You're with Eggsy and everything is quiet… You can smell him and feel him, and you're sure that he's real. There's so much you want to say to him but, you stay completely silent. You don't tell him how much he means to you because, well, you never do. You always just assumed he could tell. That he just knew…

Now, you'll never be able tell him that his smile is what keeps you going.

Now, you'll never be able to tell him that his laugh alone could brighten even your darkest of days.

When you looked at him now as he sit quietly besides you, he smiled that cheeky grin you'd grown to know as yours; and you knew wholeheartedly that you loved him.

You'd known for awhile now though, hadn't you? And as you scan those azure eyes and that perfect jawline, you wondered why you couldn't just say it… Why couldn't you just… tell him?

Only, you already know you hadn't told him because you've always been too afraid. You've always been a coward, and now you wished you had the guts when it mattered… And you realized that there was something worse than loving, and that was losing it.

Having it taken… ripped—

"You in there?"

Now you're beginning to realize you weren't with Eggsy at all… That you had been off in some hallucination of a seemingly perfect night you'd had months ago. You looked around, and you realized you were still locked in that damn room with this toothy son of a bitch. Whatever was in that gas really messed with your mind— bad, and you didn't like how it felt one bit.

"Where did you go?" Artemis asked with curiously lining his voice, once again reminding you how stuck you really were.

"Doesn't matter… I think you were in the middle of threatening me?" You asked pointedly avoiding his question as best you could. You were hoping for strong, but you feared you looked more weak than anything. "I think it was something like…'You'll see'?" When you replied your voice was just above a whisper. "This is getting boring, Artemis. Get on with it."

You knew right then that being a bitch wasn't your best bet, but you felt a fire light and could hardly control the words leaving your lips. Your mind moved a mile a minute, overlapping with question after question: All of them pressing against your temples as your pulse elevated with each short breath in. But instead of asking any of them, you were silent— like you always were, watching the way his chest rose and fell trying to figure out the best way to play this game.

"Your little boyfriend, Galahad, has made quite a few enemies, hasn't he?" Artemis narrowed his eyes as he half sat on his desk; crossing his feet at the ankles. He tilted his head slowly, leaning forward to point at you with the smallest smirk spread tightly over his thin lips. "There are many that want to see him dead… But there are some that would pay a lot more just to see him suffer."

There it was.

The fear. Biting you sharply; sinking its fangs in as a inky poison spread into the wound. No matter how hard you tried, you couldn't keep the terror from slipping across your face.

You wanted to ask who, but you weren't looking to get laughed at. There was no way he would tell you anything you could use, and if he did— you knew that conversation would likely end in death.

You also sort of already knew the answer… Everyone and also no one at all.

With how many missions you two had been on these last 9 months, and the types of people you usually went against— the options were almost endless.

That uneasy golden smile spread showing you once more how dangerous being with Eggsy could be.

You may have loved him silently in attempts to make things appear less serious than everyone knew they were— but deep down you knew you weren't fooling anyone.

Here's where the guilt kicks back in... You start asking yourself questions like how could you be so stupid. How could you be so damn careless and how could you have been so fucking selfish?

It didn't matter what you said or did, because ultimately Artemis laughed at you anyway. And as that maniacal laugh taunted your sanity it reminded you that this all could have been prevented.

There hadn't been a day that passed where you didn't wonder if that mission would be it... the one that ruined it all. The big fat 'I told you so', when someone got smart enough, and finally played this card. You had imagined a million and one scenarios, but this wasn't even close to those and now as it taunt you, you didn't know what to do.

Artemis shook his head at you, sending out the universal sound of disapproval as he walked to the bolted door. He raised his hand and began tapping his knuckle to the metal with a few hollow thuds. "You actually love that bloke don't you…"

You didn't have to say a word for him to read the answer written across your face.

"Good..." He pushed his hands together before his chest, rubbing them excitedly. "I think we better get things going, don't you? For this next part… I'm going to need your help."

And now it was your time to laugh... did this idiot seriously think you'd just agree to help him?

But after a second the way he eyed you like a toy shook you to your core and showed you that he did. A cold chill spread over you instantly, freezing you in place as your laugh died in your throat.

"Let's get one thing clear here, Artemis… You can do anything you want to me, but I will never help you." Your words came out as dark and threatening as you could muster, and you hoped it was enough. And you meant it, there was no limit to the amount of torture you would endure if it meant keeping Eggsy safe.

You'd die before you'd let anything happen to that man… Now you realize, you probably will.

"Thought you might say that, and honestly I wouldn't mind having some fun with you. But my— let's call her my partner." When he started again his tone insinuated in a whisper. "Well, she wants things done a certain way, so it really is best for everyone that things go according to plan."

"I don't fucking care about your partner, or what she wants. She can go fuck herself." You growled spitting on the ground at his feet. It was a bit much considering you'd never done that sort of thing before, but you just sort of acted and honestly no limit was too low for you right now.

Artemis just laughed at you again before looking to his feet with a face full of disgust. A second later he raised his hand and slammed it into your cheek; you felt the popping as your skin split, followed by the warm beed of blood trailing your cheek. To be perfectly honest it'd been awhile since you'd been hit that hard, but you didn't show him him that.

"Sorry… but I really," He lied rather poorly making a face while he eye his shoe unhappily. "really hate germs."

You watched as he raised a hand, snapping his finger to the side. Within a second a mechanical piece popped forward from the wall, then slid up revealing a narrow walkway.

A tall thin woman walked out, bent down and wiped anywhere you'd spit without saying a word. The room was completely silent aside from the soft clicking of her heels followed by the hissing of the door pulling down; sealing shut once more behind a seamless wall.

There was a part of you that knew you should have been paying more attention to that woman, to what she looked like— where she was going. But with a brain still full of smog, and a mouth nearly bursting with questions you barely remembered a thing about her.

"Now… where was I?" When Artemis spoke this time, he sounded almost confused as he squint his eyes; searching the back of his lids for direction.

After a literal 'Ah ha!' moment he started again, but there was something strangely casual about his voice now. That tone was more unnerving than his creepy fucking smile had been.

"Oh, right… I was just about to show you what your darling Galahad has been up to while you've been sleeping. Are you interested?"

Just at the mention of Eggsy's codename you felt a flicker low in your gut. Your eyes sent a soft twinge and you wanted to scream in his face, but instead you swallowed down the lump forming in your throat as you stare at him unwaveringly.

"Who am I kidding, of course you do. You are probably just worried sick, aren't you?" Artemis turned to the computer placing his hand over on the tiny dragon on the screen; pressing a certain combination with his fingertips across its 8bit body.

You tried to watch… to remember the combination— but you could hardly focus on anything at all. How would you be expected to remember this if you couldn't even remember what color hair the woman had?

When Artemis finished two more screens slid up from the desk and began projecting various areas of the base. At first you didn't want to look because you knew this was all a game to him and by looking; you were letting him win in a way. But once you heard Eggsy's voice echoing through the speaker you couldn't help but dart towards it almost desperately.

'I gotta get her outta there, but I'm fucked, Merlin…'

And there he was… in the middle of a screen standing in some control room. The walls was lined in tall conduits with large monitors and machines attached to them. Eggsy seemed to be locked in while he type away at the center consoles and when you slid your eyes to the other screen you saw just what he was hiding from.

"My men have been waiting for awhile now… They're getting pretty bored, if you can imagine. But they're good dogs, just waiting for me to give them the go ahead. And if I don't tell them, well, they go anyway after about— five minutes now." He paused looking at you almost apologetically. "Oh, I've really been wasting your time…"

This is the part where confusion sets its root, and all you can see is a big fat timer counting down from five. But you watched with anxiety resting under your bust as Artemis drew your attention to a few areas on the screen besides Eggsy. "You see these? I like to call them Billows… These little guys are something I came up with. They act sorta like a bomb— in a way. But instead of causing a great big fiery explosion, they sends out a wave,"

Artemis pointed to another few small black dots on the screen as he smile wildly at you; and now your heart is pounding so fast you can hardly separate one thump from the last.

"Sort of like— an ultrasonic wave it you will. They're petty small, but they pack a big punch and they just-" He slammed his hands together in a loud bang while making a loud popping noise; causing you to jump in the seat you were strapped to. "It's veeeery messy, and honestly we'd rather not have to do all that. Galahad is very important to this whole thing, and our success depends almost entirely on his making it out of here with you. But, ultimately you get to decide…"

Artemis exhaled still holding a smile as he pushed a hand forward signaling your choices in his hands. "What's it gonna be?" He made a loud rumbling sound mimicking an explosion not moving his eyes from yours as he continue. "Or... do you want to go home? Back to your perfect life with your perfect boyfriend, and your perfect dog…"

The way he ended was far too good to be true. There was no way Artemis was just going to let you walk out of here like nothing had happened. This had to be some kind of trick, another trap, something.

"Bullshit." You called, not believing him for a second. But… you also didn't want to watch Eggsy turn into a fucking omelet in about 4 minutes; So there was a part of you that you couldn't stop from continuing. "There's no way you're letting us leave... just like that."

"I can see why you'd say that. In your position— it's not really that believable. But you don't really have any other choice, do you? And time is ticking…"

Now you couldn't believe your thoughts, but you wanted to ask Artemis what exactly he wanted from you… How much was it going to cost to get Eggsy out of there. The worst part was that you almost didn't care what it might be.

"Wh… what do you want?" When you finished Artemis muted the computer turning towards you with a smile more chilling than the last; and immediately you missed the sound of Eggsy's voice.

Your eyes were glued to that screen, each second Eggsy's mouth moved inaudibly brought you closer to giving in… It was somewhere around 3 minutes now, and you watched painfully as his lips moved— cursing up a storm no doubt. You watched as he slid a hurried hand through his hair, panicking and pleading with who you could only assume was Merlin… His face pulled somewhere between confusion and distress while he try everything he could to get out of this mess.

God, he looked so… scared. And as you feel the seconds slipping away like sand, you realized you two never even stood a chance.

This plan was perfect. Whoever the hell set all of this up knew you— and they knew Eggsy. They knew he'd never leave you, they knew you'd do whatever you had to for him… And now, they were going to win.

As those seconds passed you felt a hopelessness cascading under your skin viciously, pulling you down until you were stuffed in the ground. Buried 6 feet and losing air... and you knew what you had to happen: You had to play your part. "What do you need me to do…"

Artemis released a relieved sigh, still sporting that mischievous smile as he answered you. "We just need you to drink this, that's all. I mean... we could force it down your throat. But— it's important that you do it willingly."

You watched in near awe, trying to understand his words as he reached into his jacket pocket, pulling out a thin blue vial; tilting it back and forth in the light.

"Wh… what is it?"

But part of you didn't even care what it was or what it might do yo you... As long as Eggsy was okay after all this you'd pay whatever price you had to. You owed it to him after all, didn't you?

"It won't kill you… Honest." Artemis reminded you with another smile, holding the vial out to you once more. A second later he scoffed, rolling his eyes while he signal to your bound arms. "Guess I should untie you first."

It was strange how nonchalant he acted, and you watched him as you would a spider making its way across the floor. He let out another loud snap to the side as the woman appeared once again through the mechanical clockwork. This time you could see her face… and you could tell she was absolutely not human.

She looked human— sort of. But, there just was something wrong about her; uncanny... wrong. And those eyes. They were a bright silver; far too silver to be natural and your own eyes widened in disbelief as she untied each of your arms carefully.

A moment later you pulled your wrist between your other hand, rubbing the rawness away as you stare up at the both of them under furrowed brow. Your instincts kicked in and you jumped up ready to fight your way out of this mess— but before you even pushed yourself from the chair; the woman shot her leg straight out and into your chest, pinning you back to the chair painfully with a sharp heel.

There was no way the force you felt came from a human— So what the fuck was she? No matter how hard you pulled at the heel that punctured deeply into your shoulder; it didn't budge. You started to feel as the warm blood slide down your chest; ticking you as Artemis lean forward dangling the vial before your eyes.

"You've got about a minute now, Tristan…"

Now you realized that you were not going to get out this, and that in about 60 seconds Eggsy would be blasted to shit... That was if Artemis wasn't lying, of course. But something deep told you he wasn't the type as strange as that sounds.

"You take this, you drink it down like a good girl," He emphasized, pressing the vial towards you. "or I kill him, then lock you in with his bits and pieces until you starve to death."

You grabbed the vial forcefully, staring down at it as your hands tremble ferociously at your choices. Clearly he wasn't playing nice anymore, and now it was hard to keep those warm tears from slipping. You looked at the monitor one last time as the sharp pang in your chest rumbled. "What will it do to me…"

"Times running out… luv." Artemis said far too pointedly to be accidental as he signaled over his shoulder to the screen Eggsy decorated.

You watched the man you loved as the seconds ticked away… this was it and the dread was so heavy that it ached in your chest and you thought for sure you'd get sick from the pressure alone.

But then, you just knew what you had to do. You sort of always knew though, didn't you?

So you lifted the vial to your lips, tiled your head back and swallowed whatever that shit was in one quick gulp; gripping the vial tightly between your fingers when you finished. It tasted like metal, and was cold as ice as it slid down your throat. You could even feel a coating lining the way to your stomach, and that thought was almost too much for you to handle.

Moments later you felt a sharp prickle over your entire body as you looked to your hands, your body filling with sharp pressing fear… if this wasn't going to kill you, then what was it going to do?

"Wh…what's happening— to me?" You felt the coldness encase you, spreading up your throat as the room began fading to black. Flashes of light and Artemis' smile blurred together and sometimes you could even see Eggsy in there.

You felt as the woman, or whatever she was— slide her heel from your chest and in that moment you were sure you would vomit from the pain. The ache threw your chest forward towards your legs as you press your hand to the wound strenuously.

When you looked up with heavy eyes, you expected to see Eggsy on the screen… but you only saw flashes of that stupid fucking dragon flapping its wings most happily behind the bastard before you. The rest of the room looked exactly how it had before you were gassed now too... everything you'd knocked over was put back perfectly. Anything that broke was pieced back together... It looked like nothing happened at all.

"Wh… whadid…"

"Another something I made just for you, Tristan…" Artemis cooed, and you could sort of see the woman walking through the door; her arms full of the bindings that had once held you to the chair and several broken trinkets.

"Don't worry, you'll be alright— just like I promised… But you won't remember any of this. You won't remember meeting me, or talking to me… you wont even know what you've done until it's too late." He whispered malevolently— those words echoing around you until they were a part of you. Rumbling through and through as you fought with the darkness that called your name so sweetly.

"We will see you soon very soon." Artemis' voice traveled as if on air, and you could barely make out his footsteps as he retreated through the door.

And then… he was gone. The door was gone and it looked just like a normal wall… it looked just like a normal room. Everything was perfect.

For half a second you wondered if maybe you'd just made it all up… that the gas had just mixed your brain and you were hallucinating like before… Only the dull pang in your chest and the bright red blood reminded you otherwise.

Reminded you of a choice between this vial and Eggsy, and you pleaded with yourself to just focus. To hold onto that bottle, and to any bit of information you could…

But as the seconds dwindle away you're not sure what to think anymore and you can't shake the feeling that you're starting to forget something... Something very important… If only you could just focus, then maybe you could remember what you're not supposed to forget…

Except it's hard to focus with the room fading into darkness... and it was hard to remember with a thick fog creeping in through your mouth and nose; erasing things it doesn't want you to know…

And as you look to that fucking dragon one last time... You watched a bright golden circle flicker behind its wings before they both faded away; leaving you in complete darkness.

Cold, empty... darkness.