bottled up inside her for so long but she could not trip up now. Not after suffering so much to make this happen. She could not screw it all up.

She looked up into the mirror to make sure there were no signs of the tears she had been shedding appearing on it, but all that she saw was the face. The face that been the source of her dreams, the face that been in her memories that kept her going, the face that made her heart flutter, the face that could light up her day. But somehow this face was different now. Maybe it was the mirror she thought. She turned around to make sure she was not hallucinating. But he was there. Pain etched all across that adorable face of his.

Dan entered the chapel still enraged. He did not know what he was going to do. All he knew was what was happening wasn't right and he wanted answers. He had to see serena today whatever maybe the outcome. So he kept a low profile and moved towards the bride's dressing room. He saw every body come out but serena. He waited a while so that nobody could see him. Then he entered slowly entered the room.

As soon as he entered he saw her looking at the mirror teary eyed. She started wiping her face off as soon as he clicked the door shut behind them. Seeing her like this in a wedding dress bought up a gamut of emotions inside him. He could not move as he stood staring at her when she turned around to face him. Seeing her face close up made him wanting to do so many things but one of those things that kept coming up made him unable to do anything but come with…

"How could you serena…."

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