You Know The Drill... I Own Nothing :(

Chapter 4

Draco's POV

How could I do this to him? Not only once, but twice! What is wrong with me? You're turning into your father. Oh no. Gods no. That can't be happening. I hate my father, the stupid greedy git. I love Harry so much. Why am I causing him all this pain?

I'm a fucking idiot.

It's how you were raised. Quit beating yourself up over it.

Shut up. I vowed to never hit the man I love. Now look at me! He deserves better then this! He deserves better then me.

What did I do to deserve his love? Cupid's arrow must've hit the wrong target when it came to him. He's so beautiful, and all I do is hurt him. I cause him pain. Him and our baby. Gods, I'm going to be an awful father. I can't even treat my boyfriend well. How would I do with a baby? A child? A teenager?! This child is going to hate me just like I came to hate Lucius!

I can't end up like him. I refuse. I suffered too much abuse from my father. I stayed up many nights hearing him beat my mother, then leave to get drunk. Oh. My. Gods. I'm turning into my father, for fuck's sake! Come on, Draco. Calm down! You don't have to turn into him! Just quit drinking and you'll never be like that again. Do you really want your kids listening to you beat their other father? You don't want them to be afraid of you, do you?! Why did you start drinking in the first place? Geez, you stupid git! A problem with your home life does not constitute a reason to become an alcoholic!

Damn, I need a drink… Argh! Stop thinking like that. You will stay sober this whole month without Harry!

You can't do that. That's impossible for you. How are you gonna deal with all your problems, huh? You can't talk to anybody about them. They'd all think your being stupid and crazy.

I need to stay sober, for Harry and our little unborn baby. Why can't you just go away? I thought the little voices inside your head were supposed to support your decisions! Not encourage the bad ones!

I state what is true. Not what I think you need to hear. Now go ahead. Go get that bottle of Dragon's Fire. You know you want it...

I'm sorry, Harry. Maybe I'll be stronger tomorrow…

AN: I Know Its Short But It's All I Got hehe :P