It had been a few days since Cody and Sab had returned home from trying to see Karissa, but in those few days Sab had been moping around the loft. Cody had tried to cheer her up by keeping her busy with the wedding plans, but Sab couldn't keep interested.

It was early Thursday afternoon when Sab got up. She saw that she had over slept and that Cody was already up. She put her robe on over her tank top and shorts as she walked out to the kitchen.

"Cody?" Sab called out. But there was no answer. She at down at the counter and noticed a piece of paper. She picked it up to see that Cody left her a note. She read it to herself:

Sab,

Went out for a bit. I'll be back later this afternoon.

-Cody-

"Well that wasn't saying much." Sab said to herself as she put the note back down on the counter. She walked to the fridge and pulled the carton of orange juice out. She then grabbed a glass and headed to the couch. She plopped herself down and flicked on the TV.

"Boring...boring...stupid...boring...hate It...boring..." Sab said to herself as she flipped through the channels before stopping at the music videos. Our Lady Peace's 'Somewhere Out There' was playing. Sab put the remote down to watched the video.

A few minutes later the door unlocked and Cody walked in. "Hey, you're finally up." He said as he walked over to the couch.

"Where did you go?" Sab asked as she gave him a kiss.

"Surprise," Cody answered.

"What's the surprise?" Sab asked as he sat down on the couch.

"Can't tell you. It wouldn't be a surprise then," Cody teased.

"Oh tell me," Sab pleaded.

"Ok, here's the deal. The only way you get your surprise is, if you cheer up and be happy," Cody told her.

"Ok, I'm happy."

"No, I mean really happy."

"Cody!" Sab screamed in anxiousness. "Tell me!"

"Ok, ok. Close your eyes."

"Ok." Sab closed her eyes.

"I'll lead you to it," Cody said as he got off the couch to lead Sab out of the apartment.

"Cody, where are we going?" Sab asked as she noticed that she's going up some stairs.

"You'll see, don't peek."

"I'm not."

"Ok, stand here," Cody said, letting her hands go.

"Can I open my eyes?"

"Not yet." He stepped back from her.

"Now?"

"Ok, now."

Sab opened her eyes and looked at Cody who had a yellow lab on a leash beside him. "Oh my God! It's so cute!" Sab said going to pet the dog. It gave her kisses on her cheek.

"I knew you'd like him. I went down to the animal shelter and picked him up," Cody said. "Now as a new pet owner, you must give him a name."

"A name, huh. Well let's see. What is a good name for a dog?"

"Anything you want it to be."

"Ok." Sab thought for a moment. "How about Koby the Second?"

"You don't have to name him that."

"I want to. He's your dog too," Sab replied. "I'm sure you two will be inseparable as well."

"You sure?" Cody asked.

"Very sure." Sab smiled at him.

"I love you."

"I love you, too." Sab said as she kissed Cody. The dog barked for attention.

"What's all this racked up here?" a voice called out from behind them. Sab and Cody turned to see Allison standing there.

"Allison, what are you doing here?" Sab asked walking over to her. She gave her a hug.

"Cody called me this morning. Said I should talk to you," Allison answered.

"He did, did he?" Sab turned to Cody a bit angry.

"You need to talk someone," Cody said petting Koby. "You two go talk, I'm going to take him for a walk. Come on, Koby." Cody walked down the stairs with the dog leaving Sab and Allison to talk.

"Shall we go inside, seeing as you're still in your PJ's?" Allison suggested.

"Alright."

****

Sab and Allison walk back into the loft. Allison waited on the couch as Sab went into her room to get changed. A few minutes later Sab came back out wearing black jeans and a gray tank top.

"So what do we need to talk about? Cody wasn't very specific on the phone. I think he wanted you to tell me," Allison wondered.

"That's Cody for ya," Sab said as she sat down beside Allison. "Well, we found out where my mom was and went to see her."

"Oh, how did it go? Did you stay for a long time?" Allison asked, excitedly.

"I didn't meet her," Sab replied, looking at the couch.

"You went to all that trouble to go to find her and go to where she lived and you didn't meet her? Why?" Allison inquired.

"I froze when I got to the door. She had some kid in there and they were laughing."

"So you may have a brother or sister. I don't see why you wouldn't want to meet him or her too," Allison said trying to understand her.

"I froze because she's moved on. She's forgotten about me," Sab said looking to Allison.

"I moved on too with my life, but I never once forgot about Jake," Allison added. "I doubt that your mother has forgotten about you. You really need to speak to her."

"I can't. You guys wouldn't understand," Sab said as she got up off the couch to walk over to the window.

"What are you talking about? Who won't understand?" Allison asked following her to the window.

"I don't know what I'm saying," Sab replied. "I'm just scared."

"Wait a minute. You think that Elaina and I wouldn't understand? Honey, we want you to find your mother. We always have," Allison told her.

"I know but…never mind. I'm just scared that she won't want me," Sab said, sadly.

"Would you like for me or Elaina to go with you?" Allison suggested. "You know we both want you to be happy and I think you really need to talk to her, so you don't have all these questions inside you."

"I guess it would be a good idea for one of you to go with me," Sab replied as she leaned on the windowsill.

"Well, I can make myself available to you whenever you want. You'll have to call Elaina, if you want her to go."

"I think I should go back tonight, before I change my mind again," Sab told her. "Could you go tonight?"

"Ok, we can do that. I just have to make a few calls and then we can go."

"Alright," Sab replied as Cody walked in the door with Koby.

"So have we talked?" Cody inquired.

"Yes and she has decided to go back tonight to meet her mother. I'm going to go with her this time," Allison informed him. "Believe me, I won't let her back out this time."

"Good. Hog tie her if you have to," Cody joked as he let Koby off the leash.

"Funny there," Sab said as she pet the dog.

"Well, I'll go back to my office to make my calls. I'll be back in an hour to pick you up. You'll be ready then, won't you?"

"I guess," Sab replied.

"She will," Cody added.

****

Jake and Elaina arrived early that morning at the hospital to see Maria. They walked into Maria's room to find that they had already prepped her for surgery by shaving her head.

"Lainie, Jake, I'm so glad you're here." She noticed Jake staring at her head. "What do you think? Like the new look?"

"I think you look cute. You should keep the look." Jake smiled and then kissed her.

"I needed that kiss. I'm so nervous. Lainie, I could use one of your bear hugs too."

Jake got up and allowed Elaina to sit on the bed with Maria, to hug her. "Don't be nervous. The doctors here are very good at what they do and I trust them," Elaina told her.

"Lainie, what if the tumor wasn't causing my craziness? What if I do have this monster inside of me, and it comes back?"

"Sweetie, have you been that monster, since you've been here?"

"A couple of times, before they got the medication right. They sedated me when it happened. I don't think I have since then," Maria replied.

"Maria, you have to trust the doctors and my mom. They'll get you through this with flying colors," Jake assured her.

"Thank you, Jake. I do trust them and Allison. I really like her, she's a lot like Lainie, and she says what she thinks."

"You don't have to tell me that. Mom has a very strong opinion on everything." Jake grinned. "I'm glad that the two of you are getting along so well. It makes our relationship easier, if she likes you." Jake kissed her deeply this time.

"Excuse me, want me to step out?" Elaina laughed as Jake moved back from Maria, blushing.

"That would be nice of you cousin, but I don't think we have enough time to do anything right now." Maria held onto Jake's hand.

"We can continue that later when you get out of here," Jake whispered with a smile on his face.

"Promise?" Maria asked and Jake nodded his head yes. "Lainie, I have a request."

"Just name it, Sweetie." Elaina sat next to her bed.

"Well you mentioned Sab looking for her mom the other day. I was wondering, if you think it would be a good idea to find out what happened to my Dad."

"I've tried in the past to look for him and ran into a lot of dead ends, but I guess it wouldn't hurt to try again," Elaina said to her.

"I'll help too, if that is ok?" Jake offered.

"I'd like that, I want to start looking as soon as I'm released. I want to be there for the whole process, so no sneaking around before, ok?" Maria looked at Elaina.

"I won't Maria. I have a lot on my mind and I can wait for you too get out."

"Thanks and Jake that goes for you too." Maria shook her figure at him.

"I promise, I won't start without you," Jake said.

Allison came in with the orderlies to take Maria to surgery. "Good Morning, sorry I couldn't get here sooner I had an emergency with another patient."

"It's ok, Lainie and Jake have kept me calm." Maria told her.

The orderlies took her out of the room and Jake went to the elevator with her. Elaina and Allison stayed in the room to talk. "Maria wants to look for her father, has she discussed it with you yet?"

"She brought it up yesterday after your visit. She thought about what you told her about Sab looking for her Mother and she mentioned she needed to know what happened to her father," Allison replied.

"Jake and I have told her we'll help her look for him. She doesn't want us to do it on our own, she wants to be a part of it," Elaina explained.

"I think she needs to be a apart of it too. Listen, I won't be here for a while. I have to go some where with Sabrina."

"Did she see her mother yet?" Elaina was curious.

"No, she chickened out. I talked her into going back, so were going in an hour," Allison said as Jake came back.

"You're not going to be here while she's in surgery?" Jake was concerned.

"She's in good hands, Jake. You and Elaina are the ones she'll need to see when she wakes. I promise to look in on her when I get back," Allison said.

"Allison," Elaina said pulling her from Jake for a private talk. "Could you watch Sab closely? I think she might be having flashes yet of her father hitting her and her mother. I feel responsible. I think she's distancing herself from me because of what happened but I don't blame her.

I'll keep an eye on her. I told you not to blame yourself. It was an accident, she placed herself in harms way even though Frank told her to stay away," Allison told her. "Don't let this eat at you."

"I'm trying to not let it." Elaina saw the look on Allison's face of disappointment. "I'll try harder."

"How long will this surgery take?" Jake asked as they came back over with him.

"At least 4 to 6 hours, maybe longer. It's a very delicate surgery," Allison calculated.

"I think I'll go to the chapel. Do either of you want to come with?" Jake asked.

"I'll go with you," Elaina said.

"I can't. I have to check on my patients. I'll see you later," Allison kissed him on the cheek.

"Bye Mom," Jake smiled as she walked away.

"That was so sweet," Elaina teased. Jake just shrugged his shoulders and started walking.

******

"Wake up kid," a voice called out. "Wake up now."

"What daddy?" a little girls voice asked.

"Get up, we're going," he replied as he pulled her out of bed.

"Where?"

"Away. Now be quiet. Mommy needs to sleep," he replied as he dragged her out of the apartment.

"Why is Mommy not coming?" the girl asked as she walked down the hallway.

"I said be quiet!" he snapped at her.

"No! I want Mommy!" the girl screamed as she tried to stop her father from taking her away.

"Shut up now or I'll shut you up!" he yelled as he pulled her into the stairwell.

"Daddy, you're hurting me," the girl cried.

"I said shut up!" he yelled as he raised his hand to hit her.

Sab awakened with a jerk. She was no longer in that apartment stairwell, but safe in Allison's car. She had fallen asleep and dreamt about her childhood again.

"Are you ok?" Allison asked as she looked over at her distraught friend.

"Yeah I'm fine." Sab replies as she leans back in the car seat. "How long was I sleeping?"

"About an hour and a half." Allison replies looking back at the road. "What did you dream about?"

"Nothing," Sab said, trying to avoid having to answer.

"You were dreaming of something. For the last five minutes you were shaking in your sleep," Allison stated. "So what was it? Maybe I can help you with it?"

Sab sighed. "Lately I've been dreaming of my childhood. The times when my father used to hit me and my mother." Sab told her.

"What caused you to start dreaming about this?" Allison asked, her psychiatrist's instincts kicking in.

"I don't know. It all started after Derek and Sarah were kidnapped," Sab replied.

"Did anything happen that could've triggered the memories to come back?"

"Well, when Sonny told me that he may be my uncle, that could've triggered something," Sab said, trying to think.

"It could be, but I wouldn't think that would cause it. Anything else happen?"

"Not that I remember," Sab said trying to figure it out.

"What about when Elaina almost hit you?"

"You know about that?" Sab asked surprised that she knew.

"Elaina called me to talk about it after it happened. She was very sorry about what happened. She also wanted me to look out for you for any signs of resentment or something," Allison explained. "So do you think that could be the reason?"

"I guess. I've been trying to forget about it," Sab replied. "But it also explains why I wake up right before he hits me. So how would I get rid of these dreams?

"You can't. They're your memories, your past. You have to deal with it," Allison replied. "Some people with post traumatic syndrome usually talk out their problems and memories. It usually helps to ease the pain and sometimes gets rid of the dreams."

"But I don't want to remember or talk about it," Sab replied turning her head to face Allison. Allison looked at her and giggled a bit. "What's so funny?" Sab asked looking at her.

"You. You remind me of when we first met. You never wanted to talk then and you still don't," Allison told her. "You're still that stubborn teen sitting in the interrogation room years ago."

"I'm not stubborn," Sab said, defending herself. She then thought about when they did first meet. She didn't even look at Allison. She was just another one of them that had come to see her. It took her sometime just to talk to Allison and since then they had continued to talk. But she had always hid things from her, but she always figured her out.

"What are you thinking about now?" Allison asked, interrupting her thoughts.

"Just about when we first met," Sab replied realizing Allison was right. "I'm still that same person."

"Well, in some ways you are, but then in others you've changed," Allison began to explain. "You've learned to open up to people and trust in others. But you still hide and have that attitude."

"Are you serious?"

"Yes. But you've learned how to control it," Allison said. "You want to stop and get something to eat or go straight to the house?"

"Might as well get it over with," Sab said, feeling the fright grow inside her.

"Ok, we'll be there in ten minutes."

****

A few hours later Jake was up pacing and Elaina was reading a magazine. Frank came in the waiting room.

"Any word yet?" Frank's voice made Elaina jump. "That has got to be the first time I've surprised you."

"I was dosing off or you wouldn't have." Elaina refused to let him know he actually snuck up on her.

"They haven't told us anything lately. I'm beginning to worry," Jake replied.

"You aren't helping my nerves by pacing, sit down for a while and read or take a nap," Elaina told him.

"I can't, I'm too wired." Jake went back to pacing and Frank sat next to Elaina.

"So, how are you doing?" Frank asked.

"Tired of waiting but I'm fine, I'm glad you showed up. Where's Sarah?" Elaina replied.

"Becky and Derek are watching her."

"And who is watching them?" Elaina said with a smirk.

"We agreed not to worry about them, remember?" Frank reminded her.

"Yeah I know, but I can't help it if I'm still a concerned mother."

Jake walked out to the hallway and saw Maria's surgeon. "Elaina, they must be done, I see the surgeon talking to a nurse." The doctor came in the waiting room to speak to them. "Is she ok, did you get the tumor out?"

"Let's sit down over here and I'll answer your questions." They walked over to where Frank and Elaina were sitting. "The news is very good. We removed the tumor and she's doing great. I'm going to have her in recovery until she wakes up and then moved to ICU, only immediate family will be able to see her."

"That isn't fair to Jake, he really wants to see her," Elaina said.

"Well, if it is ok with you, I'll allow him to see her but no one is too stay over 10 minutes a visit," the doctor said.

"I'm glad she has the worse part over and now she can recoup and get on with her life again," Jake said.

"When can I...we see her?" Elaina asked.

"It maybe an hour or so before we move her from recovery. Why don't you go get something to eat or some sleep and then when you come back she should be awake," the doctor suggested.

"Sounds like a good idea to me," Frank said, hoping to encourage them to leave for a while.

"Ok, we'll do that," Elaina told the doctor.

****

Allison parked her car at the side of the street to sit and wait for Sab to go through with it. She turned to face her and saw that she was looking at the house.

"Are we going to wait till it gets dark?" Allison asked getting Sab's attention.

"Do I have to?"

"Yes, she has a right no know what happened to her daughter," Allison told her. "Come on, I'll go with you."

Allison and Sab got out of the car and walked across the street toward the house. They walked up the pathway and as they reached the front door, Sab turned to walk away. Allison caught her and turned her back to the door.

"Keep walking," Allison ordered.

They reached the front door and stood there. Allison noticed that Sab wasn't going to knock, so she did it for her. A minute later the door opened it was the lady that Sab saw the day before.

"Hi, may I help you?" the lady asked in a sweet voice. Sab didn't reply so Allison spoke up.

"We're looking for Karissa Cunningham," Allison said.

"That would be me."

"I'm Allison Gaines. Your maiden name wouldn't be Walker, would it?" she asked.

Karissa stared at her for a moment and thought.  "I haven't gone by that name in years." Karissa finally answered. "Why do you want to know?"

"It might be better to talk inside. Might we come in?" Allison asked.

"Yes please," Karissa said, leading them inside to the living room that was scattered with toys. "Sorry about the mess, my daughter takes toys out and never puts them back."

"That's alright. We actually wanted to talk to you about your other daughter, Sabrina," Allison told her catching her off guard. Karissa's expression changed to a saddened one.

"You did have a daughter named Sabrina, with a Logan Dalton?" Allison inquired.

"Yeah I did. That's a name I haven't heard in a while either. She was born on June 12, 1980. She would've been 22 this year," Karissa said with sadness in her voice. "I never saw her after Logan took her."

"What do you mean by 'she would've been 22'?" Allison asked.

"Logan called me a few months after he had left with her. He said that she had died. He told me he claimed the insurance money. Probably bought more drugs with it," Karissa replied, wiping a tear from her eye.

"He told you I was dead?" Sab asked, finally speaking.

"What?" Karissa asked, not knowing if she heard right. Sab looked at Allison who nodded her head. She then turned back to Karissa.

"Logan lied to you. Sabrina didn't die," Sab told her. "I'm still alive."

"No, you can't be," Karissa said in shock.

"But I am."

"We can get a blood test done, if you want proof." Allison suggested.

"No, it won't be necessary. I knew she looked familiar. I just thought my mind was playing tricks on me," Karissa told her. "She looks like me when I was younger."

"Well, I think I'll leave you two to be to talk," Allison got up off the couch.

"There's coffee and fresh cinnamon rolls on the table in the kitchen. I'll get you some," Karissa started to get up.

"That won't be necessary. You two chat. I have a few calls to make on my cell phone. Excuse me," Allison said then turned to leave them alone.

"Allison…" Sab said getting up as well.

"Yes?" Allison turned back to Sabrina.

"Thank you," Sab said as she gave her a hug.

"You're welcome," Allison said then walked out of the room.

Sab turned around to face her mother. "So…" Sab said stalling. "Where to begin?"

"Well, why don't you tell me about what happened after your father took you away?" Karissa asked as Sab say down beside her.

"I have a question for you first. How old was I when I was taken from you?" Sab asked not remembering.

"You were about 5 or 6, I believe. You don't remember?"

"I remember him taking me, which has just come back to me in dreams. I had shut it out of my memory for a while."

"Was your life with him that bad, please tell me?"

"He married someone named Rachel, who was also into dealing like him. I think that's how they met. They were drunks and addicts, they never took care of me.  He was often times abusive to me he was known to hit me for no reason. All I had to do was look at him and he'd take a swing at me," Sab replied.

"Oh. God! I wish I could've found you before he told me you were dead. After that I thought I had lost you forever.  I never wanted you to endure what he had done to me. I'm so sorry," Karissa started to cry.

"Don't cry. You didn't know he lied to you. You had no way of knowing, he's the one at fault not you." Sab tried to comfort here. "I ran away from them when I was 11." Sab told her.

"Where did you go at that young age?" Karissa asked.

"I lived on the streets for a few days then I met someone at the park one day. I thought this person cared about me, but turned out he really didn't care about me. He tried to hurt me, he did in some ways," Sab replied. "I still don't like talking about it."

"Some other time then. How about now? You seem to be doing ok."

"Yeah I am. I got into some trouble and was arrested with a group that I was with. I turned states evidence against them and they were all put in jail. I was lucky to have some people take interest in my abilities with a computer and they recruited me; put me in the program at Quantico. I'm now a Tech Ops Agent working with Federal Agents," Sab said proudly. "Actually, I'm a Federal agent, I keep forgetting to call myself one."

"Wow, that's impressive. Why do you forget to call yourself an agent?" Karissa was surprised. "If you don't mind me asking?"

"I'm also on probation for my arrest. I just don't consider myself an agent, even though my boss has certified me as such."

"Always be proud of your accomplishments. You earned the title or you wouldn't have been given it," Karissa told her.

"I guess you're right."

"So, is there anyone special in your life, or is that too private of a question?" Karissa had noticed the ring on her hand.

Sab blushed. "I'm seeing someone."

"What's his name?"

"Cody. We've been seeing each other for about a year now. And…well…" Sab paused.

"What is it? You having problems or something?"

"Oh no…nothing like that.  Not now but I can tell you that later. Actually, we're getting married in a few months," Sab replied.

"Oh my… This is such a surprising night," Karissa said happily. All of a sudden they heard a cry from upstairs. "And speaking of surprises; come with me. There's someone I want you to meet."

Karissa led Sab up the stairs to a room where the crying is coming from.

"Casey, it's ok. Mommy is here," Karissa said as she walked into the room. Sab stayed in the hall. "Come on my girl. Someone is here to meet you."

Karissa came out of the room carrying a girl about the age of 6 in her arms.

"Sabrina, I'd like you to meet Casey," Karissa introduced them. "Your little sister."