Chapter 4
Author's Note: Thank you all so much for your continued support of this story! The reviews, favorites, and alerts make me smile whenever I see them =D
I'm all about pragmatism so I'm glad that you all like how this story is progressing at a realistic pace. The show is completely off into fantasyland and I want the characters to remain in reality, so I'm writing them as in character as I can without going totally off the rails, like the writers on the show have, LOL!
This chapter was written much faster than the last one. I was in the process of finishing up the latest chapter of The Way We Were when the inspiration for this story struck and I ran with it. I'll have the update of TWWW posted soon as well as the next chapters for Of Course and Beauty and the Beast.
88Mary88 – Thank you so much! I'm so glad you understand why Blair did what she did. Her actions were reactions to how Chuck was and the fear of his rejection stopped her from contacting him. While it was hard for her on her own, she knew it was time she took care of herself and now her child. I can't wait to read your review of this chapter as we see Blair showing a strength we have yet to see on the show.
Krazy4Spike – Thanks so much! I love Cyrus, he's so sweet and I love writing him. And I agree, sometimes jealousy is the only thing that makes Chuck jump into action. Looking forward to what you think of the events in this chapter.
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A fan – Thanks so much! Chuck continues to struggle in this chapter with Blair's decision as she stands firm with why she acted the way she did. I do aim for believable so I hope I've achieved that again in this chapter. After all, they are Chuck and Blair. I'm looking forward to reading your review of this chapter and what parts really jumped out to you.
Elle – Thanks! My reason for not liking Blair's actions on the show is that it looks like Chuck is the father of her baby and leading Louis to believe he is the father isn't right. And I never saw Blair as a possession for Chuck. I think what they have is a great love that deserves to be worked through. They both need each other and if they can resolve their trust and commitment issues I think their happily ever after together will be amazing. I'm still hoping Chair is endgame. As for this story, I'm looking forward to what you think of this chapter.
BekaRoo – Thank you! Daddy and daughter bonding is adorable and I'm so glad you liked it. Can't wait to read your thoughts on this chapter.
Countessplaten – Thanks! Chair FTW =) Looking forward to your thoughts on this chapter.
Trosev – Thank you so much! So happy you like the premise of this story, how I wish season five were going like this. Blair and Chuck are slowly working on fixing their relationship and continue to be there for Rose in every way possible. Can't wait for your review of this chapter.
TriGemini – Thanks so much! Chuck's struggle to accept Blair's decision continues while she struggles with being in such close proximity to him again. Their trust does need to be rebuilt and their relationship needs a lot of mending. They will always be a part of each other's lives because of Rose but also want to be with each other again. However, it's still a long road ahead of them before that happens. As always, looking forward to your next review.
Pty – Thank you so much! While I agree this season has the most drama, it is complete torture for Chair fans. Even if they are endgame, I can't bear to watch them apart this season, I'm too squeamish. I'll watch the Chuck and Chair clips because as you know, I love Ed Westwick and he just seems to be getting more and more hot with each passing episode =*) So happy you find the conversations emotional and authentic, expect a lot more emotion in this chapter. Can't wait for your next review and more spoilers.
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June 26, 2012
"What are you doing?" Chuck asked as she held a camera in one hand while placing a luxurious purple teddy bear next to Rose in her crib.
"Rose is four months old today," she said as the little girl took hold of the teddy bear and snuggled into it while Blair captured the moment on film. "She was photographed with it in the hospital and I've taken one every month to show how much she's grown."
"A purple teddy bear," he said with his eyebrows raised. "Why doesn't that surprise me?"
"It reminded me of you," she told him. "Purple was your favorite color."
"It still is," he said with the corners of his mouth beginning to form his signature smirk yet not quite completing it. "Where did you buy it?"
"At a baby boutique in London," Blair said. "I was almost five months pregnant so I was definitely showing and when I passed it I had to go in."
"Was Cyrus with you?" he inquired further as she continued taking photos of Rose.
"He wasn't," she told him. "He was meeting with an associate and met me later in the day. That was the only thing I bought that day. I read in one of the baby books I got about taking a photo with a stuffed animal to really have a visual reminder of how big the baby gets each month. It's incredible, the first photo of her with it, the bear was bigger than she was. Now they're about the same size."
"Can I see the other photos you have of her?" he asked as he reached down to feel how soft the bear was and wished he had been the one to buy it for Rose.
Blair smiled as she turned around and pulled out two scrapbooks from the top of Rose's dresser, motioning for him to join her in the window seat as their little girl drifted off for her midday nap.
"I made this while I was still pregnant," Blair told him as she handed him the scrapbook covered with purple satin and pink bows. "Each page is to hold a photo with the teddy bear. I'm not sure how long I'll keep taking these photos but at least until she's a year old, maybe two."
"She really is beautiful," he said as he looked over the first three photos. "She has gotten so big."
She stayed silent as he looked them over. Chuck noticed the other book in her hands and asked, "What's in that one?"
"Everything from the time she was born until last month," she said, handing him the scrapbook and studying his reactions.
He had to fight back tears at the photos of Cyrus with Blair in the delivery room, Eleanor, Harold, and Roman with Rose in the hospital. How he wished he could have been there. The photos that really got him were of when Rose was home with her mother. Blair was glowing in every photo, she fell into motherhood so naturally and while he still felt sadness at what he missed, he now felt pride in how Blair handled everything with such grace.
Chuck smiled at her when he looked at her before going back through the photos, glad that this showed him the moments he missed.
June 27, 2012
"Hi, Lily," she said when the older woman answered her phone. Blair finally decided it was time to call her.
"Blair, darling," Lily exclaimed, "How are you?"
"I'm okay," she told her. "I know Chuck filled you in on everything and I was wondering if you had time to talk with me."
"Of course, dear," Lily said, surprised yet happy that Blair reached out to her.
"Before you ask me everything I know you probably want to, I have a question for you," Blair said with a pause, continuing when Lily didn't say anything. "Is it really okay that Chuck has been here for three weeks? I know you two have a lot of work with Bass Industries."
"Charles can stay in England as long as he wants to," Lily told her. "Family must come first, and that's what you and Rose are to him."
"Listen to me, I'm in no position to judge you," Lily said when Blair remained quiet on the other end. "When I was your age, I was in the same position you were. You could say we did the same thing but we both know what I did was worse."
"Why would you say that?" Blair asked.
"Because I gave up my child with Rufus, you kept your child with Chuck and have been doing a marvelous job raising her on you own," Lily said.
"Not on my own, Cyrus was with me until two months ago," Blair told her.
"That's not the same as having your partner there," Lily said gently. "I can't even begin to comprehend what you went through."
"It was rough, but I'd do it all over again," Blair let her know. "Rose wouldn't be in our lives if everything didn't happen. That said, it doesn't mean Chuck would have been able to handle becoming a father last year."
"Blair, we both know how Charles is. While he loves you, his past actions have been unpredictable," Lily said. "I love my son and can tell you how broken he was when you disappeared. You didn't have to do that."
"I did," Blair said. "My engagement to Louis was broken and I was pregnant by someone who wasn't my fiancé. Do you have any idea what the press would have done if they got hold of that story?"
"Yes, I do," Lily told her. "But Charles would have seen to it that you were sheltered from all that."
"It was time for me to step up and take care of things on my own," Blair said. "I was going to be a mother. How could I expect to take care of a child if I couldn't take care of myself?"
"I do see your side, Blair," Lily sighed. "And I can't say anything about you keeping this news from him as I did the same with Rufus. But know this, it took a long time for Rufus to understand why I did what I did."
"With all due respect, Lily, my decision wasn't fueled by wanting to keep my trust fund," Blair told her. "I didn't tell Chuck because I was afraid of my child getting hurt due to his fear of commitment. None of this was for my own sake, it was to protect my child."
Lily didn't know what to say. "Even so, would Charles have ever found out?" she asked. "Would you have told him?"
"Yes, when I felt ready or when Rose was old enough to ask about her father," Blair said defensively, her guard now firmly up.
"Tell me, what does Rose like? Does she have more of your features or Charles'?" Lily wanted to know, thinking a change of subject would be good.
"She's looking more and more like me every day," Blair smiled. "But her eyes are her father's, I saw him in her as soon as she opened them."
Lily gasped quietly, knowing how hard that must have been for Blair to see Chuck staring back at her all the time. "It was a shock, yet comforting at the same time," Blair told her.
They continued talking about Rose and Cyrus, how Blair completed her degree at Columbia and her plans for law school in the next year or two. As their conversation was winding down, Lily wanted to leave the younger woman with a last piece of advice.
"Blair, if you take one thing away from our talk, please let it be this," Lily stated. "The love you and Charles have for one another is rare, it's once in a lifetime. I know he wants to be there for you both, let him."
"That's all I want, Lily," Blair told her. "He's the one who's holding back. I hear Rose waking up, I need to go."
"Give her a kiss for me," Lily said as she fought back a sniffle. "My first grandbaby. Do you think you can send me a photo of her?"
"I can do that," Blair said, thinking of sending her the latest one she took of Rose with the teddy bear and the photo she took of Chuck with Rose that first day they met. "Give everyone my best."
"Take care, and don't lose faith now," Lily said, sighing when she heard Blair hang up. The parallels between Blair and Chuck to her and Rufus were so blatant that she hoped the young lovers would be able to repair themselves faster than she and Rufus were able to.
June 29, 2012
"You've been here before?" Chuck asked as Blair pushed Rose in her stroller around the grounds of Hampton Court.
"A few times, with Cyrus," she told him.
"She's so beautiful," he said as they stopped and he lifted Rose out of the stroller. "Just like her mother."
"Are you going to make a move on me or what?" she asked with a sigh. Chuck just stared at her as she continued, ""You keep making comments about how good I look but you have yet to make a move. We both feel it, and I know you want me as much as I want you. Why are you hesitating?"
"Because," he told her as he sat down on a bench with Rose, "I don't want our first time back together to be purely physical."
"How do you want it then?" she inquired.
"Like that night at the Plaza," he said. "You couldn't keep your hands off me and I made love to you like I never had. It was all consuming and perfect and it should have been our new beginning. In a way it was."
"Chuck," she said quietly as he kissed Rose's forehead.
"I love you, Blair," he told her. "But I don't want us to make the same mistakes twice."
"Then let go of the hurt," she said as he closed his eyes. "Don't let games or pride win out this time."
"We need to talk about everything that happened," Chuck told her. "Only then do I think we can begin to rebuild."
"No," she said with finality. "I don't want to talk about it. We've both made mistakes. Yours always were more catastrophic than mine, but keeping Rose from you was by far the worst thing I've ever done. The past is in the past and I'd rather not revisit it if we don't have to."
"But can we move forward together if we don't?" he asked.
"I had your child, Chuck," she told him. "If I didn't love you, I couldn't have gone through with it. And the moment I saw Rose's face, I knew I'd forgiven you. You gave me the greatest gift in the world, my little girl."
"Our little girl," he corrected her. Blair just smiled as he kissed Rose's head again before she continued.
"It hurts too much being with you yet not being with you" she said. "We have this cloud over us and it's killing me."
"Are you going to ask me to leave?" Chuck asked in a panic.
"No," she told him. "I won't do that to you. Just remember that the past is the past, it happened."
"It still sucks," he said bluntly as he lowered his head and rubbed Rose's back.
"Chuck," she said as she looked at him with their daughter, "We can't change what we've done. For the most part, I'm at a relatively happy place in my life that I'd rather not dampen with talk of where we went wrong. Nothing will erase what we did, but regardless of that, I never stopped loving you, or wanting you for that matter."
"I'm sorry, but I won't let my base needs dictate this. It's hard enough for me without you telling me that, in more ways than one," he told her as he glanced down at his pants getting tight. "I'm hurt, emotionally wrecked, let me be upset. For the first time in my life I'm owning my feelings and being completely honest with you, which is a huge step for me. Know that I don't want anyone other than you but I do need time."
"Fine," she told him, feeling withdrawn from the fight. "Look at me, I told you I wouldn't beg yet that's exactly what I'm doing. If you don't want to be with me, fine. But it's a beautiful day and I want to see the rest of the gardens."
Blair took Rose from his arms and started walking, leaving him to get the diaper bag and push the stroller while catching up to where she was. He knew it was difficult but he was different, she'd see that in time. Until then, it would be extremely uncomfortable for them both.
July 5, 2012
Chuck's internal struggle continued as Blair grew more and more distant with him. He never wanted to let go of Rose but understood that Blair was used to being alone with her most of the time. He'd go for a walk almost daily, exploring his new home for the time being and taking the quiet to reflect on it all as well as calling Eric to get his stepbrother's advice.
He was aware of the whisperings going on around town with his arrival. Once Blair's neighbor met him at the supermarket, news of Rose's father spread like wildfire around the townspeople. It wasn't a tiny village but it was a bedroom community where gossip ran rampant, much like the Upper East Side he and Blair called home.
Neighbors would try to stop him when he was on his own for a walk but Chuck never told them too much. Things with Blair were complicated enough that they didn't need everyone else interjecting their opinions. He was walking up the path to Blair's house when Mrs. Heaney and another woman greeted him halfway.
"That's him, Marge," Mrs. Heaney said to her friend as she pointed at Chuck. "He's Rose's father."
"Mrs. Heaney, so good to see you again," Chuck said with unease as he put his hands in his pocket.
"Pleasure is all mine," she told him with fake pleasantries as she looked him up and down, as did the other woman. "I told you he was a looker."
"I'm Chuck Bass," he said to the friend as he extended his hand. It made him uncomfortable that these women old enough to be his grandmothers were looking at him so blatantly.
"Marge Bloom, and the pleasure is all mine," she told him as she took his hand. "We stopped by with some cake for Blair. Now that you're here, you can show us in."
Ambushed and knowing the woman would follow him inside the house regardless of whether or not he invited them, he opened the door and called out, "Blair, you have visitors."
Blair walked out of the kitchen with an apron tied around her waist and froze when she saw who was standing in her foyer. She and Chuck shared a brief look before she said, "Mrs. Heaney, Mrs. Bloom, what brings you two around this afternoon?"
"I thought we should get to know Chuck here," Mrs. Heaney told her as she held up the cake they brought.
"I'm afraid I'm in the middle of cooking dinner so you'll have to excuse me for not inviting you to stay for tea," Blair said as she did her best to retain her composure and not lose her cool.
"That's all right, dearie," Mrs. Bloom said as she and Mrs. Heaney walked by her into the kitchen. "We can chat with Chuck while you cook."
Blair eyes narrowed at Chuck as he shrugged and mouthed, 'What was I supposed to do? They were outside.'
She shook her head and they followed the unwanted visitors into the kitchen to find them seated at the table, fussing over Rose in her bouncy seat. Blair turned off what she had on the stove and leaned against the counter while Chuck lifted Rose up and sat across from the older women at the table.
"Where have you been this past year, Chuck?" Mrs. Bloom asked. "Because it hasn't been helping Blair care for Rose."
"Excuse me," he said, startled by how rude the question was.
"What Marge is trying to get at is why you haven't been with Blair this whole time?" Mrs. Heaney reiterated. "It's clear from looking at you two together that she's yours, the eyes say it all."
"Chuck has been in New York, working," Blair stated, peeved that she had to tell them anything.
"Were you aware she was pregnant with your child?" Mrs. Heaney asked. "And if not, why?"
"Yes," Mrs. Bloom said, "What's the story with you two?"
"A complicated one," Chuck said softly as he rubbed Rose's back. The little girl was sure to feel the tension in the room and starting to fuss in his arms. "But we're together now, and Rose is priority one for me."
"Now," Mrs. Bloom said haughtily, "But around here when a pregnant woman makes no mention of her baby's father it's usually because he was nothing great to start with."
It was becoming clear to Chuck that Marge was the worse of the two women.
"Enough," Blair exclaimed as she moved to the doorway and stared at them, "You have no right to say that about Chuck or I. Not that it is any of your business, but I'll have you know that Chuck was always great. The reason you haven't heard about him is between the two of us, end of story. I want you both out of my house this instant."
"Marge meant nothing by it, Blair," Mrs. Heaney told her, trying to backpedal for her friend and remain in Blair's good graces. "Didn't you, Marge?"
"Oh, yes," she assured her as she nodded at the young parents. "No malice meant whatsoever."
"Out, now," Blair said with a look in his eyes that made them scurry out of their seats and towards the front door.
Blair let out an aggravated groan as she slammed the door behind them, locking it before turning around and returning to the kitchen. Chuck was standing with Rose in his arms when she stood next to him.
"I didn't mean for that to happen," he said. "But they could have been on to something with what they said."
"You can be absolutely infuriating at times but you're a good father," she told him, still shaking with rage at how her neighbors treated her and Chuck. "How dare they insinuate any less? They don't know you at all and had some nerve to say what they did in my house."
"Calm down," he said as he put his hand on her shoulder. "They're gone now, it's fine."
"It most certainly is not," she exclaimed. "This will be all over town by morning. As it is, I have a reputation around here."
"I thought you said people have been good about it," Chuck stated as they sat back down at the table, Blair taking Rose and visibly relaxing with her daughter in her arms.
"They haven't said anything to my face," she told him, kissing Rose's head. "But the rumors swirling about are anything but good. Not only was I new to town, I was unwed and pregnant."
"I'm sorry," he said, "Is there anything I can do?"
"No, just don't tell people how screwed up we are," she said dryly as she held Rose close, closing her eyes and centering herself before she could return to cooking dinner.
July 10, 2012
Blair patience with Chuck was wearing thin. He was very good with Rose and always wanted to be around his daughter but the sexual tension was driving Blair crazy. She was a passionate person and being so close to Chuck again without really being close to him wasn't what she wanted.
It wasn't like she didn't have opportunity. There was a man from town that showed interest in her when she arrived last year but Blair didn't feel a spark with him. Jeffrey was nice and good with Rose, but he wasn't Chuck. When she ran into him while out with Chuck and Rose, Blair decided to play up their flirtation and see how Chuck reacted when faced with the knowledge that someone else wanted her.
"Jeffrey," she exclaimed with a smile as he approached them in the parking lot of the supermarket, "How are you?"
"I'm good," he told her as he kissed her cheek before looking at Chuck and extending his hand. "Hi, I'm Jeffrey Walker."
"I gathered that," Chuck said coldly as his hands held Rose to him in the carrier on his chest. "I'm Chuck Bass, Rose's father."
"Interesting," Jeffrey said, "Because I've never heard of you before. And I've known Blair since she moved here."
"It's complicated," Chuck told him before Blair could cut in. "But I'm here now."
"You haven't stopped by the shop in a while, I was starting to get nervous," Jeffrey said with a laugh as his arm rested on Blair's and Chuck grew more livid by the second.
"Unexpected company," she said as she motioned towards Chuck. "But I've been meaning to stop by for some time now. I hear you got in a first edition of The Age of Innocence. I've always loved that book."
"I remember," Jeffrey said with a grin as he looked at Chuck, "And it's been on hold for you."
"You're too good to me," Blair said playfully.
"Blair," Chuck said as he moved in front of her, "We really should be getting Rose home, it's late and she needs to be fed."
"I fed her before we left an hour ago," Blair said, narrowing her eyes at him.
"It's close to the time she goes to sleep," Chuck told her. "Surely our daughter is more important than a book or Jeffrey here."
"Don't," Blair warned him before turning to her friend. "I apologize for him but I should get Rose home. I'll see you soon though."
"Looking forward to it," he told her as she leaned up to kiss his cheek. "Bye, Rose."
Chuck already had Rose in her carseat and was sitting in the passenger seat when Blair got in the car and started her verbal barrage on him.
"How dare you?" Blair accused when they were back in the car. "You were incredibly rude to my friend just now."
"Your friend, you mean that man you were throwing yourself at," he retorted heatedly. "And who was hitting on you, by the way."
"So, what if he was?" she asked. "You made it very clear that you weren't interested in me like that. Excuse me if I enjoy feeling desired by someone."
"For now," he exclaimed. "I'm still processing everything. I told you I needed time. I waited a year to be with you again, pardon me for wanting it to be perfect."
"And just how many random women were you with while you were supposedly waiting for me?" she asked, furious that he was turning this back on her.
"None," he replied in an even keel. "The thought of being with anyone other than you after that night at the Plaza makes me sick, physically sick. What about you? How long were you here before you started sleeping with Jeffrey?"
"I never slept with him, or anyone for that matter," she told him. "How could you even ask me that? I was pregnant with your child, I wasn't about to have sex with a man who wasn't you."
"Why?" he asked.
"Because I was waiting for you, you bastard," she cried as put her head down on the steering wheel. "I was waiting for you to find me and tell me what a mistake you made in letting me go."
The tears streamed down her face as he saw the sobs racking her body. Chuck felt his heart stop, he was so consumed with how he was feeling and all he missed that he never thought what Blair must have been going through.
"This isn't just hard on you," she told him, her head still on the steering wheel. "You may not have been here this past year but I have had to live with my decision every day. Each day that passed made it harder for me to work up the nerve to contact you. You were the one who let me go last year, how on earth could you have expected me to go back to you with the news of our child? It never would have happened, not after what you did."
"I'm sorry," he said, the sudden realization that she must have been hurting even more than he was finally hitting him. "I didn't think about that. What do you need me to do? I'm here now, tell me what you want me to do."
"There's nothing you can say or do, I'm fine," Blair told him as she shook his hand off her arm and wiped away her tears before turning the key in the ignition. "You were right, I should get Rose home, it's late."
"Don't do this," he pleaded with her. "Don't put up your wall again and shut me out now."
"I'm not," she said as she backed out of the spot and started the drive home. "You say you need time, now so do I."
Blair didn't say another word on the way home. Chuck wouldn't stop talking as he tried to get across to her how much he wanted what she did, them together again for good. Never in his life had he been so open about his emotions but she needed to know the depth of how he felt for her and that he was tired of messing it all up.
"And before you even suggest it, I'm not saying this because of Rose," he told her. "I want to be with you because I love you, I've only ever loved you. You're the mother of my child, and she is perfect. I don't know how you remain so strong when I'm sure you feel like I do."
"My life has been so empty without you," Chuck continued as she stared in front of her without so much as a sideways glance towards him. "We finally found each other again, let's make things right."
"Things between us will never be right," she told him as she took the turn onto her street. "Just let it go."
She remained quiet as she took Rose out of her carseat, Chuck getting the packages and diaper bag out of the boot. Once inside the house, their little girl was fed, changed, and dressed for bed while her parents stewed in strained silence.
"Sweet dreams, my little angel," Blair said as she leaned over to kiss Rose goodnight before making her way down the hall. "I'll check on you later."
Chuck quickly kissed his daughter goodnight before he was on Blair's heels. "What are you doing?" he asked as she went to close the door to her room.
"I'm going to bed, I'm exhausted," she told him without making eye contact. Blair was completely numb on the inside, a feeling she hadn't felt since her pregnancy was confirmed and she knew that Chuck wouldn't be able to handle the news. As it was, she let Chuck see too much and wasn't ready if he let her down again.
"We need to talk," he told her, pushing the door to her room open. She didn't know what possessed her but she reached up for him and kissed him with all the passion that had been brewing since they were last together. Maybe it was a year of going without or maybe it was because she still loved him with every fiber of her being but she didn't fight it. It was strong and primal and it took control of them.
The second their lips connected it was a frenzy as he backed her onto the bed. They spent what felt like forever just kissing, hands everywhere as they hurriedly undressed each other and allowed themselves to get reacquainted with every inch of the other. With their clothes thrown to the floor, Blair wanted nothing more than to feel Chuck inside her.
"Are you sure?" he asked when she arched up against him, teasing him with how close they were to connecting but still apart.
"Shut up and do me," she rasped as her arms wrapped around his shoulders and she kissed his neck.
A part of his brain was telling him to wait but his body and heart were telling him to make love to her like he did the night they conceived Rose. Ignoring his brain, he entered her and felt all of his doubt disappear as he and Blair melded into one.
She moaned, bucking up to him and desperate for him to start moving and give her the release she was dreaming about for the past year. He took her hands in his and laced them above her head, kissing the side of her face while rocking into her. His thrusts were slow and deliberate, wanting to commit every second of their lovemaking to memory. The sight of her writhing with pleasure underneath him was more than he could take but he needed to make it last longer.
Chuck flipped them without breaking their connection so she was on top of him. Gasping with surprise, her eyes filled with desire as she pulled him up and dug her nails into his back as she rode him harder. They continued flipping each other, postponing their releases for as long as possible. Blair was shuddering uncontrollably around him when she felt him finally explode in her.
Panting, he collapsed on top of Blair and tried to draw her to him. She wanted to melt into him but resisted. As mind-blowing as it was, she knew it shouldn't have happened. Once again, sex was there to complicate her relationship with Chuck.
"Don't," she breathed as she pulled away, closing her eyes and cursing herself for allowing her base needs to dictate her actions just now.
"Blair," he said as she sat up with the sheet covering her while she looked around the room trying to make sense of what just happened.
"This changes nothing," she told him as she stood up and reached for her robe. "I was naïve to think we could ever be happy again after all that's happened."
"I'm very happy," Chuck asserted. "You always made me happy, you still do."
"No, having sex makes you happy," she said with a sad smile, pulling her robe closed and tying it. "You're still on your orgasm high, what you're feeling is purely physical and will be gone soon."
"It won't," he insisted, "You and I have never been just physical. We need to work through this."
"I can't deal with any of this now," she said shaking her head, still mentally chastising herself for what she just let happen. "I need to check on Rose."
With that, she was out the door and down the hall. Chuck fell back against the pillows, his head spinning at the situation he was in. He and Blair just had the most amazing lovemaking session and the only thing he wanted was to hold her as they drifted to sleep. She, on the other hand, couldn't get away from him fast enough and that made him feel used in the worst possible way.
Knowing they needed to talk, Chuck looked around for his boxers before slipping them on and making his way down the hall to where Blair was. Everything had changed for him just now and it was time for him to do the fighting. He realized that while it was wrong he was kept away, he was there now and could make up for the time he lost, the time they lost as a family.
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And their physical desires won out over their rationality. This is Chair we're talking about, when hasn't sex taken center stage for them. While I've told you that I'm very pragmatic, I don't like being predictable and could see Chair ignoring reason in favor of getting their releases from one another. However, this only further complicates matters for them as they try to navigate through their fractured relationship as we all know these two can never just have sex. It will always be making love and their emotions are tightly interwoven into everything they do.
While I like writing smut, I kept this closer to T rather than M because I didn't want to have to put the disclaimer up top and give away where I was taking this chapter. What do you think? Did you see this coming? And would you like the rating upped to M for future sex scenes?
Also, what do you think of this reversal of sorts? Blair has been the one that's wanted Chuck but now she's closed herself off to him because she can't take any more rejection. She knows how hurt Chuck is but also needs him to let her back in. Now she's shut herself off to him right when he was about to open up to her.
How do you think they'll deal with this in the morning? It will be emotional and messy when they face each other with a clear mind, not to mention the floodgate of desire that was just unleashed for them both on top of the hurt and confusion they're already feeling. Your suggestions are always welcome and I can't wait to read your reviews of this chapter.
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