1, 2, 3, 4 by The Plain White T's Chapter 4: I've Lost What I've Wanted, a twilight fanfic

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Get Back- Demi Lovato

Don't walk away like you always do, this time.
Baby, you're the only thing that's been on my mind.
Ever since you left, I've been a mess
You won't answer the phone

I'll say it once, then I'll leave you alone
But I gotta let you know

I wanna get back
To the old days
when the phone would rings
and I knew it was you.
I wanna talk back
and get yelled at
Fight for nothing
like we used to
Oh kiss me,
like you mean it
like you miss me,
'cause I know that you do.
I wanna get back
Get back with you
ayah...

don't look at me that way, the way I see it in your e-e-eyes.
Don't worry about met, I've been fi-i-ine
I'm not gonna lie, I've been a mess. Since you've left

and Every time I see you, it gets more and more intense.

I wanna get back
to the old days
when the phone would rings
and I knew it was you.
I wanna talk back
and get yelled at
Fight for nothing
like we used to
Oh kiss me,
like you mean it
like you miss me,
'cause I know that you do.
I wanna get back
Get back with you

You were the only one I wanted
and You were the first one I fell for
You're the only one that I'm in love
And I don't want to be lonely anymore

I wanna get back
To the old days
when the phone would ring
and I knew it was you.
I wanna talk back
And get yelled at
Fight for nothing
Like we used to,
Oh kiss me
like you mean it
Like you miss me
Cause I know that you do
I wanna get back
Get back, with you

Get back! (Get Back!)
Get back! (Get Back!)
Get back! (Get Back!)
Get back! (Get Back!)

Oh kiss me,
like you mean it
like you miss me
'cause I know that you do

I wanna get back
get back
I wanna get back
get back

I wanna get back
Get back

Get baaaaaack!

Yaooo!

~Chapter 4: I've Lost What I've Wanted~

It was two in the morning. I sat in the middle of my chimney since I said goodnight to Edward. I had a lot to think about and I was still no where. I crawled out of my "hole" and strangely I was all sore. I wasn't even using my human power.

I walked up stairs and into Alice's and Jasper's room. Alice was twitching and Jasper was looking slightly puzzled with his mouth hanging open. Well…I guess you do the same things even when you're sleeping. I chuckled to myself and walked into Rose and Emmett's room.

There was snoring coming from the both of them; one loud, obnoxious, manly one, and one high pitched quiet one. Rose was snoring the manly one and Emmett was snoring the girly one. "Wow," I said to myself as I closed the door. I walked into Edward's room.

Edward's mouth was slightly ajar and a light snore was coming from him. He was on his side in a more open fetal position. I sat down where he was bent and ran my fingers through his hair. He hummed in his sleep and pulled me closer to him. I just sat close to him, watching his peaceful slumber.

I finally understood why he liked watching me sleep all those months. I would have stayed longer but I realized something. And I needed Alice. I got p gently and lightly kissed his forehead. I walked back over to Alice and Jasper's room. I peered inside and turned off the power on her.

Her chest jerked up and the top part of her body was "thrown up" into a sitting position. I ran over to her and covered her mouth to prevent the loud comment she was going to say. She looked at me and I whispered, "Come with me." She got up and I glanced at the clock. 4:03 a.m.

"What the hell just happened?" Alice whispered screamed. "Don't worry, it was just your reaction to sleeping for the first time in so long…it only happens after the first few times but it gets less and less," I said. She nodded. "So, what's up?" she asked.

"I'm going to let Edward have another shot with me-," she interrupted me by squealing, "But," I interrupted her and she gave me a worried look, "he deserves to suffer a little more." "Well, what are you going to do?" she asked. "Well, my manager called me saying there is a carnival going on somewhere near Seattle and I have to perform…"

"Yeah…?" she edged on. "So, I'll sing a few songs that says that I don't want him anymore and flirt with a few guys before and after and then go up to Edward and be all like, 'Enjoy the show?' He'll be all speechless and shit then I will just kiss him and say, 'I want you, forever.' And we will be happy again," I said explaining my plan.

"That's so brilliant Bella!!" Alice exclaimed. "Great," I said. "Well, why don't I get everything packed since we will be gone for two more weeks…and you just go out somewhere to get everybody else clothes." "Okay…you guys will pick me up when you're on your way out," Alice said already seeing the plan. I nodded and she disappeared from sight.

I got up ad started packing thinking of the songs I was going to sing at the little carnival today. I smiled. I know exactly what to sing. When I was done it was 5:02. "Shit! I'm late," I mumbled. I took off the human power in the house.

I heard bed springs move violently and a scream and a few groans and gasps. "Its okay everyone, this is normal…it only happens the first few times," I said taking my luggage out in the hall, "Please get up and get ready quickly…we are behind schedule." I took all my bags out to the tour bus that was now in my very large drive way.

As usual, there was a swarm of paparazzi surrounding my house. I sat down my bags and walked over to the gate so they could get a few pictures. I smiled and blew kisses. After a few minutes of camera flashes and everybody shouting at me, I turned away with a wave and loaded the load onto the bus.

I sat down on the couch as everyone was filing in. Alice appeared. "Okay…I'm early. I have all your clothes, guys." She said to everybody else. I pulled out my note book and wrote down the song I sung last night. I called it, Don't Wanna Be Torn. I also wrote down another song and decided that I was going to name it later.

I really like this one though because it says how I feel about being famous. I smiled. "Hey Bells," Emmett said, "shouldn't you be worried? I mean, haven't people discovered you haven't changed?" "Good question," I said. Everyone was looking at me intently waiting for my response as the bus pulled out of my drive.

"So the guy I am associated with at Hollywood Records is a vampire. In fact, everybody I work with-like my dancers, band, security, back-up vocals, back stage people, etc. – are vampires. I actually didn't become famous until 3 years ago. When I first made the deal all I did was record songs, now I actually sing them. The world knows me as Izzy and that's it. They know stuff about Izzy but not Bella. Right now I am '21' but when I 'turn 26', I am going to 'disappear' for thirty or forty years…that way when I come back into the business songs to record, and I'm back in the game. But I'm not going to start writing songs until a year or so before I start up again, which will be in the summer since I actually made my first record in the summer this year. And if I get ideas here and there I'll write them down," I said smug that I am, that good.

Everybody was saying how awesome that was and how they will be with me all the way…but all I could think was you can't make a promise that you can't keep; everybody leaves you sometime…and then you find new friends who say the same thing but then you sit again and think the same thing you did before.

I must have been thinking for a while because we were just arriving in Seattle. "Okay Izzy," Jim said, "It will be about 15 minutes before we get to the Green Lakes Carnival…we are going to pull up in front of the front gate. Remember, go straight back stage…no rides or anything." I nodded.

"Okay," I said to the Cullens, "you are going to get off before me since we are pulling around the carnival from the back so wait for my signal." "What's the signal?" Emmett asked. "Go," I said in a "duh" tone. I rolled my eyes. Emmet was just so…Emmett sometimes.

I picked up my cell and dialed my security guard. "Hey Bill…look, I'm letting some friends in through the back so when you see me at the back just start waving your arms around and make sure they know where to go…hang on," I looked at the Cullens and Hales. "Do you guys wanna watch the show from backstage or in the audience?" "Audience," they all said.

"Hi again…make sure they are in the front of the crowd," I spoke into the phone. Moments later we hung up and we were arriving at the carnival. "Okay…you guys need to climb out and get to Bill at vampire speed please," I said open the latch on the roof of the bus. The bus slowed to two miles per hour and then they were ." I nodded.

Then I was in the front. I put a wig on that looked like I got a hair cut. I smiled at the mirror. Edward always liked the long do so THIS would drive him insane. I walked out of the bus to find

"Can we see it," Emmett asked. "No you'll just have to wait 'til I get on stage," I said, "Gotta change bye." I changed into my Gucci outfit and took a sip of water. My phone started ringing. "Hello," I said, "Bella the sun's going to come out in thirty seconds so I hope you can use your human power one every vampire here." And with that, Alice was gone.

(AN: JSYK…I changed it so Bella's human power makes her not sparkle any more and her outfit and hair are on my profile.)

I turned on my power and put it over every vampire. Then I got ready to walk on stage. I could see the audience from back here and I could see all the Cullens and Hales. I snickered. Then my manager walked on stage. "Ladies and gentlemen...please give it up for Izzy!" Then everyone was screaming.a walk way roped off with screaming and crying fans and the annoying paparazzi. I smiled, nonetheless.

I walked down the stairs of my bus and heard people shouting that they love me and they love my new hair cut and people just screaming. I smiled for the pictures and signed a few autographs. I took a few pictures and then I walked toward the stage. I made sure none of the Cullens or Hales saw me.

I walked backstage and warmed up. Then I called Alice. "Hello?" she said in a chirpy voice. "OMG," I said, "Guess who got a new hair cut?!" "What?!" everybody heard and someone not to mention any names *cough* *cough* Edward *cough*, didn't sound so pleased.

I grabbed my microphone and walked on stage waving and smiling. I looked down at the Cullens and their reactions were priceless. The only one who was mad was Edward so all I did was blow a kiss at him.

"How about we get this party started?" I yelled into the mic. The music started. Everyone screamed...except for the one vampire who had the stick up his ass.

Goodbye by Kristina DeBarge

Am I supposed to put my life on hold
Because you don't know how to act,
and you don't know where your life is going
Am I supposed to be torn apart,
broken hearted, in a corner crying, pardon me,
if I don't show it

I don't care, if I never see you again, ill be alright.
Take this final piece of advice, and get yourself together,
but either way, baby I'm gone.

I'm so over it, I've been there and back.
Changed all my numbers, and just in case you're wondering,
I got that new "I'm a single girl swag", got me with my girls and we're singing it...sing!
Na, Na, Na, Na (hey), Na, Na, Na, Na (hey), Hey, Hey, Hey, Goodbye (2x)

Cut my hair cause it reminded me of you,
I know you like the long 'do', had to switch my attitude up.
Thinking of changing up how I ride, no more on the passengers side,
too bad you miss out on the way that I drive it

I don't care, if I never see you again, ill be alright.
Take this final piece of advice, and get yourself together,
but either way, baby I'm gone oh.

He-He Hey, He-He Hey, He-He Hey, Goodbye.

I'm so over it, I've been there and back.
changed all my numbers, and just in case you're wondering,
I got that new "I'm a single girl swag", I got me with my girls and we're singing it. Sing!
Na, Na, Na, Na (hey), Na, Na, Na, Na (hey), Hey, Hey, Hey, Goodbye (4x)

I looked over the audience and saw a lot of really hot guys. Perfect. I looked down at Edward and he was looking away with a look of confusion. Even more perfect.

Everything You're Not by Demi Lovato

I've been bruised and I've been broken
Can't believe that I put up with all this pain
I've been used and I was choking on the promise
I would never fall again

I used to sing to your twisted symphony
The words that had me trapped inside your misery
But now I know
The reason why I couldn't breathe

'Cause all I want is everything you're not
So go ahead and slam the door
'Cause you can't shut me out
And no I don't, I don't care what you say
'Cause all I really, all I really want
Is everything you're not
Everything you're not, not, not

Your darkness was my weakness but it turns out
That it only went so deep
A meaningless diversion that is all that you
Ever meant to me

And I am done with your twisted symphony
The words that had me sound like stolen poetry
I tore the pages and I can finally breathe

I want a gentleman who treats me like a queen
I need respect, I need love
nothing in between
I will not spell it out for you if you can't see
'Cause you're not worthy, you don't deserve me
And now I'm gone

Everything you're not, not, not
Everything you're not, not, not

Never gonna break my heart again,
Never gonna see your face again
Never wanna feel this way again

Oh, oh, uh-oh

(Repeat 3x-fading)

This time when I looked at Edward, he had the look of devastation on his face. Sure, it hurt to see him like that, but he deserves to suffer a little more.

U Got Nothin' On Me by Demi Lovato

You got nothin on me!
You got nothin on me!
You got nothin on me!
You got nothin on me!

Summer came and took me by surprise
The california sunshine in my eyes
Driving with the top down, we sing along
To our favorite songs
Nothing could go wrong

Laughing as we gazed under the moon
You kissed me and it never felt too soon
Hard to believe that anything tore us apart
Then you break my heart

Now I know who you are
You got nothin on me
I see, shoulda known it from the start
You got nothin on me
You can't tell me lies
Don't even try cause
This is goodbye
Goodbye

Caught you from corner of my eye
You smiled at a girl while passing by
Thought you had me fooled but you were wrong
I know what's going on
It didn't take me long

Wasn't hard to read between the lines
The necklace in your car that wasn't mine
Nothing left for you to do or say
So I'm on my way
Now it's too late

Now I know who you are
You got nothin on me
I see, shoulda known it from the start
You got nothin on me
You can't tell me lies
Don't even try cause
This is

Goodbye to broken promises
Time to face your carelessness
Don't bore me with apologies
And coming back crawling on your knees

You got nothin on me! (you got nothin on me)
You got nothin on me!!

I know who you are
Yeah I see
I shoulda known it from the start
You can't tell me lies
Don't even try cause
This is goodbye!

Now I know who you are
You got nothing on me!
I see, I shoulda known it from the start
You got nothin on me!
You can't tell me lies
Don't even try cause
This is goodbye
Goodbye

This time when I looked down Edward was crying-human power- and he looked so upset. Wait,-he also looked mad?! What the-.

It's Alright, It's Okay by Ashley Tisdale

You told me
there's no need
To talk it out
Cause its too late
To proceed
And slowly
I took your words
And Walked Away

No looking back
I wont regret, no
I will find my way
I'm broken
But still I have to say

It's Alright, OK
I'm so much better without you
I wont be sorry
Alright, Ok
So don't you bother what I do
No matter what you say
I wont return
Our bridge has burned down
I'm stronger now
Alright , Ok
I'm so much better without you
I wont be sorry

You played me
Betrayed me
Your love was nothing but a game
Portrait a role
You took control, I
I couldn't help but fall
So deep
But now I see things clear

It's Alright, OK
I'm so much better without you
I wont be sorry
Alright, Ok
So don't you bother what I do
No matter what you say
I wont return
Our bridge has burned down
I'm stronger now
Alright, Ok
I'm so much better without you
I wont be sorry

Don't waist you fiction tears on me
Just save them for someone in need
It's Way to late
I'm closing the door

It's Alright, OK
I'm so much better without you
I wont be sorry
Alright, Ok
So don't you bother what I do
No matter what you say
I wont return
Our bridge has burned down
I'm stronger now
Alright, Ok
I'm so much better without you (I'm better with out you.)
I won't be sorry

(It's alright it okay)

With out you no matter what you say

(It's alright its ok alright ok)

Without you

I won't be sorry

"Thank you everybody...I'll see you around the carnival!" I shouted but not before I took a glance at Edward. Oh my god. He looks awful. I walked through backstage and walked out to meet my friends. "Okay guys what did you think?" I asked them. "Hey Bells," Alice said, "Looks like those guys over there are checking you out." I looked over and there were some of the guys that were, like, really hot.

I giggled and walked over to them. "Hey boys," I said, "Do you wanna come hang out with me and some friends for a while?" "Yeah," the said and I led them over to the Cullens.

*Several Hours Later*

After tons of rides and constant flirting with the human boys, we had to say goodbye. But on my way out I accedentally ran into another vampire on her way in and I absorbed her power. She fell to the ground. "Oh my gosh, I am so sorry," I said. "What ever you bitch," she said and started walking away.

I was gertting really mad. The shy started getting covered in dark gray clouds, the wind started to pick up, and the thunder boomed from above. Oh great, I can controll the weather now. i relaxed and the sun started coming back out again. How the hell am I going to explain this?!

"Hey," I said, "how about we go to McDonald's...you guys are going to love that place. Hell! I love that place." They nodded. We all got back on the bus and it took us to the nearest McDonald's. We walked inside and we ordered our food.

"Edward, why didn't you get anything?" I asked. He looked up at me with the hardest glare I had ever seen. "I'm not hugry," he said. "Well you sho-," he stood up and grabbed me by the arm and took me outside. "What the hell is going on?" I said at him.

"Bella...Izzy... I am going back to Forks," he said. "What?" I asked, "Why?" I started to panick. "There's no need for me to stick around if I already know what your answer is," he said backing up. "But Edward-," "No," he said, "I already got your point. No need to rub you decision in any more. My heart is already shattered enough. There's no need to step on the pieces." "But, Ed-," He just shook his head and then he was gone. Everybody joined me outside. It started to pour, thanks to me. Tears dripped down my face. I looked up at the McDonald's sign. I hate this place.

We all got back on the bus and turned on the radio. My song It's Alright, It's Okay was on. But I didn't really care. Everybody was frantic around me and moving around. I just sat there numb. I've lost what I've wanted. I can't believe this.

No looking back
I wont regret, no
I will find my way
I'm broken
But still I have to say

Oh, how sorry I was.

Okay…you guys wanted Edward to suffer some more and you got it! Now, he's through with Bella. Yes, he may have broken her heart…and done all that awful stuff to her, but she just broke his heart way more than he did hers. And anybody would agree…it's not fun when you joke around with love. So, I know you guys may hate me but trust me; you will want to continue this story… in fact, here's a preview.

"I can't believe this," I said dry sobbing. "I know," Rose said, "I know." "Why doesn't he understand that he deserved what I did to him, especially after what he did to me? Plus the fact that I was only…ap-...du-...UGH!" I didn't know what to say. I screw up everything. "Bella, try to relax," Alice said. "Bella, have you ever heard 'two wrongs don't make a right'?" Jasper asked. I nodded. "Well, if you were so heartbroken and you love Edward so much, why would you want him to go through the same thing you went through?" Jasper asked. Shit. "I know how you can TRY and get him back," Emmet said. "How?" I asked irritated. "What have you been doing all along?" he asked. And then I knew too.

There you go. I am going to take a little longer on chapter 5 and 6 because chapter 7 will be a concert chapter. Sorry, I now some of you hate it but, I have to do this. For my story.

Love, Tuesday