Title: The Forgotten -- Memories and Love

Chapter 4: Sayonara, Wolfram

Disclaimer: For the fourth time, I had to say, I do not own Kyou Kara Maou.

THANKS TO HOTTEE39 for being my beta reader.

Responses to reviewers:

Akane and Ranma: thanks for always being the first to read my fanfic.

alice22: yupe… Wolf is going to be really sad in the following chapters.

MostlyLovely: Hehe. I hope your heart will still be in one piece after u read this chapter. ) although for me… my heart did break when writing this too. (

Anon: Cheri didn't make a wish… It's just the way the story go. Without that perfume, I think Yuuri might not get out from the dinner to find Wolfram.

naruko-sama: ahahaha. XD Now, I'm going to pity Wolfram for being slap so many times. XD

XOiHeartMiloOX: speechless XD anyway, thanks for ur review. )

Sayo, dynamite: Thanks for ur review. But I can't tell you anything, after all, I can't give any spoiler now, right? wink

roseand: Wolfram will not disappear, you will find out why.

Midosaki: really? D yeah, there are many ways, but I chose that. XD anyway, tell me what's ur way of avoiding. I'm interested to knw.

Maggie: it is sad…

rueLf94: waaaaaa. XD so cute. thanks for the cookies. I prefer cookies than sweets. Wakakaka. XD

hottee39: ops. Yuuri!! RUN! XD haha. No joking. ur review make me laugh. thanks.

intense08, xshana, Pokute: thank you.

machi: so, here's the next chapter. D

Mizuki hikari: yeah… why did Yuuri say that… didn't you know wolf really love you? (

mihko sawatari28: yupe, both of them travelled back.

Ikakamda: hmm…yeah. You're right. If only Yuuri will slap him because he really did love Wolf… D

aian, Mister-Wombat, ruegene : Thanks.

NinaSakura: hmm.. it will be a happy ending. after all, i don't want yuuram fans kill me. XD and it breaks my heart too if i separate them.

Now, let's enter chapter four, "Sayonara, Wolfram"…

"Wolfram… I'm sorry. If this is really the past, I will not slap you again."

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Yuuri's words slowly sank into Wolfram's mind and kept repeating itself like an ongoing mantra. It seemed like some other's voice rather than his ex-fiancé. He subconsciously tried to reject these words.

These words were not meant for him. Surely, it was not.

Ever since the blonde prince was transferred back here, he had been prepared for Yuuri to say these kinds of words to him. He had pictured every possible circumstances of what Yuuri would say to him.

Yet...

Yet, he never expected that to actually hear those words spilling from the double black's lips would be this painful. It was as if Yuuri had just stabbed his heart. He tried to control himself from bursting into tears.

This was the second time Yuuri had hurt him, and he had a feeling that this might be the last time as well. So it would not hurt him to behave like a kid for the first time and last time in front of the king, would it? Wolfram could no longer hold in the salty liquid. His vision suddenly blurred.

"What did you say again?" The prince croaked out, his voice breaking. In a desperate attempt, Wolfram tried to grasp onto his last bit of hope that he had misheard Yuuri.

Yuuri heaved a deep breath when he noticed presence of tears trailing down on Wolfram's fair cheek. How could he hurt Wolfram like that? How on earth could he say those words for a second time? Nevertheless, he had to say it. He must say it.

"I'm not going to propose to you" Yuuri repeated, this time barely audible. It was too much for Wolfram. Those words were equivalent to "I don't love you". It hurt his heart even more when he realized that he had lost Yuuri completely this time.

Tears would not listen to his desires. They formed a well in the corner of his eyes, until they overflowed. He tried to hold them in but it was no use. They rolled down uncontrollably.

Yuuri immediately cast his gaze aside when he saw more tears falling from his ex-fiancé's emerald eyes. He could not bear to look at Wolfram's face.

"Why don't you dare to look at me?" Wolfram said in between sobs. Yuuri did not answer. He could not answer. He was afraid that if he turned to look at Wolfram, he would change his mind.

"YUURI! Look at me!" Anger surpassed Wolfram at that moment. The waterworks still relented to stop. He tried his hardest to fight against the strange uncomfortable lump in his throat. It took all his efforts only to try to manage himself not to sob like a girl in front of Yuuri.

Yuuri turned away once again, his back now facing the sobbing prince. Wolfram felt insulted in that instant. Anger flared up for second time in the past twenty-four hours. He did not care anymore whether if Yuuri was his King or not.

"YUURI!!" Wolfram roared, and the fire ball formed in his hand. He raised his hand shakily above his head, aiming directly at his demon king. Yuuri, upon hearing his name, turned immediately just in time to find that ball forming in Wolfram's hand.

"Wolfram! Calm down!" Yuuri yelled when he saw that the large fireball ready for launch hovering in the palm of his hand. Wolfram did not seem to hear him. He was too absorbed in his own mixed feelings of anger, sadness and shock. He was shut in his inner world which was full of darkness. It was as if his world would never become bright again. On the outside, he felt as if his whole body was on fire.

'If only… there's water to put out my fire… If only… there's a sun to light up the darkness in my heart now…' thought Wolfram in his heart. His eyes turned blank.

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"WOLFRAM!" Yuuri shouted again, louder this time. Wolfram blinked and the emerald in his eyes returned. The fire on his hand flickered and disappeared, filing the room with darkness again, as well as his own heart.

"Get out. Leave me alone." Wolfram whispered and looked onto the ground. He saw few more drops of tears dropping onto the ground.

"Wolfram…" Yuuri could not find anything to say to comfort Wolfram.

"Get out of this room now. Get out or I'll kill you!" Wolfram repeated. His whole body was trembling. He still had his pride. He did not want to crush this last piece of pride in front of Yuuri. Deep inside Wolfram's heart, he had the slightest hope that Yuuri would insist to stay, or that Yuuri would smile at him, laughing it off by saying that it was just a joke. Or at least, he hoped that this was just a dream, a dream in which he would wake up and still be engaged to Yuuri.

Anything! He wanted anything but this 'dream'.

Yuuri took one last glance at the blonde, crouching down only to pull his knees closer up to his head and embrace them close as if to shield his heart from the hurt. Yuuri felt like his insides tightened, as if someone had just twisted them. He felt as if he was looking at a girl who had gotten her heart broken. Shaking his head from such thoughts, he turned and walked out of the room as silently as possible.

"He's gone… he's gone, Wolfram…" Wolfram said to himself. He could not believe what Yuuri had done. He really walked out on him. He really…

Tears burst out before Wolfram realized it. He was thrown even deeper into that hole of darkness and despair. The thing he had been persistently fighting against all this time was threatening to overpower him. He felt the burning lump growing in his throat. His heart was throbbing with immense pain. The pain seemed to double the moment Yuuri left the boundaries of the room. "He's gone… He's gone…Yuuri… don't leave me here…please don't leave me alone…" Wolfram kept repeating the words as he continued to sob, embracing his knees tighter.

Outside the door, Yuuri felt his knees buckle. He could no longer support his own weight. He let himself slide against the wall and let out the deepest breathe he had been holding. He sighed again and allowed himself the disappointing gift to listen to the chokes and sobs inside his bedroom. It hurt him so much too when he saw Wolfram like that. 'If only you were a girl, not a boy, I might have accepted you.' Yuuri thought.

'Does being a boy or girl really that important to you?'

Yuuri nodded. 'Yeah, I don't know why, but I can't accept the thoughts of gay. I mean, it's not that I felt dislike for Wolfram. He's cute. I like him and I really do… but I can't just accept his love.' Another voice inside his heart answered.

'But you do feel something for him, right?' The first voice said again, but weaker.

'I did… But I'm not sure if you call that love or not. If it wasn't, won't it hurt Wolfram even more?' This voice is stronger, and firmer, yet sadder.

At this point onwards, Yuuri could not hear the first voice anymore. It had disappeared from his inner heart. He would continue to follow the second voice, disregarding the heart wrenching sobs which had became louder and louder behind the thick doors. He thought he heard his name in between those sobs.

He shook his head and closed his eyes.

'I had made the decision. I want to go back now.' Yuuri said inside his mind and waited for an answer from the person who sent him there. After few moments of silence, he heard him.

'Very well then.' Yuuri thought he heard the disappointment painted all over those words.

'Before that, could you let me know who you are?'

'Yes, you may.'

Yuuri found the darkness inside his mind clearing away slowly. His heart beat faster when he saw a figure slowly appearing from behind. The figure had jet-black hair and eyes as black as the night sky. Yuuri thought he was looking into a mirror but then he noticed that there was no mirror there in the first place. Yuuri gaped at the person in front of him. It was an exact copy of Yuuri himself!

'Who are you..?'

'As you can see, I'm you, to be precise, the future you.'

'Then, what did you do, how…?'

'You made the wish. I just granted it.'

'But, why did you send Wolfram over too? Things would be better if he's…' Yuuri was cut off.

'When he was sent back, he will not remember any of these things. Not tonight, not even the first memories that the both of you had.' There was a strained silence as Yuuri tried to observe himself. The future him looked depressed. Yuuri intended to ask about what would happen to him and Wolfram in the future, but he gave up.

'Send me back now…'

Future Yuuri nodded and waved his hand. The darkness surrounded him again.

"Yuuri… Don't leave me here…please don't leave me alone…" It was Wolfram's voice. Yuuri winced, it was painful to hear those words. He had a sudden urge to go back into the room to embrace him and hold him safe in his arms. But... there was no turning back now.

"Sayonara, Wolfram…" Yuuri said as he let himself be engulfed by the awaiting darkness. His ex-fiancé' pleads haunted his mind as he slowly lost consciousness.

In the end, Yuuri did not slap Wolfram. Now that there is no engagement between them, what will happen in the future? Next chapter, "Proposal", ekkk!! Who's proposing? And to who?? Check them out, in chapter 5.

Thanks for reading.