Author's note: I know that I promised this chapter yesterday but my editor got sick and I so I didn't get the edited version until today so again I'm SUPER sorry but here it is I hope you like it!  Besides I'll make it up to you guys with a double chapter day or something like that.

Edward's POV Chapter 3

As I looked into the big sad eyes of my beautiful Bella, I knew that I had to be straight forward with her about this.

"The Denali Coven is coming down and Carlisle's already made the arrangements" I said, searching her eyes for any sign of change.

"You're leaving again aren't you?" Bella whispered

"We can't waste anytime Bella, we have to stop them while their still in range, the second they get out of Washington we're hopeless" I tried to explain, I wanted her to understand that this wasn't specifically a want for me.

"How long?" she asked "how long this time?"

"I'm not sure yet, Bella. We have to calculate tracking time and none of us are very good trackers, so it could be five days, five weeks, five months…five years…I just can't be sure." I could see the tears glistening in her eyes as they threatened to spill over. The sight of my Bella crying, because of me, was enough to make me want to cry even though I knew I couldn't.

"Then Maybe we should just plan on you not coming back" she cried trying to be brave.

"What are you saying Bella?" I asked

"I can't hurt like that again Edward, I just can't." She was crying now full out tears were streaming down her face. I looked away from her. I didn't want to dry sob but I knew that I wasn't far from it.

"If that's what you want Bella" I responded trying my hearted not to show my immense pain.

"That's not what I want Edward but you refuse to give me the only thing that I've ever really wanted."

"Even if I changed you right now you wouldn't be ready to go fight against Victoria when The Denali coven arrives."

"But Edward that isn't even the point, even if I didn't have to be ready you still wouldn't change me! You've never wanted to and your mind is incredibly hard to change! I'm tired of trying to change it! If you're going to leave than just leave I'm not going to direct you otherwise!" she yelled with such hurt in her voice but I knew that she was sincere. We were in the drive way now and she forced open the door and proceeded to climb out of the car. I caught her arm just before it was out of reach and pulled her back in.

"I'm sorry Bella" I try to apologize but her mind is long made up.

"Yea Edward me too"

I let go of her arm and I watch her wipe away the tears as she climbs her driveway to the front door. I'm a monster, I can feel it now more than ever and now she's crying in her room in front of her father and it's entirely my fault. I decided to check into Charlie's thoughts but it was just a very long line filled with cuss words and threats to kill me. I wish he could kill me. Maybe it would end this long chain of suffering for Bella and for me. If I could go back to the first time I left I would. I would change it in a heartbeat but I know I can't. I've made too many mistakes and I can't take any of it back. I drove back to my house and Alice met me on my way to the door and she didn't say a word she just hugged me. We stood there for a while and she kept mentally convincing me that it would be ok and that she was sorry that it had to be this way but unfortunately I couldn't get that image of Bella out of my head. Her crying, me sitting there without even attempting to comfort her, and now as Alice consoled me I couldn't concentrate on her thoughts. I was too caught up in my own. She finally spoke as I stared at her "the Denali coven has arrived, we're ready Edward."

Authors note: Edward Fans don't worry they will have their own point of views for a while but I love Edward and Bella together so you don't have to fret.

This isn't the end of Edward.

Next chapter will hopefully be up by tomorrow but it might have to wait until Thursday. Depends on if my Editor is feeling better tomorrow or not.