Hi Rufus, are you still awake? How are you?

Lily wrote out and deleted each letter one by one, hoping to have the courage to send the messages as she read them back. It was 11.05pm and she couldnt sleep, and for some reason she had been staring at her phone hoping that Rufus would message her, asif he would be able to sense her unease at that very moment. She sighed as she placed her phone down on the bedside table, picking it up once more ready to finally send the message, before shaking her head deciding that that would be a very bad idea. It had been almost 2 weeks since Lily had last spoken to Rufus, 2 weeks since Eric had came home all happy after his fun night at the Humphrey's and left Lily wondering if she should of took Rufus up on his offer, afterall it was just dinner...

Nothing was that simple when It came to her and Rufus

Bart had came home the day after bearing gifts as his way of an apology, although she was genuinely happy to have her husband back home, and touched at his attempts since then to spend more time at home with the family. She couldnt hide the fact that her mind was constantly elsewhere, somewhere it shouldnt be, thinking of the one person that she swore she would try and forgot when she became Mrs Bart Bass...

RUFUS

Lily knew It wasnt going to be easy, he was never easy to get over! Not 20 years ago, and definitely not now! The moment he had stepped back into her life she had tried to pretend that it didnt effect her, that it didnt terrify, scare, worry and excite her all at the same time...But It did! The fact they had spent a passion filled night together before her wedding to Bart hadnt helped, she had almost forgotten how his skin felt against hers, how wondeful he was at making her feel like the most beautiful woman in the world, how much passion and lust they had always had for each other, and how incredible they made each other feel each time they held one another in their arms...

She loved Bart, she really did! He was good to her and the kids and she knew how lucky she was to have a strong, powerful man who loved her and wanted to look after her. Though for the last few weeks she couldnt shake the deep feeling of regret and WHAT IF'S from her mind. This scared and confused Lily, as she knew that around Rufus she could loose controll of her desires and emotions in a heartbeat, and yet here she was, ready to deceive Bart by contacting Rufus of all people

Bart didnt deserve that, and neither did Rufus, she had messed him around for too long, she had hurt him, she had seen the look in his eyes on her wedding day, similar to the look he gave her when she had walked out on him in their youth, broken hearted because of her

Lily was never going to leave Bart like Rufus desperately hoped for...

Hi
Are you still awake?
I miss you xx

Lily wrote out quickly without hesitating, hitting the send button, hoping that the reply would put her mind at ease
Lily sighed quitely, secretly wishing she had sent that message to Rufus and not to her husband...