Here Without You
Thank you for all your kind reviews. Sorry it took so long, but I had too much to do with my munchkins, holiday etc. Plus I want to have us catch up to the proper month. It makes it easier for me to write the events for the month they occur on the month they occur, if that makes sense.
This chapter is sort of the build up before "the poop hits the fan" which will happen in the following chapter.
For the reviewer who said that she is worried about Finn feeling guilty for messing around with Rachel when he is with Olivia, don't worry...Finn's nature dictates that he would feel guilty. He is monogamous by nature, so anything that places him in this two-timing situation will serve him platter full of guilt. I think it is clear that the Finn/Olivia relationship is not defined, at least not in his mind. This chapter will clarify the status of their relationship at least from one perspective.
Again, I own nothing but Olivia...and hope I caught all the typos/grammatical errors.
There is one song in this chapter, Want U Back by Cheryl Loyd
Ch. 4
Finn is sitting at his desk in his room studying the script in front of him. He hopes that this part in the community theater production will help him get into Pace or another NYC school next fall. He won the male lead role for Sweeney Todd and he is excited to begin work on it. The play is on in mid March, and application packets are due the end of March. He'll submit this performance and the copy of Rocky Horror that Mr. Schue made for him with his application.
It's been 3 weeks since Christmas and he is thinking of keeping his promise to Rachel about texting her to stay in touch. While considering what to text her, he picks up his phone and unlocks it. He goes to his text function and just stares. What can he possibly say? He decides on a quick update.
Doing well. Doing Sweeney Todd in community theater. Glee club reinstated for Regionals. All else is the same. Hope you are ok.
He presses send and goes back to studying the script. He thinks this will be a great part for him and he is excited to get started with rehearsals. The phone next to him is distracting him because now he waits to see if she'll text back. This is stupid; this is why he doesn't want to stay in touch with her. He is just sitting here now, like one of Pavlov's dogs, waiting for the vibrating sound. Giving up, he gets up to go get a drink from downstairs.
As he returns a few minutes later with a Coke in his hand, he sees the screen lit up. He sits down, picks up the phone and unlocks the screen. The response from Rachel is there. Yep, he thinks as his heart is hammering...he is a fucking Pavlov dog after all. He reads:
Thank you for the update...Sweeney Todd, huh? I hope you got the lead. Didn't say which part. All here is the same also. Can I please call you sometime? Sometimes I just miss hearing your voice. Please?
His heart is pounding so hard, his whole body feels like it's rocking. He still has the drink in his left hand, and sets it on the desk. He types out a response with shaky hands.
I did get the lead, and yes you can call me once in a while. If I need help with the acting for this, would you be willing to give me some pointers?
He sends it and waits for a response.
Absolutely! I would love that. :) I am so proud of you. It's a challenging role. I wish I could be your Ms. Lovett!
He smiles at her response...
Thank you...gotta go study now. TTYL :)
She replies,
Ok, bye.
In New York, Rachel puts down the phone with a smile. He contacted her!
Finn is still sitting at his desk staring at the script in front of him, and as much as he wants to concentrate, he keeps thinking back to the conversation between him and Olivia when she returned from her holiday trip. He was at the tire shop and she came in to see him.
"Hey, there!" She walks in wearing the most casual clothing he has ever seen her wearing. Skinny jeans, plain shirt, belted sweater coupled up with Uggs boots. Her hands are in the back pockets of her jeans and she smiles at him with her gorgeous smile.
"Hi!" he replies and walks over to her for a kiss. He leans forward and she kisses him quickly without taking her hands out of her pockets. She is feeling awkward around him.
"I'm finished with my work here," he says. "Let me go change real quick and I'll be right out." She nods as he walks away feeling like something bad is going to happen. She called him earlier and said she would be in town for them to get together. She seemed normal, but there is an edginess to her voice that is unfamiliar to him.
When he comes out, she asks him to follow her to the hotel, and they could order something to be delivered for dinner. He drives his car, while she drives hers to the Stanford Arms Hotel.
In the suite, they quickly order pizza for delivery and he starts asking her about her trip. She quickly becomes animated and explains the different activities and adventures during her holiday season: Lots of skiing, snowmobiling, horseback riding, thermal springs, the kinds of things he would have loved to have experienced himself. The pizza arrives and they continue talking about her trip and his holiday. After they finished eating, she moves closer to him, reaches out her hand and places it on his left cheek tracing a pattern over his freckles with her index finger.
He leans forward and kisses her and feels the familiar stirring in his abdomen. While still kissing her, he stands up with her and starts walking her backward toward the bedroom part of the suite. They haven't been together for a couple weeks, so the excitement is building up fast. He breaks the kiss and places his lips on her neck peppering her neck with little kisses while still slowly walking her backward until her legs hit the foot of the bed. He sits her down and lays her back, still working on her neck while his hands reach for the bottom of her t-shirt. He pulls it over her head and looks at her; her eyes have gone dark, dark green with lust. As he reaches for the button of her jeans, she says, "Wait, wait a second." She rolls over to the night table and takes out the box of condoms and hands him one. He looks surprised at her because she's been on the pill and they haven't used them for a long now. "What's this?" he asks, "Are you off the pill?" She looks at him square in the eye and tells him, "Condoms are not only used for protection against pregnancy, you know." Confusion is clear on his face as he continues looking at her. It feels like cold water has just thrown on his face as realization finally sinks in.
"You've been with someone else?" he asks a little upset. "I thought we agreed we would be honest with each other if that happened." He stands up by the side of the bed and looks down at her. She sits up, crosses her legs on the bed and looks at him.
"No, I haven't!" she looks on the blanket for a split second and then back at him fully in the eyes. "But based on the text at Christmas, I wasn't sure if you had. Finn, I think it's clear that I don't trust people with my emotions, but I do need to trust you with my body. I don't know what happened then, but I know something did, so this is to make sure we stay 'healthy'."
"That did not happen; there was NO sex!" he reassures her. "It would have been the first thing I would have mentioned if it had, believe me."
"Well, then, what did happen? Remember, full disclosure," she reminds him.
His face blushes bright pink as he looks away from her uncomfortably. "It was just kissing, and touching, but that's it." He grabs the back of his neck in an effort to relieve the tension and embarrassment. He looks sheepishly at her and she looks at him for a while and then lightly shakes head head back and forth and smiles.
"Ok, I believe you," she says. She leans over and grabs his hand as he is standing on the side of the bed and roughly pulls him on top of her and kisses him full in the mouth. "For the record," she whispers in between kisses, "You are never going to get over her if you can't keep your hands off of her...just so you know."
"I know," he says. All he is thinking is that she is probably the coolest chick he knows.
Finn is brought back to the present with a call from his mom that dinner is ready. Thank God, he is starved! He gets up and walks out of his room.
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"You are going back to Lima, again?" Brody asks in a surprised manner? "You were just there for winter break? Why?"
"Brody, do you forget that my parents still live there? It's their anniversary and I want to celebrate it with them...they have been together 25 years. That's rare, you know." Rachel tries to justify her trip.
"Do you want me to come with you? On second thought, forget I asked. Your parents treat you like a baby anyway. I don't want to sleep in the guest room. I'll just stay here." he kind of asks and answers himself at the same time. Rachel has gotten used to him doing this. He asks a question and then most of the time he answers it himself.
"Are you going to see Finn while you are there?" he looks at her straight in the eyes.
"Do you actually think my parents would invite my EX-boyfriend to their anniversary party? C'mon, Brody! I'll be there for less than 48 hrs. Seriously, you're jealous? I think that's cute!" she teases him.
Brody grabs her by the arms and yanks her against his chest. He slides his hands down her back and lightly grabs her ass. "Yes! I am jealous...I want this ass all to myself!" he says. She giggles and pushes against his chest and steps back away. "You are being silly!" she says and goes back to packing her small, carryon suitcase.
He looks at her and is barely audible when he whispers, "Am I?" Rachel pretends she doesn't hear him and continues humming a tune while packing. He walks behind her and puts his arms around her waist.
"Ok, I'll see you when you get back! Be good!" He says quietly in her ear and turns around and walks out of the loft.
Rachel slowly lets out the breath she was holding and sits on the bed next to her suitcase. It's clear he doesn't trust her. She bites the inside of her lip and contemplates what that really says about their relationship.
Kurt provides a great distraction from her gloomy thoughts. "I am coming with you... for two reasons. One, to keep you away from Finn. Don't even pretend that you don't know that I know he is the reason you are going. And two, I want to go see Blaine. I haven't seen him in a while."
Rachel smiles and says, "I will be honored to have you as my date at my dads' party."
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She sits in front of the mirror and looks at her long, glossy dark hair and her green eyes and contemplates how the hell it happened. How did she ALLOW this to happen. Olivia looks at herself in the mirror and wants to punch herself in the face. She has fallen for Finn. This is not supposed to happen. He is the rebound for fuck's sake. Yes, he is gorgeous, but she can't even tell you why she has fallen for him. All she knows is that sometime after Christmas she started thinking about him more often and now he is all she thinks about. Shit, she thinks as she slams down the hairbrush. He is freaking nineteen years old, and she is almost four years older than him. This is not going to end well.
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It's Friday evening and Kurt is with Blaine, Finn, and Olivia at Breadstix. No, it's not a double date...Blaine and he are not together...yet. There is a part of Kurt that really, really wants to forget the whole cheating part, and the infidelity he could forgive. It's the trust that he can't make himself regain. How do you not suspect something when he would be late or going out? How do you get that trust back? Is it even possible for that to happen?
They had just had their plates cleared from the table. Finn has been periodically glancing at his phone and occasionally texting someone. Kurt bets he know who that someone is...Miss Rachel Berry, star at the end! Finn excuses himself to go to the restroom.
Olivia looks at Kurt, "I'm glad we got a chance to hang out tonight. I haven't gotten a chance to meet a lot of Finn's friends or family."
Kurt looks at her with a weird look in his eyes and says, "I can tell from the way you look at him that you really care for him, but I would be a jerk if I didn't warn you. He likes you, it's obvious, but you need to make sure you don't allow yourself to get in too deep here. No one can sink the "Finchel" ship. They may allow other passengers on board for a while, but eventually those will be thrown overboard. I want you to go into this with your eyes wide open."
"Finchel ship? What the hell is that?" She asks jokingly.
"That's what we call Finn and Rachel's relationship." He laughs along with her.
"Maybe it's just a teenage romance and will eventually burn off." She looks closely at Kurt.
"There is nothing "teenage" about their romance, Olivia," Kurt warns. "There is an intensity there that, frankly, as incredibly, sickly sweet as it is, it is also fucking scary, and quite adult in its nature, ok? Just watch out. Hope for the best, but don't expect anything."
Kurt leans toward her and looks at her sympathetically. "I'm sure you have spoken with Finn, havent you about her? If you haven't, do it. He is brutally honest when it comes to her. Look, I like you...I don't want you to get hurt. The reason they aren't together has nothing to do with lack of love; quite the opposite, in fact. Anyone who gets between them is setting themselves up for a world of hurt. Be careful with your heart. He would die before he would intentionally hurt anyone, but he will hurt you in the end if you let this become something more in your heart. If you feel something more you must tell him and let him tell you how he feels."
Olivia nods her head and looks toward the restroom. Too late, she thinks to herself.
In the restroom Finn is looking at his phone. Rachel has been texting him and is about to enter Breadstix with her parents. He hasn't told her that he is here with Olivia. That's why he went to the bathroom. Having to introduce Olivia to Rachel and vice versa will be beyond awkward. There is a little hallway obscuring the bathrooms from the main dining area, and he is hanging out there. He feels like a freaking coward, ugh! Ok, he needs to man up and just go sit. If they see each other, it's just two exes, right? Right!
Walking back to his table, he squares his shoulders and gets ready for the inevitable. He slides into the booth next to Olivia and smiles at her. She is looking at him with an expression on her face he can't quite explain. He sees her look at Kurt and catches Kurt quickly look away guiltily. What's going on here? Not even a minute later he sees Rachel walk in with her dads. She sees him and smiles, and her smile fades when she realizes who is sitting next to him.
While continuing to walk toward them, Rachel is bracing herself for the upcoming introductions. She and her dads stop briefly at their table.
"Good evening everyone!" she says in a cheery fashion first looking at Kurt then looking at Blaine. "Blaine, how have you been? I haven't seen you in a while," she says while looking at Blaine. Standing up Blaine gives her a hug and whispers in her ear, "Go easy on her, ok?"
"Of course!" she smiles brilliantly.
Finally she looks at Finn, "Finn, it's good to see you again!" Rachel glances between Finn and Olivia and he finally makes the introductions.
Flustered, Finn blushes through the introductions. "Rachel, this is my...um...Olivia. Olivia, this is Rachel." Olivia confidently lifts her hand to shake Rachel's. Rachel grasps it and realizes Olivia is grasping a bit too firmly.
"Nice to finally meet you," Rachel says a little too sweetly.
"That's exactly what I was thinking," says Olivia matching Rachel's too sweet demeanor.
Her father looks awkwardly at the trio and says. "Well, Rachel let's leave them to their dinner and go to our table. Finn, as always, it's good to see you, and we would love to have you over to the house any time, ok? We miss you." Hiram pats Finn on the shoulder.
Finn looks at him a little surprised and replies, "Thanks, I'll take you up on it soon."
Rachel and her dads walk away and everyone breathes a little easier.
Olivia looks around at the table and says, "No, that wasn't awkward at all! I need another drink. Finn, did she know you were here?" Finn looks a little uneasy, and says, "Yes, she texted me earlier and asked me what I was doing, so I told her."
After a while, Olivia spots Rachel getting up and heading for the restroom. She waits a little while and gets up herself to go do the same. When she enters the ladies room, Rachel is fixing her lip gloss in front of the mirror and pauses as their eyes lock.
"Oh, hi!" says Rachel.
"Hi" says Olivia.
After a few moments of awkward silence, Olivia looks at Rachel and asks, "May I ask you something and you give me an honest answer?" Rachel looks at her through the mirror and nods her head.
"I know that it was you who broke up with him, so why are you so hell bend in pursuing him?" she tilts her head sideways in curiosity.
"He has always been my best friend, I can't give that up. I just want us to be friends again."
Olivia squints her eyes, "Right! Friends, huh? So at Christmas time, that activity in the car was just friends?"
Rachel looks uncomfortably to the floor. "Wow! He told you about that? Ok, that was just an isolated incident, call it a moment of weakness, Christmas and all," Rachel says
dismissively, "Not that I have to explain myself to you."
"No, you're right, you don't. But he does, you see, we have a full disclosure policy in our relationship; it was hell for him to talk to me about it, so don't put him in that position. At that point, he only has two choices: be a liar, or dread revealing uncomfortable details. Also, if you really want to just be friends, why not just stay away from him, since you obviously can't keep your hands to yourself?" Rachel stares at her stunned. Olivia takes her silence as an opportunity to continue, "Seems to me you didn't pursue this 'friendship' with him until you found out he was seeing someone else. Maybe you just like the chase, or maybe you are a typical teenage girl who only wants what you can't have."
"It takes two to tango, you know." Rachel retorts.
"Yes, but he did not break the 'no contact' rule; that was all you, after you saw us together at Thanksgiving. So maybe you need to analyze why that is, before he gets hurt again. If you have his best interests at heart, you need to leave him alone. He needs time to figure things out himself." Olivia looks at Rachel intently.
"Yes, he does, but with you there, he isn't figuring things out himself now, is he? And you think you are one of his 'best interests'?" Rachel fires back at her. "A Booty Call Babe? That's what they call you, you know...his friends."
Olivia smirks because she knows she's got her riled and mud slinging now. "Really? You and I both know that I am more than that. Finn is not capable of having that kind of relationship. His feelings get involved very quickly. If it makes you feel better to think that that's all I am, be my guest. But, just know, you'd be lying to yourself. Booty Call Babes don't receive Christmas gifts. Ask him yourself what I am to him. He won't lie."
As Olivia walks out of the bathroom door, Rachel nods her head as and says, "I will!"
During her walk back to the table, Olivia is berating herself for doing what she just did. This kind of shit is so beneath her...is dating a 19 year old making her regress to high school behaviors? She is almost 23 and her behavior is ridiculous! Oh my God, what has happened to her? Is Finn really worth this? The thing is that she wants the chance to find out, and won't with HER always lurking in the background like some ghost. Finn would be pissed if he found out!
She sees Finn get up as she approaches the table, and he whispers in her ear, "Want to get out of here?"
"Absolutely!" she replies guiltily as they say their goodbyes and walk to the door to leave.
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It's 11:49 p.m. and Rachel is lying on her bed unable to sleep. She is still fuming over what THAT GIRL said to her, but she also knows that there is a certain truth behind it as well. Does she only want Finn right now because of the chase? No, definitely not! She feels threatened by her; could Finn fall for Olivia? Has he already? He gave her the pendant for Christmas apparently. Oh, she is going crazy. She looks at her phone, picks it up and sends a text.
Are you awake and alone?
Across town, in Olivia's suite, Finn's phone vibrates next to him on the nightstand. He picks it up and quietly tip toes out of the room and goes into the sitting area so he would not wake up Olivia. She was really weird after she came back from the restroom at Breadstix and didn't say anything when he asked her what was wrong.
He sees the text is from Rachel,
Yes, and sort of. She is asleep in bed; I am in the living room. What's wrong?
He waits for her answer, and waits. Finally,
If I ask you one thing about her will you be truthful?
As he reads, he takes and deep breath and sighs.
She is off limits. I don't ask you about Brody, you don't ask me about her.
He gets a response immediately.
Please...
He contemplates an answer and finally types it.
Fine, but if I don't like the question I will choose not to answer, ok?
Rachel responds.
Ok...Are you in love with her?
Finn holds his breath at this...what should he do?
I'm choosing not to answer.
Are you in love with Brody?
That will shut her up, he smiles.
How can you not answer, but expect me to? Doesn't make sense.
He laughs imagining her outrage. He starts typing...
Ok, I will answer if you will.
She types.
Fine, we'll both answer at the same time.
On 3
He starts typing again,
1...
2...
3 go.
He starts his answer and can see the tree dots that she is also typing.
Her response comes in as soon as he sends his...
No
Rachel looks for his response,
No, but I do care about her.
Finn is waiting to see what she will say to that. He finally gets another question.
Are you still in love with me?
He is not going to answer that! He turns the tables on her.
Are YOU still in love with ME?
He waits. An entire minute goes by, and as he is about to type good night, he gets a response.
Maybe
He types back...
Well then, maybe is my answer too! Go to bed!
I am in bed...
Really? What are you wearing...?
He smiles because this kind of banter brings back such great memories.
OMG! Perv!
Just kidding...goodnight!
Goodnight!
Finn puts the phone on the cushion of the couch next to him and lays his head on the back of the couch with a smile on his face. His phone vibrates once more...
That pale pink lacy bra and panty set you gave me. ;)
Finn has to catch himself from laughing out loud and waking Olivia. After a few moments he gets up and goes to the bedroom. He stops at the door, leans on the door frame and stares at Olivia sleeping. It is only after he really watches for a moment that he realizes she is faking being sleeping. Why is she doing it? He can totally tell she is pretending to be asleep. He crawls into his side of the bed pretending to not know that she is pretending to be asleep. Just as he settles in and relaxes, she turns and snakes her arm around his abdomen. Leaning close to his face, she whispers in his ear very quietly, "I want you to be mine." He knows she doesn't expect an answerso he gives none. She falls asleep within minutes as he lays there staring at the ceiling thinking of Rachel in bed wearing her pale pink bra and panty set.
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In the morning, Rachel is helping her dads prepare the house for the party this evening.
Their parties are always begin being these subdued affairs which quickly turn to singing, drinking and overall ultra happy events. Rachel is so grateful that her parents are still together. She wishes her parents had invited Finn to come, but then if he came he would probably bring his "girlfriend" (gag) with him, so better that she doesn't see him for the rest of the weekend. It was painful enough to see him with her at "their" Breadstix restaurant; she doesn't need to see him with her in her own house. Well, Olivia was right about one thing, though. She is not just a BCB like everyone thinks she is. But then their little texting back and forth last night really felt like when they were together. Ugh! How have things gotten so messed up! She can't even think of anything to do to fix "them."
As she is working around the house dusting and performing other menial acts, she thinks back to when the mess started with his altruistic act of putting her on that train, and knows he did the right thing, so where did all this go wrong? Why was he so upset in New York; about being in New York? She wants to believe it was because of his lack of career focus and direction, but deep down her gut tells her that it wasn't the main reason. Could it be Brody? She really didn't pay attention to Brody before she broke up with Finn, did she?
She thinks back to the bar, Callbacks, when they were all there and recalls the look on Finn's face when she sang with Brody. She was singing to Finn, but now she can see how Finn was hurt by her flirtatious attitude toward Brody. Truth be told, she kind of wanted to hurt Finn that night for ignoring her for four months, to show him that there are hot guys out there that find her attractive. Finn has always been an open book with his emotions and feelings, so when did he become this person that guards himself and puts up walls? Even the few times that they have seen each other since they broke up, she has noticed he is cautious with every word he says. Gone are the days he would blurt every thought and sometimes regret it. I guess the answer is obvious...he was hurt and it's his way of making sure some walls are up to protect himself. Is she, Rachel, responsible for this change? His openness was always the best part about him. Is Olivia right? Is it better for them to just stay out of each other's way for a while? She is really confused right now.
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It is 9:00 p.m. and the Berry household is just starting to get lively. There are so many people here to wish her parents well on their 25th wedding anniversary. She was pleasantly surprised when Burt and Carole came with Kurt. Rachel didn't know that her dad's had invited them, but she is thrilled to see them. When she opened the door to see them standing there she asked if Finn was coming, but they told her he had other plans tonight.
Most of the younger crowd congregated downstairs at her basement and started singing. When that happened, she sent a text to the local glee club kids to come and join them. By 10:00 o'clock it everyone was having a really good time.
Kurt eyes her curiously, "Rachel, my love, you are really letting go tonight! I haven't seen you tipsy since that party here junior year."
"Oh God, Kurt! I am nowhere near drunk like that. It just feels good to let loose you know. BUT if you see me getting really drunk like that, cut me off. I give you permission even if I complain about it, ok? I don't want to fly tomorrow with a hangover. Tipsy is ok, drunk is not!"
"Fine, I will make sure you drink responsibly," he winks at her.
She leans toward him and hugs him tightly, "Thanks for being my date."
"That's what friends are for...but you have a boyfriend. You could have asked him to come."
"Yeah, I do, don't I?" she says kind of sadly. Kurt looks over at her curiously.
He feels his phone vibrate and looks at it. The text is from Finn.
Hey little bro, are you still at the party? Olivia had to go to the hotel in Columbus, some kind of an emergency. We can go do something if you have already left.
Rachel looks at him, "Who is texting you...is it a guy?" She gives him a winky face. After showing her the text, Rachel grabs his phone and starts texting back. Kurt tries to get his phone back from her. "Rachel Berry, you will give me my phone back this instant!"
She sends the text and Kurt reads what she sent.
I am still at the party, but please come to the Berry's. We are all in the basement...lots of former glee here, Rachel says you're invited.
"I'm going to text him and tell him not to come!" Kurt says in a frustrated manner.
"No! Please Kurt...let him come! You'll get to spend more time with your brother." Rachel gives Kurt an innocent look.
"Fine! But if this turns into a disaster, and by disaster I mean you guys are all over each other, I will say 'I told you so' a million times." Kurt grabs his phone from her when it vibrates.
I don't know. I don't want Rachel to feel awkward.
Kurt replies:
I just got my phone back...she is the one who sent the last text. Come over! It will be fun, ok?
Ok, be there in a few :)
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Rachel sees Finn come in looking as sexy as ever. He is wearing dark jeans and a light blue v-neck sweater and he looks like he hasn't shaved in a week. It makes him look older, sexier. She smiles because they accidentally match. She has on a short black skirt with a baby blue silk shirt.
Finn has been at the Berry's house for an hour now and he is really glad he came. Puck is here visiting his mom and sister, and Sam is here with Brittany, Artie is here and Tina. Everything is perfect. The only thing that is off is a tipsy Rachel Berry. She is having a good time, but she is not drunk and hanging all over him like last time, so that's good thing, right? She is, though, looking really hot, and he secretly wouldn't mind her hanging all over him. Pfft, stop it, Finn. He berates himself. See? He is a Pavlov dog!
People have been taking turns singing, and Rachel has been kinda flirting with him, but he is sober so he knows that's the alcohol lowering her inhibitions.
Rachel goes on the stage and grabs the microphone, "Who's next?" No one volunteers, and she yells into the microphone, "Finn Hudson, it's your turn!"
Finn looks around embarrassed and says, "I haven't had enough to drink yet, no thanks."
"I guess, I'll have to sing then!" she giggles!
An upbeat song begins and most people stop to listen including Finn.
Rachel looks at Finn and begins singing...
Hey, boy you never had much game
So I needed to upgrade
So I went and walked away-way-way
Now I seen you been hanging out
With that other girl in town
Looking like a pair of clowns-clowns-clowns
Remember all the things that you and I did first
And now you're doing them with her
Remember all the things that you and I did first
You got me got me like this
And now you're taking her to every restaurant
And everywhere we went, come on!
And now your taking her to every restaurant
You got me got me like this
Boy you can say anything you wanna
I don't give a sh, not one else can have you
I want you back, I want you back
Want want you, want you back
I broke it off thinking you'd be crying
Now I feel like sh looking at you flying
I want you back, I want you back
Want want you, want you back
Finn is looking at her and her stage antics (she is an awesome performer) and is smiling widely. How can you not love this girl? Everyone is looking at Rachel and Finn and also smiling and hooting and hollering. He is shaking his head back and forth in an unbelievable manner. Rachel continues...
Oooh, oooh I thought you'd still be mine
When I kissed you goodbye uh-oh uh-oh
Oooh, oooh, and you might be with her
But I still had you first uh-oh uh-oh
As she continues toward the end of the song, Finn slowly makes his way closer to the stage. Rachel has her eyes locked on his as she sings and by the time he gets to the stage, her song is over. She beams her gorgeous smile to everyone and makes a curtsey when everyone is applauding, including Finn. He reaches out his hand to take hers and leads her off the stage while someone else is now taking their turn at the microphone.
He pulls her off into a quiet corner and gently pushes her against the wall. He gets a really serious look on his face as he places both of his hands on the wall next to her head. He looks a little pissed now and Rachel is thinking the song choice was a bad idea. He leans his body forward so that their bodies are touching lightly from his chest all the way to his thighs.
"So, you think I had no game and you needed to upgrade?" he asks her seriously. They lock eyes for a long moment and Rachel bites her lip. She needs to tells him that that part of the song didn't apply, but suddenly his face cracks and he lets out a big laugh!
"That's just the song silly, and I think I downgraded." Rachel laughs with him.
She looks away from his eyes to his lips as he is smiling, and says, "The rest of the song is true, though."
He locks her eyes on her lips too, and her heartbeat is beating so fast she is getting dizzy. He leans close to her ear and says, "You thought I'd be crying?" She can feel his heart through his sweater and it is hammering away as well. She turns her head so that she can look him in the eyes and says, "Yes!" She bites her lip and leans over and kisses him lightly on the lips. He barely responds and she does it again and lightly swipes the tip of her tongue across his bottom lip. He opens his lips and mouth immediately and they kiss against the wall for a few moments lost in the feel of their mouths and the tingling sensations their lips create.
"Hmm, Hmm! Do I need to chase behind you guys to keep you apart?" Kurt says halfheartedly.
Finn lifts his head an inch away from Rachel's lips, and while still looking at her tells Kurt, "Go away, Kurt!"
"Fine! By the way, I told you so, Rachel Berry!" Kurt scoffs as he walks away.
Finn continues looking at her and says, "Now where were we?" Rachel looks at his lips and says, "You should be crying!" Finn leans against her and puts a hard kiss on her lips, lifts up a little and says, "Booo," leans and kisses her again, lifts up again and says, "hooo." They begin kissing deeply again for a few moments. Rachel can feel Finn's hardness against her belly and stops kissing him. She grabs his hand and starts walking him toward the stairs. He follows her silently.
Upstairs as they pass the few remaining grown ups, they greet some of the people who speak to them. Rachel and Finn walk up one more flight of stairs and walk down the hallway to her bedroom. As they walk in she turns and locks the door, and leans against it. She puts her hands on his chest, bunches his sweater into her fists and brings him against her to crush her lips with his. They kiss together for a long time, with the only noises in their room being their frantic breathing. Finn slides his hands over her hips and to her ass and lifts her so she locks her legs around his waist. They lean against the door for a while longer and he moves his lips from her mouth to her neck and she thrills at the familiar goosebumps that spread across her body.
Finn turns them and walks her toward the bed and puts down one hand on the mattress as he leans over to break their fall onto the mattress. She flips them over and she is now straddling him and is pushing his sweater up his body and over his head and finally his freeing it from his arms. She looks at him in the eyes and then looks at the pulse point on his neck that is moving frantically. The way his body reacts to her is addicting. She can't get enough. She moves forward and places her lips on his neck at the pulse point and slowly makes her way to his nipple and lightly kisses and bites it. He moves beneath her and she smiles. He grabs her shoulders and pushes her upper body away from his chest so he can get to the baby blue silk shirt she is wearing. He slowly unbuttons each button running his fingertips over the skin as he goes. He looks at her chest clad in only a baby blue lace bra and thinks of how beautiful she looks. He pushes the shirt off her shoulders and takes it off. He opens the clasp of the bra at her back and she takes it off and throws it next to him on the bed. He flips them one more time and gets on his knees to slowly remove her black boots. She has thigh high black stockings on and he thinks they are the sexiest thing he has seen, so he leaves them on. He slides his hands on her thighs and under her skirt and removes the lacy panties which are pale blue as well. He leans back up again and is settled between her legs and kisses her long and hard, his tongue sweeping around hers and across her teeth. He moves to kiss her earlobe and whispers, "Is it an accident that you are wearing my favorite color on your undies?" She kisses his neck near his ear and says, "No." She flips him onto his back and stretches out on her side next to him. She takes his lips with hers again and slowly lets her right hand drift from his collarbone, over his sternum, down past his bellybutton and under the waist of his jeans to cup him and grasp his length. He buries his hands into her hair and she takes her hand out and slowly undoes his belt with one hand while the other is buries into his hair.
"Rachel," he sighs her name and involuntarily moves his hips up toward her hand that is slowly unzipping his jeans. She sits on her knees next to his hips and uses both hands to push down his jeans and boxes at the same time down to mid thigh. She grasps him with her hand and leans up to kiss him again, long and deep kisses that take her breath away. She breaks away gasping for air and starts stroking him slowly with her hands keeping her eyes on him. Neither one can look away, as if they are mesmerized by each other's eyes. She bends over and begins kissing his body following the same path her hand did earlier: neck, sternum, bellybutton. She moves to his hip and places and bite and small lick at his hipbone. While still slowly stroking his length, she places a soft kiss on the side of it; she can hear him breathing harder in anticipation. The blood swooshes in his ears, and he feels like he is going to explode. She bends over him and takes him in her mouth. She pushes down until she has all of him in her mouth and she starts moving up and down on him, stroking with her lips and tongue. He has his hands buried in her hair and bites his lower lip lightly; needs more of her. While she is taking care of him, he suddenly raises up a bit to grab her by the waist, pushes her skirt up to her waist, and brings her crotch to his face, so they are in a 69 position in the bed. He can vaguely hear the party downstairs, but he is beyond caring. He grabs her hips with his hand and plunges his face between her legs. He rubs his scruff on the sensitive skin inside of her thighs firmly and she moans. He lightly rubs his scruffy chin in between her folds and feels her wetness on him. He can tell she likes it because she jerks her body and he smiles. He licks her folds with his tongue and she pushes herself harder on his face. She moans with him in her mouth and they are both busy driving each other crazy. She is sucking his hardness; he is licking her until she can't stand it anymore. Afraid she'll bite him, she releases him from her mouth and starts moaning and saying, "Aahhh, yes, there!" Finn continues to lick her sensitive nub and flick it with his tongue but periodically stops and plunges his tongue inside her. He goes back to flicking her with his tongue and continues like that for a few seconds until he hears Rachel gasp and let out a loud groan and her hips are jerking back and forth against his mouth. She is breathing hard and, as she comes down from her ecstasy, she takes him in her mouth again. She starts sucking his hardness like a madwoman and has him screaming her name as he bucks his hips up a few times and grunts loudly as he comes in her mouth. She swallows every bit and still sucks on him for a few seconds longer and he is super sensitive now and she still won't let up.
"Ok, stop." He says while he is trying to get his breathing under control. Rachel moves her body so she is stretched out half on top of him, half on his left side, face to face again and places her head on his chest. She can hear the rhythmic beat of his heart as it gradually returns to a regular rhythm. They stay like that for a long time with Finn running the tips of his left hand slowly from her shoulder down to her lower back and back up again. He repeats his absently, deep in thought.
"What are you thinking?" Rachel asks him while tracing circles with her finger around the right side of his chest.
"I'm thinking we should get back downstairs before people become suspicious," he says with a sigh.
"Is that all?" she lifts up on her forearms to look into his eyes.
"No, I am thinking of other things, too," he looks at her in the eyes.
"Like, how you are going to tell her about this?" She takes in his surprised look and gives a little sad smile. "She gave me a little stern talking to in the bathroom yesterday, so I know you have 'full disclosure' with her."
"What? What did she tell you?" he looks concerned and a little pissed.
"Nothing horrible. Just that I need to keep my hands off, you need space, she is not just a booty call to you, blah, blah, blah. I'll be honest, it was basically a little verbal cat fight, but I think I did ok with my retorts. I held my own, even though she is older and more sophisticated." Rachel turns her head with a smile on her face. "She doesn't scare me."
"I'm sorry. I am not happy she did this. I don't really understand it. I thought she was really casual about all this. I guess we'll have to have a talk." He presses his lips together and raises his eyebrows in an "oh well" expression.
"Ok, let's get cleaned up and go downstairs." Rachel says with a smile. He nods with a small smile and Pulls his boxers and pants up and starts zipping and buckling. As he stands to get his sweater, Rachel grabs his wrist and looks deeply into his eyes. She pulls him to sit on the side of the bed next to her and tells him. "We will be ok, you know, you and I. I know it." He looks at her and nods. She stands up in front of him in between his legs and slowly takes the sweater from his hands. She slowly begins pulling it over his head while he puts his arms through his sleeves. He begins laughing and says, "Women usually only undress the men, they don't dress them again after...you know."
"I only like to dress you, no one else." Rachel says while he reaches behind him for her bra and helps her into it. She turns her back to him and he places a kiss to the middle of her back as he clasps her bra. He reaches the floor and gets her shirt and holds it up for her inspection. "Is this too wrinkled for you?" he asks her. She looks as him and shakes her head "no." He holds it against her back ad she places her arms through the sleeves and turns around in front of him while he begins buttoning the shirt. When he is finished, she tucks in the edges into her black skirt. He reaches underneath the skirt and smooths out the fabric so it doesn't bunch as she has shown him a million times before, and smooths down her skirt. He reaches to the floor one more time and gets her boots and puts them on for her zipping them up. They go to the bathroom and wash off the smell of each other off and he sits on the toilet seat watching her fix her make-up.
They go downstairs and receive a few knowing smiles from a few people, and when the party is over, they eventually say goodnight.
As he is driving home, Finn pulls off the side of the road and sends her a text.
I really liked your thigh high socks...they are really hot! I think I'm going to dream about them tonight.
He received a reply almost immediately.
Thank you, I'll have to keep that in mind. And they are called stockings. :)
Also, I like your thigh ticklers...I think I'm going to dream about it tonight!
Finn is puzzled...did he miss something?
Thigh ticklers?
He hears the phone buzzing with her response...
Your scruff...I love it!
Finn puts his phone away and drives toward his house with a really big smile on his face.