Chapter four

It was a long night for everyone, Alex was at home thinking about her past while the two women she loved were in the same building. Was she right did she still have feelings for Emily and if she did how could she possibly marry Olivia? Things were starting to get messy and she didn't like messy. Alex was a person who liked facts, she loved Olivia, she wanted a future with Olivia, she wanted children, she may have a child, there were times when she missed Emily and now Emily was here right in her own city.

This was all too much to think about and she didn't want to be awake when Olivia got home, so she thought about pouring herself another glass of wine, but went for Olivia's Jack instead, three or four shots and she called it a night.

Back at the precinct, Olivia couldn't help but be a little happy about Emily's black eye. Damn Kathy sure did know how to throw a punch, she'd have to thank her later. But then a part of her also felt back for Emily, she remembered how she had felt when Alex came back and then disappeared again. She knew that it was rough, but the jealousy was getting to her.

Emily and Alex must have been close, they decided to have a child together, in four years she and Alex had never discussed children. But they had a daughter, what if this made Alex change her mind, what if she wanted to be with her little family, how could Olivia deal with it if she lost Alex again?

Olivia looked at JJ who was looking at Emily, why is it that it's always the smart one's that never know that there is someone who cares about them.

Emily had found the solution to her babysitting problem they had flown Garcia in to help with all situations, she would be able to help with the investigation, with Zoe and maybe she could help Emily figure things out with Alex.

The team was hard at work when Olivia came back with Coffee, it was 2am, she had tried to call Alex to let her know it was going to be a long night but there was no answer she was hoping that they would call it a night soon, and thankfully they did.

Olivia went home to find her Jack on the counter, and more than just a few swallows missing, Alex's clothes were everywhere, she finally found Alex passed out on the bed, she felt a small smile makes its way across her face as she covered Alex up and collapsed beside her.

Alex woke the next morning with a headache, she knew that she would Jack Daniels was not her friend, she also knew that she had to go to work today, whether she wanted to or not. Today was going to be another long day… She knew that Olivia had gotten home late so she decided not to wake her, but she checked to make sure that the alarm was set so that she wasn't late.

Alex on the other hand decided that she was going to go in early in hopes of not having to see any one; she would stay in her office until she was needed. What she needed was to be left alone especially today, Alex Cabot was a force to be reckoned with, but hung over she could kill.

What she didn't expect to see when she got to office was Emily asleep in the chair next to her office.

"Em, Em, Emily wake up"

"Elizabeth, I mean Alex"

"what are you doing here?"

"I had to talk to you and I figured that this would be the place to find you?"

"I really do have a lot of work to do"

"Alex you have to talk to me eventually, we can't keep avoiding each other while I am here, after all it is you who left me, plus your girlfriend already wants to rip my lips of my face, and your detectives wife gave me a black eye doesn't that entitle me to a few minutes at least?"

"fine, your right" she unlocked her office and moved her arm as to invite Emily in.

All Alex could do was think about Emily and how she felt when she was with her, she loved Olivia, but she didn't trust herself with Emily.

"she is mine isn't she"

"yes, but in all fairness you left months before I even realized that I was pregnant. I tried to find you I swear I did."

"I'm not blaming you Emily, I know that it is not your fault that I don't know her, will you tell me about her"

"she is so smart Alex, she reminds me of you, she walks around with my reading glasses on her face and just thinks that she is unstoppable. She's learning to read, I named her in honor of you, although I guess that really isn't the case anymore. But her name is Zoe Elizabeth Prentiss, she likes butterflies, and she wants a puppy. They say that she may be able to start school soon, sometimes she just amazes me. It was hard for a while, she didn't like to sleep through the night, she's had the chicken pox already."

As Emily was telling her all about their child and showing her pictures she just started to cry.

"Alex please don't cry, that wasn't my intention" she said as she wrapped her arms around the blond, Alex didn't know what she was doing but somewhere between the hurt and the tears she felt her lips touch Emily's,

For a moment neither one of them pulled away, for Alex it was new again, but yet the same, then her mind went to Olivia, and she quickly broke away.

"Emily I am so sorry, I don't know what came over me"

"don't ever apologize to me Alex, I have missed you so much"

"that is what I am sorry for, we can't do this, I am engaged. I love Olivia, I can't do this to her.. please you have to go now.. I can't be around you right now. I will call you I promise but I can't do this right now"

She opened her door and Emily looking defeated left..

That is it for this chapter. What do you guys think so far….