Lucy had stopped trying to quell the tears cascading down her face. There were two unbroken rivulets of hot tears streaming down her warm cheeks. Lucy glanced for a moment at the completed letters next to her and then at the timer. She stared at the grassy field the car was parked in. The rippling green surface of the grass, the crystal clear sky, the pink and blue forget-me-nots growing at the edge of the meadow, it all seemed to be mocking her. This was the last thing she'd ever see, and it was so damn beautiful, practically perfect. If one looked only at this one plain, they would think the world to be a perfect, peaceful place. If only it was.
Lucy shook her head, trying to focus. She tore another piece of paper from the notebook. This was it. This was what all the other letters had been leading up to. The hardest goodbye. Lucy felt her tears come faster, hotter. "I don't want to say goodbye," she whispered to herself.
She took a couple of deep breaths and wrote the word "dear". Wait, the ink… Lucy picked up her letter to Loke and held it next to the new one. The ink on the latter was definitely…fading.
"No way," Lucy muttered, writing the letter "N". Even more faded. She quickly jotted the rest of the word down, but by the end, there was practically nothing there. She went to write a comma after the name, but nothing came out of the pen. "No," she moaned. Lucy scribbled frantically, trying in vain to will more ink into the pen. "No!" she yelled. "No, no, no! No! I need to finish this letter! I need to say goodbye! I need to do this! No!"
With that last tortured cry, she absolutely lost it. Her sobs tore through the small car like a bullet through flesh. This feeling, this incommunicable pain in her gut, a mix of grief, loneliness, anger, guilt, love, and so much more.
"It's all over," she sobbed. "I'm going to die in three minutes…" Lucy watched the clock count down to her inevitable death. Two minutes… She was never going to finish her novel. One minute… She watched a pair of squirrels frolicking in the tall grass. Oh how she wished to switch places with them… 45 seconds… She'd never see her beloved guild again… 30 seconds… Would there be enough of her body left to bury her? She so wanted to be buried next to her parents… 15 seconds… She would never see them again. Erza, Levy, Gray, Juvia… 10 seconds… Master, Mira, Lisanna, Elfman, her spirits... 5 seconds… and Natsu… 3 seconds… Natsu… 1 second… "NATSUUU!"
A/N: AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! This was supposed to be an emotional chapter, but I'm not entirely sure if I like how it turned out. Anyway, I PROMISE PROMISE PROMISE x 1,000,000 that this story is not over. If I had to guess, I'd say there was about 5-ish chapters left. Thanks for reading; I'll try to update soon!