As the days went by, the house was deadly silent. I coudn't stand it, so I've been staying with Justin. His mom didn't mind since i was practically like the daughter she always wanted. I couldn't bring myslef to going back home,since i know that I was the one who caused my mother to cry.

"Bianca sent me more information" Justin was sitting on the couch next to me, shirtless, with his laptop in his lap. Bianca has been been sending all kinds of information about my dad. None of which I looked at. I couldn't bring myself to do it, if he made my mother cry what would he do to me? What did i expect him to do?

"Just foward it to me, I'll get to it later" I was silently putting it off, hoping Justin wouldn't notice.

"Yeah about that, have you even gone throught some of this stuff. Its very informational."

"Honestly Jay, I dont even know if i want what i thought I did" He looked at me with sad eyes, before putting his laptop on the coffee table and drawing me closer to him.

"I'm not going to let you give up on this. If I even had a clue of who and where my father was, I would be all over it."

"Then why haven't you ask you mom?"

"I saw what he did to her first hand, he was a lowsy father. I wouldn't want to meet him out of joy, it would be to beat his ass for being an abusive lover"

"So your saying I need to connect with him for closure?"

"See I knew there was a brain somewhere in that big head of yours" I playfully punched him,

"My head is not big! I just overly teased my hair this morning"

"Yeah, lets go with that excuse" He smirked. I pushed away from him.

"You're right" I stood up from the couch, just as my cell phone rang. It was Duncan. Strange, I haven't heard from him in days... i answered the phone anyways.

"Hey babe"

"Hey B, you busy?" He sounded like he was in a hurry.

"No, whats up?"

"I was wondering if you wanted to hang out today, since we haven't talked in what seems like forever" Justin must have heard what Duncan said and he began to shake him head frantically, mouthing the words 'NO he's a cheater'. I completely ignored his request,

"Yeah, pick me up at 7?"

"Sounds good" And with that he hung up the phone. Strange, no good-bye, no love ya. He just hung up... Justin was watching a string of emotions go through my face.

"I sorry about being a pessimist right now, but nothing positive is going to come out of this" I picked up a pillow from the couch and smushed his face with it.

"Stop jinxin my date, before I call Bianca" He grabbed me by my waisted and softly tossed me on the couch.

"What is she gonna do?" He leaned closer to my face. A little too close, but it was so comfortable. It just seemed so right.

"I dont know what she is gonna do. That's the whole point" My voice was nothing but a whisper. He was so close, and looked gorgeous. He smelled like green apples, like usual. His smoky grey eyes were now clear and glistening. His full pink lips, looked so soft... Suddenly my breathing became heavier. What is this...this feeling? I looked up into his soft grey eyes and I saw so many emotions in them. Is he finally going to make the move that i dreamed of when I was 13? As if answering my question, Justin leaned down closer to me. Our lips brushing each other, I leaned in a bit closer. His lips were so soft and he taste like mint. My body was acting faster than my mnd was, before I realized it , I was pulling him in closer. Closing in the little space between our bodies. Am I enjoying this moment? Is this really happening right now? It was like my mind was telling me no but my body was saying yes, but what was my heart telling me? I conpletely stopped thinking when i felt him deepen the kiss, his tongue trying to invade my mouth. I let him in, felt him explore every nook and cranny. I was completely enjoying this moment. Suddenly I felt my throat ache. We pulled apart both gasping for air. We looked at each other, intensly. He moved closer and cupped my face,

"Briella" He whispered, voice is as deep and husky as ever. I wanted to move closer to him and continue but Duncan flashed in my mind. I slightly moved my face from him grasp, he looked at me with hurt eyes.

"I can't Justin, this isn't right. There's our friendship and Duncan...I just can't" My voice was shaky and broken. As if he understood, he moved off of me and I ran for the door, and didn't look back once. I didn't want to see the hurt in his eyes. I ran to my house and stopped at the front door realizing what I just did. I just kissed my best friend. Great. Your life is just great Briella. You're father is M.I.A, you constantly hurt your mom the only person that has your best intrest at heart, you probably ruined your relationship with your best friend, something up with your boyfriend, and you have a big head. I sighed as a opened the front door, into a sight I thought I only had to see once. My mother was sitting at the dinning room table, crying again. After I closed the door behind me she wiped her tears away and tried to put on her best face.

"I'm ready to talk" My eyes widen, I didn't hesitate a moment and I sat down and the table.