I shiver, the cold biting me it is freezing in my lab even though, month six, it is August and The World That Never Was, is suffering a massive heat wave. I sit in my lab and think, I go over the letter I had just received.

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Dear Vexen

It Has come to my attention that you are soon to be a father in December. I also know that the women carrying your child has a husband and is very angry with you on account of your machine being a bit imperfect and both the boy and the girl can be in extreme value to me. However the girl is all I care about. I have a proposition for you. Let me kidnap her the day she is born. I will raise her to be a fighter, strong and aggressive and in return I will allow you to have every afternoon with her, from 12 pm, until 5 pm to do whatever you wish with her. Of cores once she is of the age seventeen (on her date of birth naturally ) She will join the organization and be second only to Xemnas, and once he is inevitably is defected by unknown threat, she shall take over. No one would ever look down upon her, she shall be notorious, the power she shall wield. I want to ensure her safety her parents would kill her the moment she is born…. They will claim it'll be for her own good to sooth their conscious They wouldn't even tell her brother of her life. Imagine her potential Vexen! With her, no matter whom stands in our way we shall be undefeatable! Veven, I will only give you four days. That is more then generous and let me make myself clear.

If you do not accept my offer, first change I will kill your beloved and her husband. I will ensure that she will be in the organization only deface she will not be second in command she wont even have a number. I will make sure her life wont matter .

Vexen this is truly the best option for your child.

Ignore me, and Your and your daughter will regret it.

Vexen…no matter what….she….will…..be evil…..make her powerful as well.

This is your only warning

~ Xehanort

Chills dance on my spine I've really screwed things up. I brush my hair with my hands and look outside " I need help" I say

"What better help then the big man upstairs?" Xaldin says suddenly behind me

" who?!" I blink

" Yen Sid, he's as close as it gets"

" you don't honestly think he'll talk to me right?" I almost laugh

" I don't see why not, your not threatening him or the light, right"

" that's true" I say " but I'd hate to drop in unexpectedly "

Xaldin laughs at me " you can't do that, not to him"

I sigh and shake my head standing. Ripping the letter then burning it, I practically have memorized it by now.

"Take all the time you need" Xemnas says. Why do they always bother me here?! Do I need a lock?! I mean it isn't polite to just drop into my lab like this! I am paying him rent! It is ok if Xaldin does it, he is my friend, but Xemnas? Why in the world would I invite him in my special little square where I can get away from it all?!

I nod opening a portal to outside his Tower. Then I start the small hike up to the main part of the Tower, which is wide open. I walk in

I cough ackwordly " Hello, I'm-" but I am cut off

" ahhh Vexen, I have been expecting you for some time" he says stroking his long beard

"I need some help" I say

" with what?" he asked, he is almost smirking, or at lest I think he is because he knows what I need help with, I have never even seen the guy and he knows who I am, and when I was coming.

" A choice I need knowledge "

" on what" he asked am I imagining the arrogant tone in his voice or is it real?!

" my daughter " my voice trembles

He smiles warmly " ahhh yes Mervil what is it that you seek to know?"

I lick my lips weakly, my ice princess has a name now" Anything you'll tell me really"

He smiled clikcing his fingers and a chair is next to me " have a seat. " he says, and I sit.

I take a deep breath " first of all, is she going to be born safely, she isn't defected?"

Yen Sid sighes " she will be gravely ill but will be healed. "

" does Emily and Clarkson end up " I trail off the reality of it all too much to bare.

"killing her? No" he smiles " they will love and care for her just as any parent should" he nods.

" And the darkness" I whisper the idea of the darkness rolling in her heart forever, makes me sick.

" she will have a synthetic light added to her, she will fight, but she will be sought after, that is…..all I know" he sighed

"synthetic light….that's good right?" I ask

Yen Sid sighed "not necessarily"

" why" I ask, shakily, if it isn't good, then what is it? Will it hurt her? " What have I done?! What have I put my little ice princess through?! All the agony she will be put through I know already will be awful. Besides all that, she never will have a choice really in the end…..I know the darkness will be too much for her.

"For one, it is easier broken, we all have synthetic light, it is the light we absorb from those who bring the most light into our hearts, it doesn't actually make our hearts full of more light, it makes the light we do have stronger. So what she will have will be extremely weak. "

" so she can still fight the darkness!" I cut him off hope returning.

" yes" he said very slowly " However, should the strongest light her life either fades or betrays her, or the person simply dies….as will the light and it will be hard for to trust again, thus harder for he to grow closer, and harder for the light to come in. "

"that's fine, as long as she has a chance" I grin wildly now I know I wont let her join the orgy. In all my power, she will not!

" Stay here" Yen sid sighed getting up, then coming back with a picture frame with a young boy, and Yen sid, the two are smiling locked in a tight embrace the boy is about six or seven, blond hair, and Yen Sid's eye's I stare at it, try to understand, why did he show me this? Was this his son?

" I-I apologize I do not understand" I say looking at him, then they boy.

" That is Howl, my nephew, my only living relative, my sister, and her husband-who he and I were already close- and their four other children- Howl, he is the youngest, so he was with me that night- see they were out in the rain, and were killed by a giant, heartless, Howl was then given into my care" he smiled warmly "He is ten now" he added very sadly

" Where is he?" I ask almost afraid somehow this will come back to my little ice princess somehow.

" His heart is half light, and half dark" he said holding two hands up " his mother, bless her heart, and soul, wherever she may be, did not have faith that the light would persevere. She had me create a world, just for him, fake people, and friends, and anything you could want, only I can access the portal to and from there, I call it Porthaven, sadly the darkness won for a season and he is a threat to himself, there he is working out the darkness. I will bring him home, I will destroy it, when the time is right" he smiled faintly

"where are you going with this?" I ask softly afraid, a gut churning fear that he will lock my little ice princess up, forever, that she will be gone away from my reach for all eternity.

" I am saying that if the syntetic light goes out, forever I will have no choice but to lock her in Porthaven." he said, sadly, sadly, why is he sad over this?! She is just another person, most likely will cause him stress. Why does she matter in the minutest

" That is fair" I agree, then pause " but what do you care?" I ask looking into his eyes, his sad, big eyes, then around his big lonely tower and bite my lip. Looking into his eyes.

" If she succeeds, if her how life she doesn't succumb, and let the synthetic light shine" his voice is reverent, almost full of wonder, " can you imagine?" he turns his chair around and looks out his window " can you imagine with me Vexen, the example?"

I feel my face flush and I look down sadly ' but if she fails, she condemns the worlds' I think to myself.

Yen sid still looks out side " Hope, Vexen, that is what she will embody to me - not darkness, though that is literal, but hope. Hope that light will rise up, hope that darkness does not control us, hope that my Howl will be able to return to me once more."

I nod " But still!" I object

He gives me a sharp look " Have faith in your own child Vexen" he said " otherwise how will she have faith in herself?"

" ok" I put my hands up defensively " ok ok I will!" then look away " and Isa, I mean my son"

Yen sid sighs " I cannot see" he apologizes

I look away opening a portal back to my lab " thank you again" I say softly he nods and I go back. Emily is waiting for me.