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Previously on JTMD;

"So, you wanted to talk?" I asked simply.

"Yes, we need to talk…" What did he mean by that? Need to, please please don't say you are leaving me AGAIN. Please stay.

BPOV

"I love you." The words slipped out, I almost died from embarrassment. I was so scared he would leave. I just told him I loved him. His eyebrow burrowed in confusion and then he looked as if he would cry.

"No…" He whispered.

"What do mean no?" I asked, I knew he would say, "No, I don't love you".

"No, you don't love me Bella. You can't. You have your human boyfriend, and I am a monster. How on Earth could you love me?!?!" He almost yelled. I didn't flinch though, I stood still and looked him in the eyes.

"Because I always have Edward! You aren't a monster. You don't see yourself very clearly. You are perfect in every way." I said as I stared out the window at the park across the street.

"Come for a walk with me?" I flinched, last time he said that he left me alone in the forest. Then, I looked at Edward he was smiling. Smiling at me. So I looked at him and just smiled back, nodding. I grabbed my jacket, my purse and my cup of hot chocolate.

When we had crossed the street, I took Edward's hand in mine and he wrapped his hand around mine. This moment was absolute bliss.

"So you love me?" He questioned. I looked up at his face and stared deep into his eyes.

"Absolutely. I know that you won't love me back, but I love you, always. You have no idea how much I enjoy your presence and your smile. It will hurt when you leave, but I just can't stop loving you, no matter how hard I try."

"What about that John Tucker guy?"

"I don't love him, it's like a payback kind of thing. He cheated on Carrie, Heather, and Beth. All three of them with each other. I am starting to think every guy is a heartbreaker." Edward flinched at that comment. I looked back at the trees and pulled Edward over to a bench. I sat down and he sat right next to me, still holding my hand, our bodies side by side. Perfect, absolute bliss that was what this was. I could pretend he loved me. Even if it was just for a second or two.

"I love you, too. I know I said I didn't that day I left. But I want to clarify that. Tell you how I really feel, how I have always felt. When Jasper tried to attack you, I realized that you couldn't be exposed to us vampires. The end result would have to be death by an attack or transformation into one of us. So, I left. I knew you wouldn't move on unless you felt that I had moved on also. I claimed I didn't want you. Bella, I can't begin to tell you how much I love you, how much I want you." He took a deep breath. "You are too good for me, but I need you Bella, I need you more than you need oxygen."

"You are like my own personal brand of oxygen, and I am your own personal brand of heroin." I laughed a little, then I leaned my head on Edward's chest. Tears were flowing down my face. Edward loved me. I loved him. "Are you staying then?" I questioned. I was deathly scared he wouldn't.

"Yes, always. Until you order me away, I will stay with you." I lifted up my head and slowly, leaned my head in to kiss him. He kissed me back; I melted at his touch. My hands encircled around his neck, his arms locked around my waist. I pulled back for air, gasping I said, "Wanna go for a motorcycle ride?" His eyes went wide.

"Whatever happened to not being stupid and reckless?" He raised his eyebrows up.

"Whatever happened to it being like you never existed?" He smiled. I ran to my Ducati and grabbed my helmet. Then hopped on the front. Edward slipped on behind me and wrapped his arms around my waist. As I pulled away from the city, going towards the lake that John took me to. Edward rested his head on my shoulder.

"Don't distract me, I am driving, and I am a fragile human. The bike is fragile too." I said when he started kissing my neck. I slid gracefully into a parking spot but noticed a red Ducati a couple parking spots down from me. Oh, no! I heard voices approach. I sped the bike out of the parking lot before John could see me with Edward. I pulled over on the side of the road.

"What was all that about?" He questioned me; he pulled me off the bike and held me to his chest, breathing in the scent from my hair.

"John Tucker was there." I said simply, wasn't it obvious he was there.

"So?" Edward asked, did he not understand what I just said.

"So if he saw me with you, then it would ruin the plan and Carrie, Beth, and Heather would kill me!" I stated, I didn't want to hurt them; they know how I felt. He pulled away.

"I understand. I'm not as important as some silly little game. Who's the heartbreaker now?" His eyes were cold, like that day in the forest. Frozen gold instead of the liquid color they were a couple minutes ago.

"Edward, that's not what I meant. You are important; I love you. I am trying to help out my friends. I know how they feel; like the one person that you love with your whole heart doesn't love you back. That you aren't good enough for them. You feel alone, and you just want to die because it hurts to much that they aren't there, that they don't care." I practically screamed as he walked away.

"Sounds exactly how I feel right now. Call me when I fit into your schedule." He ran. I backed up against a tree and sobbed uncontrollably for an hour. Finally I rode back to campus. I parked my bike and walked up the stairs. I unlocked the door of the dorm and noticed that Carrie, Beth, and Heather were all there.

"Oh my gosh, what happened?" Heather asked when she saw me, I probably looked like hell.

"Let's just say Edward thinks that he isn't important to me. John Tucker is a heart-breaker, he broke your hearts like Edward broke mine. So, everything was perfect until John almost saw Edward and I together. Now Edward hates me, and life is just horrible again. Stupid shiny, Volvo owner. Stupid John Tucker." I stated in frustration. Why must life be so complicated.

"Shiny, Volvo owner?" Beth asked, questioning my sanity.

"Edward has a shiny Volvo. I don't really want to talk about it though. I need sleep so I can be ready for the party tomorrow night." I grabbed my pj's and walked into the bathroom to change.

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I laid down in bed and fell asleep an hour later. Heather was already asleep and the lights were off. I heard Edward's voice say, "Why can't you just love me back? Why does it have to be so hard for us to be happy together and you to be safe?" He was here.

"I love you." I whispered back. I couldn't open my eyes.

"You said so, but I just-I wish we just be together." He sighed, I could picture him pinching the bridge of his nose, almost in tears. I wanted to cry. I hurt my Edward.

"Me too." I whispered, trying to fight the waves of sleep drowning me. I felt tears down my face though, and cold, hard hands wiped them off.

I wasn't sure if I was asleep or not but the next thing I knew, my thoughts stopped. The dream either ended or I fell asleep. I felt cold, hard lips kiss my forehead.

The rest of the night was spent dreamlessly. Finally, I had no nightmares to face in the morning.

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