Chapter 4

"Emma, I think we need to talk" Snow said with enough power to make Emma feel like a child that was about to get grounded.

As Emma's mind started to think of possibilities on how to make a run for it, but Snow's arms kept her frozen in place.

"Hook, will you give us a minute? Please" Snow said and as Hook turned to Emma, to ask her if she wanted him to leave Snow couldn't help but flinch, as if her daughter needed to be protected from her.

The gesture took Emma by surprise and she simply managed to nod. And quickly turned towards Snow "sure, what about" she said trying to play it cool.

"Oh, I thought it would be harder than that" Snow mumbled to herself a little surprised, because she could have sworn that the last thing her daughter would want to do was talk.

"What did you say" Emma asked her a little offended.

"Nothing, I just thought" she made a pause "by the way you ran out of the room, that it would be harder to make you talk to me, but I am glad you proved me wrong" Snow smiled.

Emma shifted uncomfortably on the floor and pulled away from Snows touch "so what's so important that you came all the way here, in the middle of the night to talk about?" she asked a little harshly even though she couldn't help but feel offended by Snows comment. She knew she was a hard nut to crack, but the last time they tried to talk about something important, it was Snow that couldn't wait to run out the room, and look were that got her; to lose Henry and Neal.

"Well…" Snow stopped not knowing where to start "you ran from the room…" she stuttered "and I got worried. I mean l know that you're used to taking care of yourself, and I know that I am sort of the blame for that... But Emma you had a nightmare, and you were sweating and I got scared" she said with a tender smile "I don't know, when I have a bad dream, I like to talk about it" she shrugged "so… tell me what was you dream about?" she finished and managed to give her daughter a reassuring smile.

If Emma wasn't completely frighten when Mary Margaret asked if they could talk, that sentence did it, she shifted uncomfortably on her place as she thought of what to tell the woman sitting across from her. She could just tell her what the dream was about, without releasing all of the anger she felt towards her. But that would mean, trusting her again with something personal, and that was something she had no plans on doing any time soon. So she took the easy way out "I don't want to talk about it, it was just a stupid dream" she said and attempted to get up. But Snows reflexes were good and she managed to push her down again, which only made Emma angrier.

"Mary Margaret" she screamed "let me go" she said and took her mother's hands way from her body.

Snow couldn't help but shake at her daughters tone, it was almost as if she heard hatred in her voice and she was so confused as to why her daughter would feel that way.

"Emma, honey what's wrong, did I do something to deserve that kind of attitude from you?" she said with such a motherly tone that made Emma wonder whether she took some sort of How to be a mother course in the past week.

A few seconds passed until Emma finally managed to speak "no, not that I can think of" she said with a sarcastic smile "can I go now?" she asked and attempted to get up, but again Snow pulled her down.

"Emma, I don't know if you remember, but I have been living with you for the past nine months" she started "and whether you like to admitted to yourself or not, I would like to say that I know you pretty well by now. You might not be an open book for some people, but for me you are" she gently graved her hand and finished "so tell me what's wrong".

Emma didn't know if it was the, I know you better than anyone fraise or the tone on which she said it. But something inside her cracked, and she couldn't contain the anger any longer.

"You really think you know me?" she asked harshly and let out a sarcastic laugh "so tell me something Mary Margaret, when I told you that Tamara was evil, why did you call me a jealous ex, why did you tell me that my super power hadn't work well in the past weeks, why when I asked for your help on finding the truth about Tamara did you turn around and leave" she knew that she was screaming by now, but once she got started she couldn't stop "you claim that you love me, that you'll never leave me alone. You say that we are a family and that family sticks together. That no matter what happens I'll always have you and David. But tell me Mary Margaret, why do I feel so alone" she asked and she couldn't control the sobs that escaped her mouth "why do I feel like… like I've placed my trust in the wrong people" she pause to catch her breath

"Before I met you, I learned to handle things on my own. To take control of my life, and make my own decisions without relying on anyone or anything. And to tell you the truth that worked out pretty well for eleven years. I probably never gave or received any kind of love, but at least I controlled my life" she said while pointing a finger towards her face "first Henry came back to my life, and without warning walked his way right into my walls. Then you came along, well not you Mary Margaret, and I have to admit that the way you needed me and made me feel needed was something I really enjoyed having in my life" she said while managing a smile.

"But then this stupid curse broke and you turned out to be my long lost mother" she couldn't help but feel ashamed of the way she was making her mother cry, but she couldn't stop now, it was too late "and everything in my life just crumbled, at first I was angry at you for taking my best friend away from me, because even though you look the same, you are nothing alike" she made a pause to catch her breath and continued "but then that anger slowly turned into love, I guess it was the time we spent in my room on the Enchanted Forest that did the trick" she smiled at the memory "I mean after being lonely for so long, thinking that I was hated and abandoned by my parents, I saw that beautiful place which you built for me and that made me feel so loved" she smiled again.

"But then we got back, and everything with Neal, Hook and Henry hating me, was supposed to drive me crazy, but somehow I was ok with it, because deep down I knew I wasn't alone any more, I knew I had you" she didn't miss Mary Margaret's smile at that sentence and she couldn't shake the guilt of what was about to come out of her mouth, but it need to be said.

"Then the Cora thing happened" Snow flinched at the sound of that name "and everything just, somehow changed" she said with a sad smile "and I am not saying that because of what you did to her, I am saying that something changed inside of you, it was like you weren't you anymore. You were completely lost, and I was afraid… afraid of being alone once again" she didn't miss the small cry that escaped Snows lips as she said that sentence, but she shrugged it off and continued.

"So when Tamara came into town, I knew that something was wrong with the woman the moment I saw her for the first time" she said with nothing but hatred at the mention of that name "but I shrugged it off, thinking like you said that it was probably because she was with Neal, because Neal was giving her what he never gave me, a chance at a family" she said a tear escaped her eyes "but then my suspicion grew stronger when she came to Story Brooke, when I saw her holding that paper with all the names and the fairytale identities of everyone in town, the minute she told me that I could trust her Mary Margaret, I just knew that I couldn't. I mean at that moment my super power told me that she was lying to my face" thinking of that moment made her anger get the best of her as she hardly hit the floor with her hands.

Snow didn't know what to say, she came here in the hope to make Emma talk, but she didn't think that her daughter will tell her all of that. So she just watched as her daughter struggled to continue.

"You know, I had a battle with my head for hours, on whether to tell you my suspicions on Tamara" she said as another tear threatened to come out "I mean my mind would tell me that you would just call me a jalousie ex, that you would tell me that it was because of my feelings towards Neal" she paused "but then my heart, my heart Mary Margaret was screaming at me to give you a chance, that maybe, just maybe, you would go along with me and help me check her out. That you might even think of it as the adventures we never got to have" she said with a sad smile.

"But I guess my heart was wrong once again" she shrugged "I SHOUDENT HAVE TRUSTED YOU" she said does words in the hope to release all the anger she felt "I should have worked on my own and not let my new family get in the way. If I would have listen to my mind I would have gone to Rumplestinkin instead of YOU. And maybe just maybe, I would still have my son" she finished with an angry tone.

And without giving Snow any chance to respond, she got up and ran as fast as she could away from her mother.

Snow staid frozen in her place, without knowing what to do. And before she could even react, Emma was already on her way, away from her, for the second time in one day.