Adoration And Fidelity

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Rating: M for Mature

Warnings: Sexual Content; Extreme violence; Offensive Language

"Talking"

'Thoughts'

Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha, but I do own the storyline.

Recap: "Drop it, because the answers no." Inuyasha cut her off. Kagome's smirk turned to a glare.

"You're suck a jerk Inuyasha!" She screamed. The others in the hut all shifted in their sleep at the loud noise. Kagome leaned closer to the wall. Maybe he was right. It was a little late to go back, but she had to tomorrow. She just had to see her family again. She had to say goodbye once and for all... End Recap

Chapter 4: Recrudescence

Kagome rolled over and opened her eyes. She felt so good all over. She had not felt so healthy in what seemed like forever, but was merely a week. Looking over and around the hut she noticed no one was in there. This surprised her a little because she would have expected Sango and Miroku to still be resting. They had been resting on all nights and hours of the day. Kagome was, however, glad they were awake. She needed to talk to Sango about some things.

Kagome slipped out of her sleeping bag and walked over to the hut door. She smiled as the sun beamed down on her. It seemed to smile towards her. The luscious grass sparkled with morning due and villagers worked their hardest in the fields. It was another beautiful morning.

Kagome bit her lip. It was a beautiful morning, but it would be a horrible day. On this day Kagome would finally tell her family goodbye. She would have to explain to them that she could never return. That she would never be able to see them again... And when they would ask why. She would answer them in the most truthful way she possibly could. She would admit to them that she needed to be with someone here. She loved someone here deeply. She would stick by his side. She had to stay with Inuyasha.

Kagome had made her decision the night before. She still did not know what Inuyasha planned to do, but all of her body and soul told her that she was doing the right thing and that somehow things would all work out for the better. She loved the feudal era all in itself. It was a magnificent place in so many senses. The only issues here were the demons and Kagome and Inuyasha could handle that for sure.

"Kagome!" Sango's voice called out from a distance. Kagome looked up and noticed her friend walking over to her and waving. Sango still did not have enough energy to run, but she was doing wonderful for her condition.

"Hey!" Kagome's mood brightened a little. Now she could talk to Sango like she had wanted to do. When Sango was finally there Kagome found herself asking... "Where's Inuyasha?"

"Him, Miroku, Shippo, And Kirara are all out getting a bunch of meats, fish, and rice for tonight."

"Is something going to happen?" Kagome asked. Sango smiled at her best friend and giggled a little.

"Oh that's right. I forgot you didn't know yet... Well this morning we all decided that since we were all recovering, Naraku is dead, and the jewel is complete that we should have a celebration. Miroku's going to have a small ceremony in the beginning to honor all of those who died because of either Naraku or the jewel. We're preparing a big feast for the whole village and they'll be games and we'll just have a really fun time."

"Tonight..." 'What horrible timing!' Kagome's mind screamed. She had wanted to spend all that night and the next day in her time saying goodbye to everyone. Now she could not. She would only be able to spend part of the day. After all the jewel was going to be purified in a couple of days. She didn't have much time.

"Is something wrong?" Sango asked. Kagome looked at Sango and gave her a sad smile.

"Sango, could we talk?"

"Of course. About anything."

"Then can you come the hot springs with me? I want to talk in a little more of a private place." Sango nodded at Kagome with a worried look. "Great. I'll go get the bathing stuff." Kagome ran back into the hut.

Sango did not know what to think of Kagome's expression. It worried her. They were supposed to be rejoicing, but the miko just seemed so down. When Sango had seen Kagome first, all she noticed was that Kagome's wounds were gone, but Kaede had taken time out earlier on to explain to her and Miroku about the whole affair, so then Sango only paid close attention to Kagome's facial appearance and noticed the almost vacant look in Kagome's deep brown eyes.

Kagome came out a couple of seconds later with all the stuff they would need to take a bath and they headed down to the springs.

Meanwhile

Inuyasha growled in frustration. He had missed yet another fish as it swam by in the stream. 'Damn fish!' He thought as he went to claw another, but was once more unlucky.

There was already a pile of fish on the shore, but that would not be enough for all of the villagers. The more fish that were caught the more difficult it became to get them.

"Inuyasha.." Miroku rubbed his forehead as he emerged from the forest with more firewood. He piled it near the fish. They would need a lot to cook all of the fish. "I think you've caught enough. Don't forget there will be plenty of other foods. We can collect fruits from abandoned gardens and kill some meat. Plus we have pounds of rice and noodles."

"Feh.. The more fish there are the less people will need to eat the noodles and the less people who eat the noodles, the more noodles for me." Inuyasha replied with a smirk.

Meanwhile

Kagome leaned back against a soft rock as her friend sat across from her. Kagome imagined Sango would be on cloud nine at the moment, considering she had not bathed in a while, being as she had been to weak to. For the past days all she could to was cleanse herself with a cloth and some of Kagome's soap. The heat of the hot spring had to feel good.

"So..." Sango began. "What was it you wanted to talk about?" Sango waited patiently for Kagome to answer. She was in no rush and knew Kagome would not want to be hurried on.

"Um... well you see..." Kagome looked down. "I've decided on which era I would like to stay in." Sango's eyes opened a bit larger in interest.

"You have?" Kagome nodded.

"I choose to stay here." Kagome finished off. Sango did not no how to respond. She was excited, sure, but she was no so sure her friend was as well. This troubled her. She wanted Kagome there, but she did not want Kagome to suffer and if it hurt the young priestess to stay in the feudal era then...

"Have you thought this through a lot?"

"I have... I mean I think I have... I need to be here. I want to. It's just... I really don't want to give up my family in the modern era.. that's all.."

"You know you don't have to stay here. We're all here to support you in whichever choice you make. We don't mind as long as you're happy."

"I know that and I would be happy here. Honestly. If I can be with Inuyasha..." She stopped herself and tried ignoring the pink tint that surfaced on her cheeks. Sango smiled.

"Don't worry about it. I understand." Kagome just bit her lip. Where else was this conversation supposed to go? What had Kagome wanted to say? Had she brought Sango here just to tell her that? Or had she wanted to hear something more? She had wanted Sango's reassuring words. She had hoped Sango would explain to her that it would all be alright and that Kagome and Inuyasha would be together in the end, but no. Hoping was not the same thing as expecting. She knew Sango could not tell her this, when Sango herself did not know what was going to happen in the future.

"Maybe... we should head back to the others now." Kagome recommended. She did not feel like just sitting there awkwardly for the next long while. It was a short bath, yes, but they had talked about what they needed to and now they had to help with festival preparations.. Well Sango had to do that. Kagome had to go back and say goodbye to her family.

Kagome grabbed a towel and wrapped it around her body a little sheepishly. She felt a bit foolish that she had ended the conversation so blunt and sharp. Sango followed and grabbed a towel of her own. The demon slayer had to admit that she felt bad for the girl.

Sango, Inuyasha, Miroku, Shippo, and Kirara had all lost something over the past couple of years. Really Kagome only lost her time spent in the modern era and with her blood relatives. Sango did not think it was fair that Kagome would have to lose something in the end. Kagome had taken her own time to make her friends lives better and in return her life would become worse. Sango saw this far from reasonable. Kagome disserved better. It was sad that she would have to suffer like this.

"When do you plan on saying goodbye?" Sango asked as her and Kagome began to get dressed.

"Today." Kagome said simply. Sango looked only at her clothing as she put them on. She did not want to face Kagome's sad eyes. Kagome probably had some false smile on so the others would not know how she was really feeling, but that was one of Kagome's problems. People knew when she was sad because of her eyes. Even if her lips held a smile, her eyes held suffering. You can always see a soul through someone's eyes if you pay close enough attention.

"Are you going to come to the festival?"

"I am. I wouldn't miss it." Kagome answered.

"Kagome... I don't think you should go until tomorrow than. Wouldn't you like to spend more time with them before you say goodbye forever?"

"I do, but I need to settle things now. I can't keep letting this drag on like a river... I need to make a dam. Now." Kagome finished putting her shirt on and grabbed her stuff. She walked off right past Sango. Sango allowed the wind to blow her hair to the side as she watched her friend's recrudescence to her own time.

Meanwhile

Kagome walked on her way to the well. She frowned the whole time. She was putting up a dam alright, a dam between two families which she both loved. She decided on leaving without telling Inuyasha. She would explain things to him tomorrow, after the celebration. For now she just hoped he could have a good time, and not worry about her.

When Kagome finally made it to the well. She sighed. This was it. The end of her life on one side of the well. She had come to far to lose all she had gained in this time. She could see a pendulum swinging back and forth in her mind, showing her that as she sat there she was wasting time. It was best to get this over with now.

Kagome looked deep into the depths of the well. She wondered why the gods had done this. Why had they made her fall through the well in the first place? If none of this had ever happened she could be living the normal life a growing woman, but no... She had been pulled through, been cursed as Kikyo's reincarnation. She had died the day she was born, because she was born with the sacred jewel.

When she had came to this time she had put all of her trust in Inuyasha. She pushed as far as she could go. She tried so hard... got so far... but in the end she still would have to live with losing half of her heart and the hardest part was that she was the one who had to chose which side. The reason she had chosen Inuyasha was not completely obvious to her, but she knew he was the one who brought the brightest light to her heart.

Kagome lifted a leg over the edge of the well. Her heart was beating in her head and her chest was hurting. She knew why... because now was the time her heart would be ripped in two. She would leave one half in the modern era and take the other with her to the feudal era.

As Kagome lifted her other leg over she jumped. She was consumed by a dark blue light and what looked like glowing stars. She felt warm and cozy. It was always a feeling she got when she traveled through time. The comfort smothered her. When it disappeared she landed on her knees on the bottom of the well.

'This is it. Time to say goodbye.' Kagome thought as she stood up and wiped the dirt from her knees. She would need to bring all of her important belongings and a whole lot of ramen and gift for the others. She did not know how she would carry it all, but that was not the biggest concern on her mind now.

Kagome looked at the rope that had hung down to the well floor. It was her way out. She would first tell her family the good news about the jewel and Naraku. She would shove the bad news on them before she left, that way she could see them smile for as long as possible. She did not have much time to be with them.

When Kagome was out she looked around the pinch black room. It smelt of old wood and dust, just like always. She got up and walked up the stairs. Biting her lip the whole time. She was considering ways to explain all of the information. The miko slid open the well house door and winced her eyes shut as the sun beamed down on her like rapid needles to her pupils.

She could hear birds chirping in the distance, singing there mid morning song. Kagome walked out of the place containing her passage through time. The closer she got towards the shrine door the more questions consumed her. 'Am I even meant to live in the past? Shouldn't I be here? Where I was born?' She shook her head and ran to the door. She stopped asking herself questions to ignore all the confusion. 'No, Kagome! I've made my choice. I know what I need to do and where I need to be... I told Inuyasha I would be with him forever. That's what I will do. That is what I must do.' Kagome could hear all of Inuyasha's insults in her mind. 'Weak human! Stupid girl!' Kagome slid open the door to her home... her old home...

When she walked in she was a little bit surprised that no one was there. Usually at least gramps would be there. She had no idea where they could have gone off to. There was no letter left. Nothing! This was horrible. Kagome needed them there. She had no time to waste. Now she would even spend less time with them.

"Mom! Gramps! Sota!" Kagome called running through the hallways. "Is anyone here!" She went to the front and looked out. The car was gone. 'Where could they have gone.' Kagome frowned. She decided to take this time to roam around the city that had been her home for so long.

She opened the front door and looked around. Everything seemed a little quieter. Mainly you could just hear cars zooming by on the streets. She left and shut the door going to the stairs that led down to the highway. It was the weekend so school kids were out and about walking the streets. Kagome could only hope she did not confront her friends. Sure, she wanted to say goodbye, but it would be to complicated explaining everything to them.

Kagome jogged down the stairs. She decided that first she wanted to visit Wacdonalds. It was surely a place to remember. Her and her friends would always go there after school and buy a soda or something while they just talked. That's where they would usually talk about Kagome's 'Selfish, Jealous, Rude, Two-Timing, Violent boyfriend' also referred to as Inuyasha.

As Kagome walked to Wacdonalds she decided she would buy a soda for old times. Deep down she wished her friends could have a soda with her. When she knew what she was hoping for in the depths of her heart she tried to change her mind focus. She decided that for now on whenever she would made a wish that she was with someone on this side of the well she would say to herself 'Well wouldn't it be even nicer to do that with Inuyasha.' That way she was sort of saying she was making the better choice. It was a speck bamboozling, but it would work. It just had to. It was one of her main senses of security.

I've decided to stop this here because it was getting a little longer than I had expected. I'm heading off to write the next chapter. I'm sorry this chapter took a little longer than the others to update. I got caught up in Inuyasha the fourth movie... It's the last one they're making and when I found out it was Japanese/English subtitled finally I just had to find it online and watch it. I only saw the first half so far, but I can't wait to see the other half. It's going better than all of the other movies!

About Random Comments:

Some of you had questions about what the random comments were and stuff and about the episode clips. Well I would just like to explain they're just clips from episodes that I am putting down. Just because it would add a little comedy or romance. Oh, and the episodes will randomize.

Random Comments: (Episode 3)

Inuyasha - "Hey" Kagome looks to him.

Kagome - "What?"

Inuyasha - "Take off those cloths."

BOOM

Inuyasha holds his bump in pain

Inuyasha - "Hey you... why did you.."

Kagome - "You pervert!"

Good To Know:

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Recrudescence means Return

In this case Kagome's returning to her time