Chapter 4

A/N: Hope you guys are still with me. Sorry ahead for misspelling or confusion. It's about to be an emotional roller coaster for the next couple of chapters. There will be anger, tears, sadness, and cussing. I don't want to give too much away but just a warning I'm going to try add a little bit of everything. And yes it bounces around because who really goes in order when you are hashing your whole relationship out. Leave reviews and tell a friend to tell a friend because every Gladiator should have some OLITZ during the toughest months after that balcony scene. Enjoy!

"I got on a plane with Jake and went to an off shore island."

"Why? I needed you Jerry just di…was killed and needed you. I had Mellie call you because that's all I could say."

"I was already on the plane. I was on the island for about three months before Quinn tracked me down telling me that Harrison was dead. I came back and everything had gone to hell. OPA was in pieces just like my life. I thought I was fixing everybody by taking me out the equation. I was planning on staying till the funeral and make sure I wasn't found out to be back in D.C. but I knew that was too good to be true. One thing lead to another and I saw you for the first time and I can swear I felt your fingers against mine and I smiled a true smile in that moment."

"I did too. After Jerry was gone I didn't know how to function with another part of me gone, but I had to for Mellie and the people. She fell apart and I didn't have time to grieve for him completely or the lost of us. I said cruel things to her. Than the incident with Karen happened and she called you, I just went on autopilot. Mellie slowly came back while I slowly drifted further into the darkness. I knew you were out there but I couldn't have you. You said there was hope I took that and ran with it because hearing that from your lips made me not want to be afraid of living."

"Then you started calling and that call left me very frustrated," she said giving him a knowing look.

"Good to know I did exactly what I meant for it to do and have that effect on you."

Liv gives a little laugh and Fitz raise an eyebrow at her.

"I was just was thinking about that conversation and how you just overwhelmed me over the damn phone. Then there was this thing Jake said."

"And what was that?"

"Don't be mad okay. His words not mine." Taking a deep breath, "I am the one you like to ride. I'm the one who makes you moan. I'm the one who reaches you in places he can't touch"

"He said that. Really? So is it true?"

"We are getting off subject"

"Just answer. My pride and ego over here needs an answer and I want the song I sing in my head to be true. Keith Sweats Nobody has kept me mildly sane when I knew you were with him."

Laughing, "NO to his whole speech. Satisfied?"

"Very. Now back to us."

They get back on track and it's time for Liv to talk about her being taken. But for the life of her she couldn't and all the effects that she hasn't dealt with come rushing back. Her hands start twitching and she starts hyperventilating. Fitz sees her distress and doesn't know what's happening.

"Livvie what's wrong?"

She lifts her head and he can see she is struggling to breathe,

"Livvie breathe baby. I'm right here breathe for me breath with me." Picking her up her legs automatically wrap around his waist. "Baby your scaring me. Do I need to get you a doctor or to the hospital?"

Letting out a small cry and a shake of her head no she keeps her head tucked in his shoulder. "Look me in the eyes. Good follow me. Watch and copy me." Breathing in and out Liv follows him and slowly starts calming down. When her breathing is back to normal she whispers something,

"I didn't hear you Liv."

"Take of your shirt please. I need to feel you close to me. Please?"

Immediately he moves them to a wall placing her back against it so he can take their shirts off. He wasn't expecting her not to have a bra on and he can't help but stare a little. But this wasnt about sex but healing her. Lifting her chin she crashes her lips to his brining their bodies flush together. Running her hands thru his curls while his hands ran up and down her sides, across her face, and stomach and over heart. He was aching to take away her pain since being back together they haven't had sex. Seeing her like this he was just was a man…a man in love who needed to take care of his woman.

"I need you to save me," Liv whispers.

"I'm not going anywhere you have all of me Livvie. I promise. I have made many promises to you but this one will be the fist and not the last promise I follow thru on. No one will stop me from following thru anymore not even you." There is a moment of acceptance before she begins.

"I was in my living room dancing with Jake. He walked to the back and 2 men came in and dragged me across the to my neighbors apartment. She was dead. They threw me in a black bag and placed her body on me then zipped the bag shut. I was drugged and next thing I remember I was waking up in this dirty room with a man. Long story short I was waiting to be rescued by anyone. I just wanted to be found. I made that video and figured it could be my last chance after failed attempts. I got one though."

Starting to shake with anger Fitz moves them to the couch where she sits in his lap. He's rubbing her back to send his strength to her for her to keep going. Trying not to push her but there were so many things running threw his head. I thought she said they didn't physically hurt her? Did she lie to try and spare me even though she was hurting? I will kill Andrew myself when I get the chance.

Snapping him back was her answers to all things in his head.

"No they didn't hurt me in that manner. I will always try to protect you and killing Andrew is not the answer."

"After all this time we are still in tune with each other's thoughts."

"I had a dream while I was there."

"Tell me."

"Jake rescued me and after that it went black for a second. I woke up in a strange bed and house but I gained my bracings and knew I was home. I went and took a shower and you called out and joined me in the shower where you used your superpowers," earning her that secret smile he gives only her, "then it popped to use in the kitchen with you explaining your day as mayor and me making boysenberry jam."

"I love boysenberry."

"I know. I walk the dog around the property. Tom and Abby were there they made my dream fade into a nightmare."

Laying down with her still in his arms he starts sobbing hard.

"I didn't save you in real life or even your dream. I caused all this."

"Fitz this wasn't your fault." Bursting up from the couch with tears in his eyes still running down his face.