Faded and torn, old and forlorn
My weak and hoping heart

Dean watched as the mirror slowly began to change. It twisted and then went black. Slowly a faded image began to appear. He watched as Kat's face appeared. She had tears rolling down her cheeks. He felt the ache in his chest get worse. Seeing her again was killing him.

"Dean," she said softly.

He looked away. "It's Jo. She... She jumped between me and a hellhound. She's dying and we're-," he started.

"I know. I got some of the images from your head. It's not your fault. You didn't ask her to save you."

Dean let tears fall and then he looked up and met Kat's eyes. "She said she did it because she couldn't let Addie grow up like she did; without a father."

Dean heard Kat's soft curses. He then watched her as she wiped the tears from her eyes. He knew that she was hurting too. He thought that he could actually feel her pain along with his own in his chest. He wished that he could reach out to her and hold her close to him. He let more tears fall. "Why did you leave, Katerina? Why did you just leave without even talking to me?" he suddenly found himself asking.

He watched as Kat looked at him then looked away. He wanted her to face him but she didn't. "I needed to protect you, Dean. I know what you would have said if I had tried to talk to you. I did what I had to. Just like you will."

Dean shook his head and let out a short laugh. "I have no clue what I am going to do."

Kat looked up and met his eyes. "Yes, you do. You are going to go out there and find a way to get out of that store. Then you are going to kill Lucifer and fix this mess."

Dean swallowed the lump in his throat. "And if I can't?"

Kat gave him a sad smile. "You'll figure it out, babe. If this doesn't work you'll find another way. It's who you are and what you do."

"I am not a fucking hero."

Dean watched as Kat reached out and touched her hand to the mirror. He watched as the window slowly began to close. He slammed his hands on the mirror but the vision of Kat kept getting smaller and smaller and then became black. "You are a hero, Dean. You and Sam are heroes. You sacrifice yourselves to save others. That's a hero. Now go out there and kick Lucifer's ass," he heard Kat's voice echo. He watched as the mirror went black and then it cleared and he was once again staring at his own reflection.

"I'm not a hero, Kitten," he said sadly, "heroes always get the girl at the end of the movie." He then sighed and grabbed some paper towel to wipe the blood from his chest. He felt more relaxed but he could still see his hands shake slightly. He knew that this was not going to end well.

Kat curled up in a ball on the carpet of her bedroom. She felt the throbbing in her chest and could still feel blood flowing from the cut there but she didn't care. She let the sobs out and pulled her knees to her chest. She sobbed for the loss of the man she knew she would always love and the loss of her child. She mourned the loss of the person she had been back there in that world. Most of all though she cried knowing that back here in the place that she should have felt safe and at home, she didn't. All she wanted was to be back with Dean, Sam and Addie. She wanted to be a family with them and not have to fake being a family with Jensen and Jared.

"I can't do this," she cried, "I can't do this anymore."

She cried herself to sleep not moving from her spot on the carpeted floor. She had finally broken and she knew that there was no putting her back together. She didn't want to be fixed. And what she did want, she couldn't have.

Sam stood shocked rooted to the spot as Lucifer hit Dean and Dean went down. Dean had shot Lucifer in the head with the colt. Apparently though the colt couldn't kill Lucifer and now there the devil was standing still alive and well. Lucifer turned and smiled at Sam. Sam felt his stomach flip flop and bile rise in his throat. He hated how Lucifer looked at him some prized possession. It creeped him out and sent chills down his spine.

"Sam, I am so glad we are going to get this time to talk," Lucifer said picking up his shovel again and going back to digging.

Sam clenched his jaw. "I am going to find a way to kill you."

Lucifer sighed, "That wounds me, Sam. I think you know that deep down you will say yes to me. You just won't be able to fight me off much longer. All that anger inside of you, I can feel it."

Sam's hands balled into fists. "It doesn't matter how angry I get or if I did say yes. It wouldn't matter because Kat would still need to say yes as well," Sam smiled bitterly at Lucifer, "And she isn't here to say yes and you don't know where she is."

Lucifer frowned. "True, I don't know where that little hellcat went but I will find her, Sam. And if I don't, hey maybe my brothers will find her first."

Sam was speechless for a moment. "Angels are looking for Kat?"

Lucifer smiled and then turned back to the hole he had been digging. "I'm not telling. I wouldn't want to ruin the surprise," he then turned back and looked at the demons surrounding the hole, "Time to get this show on the roll."

Sam watched as Lucifer began chanting and all the demons around them chanted with him. And then one by ones the demons died. Sam looked at Lucifer slightly shocked and confused. Once the last demon died, Lucifer turned and looked at Sam. He shrugged, "What? They're just demons," he said before turning his back to the pit.

Sam took the chance and went over to check on Dean and help him. He turned back to glance at Lucifer when he felt the ground tremble under his feet. He swallowed the lump in his throat and really didn't want to think about how much worse things would get once Lucifer summoned the last horseman, Death. Sam was sure there would be a trail of bodies on a global scale and there was nothing that him or Dean could do about it at the moment. He turned back to check on Dean and saw Castiel appear beside them and Dean's eyes opening. Cas placed his finger on his lips and then grabbed a hold of both Winchesters and flew away. Sam was glad to get the hell out of town. He had no desire to meet Death face to face.

Dean stood at the fireplace and watched as Bobby burned the picture he had taken the night before. It was their way of saying goodbye to Ellen and Jo. Of course Sam had made a copy first saying that Addie deserved to know who the people were who saved her daddy. It had taken all of Dean's willpower not to roll his eyes at that. He took a long gulp of the whiskey in his glass and then placed the glass on the mantle. He looked at Bobby.

"I'm going to go check on Addie," he said softly turning to walk away.

"Wait, there's something you should know," Bobby said turning his wheel chair and wheeling over to his desk.

"Can't it wait until morning? I mean, I think we have had enough for tonight."

"It's about Kat."

Dean turned and saw Sam get up from his place on the couch and walk over when he heard that. Dean could see that there was something bothering Sam but his little brother hadn't said anything and he wasn't about to ask. The last thing he wanted to finish out what had turned out to be a crappy day was a chick flick moment with his brother.

"Lucifer mentioned Kat too," Sam said softly.

Dean glanced at Sam sharply. "And when were you planning on telling me this?"

Sam shrugged. "After I had talked to Bobby and checked into if there was any truth in his words."

"Well, if Satan told you that there are people asking questions about Katerina, then he ain't lying."

Dean's eyes narrowed. "What types of questions?"

Bobby grabbed a piece of paper and then turned in his wheelchair to look at the boys. His face told them that whatever news he was about to share with them was not good. "Rufus called and said that a demon he had exorcised was asking questions and searching for a witch. Not any witch, a natural witch, a very specific one named Kat," Bobby said.

"Fuck," Dean said running a hand over his face, "Rufus find out why?"

Bobby shook his head. "No, but Missouri did. She did a little magic and talked to some spirits. Lucifer wants to find Kat and kill her."

"The angels as well," Castiel explained appearing beside Bobby and causing everyone to jump. "I have heard whisperings and they are searching for Katerina and a way to get to her world."

Sam frowned. "They are angels. Can't they just, I don't know, time travel?"

Castiel shook his head. "Time travel is possible but not easy. For demons and angels, travelling through dimensions is even worse. There is a chance they risk losing their powers and becoming weak upon arriving at their destination."

"How weak?" Dean asked.

"Weak enough to be useless for a short period of time. A couple weeks a month at the most. The only angels who can travel effortlessly through time and dimensions are arch angels. God gifted them with that power."

"Are there any arch angels after Kat?" Dean demanded. He watched as Cas looked away and wouldn't meet his eyes. "Dammit, Cas you answer me. That is the mother of my child we are talking about. If she is in danger I need-."

"You are needed here, Dean. Katerina was never meant to come here and bring your daughter with her. Your daughter was never even meant to exist period. Your destiny was to fight this war and win it. Katerina has been nothing but a problem and..." Castiel trailed off as he saw Dean's shoulder's harden and a look of pure rage come on the older Winchester's face. "Dean, I did not-."

"Get out, Cas. I really don't want to see your face right now, or I might break it," Dean managed to get out before turning on his heels and leaving the room.

Sam winced as he heard Dean's heavy angry footsteps up the stairs and then finally the door to Addie's room opening and slamming shut. He turned to look at Castiel but the angel had disappeared already. He looked at Bobby and saw the look of concern on the older man's face. Sam sighed and sat in one of the chairs in front of Bobby's desk.

Sam cleared his throat and sighed. "Dean can reach Kat through a viewing pool," he said.

Bobby looked at Sam. "Really?"

Sam nodded. "I think it has to do with that spell Missouri did. It connected Dean and Kat. He can contact her and tell her what is going on so that she will be safe."

Bobby looked at Sam with a hint of disbelief on his face. "The way I understand viewing pools is that if someone specifically calls to another person, that person has to accept that call for it to work."

Sam frowned and leaned forward in the chair. "Are you saying that if Dean called Kat again she might..." he trailed off and shook his head, "No, she would answer."

"You said they are connected. Maybe Kat only answered this time because she knew that Dean needed to talk to her. Hell, he had just seen Jo sacrifice herself for him, he was feeling guilty. Of course Kat would want to ease that away. But if he tried to call her again and this time she didn't sense any pain or guilt," Bobby stopped and saw Sam nodding.

"She might not answer because it'll be too painful to be reminded of what she left behind," Sam finished. He sat back in the chair and looked at the ceiling. "You know Bobby, just once I wish that something in our lives would be easy."

Bobby smiled sadly. "I know how you feel, boy, I know how you feel."