I felt like crap when I woke up. Headache and nausea included. The room was empty thank god, slowly I sat up and hugged my knees. I tried to orientate but my head was all woozy, so I decided very asocial to use the bathroom without asking. I took a quick shower, and thank god there was warm water here. At my place I only had cold water, but at least I had a roof above my head. After a few minutes I turned the shower off, I could've enjoyed it for hours but I had no idea where I was.
I stumbled downstairs again. When I stood in the hall I heard voices in the livingroom. For seconds I just stared at the door not knowing what to do. It was a nice door for sure I thought by myself.

'' oh you are so pathetic" I sighted to myself. I just needed to open it, knock on it and open it.
Oh dear god here we go… O politely knocked and opened the door. It seemed my knocked stayed unheard because nobody even looked my way. In the room where a couple of half-naked dudes trying to bash each other heads in. My jaw dropped. They were all native and all just wearing short jeans. And while the bodies rolled through the floor I stared at them. These people where insane..
While I was still processing it all, suddenly an familiar face made his entry.

"ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR MINDS" he raised his voice and within seconds the ball of human limps was broken up.

"There's a girl sleeping upstairs and you dickhe.." he never finished his sentence when his dark eyes found mine. I felt all eyes turn to me. With that my cheeks flushed and a nervous shiver made master of me. Seconds ago the room was filled with sounds of laughter, growling and shouting but now there was no sound at all. They were just staring at me with their big brown eyes.
Before I knew two firm arms led me out of the room and into the hallway.

"I'm so sorry for that" he exclaimed while letting go of my arm. I stroke the place where his hands had been seconds ago, his grip had been firm and strong and I was betting I was going to get a bruise because of it.
"It's okay" I mumbled while I stared at my feet. What the hell was I supposed to do right now? I was so nervous I couldn't even look him straight in the eye.
"How are you feeling?" he asked while he inspected me. I faked a smile and nodded.
"I'm doing fine thank you" I lied as I pushed my shaking hands in my pockets. I hadn't thought this through, what did he want from me now? I never asked what he wanted for this big rescue.. I just hoped because I worked at a sexline it wasn't something like that.

"Come I'll make you something to eat" He smiled as he carefully led me to the kitchen. As I sat down he poured me a cup of coffee and made me a ham sandwich. When he gave me the plate he sat in front of me and bend lightly forward so he was just inches away from me.
"So what happened" He asked while he folded his hands under his chin and locked his eyes with mine. I took a bite of my sandwich to postpone my answering. What was I going to tell him? If I told him the whole story there was a big chance he would call the cops. Without papers I was an illegal and would end up in jail.
"I got robbed" I said while I chewed my sandwich slowly. He nodded understandably and waited. IT seemed my explanation wasn't satisfying enough because he kept staring at me.
"I'm sorry I called you, but I panicked and you were the only phone number that I still had" I mumbled while I kept stirring in my tea.
"does it hurt?" he asked and for the first time I dared to look up. Not knowing what he meant I squirmed my eyes and stared at him "Does what hurt?"
He slowly touched my eye and I squealed when he touched my bruise.
"Let me get some ice for that" He smiled kindly. "Thank you, I don't know how I can ever thank you" I mumbled while he searched the freezer. He just grinned and handed me the ice-pack.

"Ruby!" he said for the second time before I realized he was talking to me. Confused I blinked and
pointed my attention his way 'Yeah sorry I'm a little off" I excused myself. He kneeled down and laid his hand on my knee.
"It there someone I can call for you? Family? Parents maybe?"
I shook my head "No thank you, but I promise I won't be in your way any longer, I'll get my stuff and leave as soon as possible. "
He grinned as he pinched my knee "Well that's not really possible is it?" There is no traffic because it's a holiday and the police-station is also closed. So there is no way to get in your apartment if I'm correct" He was right, I didn't have any money or keys.. I couldn't go nowhere. Startled I stared at him. "And besides" he said "I already counted on you with dinner" I gave a faint smile as he stared at me happily. We got interrupted by a smaller version of him.
"Jake we got a bit of a problem…." He whispered. Jacob's eyes went a little darker as he stood up. He winked as he walked out the kitchen with the other guy, for me this was time to take a deep breath. What was happening to me? This seemed to be too good to be true, there was something wrong here. I yawned and decided to pour myself another cup of coffee. It didn't mattered how much I slept I was still tired. I sat there for a while in silence drinking another four cups of coffee. When the caffeine started to work I stood up and did the dishes. In those few moments I had for myself I thought about the situation. It seemed I was forced to stay here. I dried my hands and walked back to my room, when I passed the livingroom I felt every pair of eyes turn towards me. I felt like rabbit surrounded by dogs, I hurried to the bedroom and closed the door. I let my head rest against it for a few second before I started to panic. 'You fool why are you so reckless' I mumbled against the door. I was a young girl surrounded by more than a dozen half naked guys. Who knew what there were planning? I tried to calm myself by looking at of the window. It didn't help, because the only thing I saw was that I was surrounded by a huge ass forest. Even if they wanted to, nobody would find me here. Stubborn as I was I wanted to orientate myself I climbed on the roof. The chill the shimmer of evening brought tickled my skin. Peacefully I sat there, I had no idea for how long.
He came after a while, like I expected he would. He climbed through the window with ease. He sat next to me in silence.

"The view is beautiful" I whispered fascinated by trees.

"I know" he whispered. I smiled and when I turned to look at him I noticed he wasn't staring at the view, but he was staring at me. When our eyes found each other he grinned and winked at me.
Not knowing what to do or say I kept silent.

"Ruby, you don't have to be scared. I won't hurt you I promise. Please I loved our conversations on the phone, so please don't be a stranger now" He said.

Our eyes found each other again, I still didn't respond I just stared at him. I didn't knew if I could trust him or not. He invited me for dinner downstairs and left, minutes after I went back inside and found a black dress waiting for me. The price tag was still on it, and it seemed to be my size. Pure out of curiosity I tried it on. I was made for me or so it seems, I looked stunning. I brushed my teeth again splashed some water in my face and hairs and walked downstairs. When I walked into the living room I expected to see everyone, but there was no one at all. Quiet as a mouse I tiptoed to the kitchen. He was cooking humming cheerfully. He looked so careless and happy that it stole a little smile from me. I cleared my throat to let him know I was here. With the pan still in his hands he turned around, but when he saw me his smile froze and he dropped the pan on the wooden floor. Open mouthed he stared at me, until he realized what he had done. He looked from me to the floor and back.

"Wow" He whispered. I grinned and a little smile played his lips. I rushed over to help him, but I stepped in the butter and lost my balance. He tried to catch me but also lost his balance. I hit the floor hard, but an uncontrollably laughter started as soon as I did. I couldn't believe what was happening with my life, I laughed and laughed until Jacob grabbed my hand and lifted me up. When I looked him in the eye, I started to laugh again.

With his hands in his hair he stared at me, he seemed quite amused. "I guess it will be pizza then" he said. I nodded as the laughter died out. "I guess so" I said while I stared him the eye. He quickly cleaned the kitchen while I waited in the livingroom. I laid on the couch watching some tv when I walked in. Instead of asked me if I could shove up, he grabbed my feet lifted them in the air, sat down and placed them on his lap. Awkwardly I pulled them back, avoiding eye contact I looked through the room.
`Is this your own house?' I asked shyly my voice shaken. He nodded watching me carefully. I stood up and walked to the cupboard staring at the framed pictures, trying to buy myself some time. I looked at the pictures way too long, he stood up and startled I grabbed the first picture. He walked up behind me and took the picture out of my hands, with a sad smile he stared at it.
"Who is she?" I dared to ask, feeling for him

"Her name is Bella"

"I really miss her" he mumbled while putting the picture back in its place.

"What happened?" I dared to ask.

"She died in childbirth" his suddenly filled with anger. Instantly I knew I should stop asking questions. This was clearly upsetting him, and I liked to come home in one piece. He turned around a little shaken and with a low voice he asked me what kind of pizza I preferred. I told him I it didn't matter and he walked into the kitchen to call the service. I took a deep breath and sat down on the couch again. I don't know what it was with Jacob, he didn't scared me. But I had the feeling there was something dark inside of him. And that dark thing, that frightened me.

So I had my thanksgiving dinner out of a box, sitting on the couch. We made some small talk while watching friends on television;

"So Ruby, do you live in Port Angeles?" He asked while biting in his pizza. Cheesestrings formed a bridge between him and his pizza. I grinned and he quickly cleaned them off.

"Yes I do"

"Born and raised?"
I nodded again, holding on to my lies.

"I'm sorry you don't get to spent thanksgiving with your family, but I don't mind you spending it with me" He whispered as he laid his hand on my knee. I swallowed my bite and raised my eyebrows.

"My family is dead" I said without even blinking. More lies, it never seemed to stop. "Carcrash""

"I'm so sorry" He said sincere, I bit my lip feeling a little bit unconformable 'What the hell are you doing Renesmee, get out of here and resume your life!' I thought by myself.

"Do you want to watch a movie? I have Netflix" He said as he opened it, names of series and movies went by, I didn't even recognize one of them.

"How about this one?" He said pointing to the screen. I gave him a light smile 'Sure why not"
The film started and I sat back relaxing a little bit. It seemed like this was one of his favorite movies because he knew every line. It was actually kinda cute seeing him like this. He noticed I wasn't paying attention to the movie and he turned to me

"Don't you like it?" He said with that playful look in his eyes. I felt some faint butterflies when he did that. I smiled at him.

"Thank you for everything Jacob" I whispered not losing our eye contact for a minute. For a moment, just aa brief moment, I thought he was going to lean in and kiss me. But he didn't, he just smiled at me and went back watching the movie. I tried to focus, but I already lost the storyline. I tried my very best to stay awake, I swear! But I couldn't help it.. my eyes slowly closed and before I knew it I was in a deep sleep.

When I woke up I was warm, comfortable but disorientated. The room was dark and I took me a few seconds to figure out what was happening. Jacobs arms were around me, I was laying on his lap. The movie was finished and the room was really dark. Jacobs breathing was regularly and deep, it was clear that he was asleep. I wondered how we could ever end up tangled like this? He was lying on his side, his arms wrapped around me, also half of his leg. My arms were also wrapped around him, we were entwined like we did this every weekend. I struggled to get my arms back, I shifted my weight and pulled softly. Jacob mumbled something, stroke my hairs and pulled me even closer.

"Don't worry, I'll protect you" He mumbled again. I looked up, it was clear that he was sleeping, but I was touched. I stared as his face a few seconds before I laid my head to rest, listening to his strong heartbeat I fell asleep in minutes.

Day 2

When I woke up he was gone. He left me a note that he went to work and that there was breakfast in the kitchen. I stood up took a shower and brushed my teeth before I made myself some coffee and a sandwich. I took the liberty to use Jacob's laptop to look for a job. Sitting there at the kitchentable I realized that my life couldn't get any worse, but on the other hand couldn't get better. Luck was on my side, I had shelter and food, and for now safety.

Jacob came home very late, exhausted he sat down on the couch while I poured him a cup of coffee. He smiled while I handed it to him.

"Do you mind if I take you home tomorrow?" He asked while he stirred in his coffee. He really looked exhausted so I shook my head and gave him a light smile. He sighted of relief and took a sip of his coffee.

"Bad day?" I asked noticing he was lightly upset.

"Very bad day, a friend of mine got into a… ehm huntingaccident'

"Is he okay?"

"We don't know" He but his lip agitated.

"Was it a animal?" I asked

He seemed deep in thought. "What..? An animal? No ofcours.." He shook his head.

"Yeaah it was a bear" He sighted.

"I'm really sorry" I said again. I stood up to retreat in my room. "If I can do something, please let me know"

When I turned around he grabbed my wrist. I turned around and stared in deep pools of helplessness. I stepped back and wrapped my arms around him. He held me tightly while pressing his face into my hairs. We stood there was a long time, he seemed to never let go. But when he did he seemed a little better somehow. Still he was really troubled. When a few hours later his friends rushed in to get him I could see him heart break a little. I waited for him, but he didn't come back until the sun was back up. He rushed to his bedroom ignoring me. After a few minutes I walked to him worried, I knocked and opened the door. He was standing there, shaking from anger with his fists buried in the wall.

"Jacob" I mumbled and rushed to his side. I laid my hand on his shoulder trying to calm him down.
"He's not going to make it" he whispered with a broken voice. Not knowing what to do I wrapped my arms around him. His big arms took me in.

"Ruby.." He whispered and there went a shiver through my body, I wanted him to call me Renesmee so bad. I needed to tell him, this was so wrong.

"Jacob" I whispered, I looked up and his eyes found mine. I forgot what to say or do for a minute. I just stared at him while the butterflies found their way back again. He finally leaned in and pressed his lips on mine. It was my first kiss and nervous I tried to not let it show, so when he wanted more I gave in willingly. He was a good teacher. When we parted to get some air, I noticed that my cheeks were flushed and I was the one shaking now. He looked at me and I gave him a smile, withing seconds he pressed me to the wall and started to kiss me again and again. They kept gettingng better and better. His lips found my neck and my earlobe, then my lips again. I must been out of my mind, but didn't wanted it to stop, when he took too long I started to kiss him. I decided to give back what was given so I pressed my lips in his neck and he started to moan in my ear.

"Ruby stop" He breathed while he pushed me away. "Don't please, or I can't stop"
Embarrassed I left the room and ran to mine. I took a few deep breaths and went to bed.

Day 3

We both knew it, I really needed to go home. I couldn't stay here. So not to embarrass Jacob I was the one to ask him.

"Do you want to take me home?"

He frowned but nodded. "Sure" His voice seemed a little bitter, but I needed to go on with my life. I needed to get a job, I wasn't a golddigger. I had my own clothes on again, washed ofcourse. When we walked to the car he said nothing. While driving he was silent too.

"Do you need to work tonight?" He asked, I shook my head. "So I can't call you?" He stated. I shook my head again.

"Ruby can I please take you to dinner tomorrow?" He said when we arrived at the spot. I turned around and smiled "7. Right. Here." I said while I gave him a kiss on his cheek. He seemed to lighten up and pulled my back giving me a long hot kiss. I smiled walking back to my apartment, when suddenly another car stopped right in front of me.

"Ruby!" a sugarcoated voice exclaimed.

"Crystal" I said surprised. Crystal was a collegue, a very nice girl but she had a little trouble with alcohol and coke.

"Dear we were so worried about you, I heard what happened!" She said while lighted a cigarette.

"What did you hear?" I asked surprised.

"That some creep forced himself in the building and that you escaped. I told you that that boy who kept calling was bad news" I clutched my jaw while she continued

"Your stuff is still there, why not pick it up and then you can tell me everything" She said. I kind of needed my stuff, my keys and my wallet. And with her there Sam wouldn't do anything right? So I opened the door and stepped into the car.
We raced through the street and I saw how it happened, I saw how she lost control of the steeringwheel. I saw how the tree came closer and closer and how the car wrapped around it. I heard how Crystal's neck snapped and I felt how the seatbelt pressed so hard against my chest that I wasn't able to breath.

The first few seconds were a little blurry, I wasn't able to see clear but I smelled blood. I rubbed my eyes and tried to focus. The car was completely wrecked, I turned to Crystal, there was a piece of glass in her neck. Not knowing what to do I pulled it out and tried to feel her pulse. There was none.

"Om my god" I whispered to myself as I clapped my hand before my mouth. Suddenly my body started to tingle and I tasted something godly on my tongue, I started at my hand and then at the dead body that was next to me. What was I doing? I rubbed my finger in more blood and licked it, my vision cleared and the impact of the crash faded away. My body felt strong and alert, I wasn't even tired anymore. The feeling that floated through my body was one of the greatest things that I ever experienced. My throat seemed to be on fire and my teeth were aching. Following my instinct I leaned forward and bit.