The Silence

Chapter 4

Alex's POV

Once the clock hit 7:12 a.m. I called a taxi. It didn't take as long as I thought it would to get there so I waited in the lobby. "Miss, are you waiting for someone?" I nodded to a tall guy with light grey hair.

"Harper Finkle" he nodded back

"Well you can go see her now… I mean, if you want to."

"The nurse yesterday said not until after 8a.m., its 7:34" he laughed.

"I'm her doctor right now and I say you can see her. Even we break our own rules sometimes. Oh and by the way, its room 468." I gave him a hug before running up to Harper's room. Wait… why did I just hug some random guy I don't know? I shrugged the question off and opened the door that read '468'.

There she was lying there all alone. Her hair was spread out over the pillow and her precious eyes were closed. It just looks like she was sleeping. I mean besides the cast she had on her legs and arms, the bandages she had on her head, and the tubes that were in her arm… who I am kidding she's not sleeping. After 2 more hours of straight crying I finally looked at her face. I wonder if she can hear me if I talk to her? "Yes, she can hear you." I turned around to see the same nurse we talked to yesterday.

Can she read my mind or something? "And no, I am not a mind reader…. It's just what a lot of people tend to ask." I'm hope she's sure she can't because that would make me really uncomfortable. "And yes I'm sure I can't read your mind that would probably make a lot of people uncomfortable." She's a liar she can totally read my mind. If she says another thing about what I'm thinking, I might freak. She looked at me for a while before saying: "I'm just going to stop talking about this… it kind of looks like you're about to freak out." Err, that's it.

"Please get out of my head!" She looked at me funny.

"I'm sorry…" she said before looking down at her feet. She looked pretty young to be a nurse, maybe about 16 or 17. She had long brown hair and greenish grey eyes and might I add rocking some pretty nice pair of colorful converse. She was cute and also looked as if… she were about to cry? Wait, I didn't mean to hurt her feelings.

"I'm sorry for yelling at you, I'm Alex Russo by the way." I said standing up and holding my hand out.

"It's okay; I just have really sensitive feelings. Oh and I'm Sophie Higs." She said wiping her eyes before shaking my hand.

"You don't look old enough to be a nurse." I said finally looking at her face. Yeah, she's totally a teenager.

"Well, I'm not a nurse. I'm a nurse in training."

"Shouldn't you be with a real nurse then?" she nodded

"I was the best in the program and there weren't enough nurses, so they assigned me to Dr. Collins." She smiled. "He's really nice and lets me do a lot of stuff that the others don't get to do."

"Well that's nice." I said turning back to Harper. I guess Sophie could tell that I wanted to be alone, because I heard the door shut. "Harper… can you hear me?" she didn't move but I kept going. "What happened to you?"

I knew she couldn't answer; it just needed to be said. "I swear if someone pushed you, I'm gonna… I'm gonna tear them to shreds!" I screamed banging on her bed post. Tears started falling from my face again. "I miss you… so much." I smiled rubbing her cheek with my thumb. "And I love you."

After a while of more crying Justin, my mom, and my dad came through the door. "How are you doing sweetie?" my dad said rubbing my back. I couldn't speak so I just hugged him in desperate need of comfort. "I know it hurts sweetie, I know."

15 minutes later…

"How is she doing?" Justin asked Sophie who walked back in shortly after them.

"She's doing okay, but even if you look like you're doing well you still can't tell how long the coma will last." I think this girl likes watching us cry because that's just what we did again.

Daddy, where's Max?" he looked down at me, we were still standing hugging each other.

"He's sitting outside, he felt like he needed some time before he came in here." That's weird, but then again Max is pretty weird. After about an hour of us talking to Harper's emotionless face we finally decided it was time to go. We all walked out but then I turned back around and kissed Harper on her lips. It brought back the memories of our first kiss which sent me back into tears before leaving the room.

When I walked into the lobby I saw everyone waiting. "Alright everyone, let's go home." Dad said. As we all started walking to the door, Max turned around and went into the elevator.

"Where are you going Max?" I asked.

"I have to go say something to Harper." His eyes were filled with tears. He forgot about the elevator and rushed up the steps. I followed shortly after. When I found him he was crying his eyes out over Harper's body. "I didn't mean to." He whispered. What is he talking about? "I didn't mean for this to happened, I knew I should've stayed." Then there were more tears.

"Maybe if I stayed you wouldn't have done this to yourself." Wait… what? "I didn't think you would try and kill yourself, I thought you were going to run away." With everyone word he spoke more tears came to his eyes. "I wished I could've of saved you from yourself." Was the last thing he mumbled.

After his talk he left the room and I pinned him against the wall. "What were you just talking about?" I said

"I was just telling Harper I'm sorry for…"

"Sorry for what?"

"Sorry for leaving her alone on the stairs after she told me she got her heart broken by you." I pushed harder into his stomach.

"What are you trying to say?" he mumbled something, "I can't hear you."

"I think Harper did this to herself and I figured if I found her sad, it was my responsibility to talk to her. I should have stayed longer to convince her more." I finally backed away from him.

"What… Harper couldn't have done this to… herself. No, not because of me." He probably doesn't even know what he's talking about… I mean, he's Max.

"And before you think I probably don't know what I'm talking about, just listen to me." I stood there waiting. "You didn't see Harper until after she had already fallen down the stairs, Justin and Miranda didn't see her until they found you holding her, and mom and dad didn't see her until she was being dragged out by ER dudes. I was the only one that saw her before she had fallen." He had point.

"That might be true, but someone still could have pushed her."

"I thought that too, but Justin had already cleared and locked up the substation for his romantic date with Miranda. The only people that were there were me, Justin, Miranda, and Harper."

"She even told me goodbye and that she's giving up… I'm sorry Alex." I fell to the ground and curled up into a ball. I don't think I could take it anymore. From losing Harper to finding out how I lost her. It was too much. It all was too much. I wonder if this is how Harper felt before she did it.

I haven't talked to Max for an entire week now. I don't hate him, I just hate that he had a chance to change Harper's mind and he didn't get through to her. School has been moving slow. Every day is like a punch in the face. I wake up just to walk downstairs to see only Justin and Max, then I go to my classes expecting to see a red head wearing a jerky jacket but I don't see one, and finally I face Gigi and her wanna be's off by myself. They really should realize that Gigi is a total bitch to them and controls them like puppets. I can't wait to see the day when they do… I mean, besides the time I put the truth spell on everyone.

Diiiinnnng Diiiinnnng

Finally school is over for the day. Just one more week and I'll be done. I'm not so positive I'm going to pass this year, but I'm never really positive about that anyway. I know Harper is; she's kept her grades up so much this year that she doesn't even have to come the last 3 weeks of school. Well, it's not like she can decide if she wanted to come now.

"Hey Alex, are you going to the hospital today?" Max asked, I nodded. "Can you tell Harper I said hi and I'm sorry?" I nodded again. That's all he ever asks of me now. Every time he can't come to the hospital he tells me the same thing. At first I just ignored him but then he kept asking me so much that it was stuck in my brain when I arrived there.

I always go when everyone is working because it gives me time to be alone with Harper. There hasn't been a day that I haven't gone to see her. I've gone so much that I've even gotten to know Sophie. Made her cry like three times, but still gotten to know her.

"Alex, come and eat." My mom shouted from the kitchen.

"I'm not hungry." I screamed back.

I'm currently laying in Harper's bed; it's become part of my routine. Monday through Friday: I go to school, work for at least an hour, go see Harper for the rest of the day, and then fall asleep in her bed. On Saturday and Sunday I spend the whole day with her and then cry the entire night. Yeah, I know it sounds pretty bad but it's not…. Ok it is but I can't help it. I just don't know how to live anymore without her. I haven't even see Juliet.

She's too busy comforting Stevie since I told her about Harper. That's Stevie's best friend and she lost her because of me. Do I really have anything to live for…?

S= Alex has lost herself. Everything about her has vanished since Harper's been in that coma. Who do you think will help Alex get out of this rough spot? Who do you think will help Alex love again? Thanks for reading so far. I don't really care if you leave reviews I'm just hoping you liked what you read… but for the reviews I did get, THANK YOUSSSS =S