Quick Authors note: Hey Guy just telling you that from now on the emails are going to be in italics and then the actual conversation will be in normal font. I just needed to bring the story to a certain part until I'd bring other people into the story.

Dear Meredith,

He thought you were having an affair? What exactly did he say when he found out you were emailing me? Has he read the emails?

Everyone has their problems, my family had a lot of them… but I'm over it, btw you're the only person I told that my mother killed herself, everyone else thinks it was a heart attack. Perfect families do not exist but some are much better than others. I always wanted a family like the Shephards with a mom who cooks and is loving and kind., and many siblings who are a tight knit group, and from what I hear a dad who was the coolest guy on the planet and gave the best bear hugs.

Do it, take a break from Seattle, come visit LA. You must have some vacation time right? We'll do all the touristy things and spend some time shopping, go to the spa, lie on the beach.

Am I reading that right? Did you just offer to be my surrogate? Mer, I can't ask you to do that… No, I can't…can I?

I know you are scared… The thought of being a lone is scary, but you are not alone, you have friends who love you, who care about you. Do what you think is right…But don't drag it out. I often wonder that very thing. How are things so perfect one minute and falling apart the next.

Addison

"Derek, what are you doing?"

"YOU OFFERED TO BE ADDISON'S SURROGATE?"

"You had no right to read my emails. They were private emails between me and my friend. "

"MY EX-WIFE. Not your friend… my ex-wife. I only read the last one she sent but seriously… you offered to be her surrogate? and what is the last paragraph all about..you being alone? You're not alone, we are married"

"Well maybe we shouldn't be Derek. Maybe we shouldn't be married or parents together. We obviously see the world differently"

"Maybe you're right and maybe you shouldn't be a parent at all. You are just like your mother, just like you always say. To wrapped up in you to give a damn about another person."

"Go to hell Derek, You know NOTHING about me, do you know that I talk to Addison better than I ever talked you, I trust her more and even she cares more about my career then you do."

"FINE. Why don't you go marry HER and have kids with HER. Because I'm done, I can't pretend to love you anymore"

"MAYBE I WILL! and you never PRETENDED, you made it pretty clear you didn't love me. Get out of my house."

Both of them were to busy fighting to notice that Lexie, Jackson and April walked in and were now listening to them fight about Addison. It wasn't until Lexie gasped when Meredith made the "maybe I will" comment .

"Are you and Addison together?" she said in a whispered yell.

Both Derek and Meredith whipped their heads around "No. Addison and I are NOT together, we are friends. That's it!"

Meredith walked upstairs and packed a bag and walked down stairs. "Where are you going?" asked Jackson

"To LA. and Derek, you better be gone when I get back!"

Meredith picked up her phone and dialed a number she never thought she's call. The phone rung twice before she heard a voice on the other end "Hello?"

"Want a visitor?"

"Meredith?"

"Yeah, Derek and I are over… for good… want a visitor?"

"Tonight? "

"I'm headed into the airport now. Be there if a few hours… "

"I'll pick you up at the airport."

"ok. Thanks Addison. See you then"