Grrr, Had to delete this chapter then re-upload it after changing mistakes, I really need to start proof reading! Sorry for all the mistakes in the previous chapters and thanks for dealing with them :L Also, thanks for the reviews everyone, I enjoy part four :)
Over the next few days, things didn't get any better. Blaine spent all the time he wasn't in class, alone in his dorm room, crying, curled up on his bed and endlessly thinking about Kurt.
Kurt said he was in love with me, so why couldn't he just kiss me? Why doesn't he want to be with me? Maybe he likes someone else too, and wants to see if it would work with them? Maybe he's scared it would be awkward between us because we were best friends. Maybe he wants a boyfriend who's taller than him. Blaine groaned.
He knew he was being silly, but he was desperate to come up with a viable reason as to why Kurt turned him down.
Of course Kurt turned him down, he thought to himself. Kurt's so perfect, and beautiful, and talented, and clever, and I'm just... me. Kurt could do so much better. That's why he turned me down.
The tears that Blaine had become accustomed to began to run down his cheeks yet again as he thought about how perfect Kurt was. This wasn't like Blaine to let his emotions get the better of him, but with Kurt it was different, he just couldn't help it.
There was a knock at Blaine's door.
"Leave me alone" he shouted at the visitor, not knowing or caring who it was. It was the answer all visitors who tried to disturb Blaine's moping had received that week. The idea of telling people what was wrong, reliving the look of guilt and fear on Kurt's face as he ran away from him was too much for Blaine to handle right now. And the worse alternative, sit there with a fake smile as he told people, "I'm fine, just tired, to much work you know" fake laugh "so how have you been?"
Blaine wasn't in the mood to act happy for anyone, even in classes he just sat there, alone, isolating himself from everyone and only ever half listening to his professors talk.
When Blaine heard the footsteps travelling away from his door, he closed his eyes, rolled over, and fell into a light and unhappy sleep. He'd been napping a lot recently, not managing to stay asleep for more than an hour or so at a time, before dreams of Kurt caused him to wake up, feeling sick and heartbroken all over again.
Something had to be done.
"He told me to leave him alone" David said as he entered the dorm room he shared with Wes, who shook his head despairingly at Blaine's inevitable response.
"That's what he says to me when I go to see him. Did you try and go in anyway?" David shook his head. "Good, Don't. I tried yesterday and got an empty can of diet coke thrown at my head" Wes turned back to some homework he was doing, "He'll have to come out of there sometime, no matter what his problem is, he can't stay in there forever" Wes said sighing, "Speaking of which, what's even up with him? I've never seen him this low before"
"Me neither" David replied, deep in thought, "And I don't know, but I have a feeling he's not going to be telling either of us anything anytime soon"
"What about Kurt?" Wes said, giving up on the calculus question he was attempting and closing his book, "Do you think he'd know anything about it? Or if not, maybe he could go and investigate"
"I don't think that's an option" David interjected, "Haven't you noticed? Kurt's been just as depressed this past week, I have a feeling that something's happened between them two, an argument maybe. I think you can safety bet it's something to do with Kurt why Blaine is so upset"
"Come to think of it, I did sort of notice Kurt looked a little... off, in Warbler's rehearsal yesterday"
"At least he's turning up to rehearsals, I swear to god if Blaine uses the excuse that he's got a headache one more time..."
"It can't just be an argument though, they've argued before, remember when Blaine got drunk made out with Rachel and told Kurt he thought he was bi?" David nodded remembering only too well Kurt barging into their dorm room complaining about Blaine sneaking back into Narnia "Neither of them were this torn up about it"
"And the time Blaine tried to help Kurt be sexy and went to Kurt's dad without telling him"
Wes nodded, "I think we need to go talk to him"
"Not really an option when he pelts garbage at you if you step into the room. I'm not risking injury to my face! I'm far to pretty, you go, you're face already looks messed up" he said mockingly
Wes shot him a dirty look, thought for a second, then sighed, "Fine you big baby, I'll talk to Blaine. You can talk to Kurt..."
"Deal" David grinned
"Oh, I wouldn't look too happy about that. This is Kurt we're talking about, he's a lot more fiery than Blaine, I think you'll be the one needed protective head gear" David opened his mouth to talk, after the firm realization that, yes, Kurt is likely to be worse than Blaine... "Nope, a deal's a deal" Wes said getting up off the floor and exiting the room to go and speak to Blaine. He paused on the way out and rested a hand on David's shoulder, "Good Luck, and maybe next time you won't be so quick to insult my face"
David was both relieved, and disconcerted to find that Kurt wasn't his feisty self. He seemed far too down to make any sarcastic comments to David when he sat across from him at one of the desks in the senior commons.
"So, you and Blaine..." he started, Kurt noticeably flinched at the sound of Blaine's name, "spill"
Kurt shook his head, and remained silent, concentrating instead on conjugating Latin verbs.
"Kurt." David said rather sternly this time, he was not going to leave here until he found out what the situation was. The harshness in his voice seemed to catch Kurt's attention, and turned his gaze up to look straight into the dark skinned boy's eyes.
"I don't want to talk about it" He said, matching David's stubborn tone, however, with a lot more sadness. "Why don't you go speak to Blaine about it?"
"Because he refuses to talk to anyone, he's shut himself in his dorm crying" Kurt winced at the knowledge of this and turned away from the eye contact he held with David, too ashamed to face him.
"I... He..." Kurt started, struggling to explain what had happened, "We, we were..." Kurt exhaled heavily, "He invited me over to study, so, I went, and we ended up watching a film, and-and I fell asleep in his bed, and he did too. Then...then when I woke up, he was kinda, he was... well, asleep...andhavingasexdream... hardand... thrustingintome" Kurt said all the embarrassing parts in one go, he looked at David and hoped he had heard because he was not willing to repeat it, David nodded, so he carried on, "He woke up, and we talked about it, and hesaidthedreamwasaboutme" speeding up again, "He-he then said, that, that he was in love with me"
Kurt was worried now, not knowing whether he was over stepping the line and sharing too much of Blaine's personal information. David just nodded knowingly at Kurt. Well it wasn't as if Blaine hadn't been obvious about it.
"He then, he said he wanted to be with me, and leaned in to kiss me... and..." Kurt was starting to tear up, David could tell, his voice was starting to crack as he continued "S-s-so I said that I couldn't" a tear noticeably escaped Kurt's eye and he wiped at it furiously, not wanting to seem weak and pathetic about crying over this, "and I just... got up and left"
David took a moment to take all of this new information in. He knew Blaine loved Kurt, but, he was pretty sure, up until now, that Kurt felt the same way about Blaine. David didn't see any reason in keeping this information to himself so he decided to ask Kurt,
"But why? Everyone, all the Warblers, in fact, most of Dalton thought that you were smitten with our Blainey, "Why turn him down?" David knew instantly this was the wrong thing to say. He saw Kurt tense suddenly and heard his breathing get more erratic, tears once again beginning to stream down his flushed cheeks.
"I love him so much" Kurt said it a barely audible whisper, but not quiet enough for David to miss.
"Then why say no to him?"
Kurt sobbed at the question, "I can't I- I just can't" He got up and collected his books, "I'm going home, I'll see you Monday" Kurt said quickly before practically running out the room.
David grabbed his phone out of his pocket and jabbed a out a quick text to Wes, hoping he wasn't too injured at the hands of Blaine to read it.
Wes tentatively knocked on Blaine's door, and stood waiting for the routine response from his friend.
"Leave me alone"
His voice was muffled and it cracked halfway through. Wes could tell he was in pretty bad shape. He slowly turned the door handle and entered the room, holding his arms slightly over his face, ready to defend and block himself against any flying soda cans. Once he was sure that nothing would be thrown at him, he lowered his arms and looked at Blaine. Well, what he could see of him.
Blaine was tucked deep under the comforter on his bed, with only a foot half sticking out the end of it. Wes noted that Blaine was still wearing shoes, meaning he obviously came straight in from class and threw himself onto the bed without even removing his footwear. Wes walked over to him and sat cautiously on the edge of the bed.
"I said leave me alone" Blaine moaned out brokenly, but he and Wes both knew that deep down he wanted someone there.
"Blaine" Wes said softly, "Just tell me what happened"
He waited patiently but there was no answer, "It's Kurt right?" Blaine sobbed in response.
Wes lent forward and gently pulled the bed linen slowly away from Blaine. He looked terrible. His hair was sticking up in all directions, his face was red and tear stained, and he had large dark circles under his eyes.
"He turned me down" Blaine choked out, "I told him I was in love with him, and he turned me down"
Wes' heart broke seeing one of his best friends like this. There was so much pain in Blaine's voice he didn't know what he could say to make it better.
"Did...did he say why?" Wes asked, as kindly as he could.
Blaine shook his head rapidly, and broke down crying again. "He said he loved me too, I leaned in to kiss him, he stopped me, he said he couldn't and he... he...ran away" Blaine ended lamely. He wiped his eyes and sat up, desperate for someone else's opinion on the questions he'd been asking himself non stop since it happened. "Why do you think he can't?"
Wes felt so guilty, he had no clue what to say. He couldn't think of a single reason why Kurt would shoot down Blaine's advances if he had admitted to loving Blaine back.
When Blaine accepted he wasn't going to get an answer to that, he asked the next best thing,
"What should I do?"
This Wes did know, "You need to go talk to him about this" Blaine shook his head frantically, not wanting to see Kurt again for a very long time, he wasn't sure if he could deal with it, "Blaine, this isn't like you, none of us have ever seen you behave like this. You and Kurt were best friends; you could talk to each other about everything. Why should this be any different?" Wes paused, "Kurt is the only one who can tell you why he doesn't want to be with you. Moping around in here isn't going to help"
Silence reined the room for a few minutes and Blaine considered what Wes had suggested to him.
"You're right" he concluded, "I'm going to have a shower then go find Kurt" I have to know, no matter how much it hurts, I need some sort of closure I guess.
Wes' cell phone vibrated in the pocket of his gray pants. He pulled it out and saw the name "David" lit up across the screen. He read the text quickly,
"You're gunna have to wait til Monday" Wes said, looking up at Blaine who was digging in his wardrobe for some clean clothes and a towel. He raised an eyebrow at Wes questioningly, "He's already left to go home for the weekend"
Blaine shook his head again, "No." He said with finality, "I'm not waiting that long, I need to know, now"
Blaine knew what he needed to do.
Okay, I know this is a little out of Blaine character, he doesn't really seem to be the kinda person to turn into a such a crying wreck, but when it comes to Kurt it's different :) 3