Memory Lane
Beast Boy's POV
"BB?" asked a low, hard voice. I knew who it was. Cyborg the traitor. "What?" I asked, my voice cold as ice. "Let me in." "No." "Argh."
Then there was a lot of silence. "Listen, man, I'm sorry. I…I shouldn't have done that. I'm probably part of the reason she left. You're right. I didn't really love her- it was just a really big crush." Talk about apology. "Thanks, dude," I said, not moving a muscle. I was tempted to get up and leave my room a few times, but there was a voice still lingering in my head. For Raven…
"Hey, do you wanna play Halo 2? I mean, you've been in you're room for…what's it been? Three days now?" "Five," I corrected him. "Five. Right," he muttered. "Uh, thanks, but I'll pass."
Cyborg then walked away from my door and I heard him clanking down the stairs. My room was at the very top of the tower, and the elevator didn't reach that high. Of course, I wasn't alone up here. My room was right across from Raven's. Right across from Raven's. Duh! Beast Boy, you IDIOT! I slapped myself across the face for my stupid-ness. I had always wanted to see what Raven's room really looked like, cause I had only seen a couple glimpses of it when I was sucked into her mirror.
I pushed my door slightly open and peered out to make sure no one else was coming upstairs, and slipped across the hall to the Ice Queen's room. Jiggling the doorknob, I found that it was locked. Typical.
One thing that people don't know about me is that I am smart- not book smart (except for the American Revolution) really, but street smart. Well, what do you expect? I mean, I've lived part of my whole life on the street. So…I picked the lock with a long string of wire. Simple, yet effective.
Raven's bedroom door sprang open, so I walked in and shut the door behind me, afterwards taking a good look around. Everything was black and blue and purple, and when I say everything, I mean everything. There were black curtains engulfing the windows, making sure no light was ever able to enter. No wonder she was so pale. Her dresser had a glossy black coating and the mirror on top looked almost new. On the dresser was her meditation hand-mirror. I made sure to stay far far away from that. In the corner was a simple leather chest with a brass lock on it. I was too stupid at that time to know that it housed a book. And it wasn't any horror novel. It was Malchior's Book. The thing that I had been jealous of for so long in the past. I leaned over to open the chest, and as I did, a flash of black magic hurtled me backward onto Raven's bed. "What the-?" I muttered, standing up again. Then I realized the truth. It took me a while, but I caught on. Don't open the chest. I looked up and saw a CD player mounted on the wall. (If any of you have ever gone to the Super Wal-Mart in Buckhorn, there's this really cool CD player that has a three-slot player and when you press a button, it opens and closes, and the rim of it is blue. I like it) Like most things in the room, it was a dark color. Weird, I didn't know Raven listened to music. Sitting down on the bed, I saw that the canopy hanging above it was shaped like Raven's hood. More irony. The purple covers were very plushy and soft, and I didn't notice a CD case on the bed until my hand hit it. "EEE!" I yelped and jerked my hand away and stared at the uncomfortably hard spot. "Uh…CD?" I muttered and picked it up. Evanescence. This is what she listens to? No wonder she's so depressed. I turned the case around to look at the songs, but found a note instead. Addressed to me.
Dear Beast Boy,
I suspected that you would try to come in here after I left, probably to find some answers. I just wanted to say that I'm going to miss you for as long as I'm gone. And…I love you. I know that it seems weird for me- Raven – to love anyone, but it's true. I've felt so alone for so long, and then I met you. You filled this hole in my heart, and things couldn't get better. And then Terra came along. You fell in love with her almost instantly, and I was jealous. For that, I hated her, and I refused to believe she was worth trusting, because she was just so perfect. After she betrayed us, I felt so much sympathy towards you, and wished that Terra would return, just so I could see you happy again. A few months later, I met Malchior in that book (please don't look in the chest. However, knowing you, you probably already did. Oh well). This time, I could tell it was you that was jealous. He was just so perfect that you couldn't trust him. Then he betrayed me, and I was the one who felt the heart ache this time. I'm sorry I was so mean to you and I'm sorry that I hadn't admitted these things sooner. Maybe I would still be here.
Raven
PS- Please listen to track 10 on this CD. Don't ask any questions- just do it.
My mouth was gaping and I could swear my eyes were bulging out of their sockets. She loved me. She really did. After that, I put the CD into Raven's disc player and pushed play, going to track ten. The song was called 'My Last Breath', and it brought tears to my eyes. I had never been so emotional. Not when Terra died, or when my parents left, or anything- I guess it was because I had been really attached to Raven, whether I liked it or not. Then I realized it- I might never get over this.
Hold on to me nowYou know I can't stay long.
All I wanted to say was I love you and I'm not afraid, ohh.
Can you hear me?
Can you feel me in your arms?
Holding my last breath. Safe inside myself, are all my thoughts of you. Sweet raptured light, it ends here tonight.
I'll miss the winter.
A world of fragile things
Look for me in the white forest hiding in a hollow tree (come find me)
I know you hear me
I can taste it in your tears
Holding my last breath. Safe inside myself are all my thoughts of you. Sweet raptured light, it ends here tonight.
Closing your eyes to disappear
You pray your dreams will leave you here
But still you wake and know the truth
No one's there.
Say goodnight
Don't be afraid
Calling me, calling me as you fade to black
Holding my last breath. Safe inside myself, are all my thoughts of you. Sweet raptured light, it ends here tonight.