Chapter 4

For a moment it seemed everything had stopped. Sebastian was looking down at Jim, who was gazing up at him with an odd mix of fear and excitement in his eyes. The moment dragged on, their breathing the only sounds Sebastian could hear. Jim's shallow and fast, his own rather heavy. His head was filling with an odd buzz and he felt heat spreading inside of him.

He felt like he was about to panic. He fought to keep calm. He would just let go of Jim and get up. In a moment.

Then something happened. Jim had been straining a little against his grip, pushing up against him. But suddenly his eyes seemed to go unfocused and his body went completely limp. He was surrendering. Something inside Sebastian snapped and with a feral groan he bent down and crushed his lips against Jim's in a frighteningly hungry kiss.

Jim gasped and after a moment returned the kiss with equal intensity, though his body remained still and passive. Only his lips and tongue seemed to be moving. Sebastian felt overwhelmed. This made no sense, they shouldn't be doing this, but there was no way he could stop himself. His fingers tightened around Jim's wrists and he found that the resulting whimper only made him want this even more.

With an almost physically painful effort, he made himself pull back. He looked down at Jim, who was panting softly, his eyes almost glazed. "Are you okay?" he asked, feeling suddenly very awkward.

"Huh?" Jim seemed to have real trouble focusing on Sebastian.

He let go of his wrists and sat on the floor next to him. Putting a soft hand on Jim's shoulder he shook him gently. "Jim," he said, a little sharply. "Snap out of it."

Jim closed his eyes and took a deep breath. When he opened them again, they were back to their usual burning intensity. With a small smile, he looked Sebastian in the eyes and said: "Wow."

Sebastian almost snorted. "Wow?"

Jim sat up, still smiling at him. "That is beyond a doubt the best snog I've ever had."

"Oh." Sebastian had no idea what to say to that. He was still trying to understand exactly what had happened. Okay, so he'd kissed a boy. It wasn't exactly like he'd never thought about it. It was the way it had happened that baffled him. Why had Jim's vulnerability suddenly seemed so irresistible? And why had Jim reacted the way he did? He was struggling to make sense of it.

Jim's smile faded and he started getting to his feet. "I'll go now," he said, sounding defeated.

It took a moment for Sebastian to register what he had said. Then his hand shot out and grabbed Jim by the wrist. "No," he said, sounding a lot more insistent than he had meant to. He added more softly: "Why?"

"You don't want me here. I understand," Jim said, avoiding his eyes. "You didn't mean for it to happen. You don't know why you did it. I must never tell anyone. Don't worry, I know the drill." He tried to tear his arm away from Sebastian but failed.

"Well," Sebastian said with a frown. "You're right about most of that, except that I do want you here."

Jim looked at him, his eyes wide in surprise. "You do?"

"Yes," Sebastian said with a smile. "I don't know why I did that, but I'm not going to chuck you out. Now tell me: why would you expect me to?"

Jim looked away again. "They always do?" he muttered.

Sebastian's mind was starting to connect the dots, slowly. "Who do?" he asked.

"Straight boys," Jim answered. "The ones I can get to kiss me..."

"Get to kiss you?" Sebastian almost laughed. "So that's your game?" He watched the boy for a moment, once again amazed how young he looked. "This is what happened with Powers, isn't it?"

Jim nodded, still not meeting his eyes. "They sometimes hit me," he admitted. "Most of the time they just threaten me and leave."

"But why, Jim?" Sebastian ran a hand through his hair. He wasn't even surprised. This was just so typical Jim.

"It's a power play," Jim chuckled weakly. "To see if I can get them to do it. It's a kind of rush when I win."

Sebastian couldn't help it. He laughed, half in amusement, half in exasperation. "I bet it is," he said. "You really are a nut, you know?"

Jim looked at him. "I suppose so. I'm sorry I pulled it on you though. I didn't mean to. We're friends. I didn't want to fuck it up."

"I'm not sure you did," Sebastian admitted. "I liked it and I think you did too."

"Are you kidding?" Jim said eagerly. "I meant what I said about it being the best snog I've ever had. It was amazing the way you just took charge. It completely blew my mind."

Sebastian knew a little about this kind of thing, having had a fling with a rather kinky girl a couple of years his senior. "You like being dominated?" he asked.

Jim thought for a moment. "I guess so," he said. "You like dominating?"

"Oh yes," Sebastian said with a grin. He reached for Jim and pulled him close, kissing him forcefully. Jim whimpered and went completely limp in his arms, surrendering to the kiss completely.

Sebastian broke the kiss and looked down at him, laughing. "Wow," he said. "You really like this, eh?"

Jim blushed and nodded.

"Good." Sebastian's eyes took on a wicked gleam. "Stop me if I go too far," he said, as he started unbuttoning Jim's shirt.

Jim just sat there, waiting as Sebastian slid the shirt of his shoulders and bent down, kissing his chest. As Sebastian sucked on one of his nipples he let out a shaky sigh, which ripped through Sebastian's body like an electric current. He smiled and then softly bit the nipple. The resulting yelp from Jim was like music in his ears.

Sebastian had discovered he liked playing rough about a year ago, but except one very intense week with that older girl, he hadn't really had any opportunities to try it. The girls he had hooked up with were all whiny or clingy, wanting him to 'make love to them' and be gentle. He respected that, but he was always hoping for someone who'd want him to just pin them down and have his way with them.

Never in his wildest dreams would he have thought that this someone could be Jim.

He looked up at Jim, trying to gauge his response, seeing how far he was willing to take this. Jim's eyes were closed, and his breathing seemed very fast and shallow. His cheeks were flushed, his features a mix of apprehension and anticipation.

It was the single most arousing thing Sebastian had ever seen, and there was no way he could resist it.

"Stop me anytime," he whispered, as he took Jim by the shoulders and laid him down on the floor again. Jim followed willingly, his breathing becoming even more rapid.

A small part of Sebastian's mind couldn't believe he was doing this, as he unbuttoned Jim's trousers, pulled down the zip and started working them off him. Jim shifted just the tiniest bit to make it easier, but otherwise remained passive. He clearly wanted this, Sebastian thought. And he had to admit that so did he.

When Jim was just in his pants, Sebastian kissed him again, and then started moving his lips down his body, kissing, licking and nibbling along the way. Jim flinched a little and made some rather delicious whimpering and yelping sounds when Sebastian bit him, though he was careful to be gentle and not even leave any marks.

When he reached the hem of the pants he stopped and instead placed his hand on the clearly visible bulge at their front. Jim gasped and Sebastian drew in a sharp breath. He had never touched a cock before, apart from his own. It was a strange feeling even through the cloth. So hard and soft at the same time.

He moved his hand, rubbing Jim's erection, and couldn't help but enjoy the response he got. Jim whimpered softly and bit his lip, screwing his eyes even tighter shut. Sebastian could feel himself getting increasingly hard and his body growing impatient. But if he was gonna do this, he was going to take the time to do it right and to enjoy every moment of it.

He kissed Jim's stomach once and then got to his feet. He went over to the dresser and rummaged through the top drawer, until he found a pack of condoms and a small bottle of lube. It was a good thing he had kept it, though he'd really not thought he'd be needing it again. The older girl had been quite fond of anal sex and had taught him a lot.

He put the things on his bed and started taking his own clothes off. Jim was clearly listening but didn't open his eyes. Sebastian was impressed. He could not have just lain there, not really sure what was happening around him. Once he was naked, he kneeled next to Jim and started working his pants off him. Again, Jim moved just enough to make it easier, but otherwise gave no indication that he was an active part of what was happening.

Sebastian took one of Jim's legs and bent it, placing his foot on the floor. Then he did the same with the other one, placing them so wide apart that he could settle between them. He reached down and placed his hand on Jim's cock, for the first time feeling the naked skin against his hand. He had suspected for years that he might be sexually interested in boys as well as girl. At this moment it became unbearably clear that, yes, he was very interested in boys.

He couldn't resist. He just had to explore this. So he wrapped his fingers around it, noticing that it was longer but thinner than his own. Slowly he started stroking, watching the skin as it slid underneath his hand. Jim moaned softly, and Sebastian found his hand getting slick with precome. Somehow he would have thought it would feel disgusting, but he actually had to fight the impulse to lean down and taste it.

Instead, he moved so he could bend down and kiss Jim's inner thigh, making the other boy's whole body tremble, to Sebastian's intense delight. He bit him again, a little harder this time, and then let go of his cock and slowly moved his hand down, letting his fingers tickle and tease their way to Jim's hole.

At the first touch, Jim gasped and almost pulled away. But Sebastian grabbed his hip with his other hand and held him in place. When he had calmed down, he gently started massaging him in small circles until he felt the muscle starting to relax. He let go of Jim's hip and reached for the bottle of lube. After applying plenty to his finger, he slowly put pressure on the whole. Without any resistance, the tip of his finger slipped in, and he paused, letting Jim adjust. He was torn between watching his finger working its way into Jim's body and the truly breathtaking sight of Jim's face as his lips parted in pleasure at the sensation.

Encouraged, Sebastian pushed again and let his finger slide in further, all the time watching Jim and listening for any change in his breathing to indicate he was getting uncomfortable. But it didn't seem so, and soon the finger was all the way in. It had been quite a while since Sebastian had done this, but it seemed he still remembered. And Jim responded with a surprising ease and eagerness.

Sebastian began sliding his finger in and out in long slow movements. Jim moaned again, and then he started moving a little, pressing down on Sebastian's finger every time it slid back in.

"So eager," Sebastian commented, wondering at the strange tone of his own voice. It sounded gentle and amused with just a hint of something dark, almost a threat. He pulled the finger out completely, making Jim whimper at the loss. He let him wait a moment, just to build up anticipation, and then he worked two fingers in.

Jim gasped and then started moving against them again, with more urgency than before. Sebastian had never felt so wanted, and he had to restrain himself to not just take Jim right then and there. But he knew he couldn't rush this. No matter how eager Jim seemed or how used to this he might be, Sebastian had to make sure he was ready.

Soon, there could be no doubt though. His fingers moved with ease and Jim was panting and gasping in a way that could only be from pleasure. With his free hand, Sebastian grabbed the condom, tore open the foil with his teeth and slid it on. Doing this with one hand was another useful trick that that girl had taught him.

He removed the fingers, but this time Jim didn't even have time to react before the head of Sebastian's cock was pressing against him, slowly slipping inside. Jim groaned and for a moment he tensed. Sebastian fought the urge to soothe him, and instead dug his fingers hard into his hip. It worked, and with a small keening sound, Jim relaxed. Sebastian smiled. This was almost too good to be true, he thought as he started pushing again.

The sensation of sliding into Jim was like nothing he had ever felt before. He was so incredibly tight that Sebastian almost came at once. Yet, he managed to hold back, and soon he was in to the hilt. He paused to watch Jim, for a moment hesitating at the signs of pain in the boy's face.

"Are you alright?" he asked, fearing he had gone too far and too fast.

But Jim nodded vigorously, rocking his hips a little against Sebastian. So he started moving. Only slow small thrusts at first, but as he saw and felt Jim respond, he quickly increased the pace. Jim writhed a little beneath him, and sensing what he wanted, Sebastian leaned over him and grabbed his wrists, once again pinning them to the floor. Jim nodded encouragingly and tried to push down to meet his movements.

"Oh, you really do like it rough, eh?" Sebastian heard himself asking in that same strange voice. "Well, don't worry. You're gonna get it." The gasp these words forced from Jim almost made Sebastian snap. He had to pause for a moment to resist the urge to just fuck him as hard and fast as he could. But he was still not sure if Jim could take it.

Though when he stopped moving, Jim moaned in complaint, and that did it. Sebastian pulled out, grabbed Jim by the arms and pulled him up, only to fling him towards the bed, so he ended up with his chest and stomach on the mattress, his knees on the floor.

Sebastian got behind him, and with a firm grip on his hips pushed in deep and fast. Jim practically screamed, but it did not sound like it was from pain, so Sebastian tested the angle with a few long slow moves and then, digging his fingers in hard, started ramming into him as fast and hard as he could.

Jim was soon moaning and squirming, trying both to push back against Sebastian and to get away. Sebastian's grip held him in place as he continued to fuck him. This was beyond a doubt the greatest shag of his life and Sebastian gave himself completely over to instinct. Soon he could feel the tension beginning to build inside him With a last few violent thrusts he released and groaned with the intensity of his orgasm. Jim whimpered, and as soon as Sebastian had regained his senses, he grabbed him by the hair and pulled him off the bed.

He let himself sink down till he was sitting on his heels, pulling Jim with him. He reached a hand around and grabbed Jim's cock, stroking him fast. It only took a few seconds before Jim came too, spilling over Sebastian's hand with a series of moans that sounded almost like crying.

Sebastian gently eased out of him, but still held him close, kissing his neck and shoulders, all force and demand gone, replaced by a surprising feeling of tenderness towards the boy gasping in his arms.

When he had caught his breath, Jim chuckled softly. "Wow."

Sebastian laughed. "Yeah." Then he asked: "If this was another power play, would you say you won or lost?"

Jim hesitated for a moment, then said, a mischievous note to his voice: "Well, I definitely lost something."