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Chapter 4: I Hate You than I Love You

Rachel's POV

I closed the door after Jerry and I rested my back on it momentarily. As I closed my eyes I let the faint melody coming from upstairs fill up my mind with memories from the past. "Oh how much I missed the strumming of his guitar!"

I sighed and started for the stairs. As I landed upstairs I let myself gaze into his room. He was stretched out on the bed, eyes closed and his fingers were caressing the strings of his guitar. He hasn't changed much in 5 years; one of the much noticeable changes were his tattoos. I started to walk to my own room when I heard his deep sexy voice… "How I missed his voice!"

'I saw you Rachy.' I stopped dead in my tracks, 'you can come in you know?'

I turned around and found myself staring in a deep pool of green. I hesitated for a moment but my heart was aching for him and my legs were making their way to his room. Before I could turn back I closed the door behind me and leaned on it and closed my eyes.

'I missed you Rachy,' he whispered.

I opened my eyes and glared at him, 'why didn't you talk to me Jack? Why? Did you regret it? Do you regret all of it Jack?'

'No I don't!'

'Then why Jack? Why didn't you call me or at least why didn't you write?'

'I wanted to keep my promise to you.'

'But I missed you so much Jack…it hurt you know...it still does!'

He stood from his bed and made the short distance that was between us. He grabbed my shoulders gently and lifted my head to keep me at an eye level with him.

'I love you Rachy! I never stopped loving you baby!'

A tear slid down my cheek and leaned in to him, 'oh Jackie you know that I love you, but how could I know if you met someone else during these 5 years.' I pulled slightly and looked into his eyes, 'it's been 5 years Jack…5 years since we talked…since we touched…since we kissed,' I finished with a faint whisper.

'Don't you ever doubt my love, ok? How could I fall for someone else after that night? I can't Rach; you mean so much to me!'

I looked at him surprised, 'You still remember?'

'Of course. Every move…every touch...every kiss…all of it…'

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Author's POV

5 years before

'Are you finished?'

'Almost.' Jack looked up at Rachel who was resting at the doorframe of his room.

'I don't know if I can leave without you Rachy.'

'Of course you can Jackie. You are 18, now is your best chance!'

But I can't leave you behind. Don't you understand?'

Rachel walked to Jack and took his hands in hers.

'Don't worry about me Jackie; I'll be fine with ma.'

He dropped his head and turned around to zip up his bag.

'Look at me Jackie.' He turned around softly and lifted his head until their eyes met.

'Come here baby, give me your hand.'

Jack complied with her and gave her his hands. They let their fingers intertwine with each other; eyes still locked.

'I need you to promise me that you will pursue your dream! You have a talent that only few have Jack. You write the songs with so much passion and feeling that you move something within those who listen.'

Rachel grabbed his face between her hands and looked straight at his eyes,

'You have to become a rock star for me Jackie! Go out there and show them what you're made of. I'm counting on you Jack!'

Jack nodded at this while she rested her forehead on his and whispered softly,

'And don't come back before you do so Mercer. I want you to realise your dreams Jackie…to do something for yourself. I will be here waiting for you...waiting for my handsome rock star to come back home.'

Jack stared at her and a tear slid down his face.

'Just promise me Jack…don't ever let go of your dreams.'

He grabbed her face gently and said, 'I promise Rachel. I promise I'll make you proud of me. I will never let go of my dreams…for you.'

She smiled at him and lowered her eyes at what she was going to say next.

'Ok than. Now kiss me Jack.'

He smiled a small smile at her and lowered himself capturing her lips. It was a slow tender kiss that grew passionately with each second. They were lost in each other, as if the rest of the world did not exist. Jack started to roam her body with his hands. Rachel moaned softly under his touch and started to caress his chest from under the black shirt he was wearing. Jack backed Rachel gently to the bed and started to unbutton her blouse while she ran her fingers in his hair. With the last button he peeled off her blouse and stared at her beautifully curved body. She took him by surprise when she started to lift his shirt. They helped one another and undressed. They lay on the bed for a while kissing and roaming each others bodies through the thin layer of their underwear. Jack stopped the kiss and looked at the beautiful creature lying beside him.

'Are you sure Rach?'

She smiled at him and touched his cheek. She nodded confidently and said,

'I'm sure Jack. I love you Jackie. I want you to be my first…my last.'

He smiled at her and kissed her again. This time he did not break the kiss while his hands roamed her back and unclasped her bra. He shoved it off the floor with the rest of their clothes, exposing her creamy white breasts.

'God you are so beautiful,' he gasped.

He kissed her collarbone and made a trail of kisses until he reached her left breast. He kissed her flash and sucked gently at her nipple. She moaned under his touch as she longed for him. She kissed the area behind his ear which made him moan softly into her. He reached for her knickers and slipped it off of her. At the same moment she removed his boxers and they lay naked next to each other for a brief moment. She lifted her lips to his ears and whispered ever so softly,

'Take me Jack… I'm all yours.'

He placed her gently underneath him, 'I love you Rach…now and forever.'

He entered her slowly and kissed her quickly to engulf the cry of pain that escaped her tiny lips. A tear slid down her eye but after a few minutes she started to feel comfortable and gently started to rock her hips. This woken up something in Jack that made him thrust into her slowly. They were lost in a world of their own. Rachel had never felt like that before; it was such a beautiful feeling...a feeling that makes you want to explode from inside. When she reached her climax she moaned his name with pure ecstasy and so did he as he released into her. She came right after him as he lay trembling on top of her.

'I love you Rachel.'

She smiled at him and removed his sweaty hair from his eyes, 'me too.'

He wrapped them both with a sheet and both fell peacefully asleep.

The next morning Rachel saw Jack off with a tear streaked face. Only they new what happened that night…the night where they become one; body and soul. With one last look, Jack left with the promise to become a rock star for his little bunny.

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Rachel's POV

I let the tears flow at the sweet remembrance of that night.

'I cried so much after that night. I cried for days Jack. I missed you so much!'

'I missed you too my little bunny.'

I hugged him to me and cried my heart out in his chest. I cried for my ma and for the time me and Jack spent apart.

'I hate you so much for not talking to me Jackie,' I said as I lifted my head from his chest and looked into his eyes, 'But at the same time I love you so much that it hurts.'

'I'm so sorry love. I was so selfish…I didn't want to hurt myself and ended up hurting you.' He looked down at me and saw the sadness in his eyes, 'I'm here to stay Rach. I do not intend to leave you again cause it's so hard to live without you baby!'

'Oh Jack!' I lifted my hands and took his face gently and pulled him to me and kissed him.

Authors POV

That night the two lovers made love again. This time though it was different…the passion that was build between them during the time they spent apart was one of a kind. Finally sleep found them in the wee hours of the morning. They both slept serenely tangled in each others embrace.

It's R&R time. Until next time...xxxxxx