A/N: So sorry about the wait. We lost the chapter. But finally decided to rewrite it. Here's chapter four! : )
Blaine didn't get out of bed the next morning. He lay there, thinking about everything that happened the night before. Why did Kurt take him there? Did he think that Blaine would see it as some grand romantic gesture and just run into his arms? Truth be told it was hard not to. He missed how it felt to be held by Kurt. No, wait. He couldn't think about these things. Kurt broke his heart and Blaine couldn't take the chance of that happening again.
He rolled over in bed groaning. This was so hard..He couldn't even get up. Everything around the house reminded him of Kurt. The coffee machine..The stupid pictures of the ocean Thea had hanging on the walls reminded him of Kurt's eyes. Even the carpet, yes the carpet, reminded him of the color of Kurt's fair skin.
Oh great. Now he was thinking about his eyes. How beautiful they were. How they would change colors according to his mood.. Bright and shining when he was happy or excited, and grey when he cried. He hoped they were grey right now. He wished Kurt could feel a fraction of the pain and confusion Blaine was feeling.
He sighed, getting up and taking a hot shower. That usually helped a little. But this time, it didn't do much. Blaine washed up and got out, getting ready for work. He made some coffee, trying not to tear up as he thought of his ex. Seriously, who was he to just waltz back into his life and flash him that beautiful smile? Oh God. That smile. No. He couldn't think about that. This was wrong. Right? He shouldn't forgive Kurt. He couldn't. He just left him. Abandoned Blaine.
He got to school and walked into the choir room slowly. He really wasn't in the mood for work today. He sat at his desk he had, staring at the computer screen as his first class of the day started to come in. Blaine gave them a random assignment, not really up for giving a lesson today. He just couldn't get to that passionate place he had for music. It seemed like Kurt was everywhere and Blaine just couldn't take it. He gave them a random assignment, not really up for giving a lesson today. He just couldn't get to that passionate place he had for music. It seemed like Kurt was everywhere and Blaine just couldn't take it. The students ignored his strange behavior and just took it as a free day, but that afternoon, he still had to stay for glee club. He walked in after taking a smoke break in his car and saw the glee clubbers smiling up at him expectantly.
Blaine sighed, walking to the bored and trying to think of a lesson. He turned to the class. "How many of you have ever had someone do something completely horrible to you? It could be a friend, your boyfriend, girlfriend, an ex, parent, whoever..."
The teenagers looked around at each other questioningly before they all raised their hands slowly.
"Alright.." Blaine began. "I want you to find a song about how you dealt with that situation...Whether or not you forgave them..."
"Is there a particular reason for this lesson Mr. Anderson?" Jamie, a girl with long, curled blonde hair asked.
Blaine just shook his head. "No...Just something I've been thinking about.."
"You know you can't get anything by us Mr. A.." Cameron, a tall skinny, hipster like boy, said, adjusting his black framed glasses.
"It's ridiculous.." Blaine sighed, sitting at his desk.
"Come on..Talk to us..You make us vent when we're upset.." Mari, a Latina girl, said softly.
"This might be crossing a line..." Blaine said carefully. He wasn't supposed to share his problems. He was supposed to be there for the kids...Right?
"I agree with Mr. Anderson." Selina, a chipper brunette that reminded him far too much of Rachel Berry chimed in. "A teacher shouldn't discuss his personal life with his students."
"Well I'd be happy to drag you out by your pigtails so you don't have to hear it Hendricks.." Heather, a girl who was a bit heavy set, with black hair and purple streaks in it, said threateningly.
"Alright. That's enough." Blaine sighed. "Someone from my past...Someone who hurt me really bad just appeared into my life randomly. I don't know how to feel about it..."
"Were they an ex?" Bryan, who reminded Blaine of himself when he was younger, asked timidly.
Blaine nodded. "Yeah.."
"Ooh, I love a good tragic love story.." Jamie smiled before getting elbowed by Cameron. "What?"
Blaine sighed. He really shouldn't do this but he needed to let it out. "I thought they were the best thing that had ever happened to me. But one day...They left without saying a word...Told me they loved me then the next day...just left...It's been years...And now I'm supposed to just be okay with them popping back into my life?"
"Well of course not..That's unforgivable..." Bryan said, looking up.
"Well what If they were really sorry about it?" Mari asked.
"They are sorry...I can see it...But to be honest...I never got over it..." Blaine said quietly.
"That's so romantic.." Jamie said, earning another elbow from Cameron.
Blaine looked up at her with a confused expression. "How is it romantic?"
"Because now that they're back, you can be together again..It's fate!" she said as if it were that simple.
"It's not that easy. They hurt me...The way they left...It was the worst way to do that...And to not even check in with me...Not even letting me know they were okay...How can I let all that go?" Blaine asked.
"Well of you really love them-"
"Jamie..When someone hurts you that badly, you can't just kiss and make up.." Bryan said, rolling his eyes.
"Exactly," Blaine said. "And for them to try to take me back to one of the last places I saw them...A place that meant so much to me...I couldn't even go back after they left...And they just try to bring me there and make everything okay? It just hurts. It brings it all back. I feel like I'm in high school..."
Bryan stood. "Well..I already know my song Mr. Anderson..It might help you too.."
Blaine smiled lightly. "Go ahead.."
The shorter boy walked in front of the club, adjusting his tie. He usually didn't speak up like this, but this was something he seemed to know about.
"Didn't I give it all?
Try my best..
Gave you everything I had..Everything, and no less.
Didn't I do it right? Did I let you down?
Maybe you go too used to having me around.."
Blaine leaned back in his chair, listening to the words carefully.
Bryan closed his eyes. He really had a soulful voice which was perfect for this song.
"Still how can you walk away from all my tears?
It's gonna be an empty road without me right here..
But go on and take it, take it all with you...
Don't look back at this crumbling fool.
Just take it all with my love..Take it all..with my love.."
Blaine took a deep breath. Bryan didn't know the full situation but this song...It was exactly what Blaine felt.
"Maybe I should leave to help you see, nothing is better than this, and this is everything we need..
So is it over?
Is this really it?
You're giving up so easily..
I thought you loved me more than this.."
Blaine worried his bottom lip between his teeth. He couldn't have picked a more perfect song for this.
"But go on and take it, take it all with you..
Don't look back at this crumbling fool..
Just take it all, with my love..
Take it all with my love.."
Bryan finished and the club erupted with applause. He had never sung with so much soul and passion before.
Blaine clapped with the students. "That was by far your best performance. Amazing job Bryan," He said, smiling lightly. He really was proud of Bryan for stepping up like that. Blaine couldn't believe how well it fit. He had given everything to Kurt. He gave him everything that night. He thought they would be together forever. But Kurt just left...Not caring about Blaine or his feelings. But even through all of that, Blaine knew he wanted Kurt. He didn't want to want him. But he did.
"Thanks Mr. Anderson.." Bryan smiled, trying to hide the tears in his eyes.
Blaine nodded. He reminded him so much of himself. "If you need to talk, I'll be here after class.."
Bryan nodded, returning to his seat. After glee, Bryan took longer to pack up than the others. Once everyone was gone, he walked over to Blaine's desk, looking unsure of how to start this conversation.
Blaine smiled up at his student. "You can trust me, Bryan. Anything you say will be kept between us.."
"Thank you Mr. Anderson..It's just..That song means a lot to me.." he said, sitting down slowly.
Blaine nodded. "What does it mean to you?"
"Umm...My dad..He left..Not too long ago..We were really close..I never thought that he could..Just leave my mom and I..But..It was because..He found out something..About me.." Bryan said quietly, running a hand through his semi-tamed chestnut brown hair.
Blaine looked at Bryan with eyes full of concern. "What could make him that upset to leave?" He asked, but was pretty sure he already knew.
Bryan bit his lip. "I...I haven't told anyone but my parents..But..I..I'm..I'm..gay.." he said, looking down.
Blaine nodded. "I know what you're going through. My dad...He didn't leave. But he pretty much resents me for the same reason. But Bryan, you have to know, there is nothing wrong with you. There's nothing wrong with being gay."
"You're..Gay?" Bryan asked, looking up.
Blaine smiled. He really didn't know how people didn't see it. "Yes, I am. I may not show it around here. But I am very gay. The one I was talking about...The one that left...He was the love of my life.."
Bryan nodded, "I'm sorry you had to go through that.." he said softly.
"Thanks," Blaine said sincerely. "It was the most difficult thing I have ever been through. I gave him everything. And now he's back. I don't know what to do. But I'm really sorry about your dad. I know it's hard. But know, I'm always here if you need to talk about anything at all."
Bryan smiled. "I really appreciate it Mr. Anderson..."
"Any time," Blaine said softly. "How is your mom handing it all?"
"Not very well...We were never very close..She blames me.." Bryan said quietly, looking down again.
"Oh my God...I'm so sorry, Bryan..." Blaine said, feeling his heart break a little. No one should ever go through that. "I don't know how she'd feel about this...But if she ever needed advice on all of this...I'd be glad to help you. If you ever need anything...Please let me know.."
Bryan gave a weak smile, nodding. "I will.."
"And thank you for that song..." Blaine said quietly. "I don't know what to do...But that song was perfect.."
"No problem.." Bryan nodded, standing and slinging his bag over his shoulder. "I should probably get going.."
"Alright," Blaine said softly. "See you in class tomorrow."
Bryan smiled. "Bye Mr. Anderson.." he said before walking out.
Blaine smiled to himself. That was so him in high school. He got his things together, before walking out to his car. He sighed as his phone rang, Thea's number scrolling across the screen.
"Hey," Blaine said quietly. He was pretty sure he knew what this would be about.
"Hey Pookie! How was work?" she asked cheerfully.
Blaine rolled his eyes playfully. "Sucked. But ended better than I thought it would. What's up?"
"Not much..Just sitting at home and drinking coffee..Come drink coffee with meeeee.." she whined.
Coffee. Kurt. He couldn't get away. "I'm on my way, hun."
"See you then." she said happily.
Blaine hung up and got in his car, heading back home. He drove back the with a lot on his mind. Mostly Kurt. Work. Just everything was starting to feel like too much..He got home and sighed as he walked through the door. "Thea?"
"Hey Blaine!" she called from the open balcony door.
"Hey!" He called back, grabbing a cup of coffee before going outside. Blaine froze as he walked outside and saw Kurt sitting next to Thea, his pale hands wrapped around a mug as he sipped from it. He almost dropped his coffee "You could've warned me..."
"Surprise?" Thea said, giving her signature "Please don't hate me" smile.
"Hey Blaine.." Kurt said softly.
Blaine looked down, walking over and leaning on the balcony. "Hi..."
"Thea...Do you think you could give Blaine and I a moment?" Kurt asked, looking over at the redhead.
Blaine gave her a pleading look. He didn't know if he could handle this. But she just gave him that smile again before going back inside.
They were quiet for a minute before Kurt looked up. "I'm sorry about last night Blaine.."
"Why?" Blaine snapped. "Why did you take me there?"
Kurt recoiled a bit, taken aback at Blaine's tone. "I-I just thought..It was a place with good memories for us..That last night.."
"Ruined by that next morning when you left and didn't talk to me for years...I haven't been back before last night..."
Kurt looked down and Blaine groaned, reaching in his pocket to pull out his cigarettes and lighting one. He didn't care what Kurt thought of him right now.
"You shouldn't smoke..." Kurt said quietly.
"Well you don't really have a say now, do you?" Blaine said. "You left me Kurt..." saying that name killed him. He wanted to storm out...to be alone..
"I know that Blaine..And I feel like shit about it..Is that what you want to hear?" Kurt asked, his tone shifting.
"I don't know what I want to hear...You have no idea how hard it is to be here with you..." Blaine said, feeling tears threatening to spill over. "To see the one I thought I'd spend the rest of my life with...The one that completely broke me...I've never been the same..."
Kurt swallowed hard, standing and setting his cup on the table. "I just missed you so much Blaine.." he said softly, reaching for Blaine's hand.
Blaine took a shaky breath, pulling back. "I did too..."
Kurt sighed softly, leaning against the railing. "I know an apology can't fix anything, but for what it's worth..I really am sorry.."
"I know.." Blaine said in barely a whisper.
"Blaine...Please look at me.." Kurt said softly.
Blaine tensed up but slowly turned. "What...?"
"What can I do to fix this?" Kurt asked.
Blaine shook his head. "I don't know...It can't be fixed just like that..."
Kurt watched as Blaine took a long drag of his cigarette. "I know.."
"How do I know you won't just disappear again?" Blaine asked, looking down.
"Trust me Blaine..I'm not going anywhere..." Kurt said quietly.
And with that sentence, Blaine felt like he was going to lose it.
"Trust you?" Blaine laughed bitterly. "You really expect me to believe a word that comes out of your mouth anymore? You told me those exact words five years ago..Trust you.." Blaine scoffed, turning away from Kurt again. He finished his cigarette and put it out quickly. He couldn't believe Kurt was here saying all these things. He used to wish for this. That Kurt would come back to him. But now that it was happening, it drove him insane.
"Exactly Blaine..It was five years ago..I'm not the same scared little seventeen year old boy I was..We've both changed." Kurt said seriously.
"We don't know each other anymore..." Blaine said, still angry but a little softer.
"So that's your excuse to totally dismiss this? To not even try to let me in again and just throw up your walls?" Kurt asked, his tone growing a bit angry as well.
Blaine turned to Kurt. "I never said I wouldn't try to get to know you. I said we don't know each other. So maybe you would suggest we try. You don't know what this is doing to me...You don't know how hard it is to be here and not be able to just wrap my arms around you and have everything be okay. But it doesn't work that way. It takes time to regain trust. But you have to fucking try. We'd have to start completely over. But I need time...part of me wants to reach out and just let you hold me...but a bigger part wants to break down every time I see you...I don't know what to do..."
"I do know how hard it is Blaine.. I'm terrified around you..I see how you look at me and It shifts between anger and something else..Something I can't put my finger on, but it sure as hell isn't distrust..I just get so worried that I'll say or do the wrong thing and make you hate me.." Kurt said, looking into Blaine's eyes.
Blaine took a deep breath, trying to be calm. "I could never hate you...I hate what you did. And yes I'm angry. But i have to be. It's better than breaking down in front of you. But no, I could never hate you."
Kurt nodded, looking down at his hands as he fumbled with his fingers and Blaine saw a flash of the Kurt he knew before he looked back up.
He wanted nothing more than to reach out and cup Kurt's cheek. Blaine sighed. "I'm not saying I won't try. I've missed you. I just...It will just take time.."
Kurt nodded again. "I-I should probably go..Finn's sick and I told him I'd bring him something to eat..He moved back here, but he lives right outside of Lima.."
"Okay.." Blaine said quietly.
Kurt smiled timidly at Blaine. "I'll see you soon?"
Blaine nodded. "Yeah.."
Kurt looked at Blaine before grabbing his hand, giving it a light squeeze before releasing it and walking through the apartment and out the front door.
Blaine stared down at the hand Kurt had touched. He missed it. What was he doing to himself? Why was he giving in so easily? But Blaine knew that answer. Because it was Kurt...He leaned against the side of the balcony, slumping against the wall and letting the tears come.
Thea came out as she heard Kurt leave. She saw Blaine crying and frowned as she pulled him close. "Oh Blaine..." she said, stroking his curls slowly.
Blaine wrapped his arms around his roommate. "I...I can't do this..."
"Shhh...It's okay..It's gonna be okay.." she soothed.
Blaine didn't say anything back. He just let his best friend hold him and let it all out.
She led him inside, sitting them both on the couch as she continued to hold him. "What happened?.."
"He wants to be in my life again..I don't know if I can handle it. He was everything to me. I look at him and see the same seventeen year old I fell for..." Blaine explained. "I never really got over him. I just pushed him to the back of my mind. But I feel like all these wounds from back then are being ripped back open.
She rubbed up and down his back. "I'm so sorry Blaine..I shouldn't have invited him without asking you..."
Blaine shook his head. "It's not your fault. I never told you just how much it hurts. He meant so much to me...I don't know why he all of a sudden cares? I'm nothing special. I'm ruined..."
Thea pulled away. Holding his shoulders as she looked into his eyes. "Blaine Anderson..I never want to hear you say you're not special ever again.." She said seriously.
Blaine avoided he gaze. "What if it's what I really think? Thea, he left me.."
"Then fuck him Blaine! Anyone who makes you feel that way is not okay by me.."
"I-I just don't know what to do...I've wanted this for so long..For him to come back and say it was a mistake...to see what he did to me..but now that he's here...I'm so torn."
Thea sighed pulling him close again. "I don't want anyone to make you feel like you aren't worth anything Blaine..You're my best friend and I will cut a bitch before I let anyone hurt you.."
Blaine giggled through his tears. "I'm so glad I have you.."
"I'm glad I have you too hunn.. Though you're really the only person I know that will put up with me." she said laughing.
"Well I think everyone else is missing out," Blaine said softly. "Will you watch the Lion King with me?"
"Of course.." She said smiling.
Blaine got a blanket and snuggled up to the couch as Thea got the movie ready. "You're the best.."
"I know." She joked, climbing under the blanket as Blaine scooted closer to her.
He rested his head on her shoulder as they both started humming along with the movie.
"So you never told me about work today.." Thea said, looking over at Blaine.
"Oh yeah," Blaine said. "So you know Bryan? The one I say reminds me of me?"
"The little shy one?"
Blaine smiled. "Yeah. Well he sang an Adele song and it really got to me. It fit my situation with Kurt perfectly. But anyways. He opened up to me after school. I just wish I knew a way to help him..."
"What'd he say?" Thea asked.
"His dad left when he found out Bryan is gay. His mom blames him for it.."
"Oh my god.." Thea said softly.
"I know.." Blaine sighed. "I wish I could do something."
"Well I think being there for him would do a lot.." Thea said.
Blaine nodded. "I told him I'm always here if he needs anything."
"Well that's all you can do for someone in that situation.." The redhead sighed.
"I know. I'm just worried about him..."
"You're an amazing teacher Blaine.." Thea smiled.
Blaine smiled shyly. "Thanks Thea."
"I just really think you make a huge impact on these kids' lives."
"Really?" Blaine asked.
"I do..My music teacher was the one who got me interested in theatre. I wouldn't be where I am today without her." Thea smiled.
Blaine cuddled up to his best friend. "Thanks Thea. For everything."
"You're welcome Blainers." She giggled, hugging him.
Blaine rolled his eyes playfully as he hugged her back.
Blaine was so happy Thea was here. He didn't know what he would do without her.
The next day at glee club, Blaine was in a considerably better mood. He stood in front of the class. "So does anyone else have something prepared?"
The club looked around as no one stepped up.
Blaine looked up. "Is something wrong?"
"I just don't think any of us want to just..Bare ourselves that way Mr. A..I mean, Bryan was awesome, but, I think we're all kind of afraid to open up like that.." Cameron said as Bryan blushed lightly at the mention of his name.
"Alright...Why don't you pick a song that just means a lot to you then? Something you can really relate to in any way."
Cameron stood up, smiling weakly. "I have one in my back pocket.." he said, grabbing the acoustic guitar and a stool.
Blaine nodded, going to his desk and taking a seat.
Cameron sat on the stool and held the guitar. He sat there for a second staring at the neck before looking up. "Sorry..I'm just..This song is just...Really emotional for me.."
"Take your time," Blaine encouraged.
Cameron nodded, taking a couple of seconds before starting to play the guitar in a slow steady rhythm.
"Look at me
And listen close
So I can tell you how I feel before I go.
Just a year...
It's not much time for me to show you I am proud that you are mine.."
Blaine leaned forward, listening closely.
"I wish I had known
The future in my heart
Was just about to start...
Say tomorrow
I can follow you there
Just close your eyes
And sing for me..
I can hear you
Always near you
And I'll give you the words
Just sing for me.."
Blaine continued to listen. He was so proud that of his students for stepping up and letting out their feelings. Maybe Thea was right about him making an impact on them.
"Every lock
on every door
I put them there to try and hide you from the world..
And you kicked
Yeah you screamed
You never understood you're everything to me..." Cameron sang, a tear rolling down his cheek.
Blaine gave him a weak smile as he finished. "That was really good. Are you okay, Cameron?"
Cameron nodded, wiping his tear as he got off of the stool. "I guess I should explain.." He said, looking back up.
"Only if you want to," Blaine said softly.
Cameron nodded. "Um.. About two years ago, my little sister was diagnosed with leukemia.. And when she was in the hospital, getting chemo, she used to tell me to sing for her. She uh..She didn't make it..But..That song is always my song for her.."
Blaine tried to control himself as he saw some of the glee club tear up. "I'm sorry for your loss...I can't even imagine what it's like.."
Cameron thanked him. "It was hard, but it's a little easier now.."
Blaine smiled lightly. "Well, I think that song is really remarkable and you did it justice.."
"Thanks Mr. Anderson.." he smiled, going to sit back with the club.
"Does anyone else have something they want to sing or need some time?" Blaine asked.
They all made it clear that they needed some time, nodding at their teacher.
Blaine ended rehearsal a little early, sitting at his desk and sighing as he tried to come up with some other lessons for the next week.
There was a small knock at the door and Blaine looked up to see Kurt standing in the doorway.
Blaine furrowed his eyebrows in confusion. "What are you doing here?" he asked quietly.
"Just wanted to come by and see the old choir room...Hasn't changed a bit.." Kurt said, smiling fondly at the room as he walked in.
"You know...I think that's how I ended up here..." Blaine said in almost a whisper. He couldn't believe he was admitting this.
"What do you mean?" Kurt asked, looking at the trophy case before looking back to Blaine.
"I wondered if you'd ever come back here...Wondered which seat you sat in...What songs you sang..." Blaine said, looking down.
Kurt smiled, looking down as he walked to the top row of the risers and sitting down. "I sat here.." he said, looking out over the choir room as the nostalgia set in.
Blaine took a deep breath. "Can...Can I ask what brought you back?"
"I think...Just wanting to start over again...Everything is just so simple and calm here..I think I was in over my head in New York.." Kurt sighed.
"Maybe it just wasn't the right time.." Blaine said softly. "I always knew you'd make it there. Still believe it.."
Kurt smiled. "You're sweet.." he said standing.
Blaine shrugged. "I never doubted your talent."
"Well I never really pictured you teaching at McKinley.." Kurt said, walking over to Blaine's desk and sitting across from him.
"Me neither. I never thought I'd be back in Ohio to be honest.."
"You said you lived in California..Why'd you leave?" Kurt asked.
"I thought getting out of here would take the memories away. I thought it would be easier somewhere else.." Blaine said, unable to look Kurt in the eye.
Kurt looked down as well. "Why did you leave California?"
"I wasn't happy. Wasn't doing much. So I came here.."
"And you're happier here?" Kurt asked.
"I guess.." Blaine sighed. "I mean I have fun and love being around Thea. But I haven't been happy in a long time.." Blaine explained.
Kurt frowned a bit. "Neither have I..."
"Why not?" Blaine asked.
"Just...New York took a lot out of me.. Always got with the wrong guy..Keeping up with money..just wore me out.." Kurt sighed.
Blaine nodded. "I hope you figure out where you're supposed to be..and be happy.."
Kurt nodded. " i hope you do too Blaine..." he said softly.
"Thanks...So did you move here or just staying a while...?"
"I got an apartment.." Kurt said before looking at a picture on Blaine's desk. "Is this your class?"
"It's the glee club," Blaine said softly.
Kurt smiled at the picture. There were kids of all types, just like when he was in it.
"Mr. Anderson?" Bryan's voice said from the doorway.
Blaine smiled. "Hey Bryan. What's going on?"
"I was just wondering If you had a minute to talk, but I can see you're busy." He said softly.
"No. It's okay. Kurt, do you mind giving us a minute?" Blaine asked.
"Not at all.." Kurt smiled, standing and stepping out of the choir room.
Blaine motioned for Bryan to take a seat. "What's going on?"
"I..I have a date..And I'm freaking out because I've never been on one before..." Bryan breathed out.
Blaine smiled. "Oh my god! I'm so happy for you! Try to relax. Be yourself and he will be idiotic if he doesn't want a second date."
Bryan let out a deep breath. "I'm sorry if this weird you out or something because you're my teacher, but I just don't really have anyone else to talk about this with.." he said softly.
"No. It's okay. I was serious when I said you could always come to me," Blaine smiled. "Wheres he taking you?"
"I don't know yet.." Bryan smiled, obviously trying to hold in his excitement.
"I am so happy for you," Blaine grinned. "You deserve to be happy."
"I was just wondering if you could give me some tips or something.." Bryan asked.
"Pay attention to him. Smile. He'll love it. Try to not be as shy. Try talking to him as much as he talks to you. Don't do anything you aren't ready for.." Blaine said, thinking about anything else he could tell him. "Do you have any questions?"
"What are your thoughts on...kissing on the first date?" Bryan asked, blushing.
"It's hard to say. It is okay to kiss on a first date. But, personally, I would keep it simple at first. Only do what you're ready for. I know especially at your age, it's hard to hold back. But trust me, it's better to wait until you're ready to do anything."
"Oh my god..I can't believe I'm asking this and I'm not planning on doing this tonight, or any time soon but..How do you know when you're ready to take it...Further?" Bryan asked, his blush growing.
"When you love someone you just know..you'll know when it's right. You'll have this moment when you realize this is the person you want to give yourself to." Blaine said softly, looking tirades the door and sighing. "You just know.."
Bryan nodded. "Thank you Mr. Anderson..I should probably get going..Gotta get ready.." He smiled as he stood.
"Anytime," Blaine smiled. "Good luck!"
"Thanks!" He said walking out, and Kurt returned, smiling.
Blaine couldn't help but keep smiling. "He's such a good kid."
"He looked so happy when he walked out..What did you talk to him about?" Kurt asked.
"He has his first date tonight," Blaine said happily.
"Aawwe..That's so cute.." Kurt grinned.
"I know. I'm happy for him. He deserves it."
Kurt smiled. "I bet you're an amazing teacher.."
"I try." Blaine said softly.
Blaine raised an eyebrow as Kurt's eyes roamed him.
"You look really cute in your glasses." the older man said simply.
Blaine couldn't stop his blush as he looked down. God. How could Kurt still do that? "Th-thanks..."
"Why don't we go get coffee when you get done?" Kurt asked.
Blaine bit his lip, debating on whether or not to go. "Okay..."
Kurt's smile grew. "Really?"
"I told you I'd try if you did.." Blaine said softly.
Kurt nodded. "Are you almost done?" he asked.
"I'm ready," Blaine smiled.
"Alright Blaine..Or should I say Mr. Anderson?" Kurt giggled.
Okay. That sent chills through Blaine. He felt like they were in high school again. "Outside of school, it's just Blaine," he chuckled.
Kurt nodded, happy to see Blaine smile again, even If it was only for a moment.
Blaine followed Kurt to the Lima Bean. They got their coffee and sat down.
"What are you doing for work?"
"I'm still looking..I didn't really ever have to have a real job in New York so I don't have much experience.." Kurt sighed.
"You didn't work in New York?" Blaine asked.
"I spent most of my time in between auditions for plays and musicals. And, this is really embarrassing to admit..But my boyfriends I had were usually above the average when it came to money.." Kurt said, looking down.
Blaine didn't know what to say to that. He was quiet for a moment before finally speaking. "Oh..Were you in anything I would know?"
"No big roles, but I was an extra in Wicked for a while.." Kurt smiled.
"That's awesome. You'll get to those big ones some day..."
"Thank you Blaine.." Kurt smiled. "Well do you know anywhere I could apply?"
"I haven't really paid much attention. What are you looking for?" Blaine asked.
"Anything really.." Kurt said.
Blaine nodded. "Well Thea always has the newspaper. She has a weird obsession with looking through the classified ads. We can start there then look online,". Blaine said. "I mean...If you want..."
Kurt smiled. "I'd like that.."
Blaine blushed, looking down. "Alright.."
They sat there, talking for a bit. Blaine smiled to himself. This was actually a lot easier than he thought it would be.
They finished their coffee and Blaine looked up. "So did you want to come over and look now or another day?"
"Now is fine.." Kurt said, happily.
"Tonight is my night to take care of dinner...Are you still as picky?" Blaine asked playfully as they walked out.
"No.." Kurt giggled, smacking at Blaine's arm jokingly.
"Good. So you won't care if we order Chinese and pizza with extra cheese and no veggies whatsoever?" Blaine asked, still laughing. He couldn't help but notice how easy it was to flirt with each other.
"Now you're just trying to make me fat.." Kurt groaned, smiling.
Blaine giggled. "That's only something I'd get if Finn was here. I'll find something at home."
Kurt nodded. "Good." he said grinning.
Blaine shook his head, smiling that goofy smile the way he used to. "Follow me to the apartment."
Kurt nodded, getting into his car and following Blaine to his apartment.
Blaine led him up the stairs, laughing as they walked in and throwing Thea off.
"Hey Kurt.." She said, raising an eyebrow.
Blaine smiled as he sat next to his best friend. "Hey sweetie. I'm helping Kurt find a job."
"Newspapers are in my room." She said smiling.
"Thanks boo!" Blaine said, going off to get them.
Kurt smiled as Blaine walked off to get them. "I missed him.." He said softly.
"He missed you too. I've never seen him smile like that," Thea said. "Kurt? Please be careful. He's more fragile than you could imagine."
Kurt nodded. "I will..I want him to trust me again."
"Good. I like you. I'd like you to continue to hang around," Thea smiled.
Kurt giggled, "Yeah, me too.."
Blaine came back out with the most recent papers before sitting next to Thea again.
Kurt smiled as Blaine handed each of them a paper.
"Ha! Found one already!" Thea said smiling.
"What is it?" Blaine asked.
"Male exotic dancer!"
"Thea!" Blaine exclaimed, blushing to his scalp as he let the idea fill his mind. "Kurt I'm sorry...I swear sometimes she doesn't have a filter."
"What's that number?" Kurt asked, leaning over.
Blaine's eyes went wide. "Kurt! You're not doing that!"
"Joking!" Kurt laughed. "What Blaine? You wouldn't come watch me?" he said, raising an eyebrow.
"Oh my god..." Blaine groaned, hiding his face in his hands.
"For what it's worth, I think you'd make a fantastic stripper Kurt." Thea said, biting her lip as she watched Blaine's reactions.
Blaine just glared at her. "I'll be right back.." he said before going to the balcony to smoke.
Thea laughed. "I'm gonna go smoke with him. You keep looking, we'll be back in a sec." She told Kurt before walking out on the balcony with Blaine.
"You're an ass," Blaine sighed, shaking his head.
"You love me.." She grinned, pulling out a cigarette and lighting it.
"That I do." Blaine laughed. "But I really don't need this image in my head.."
The redhead grinned, starting to dance. "Ntiss Ntiss Ntiss Ntiss."
"Thea!" Blaine giggled, blushing again. "Seriously...I can't think about it right now..."
"Why?" she asked, stopping her dance and taking a drag off of her cigarette.
Blaine sighed. "Obviously I'm still very attracted to him. I don't have your...anatomy. I can't hide things..."
"Oh my god.." Thea laughed, resting against the railing.
"It's not funny!" Blaine mumbled.
"It's pretty funny.." Thea smiled.
"No it's not...I don't want to give in this easily, Thea..."
"Blaine..You're strong.." She said softly.
"Not when it comes to him. He's...I don't know...he was my first love and no matter how much I deny it...He just has this effect on me..." Blaine said, looking over the balcony.
Thea nodded. "So are you giving him another chance?"
"We're just friends reconnecting. That's all I can handle right now.." Blaine sighed.
Thea nodded. "Good.." She said softly.
"And that's why I do not need to be hard around him," Blaine laughed. "Come on. I should get dinner started. What sounds good?"
"Food! I'm starving!" She smiled.
Blaine shook his head. "But what kind?"
"Well I want breakfast for dinner." she said, finishing her cigarette.
"Alright," Blaine smiled, walking back inside.
Kurt was buried in the newspaper, a red sharpie poking out of his lips as his eyes roamed over the classifieds.
"Find anything yet?" Blaine asked on his way to the kitchen.
"Just some salesman jobs in department stores and waiting tables.." Kurt said, the sharpie muffling his words a bit.
"It's a start at least.." Blaine said softly, pulling out the stuff he needed. "And I don't care what you say...You're at least trying what I'm making."
"What are you making?" Kurt asked, looking up.
"No looking until it's done," Blaine said quickly. "But if you don't like it, I'll make you something else."
"I'm sure I'll like it.." Kurt said, circling an ad with the sharpie.
Blaine stayed in the kitchen, cooking until it was finished. He smiled to himself as he looked at it. He set the casserole type dish on the stove. He laughed when he saw Thea's eyes go wide at the smell. It was her favorite. Hash browns with jalapenos mixed in, eggs over easy over the hash browns, and to top it off, shredded cheese, diced tomatoes and onions.
"Blaine, turn straight and marry me please oh dear god.." Thea groaned.
"What smells amazing?" Kurt called from the living room.
Blaine grinned. "Come make a plate, both of you."\
The two came into the kitchen.
"Holy fuck I love you.." Thea breathed out as they went to get their food.
Blaine laughed. "I love you too. And sorry, I just can't be straight. But I will cook for you."
"That works too." Thea grinned as they sat down.
Kurt took a bite, his eyes going wide. "Oh my god Blaine.."
"Good?" Blaine asked, smiling.
"Amazing!"
Blaine grinned. "Thank you."
They ate their dinner, chatting happily. It was so much easier than Blaine expected. It actually scared him a little. It wasn't supposed to be this easy. But seeing Kurt smile..Having him randomly show up...Those eyes...They made Blaine melt. When their eyes met they would both blush, looking away and Kurt would smile lightly. The rest of the night went too well for Blaine's liking. It should be harder. He should be mad...Furious even. How could he forgive Kurt this easily? It wasn't supposed to be this way. After Kurt left, Blaine spent some time talking about everything with Thea before climbing into bed for the night.
A/N: It feels really good to finally get this up here. We are going back and forth between three different stories so bare with us with timing. We hope you all enjoyed. What do you think? Any suggestions? Thoughts? Comments? Let us know : )