A/N: Yeet yeet I've returned. Thanks to Lilah32 for Jakob and TeamShadow for TeamShadow for Alyssa!

Enjoy?

TW FOR RAPE IN ALYSSA'S POV.

Chapter 4 – You Ruin Everything

Alyssa Hawkins, 22, District 7

Dear Ron Jones,

Look. I didn't want to hurt you. It was Madelyn, all Madelyn. Of course, you hurt me first. You ruined me, ruined my innocence, ruined my life. I knew my life would never be normal, not with Madelyn looming over my mind like a ghost, always waiting in the shadows for the right moment to strike. It's hard to hold her off—she wants control, and the night I found you, Madelyn forced my hand. I should have control, but Madelyn doesn't care.

I remember that night vividly—I was distracted. Madelyn was particularly vocal. She never really shuts up, but that night… that night she wanted control.

But then you came out of the shadows of that alleyway, and I knew you were drunk and looking for a woman to—to—to—rape. I was right there, too distracted to notice until it was too late. And now, this is where that led you.

I'm not going to say I'm sorry. I'm not going to grovel at your knees and beg for forgiveness. I'm not going to apologize. You ruined me, you ruined yourself, you ruined everything.

I didn't want to hurt you. I wanted to leave you alone and leave you in the past, but Madelyn doesn't like to listen to what I say. It doesn't matter to her if I want to do something or not. After all, it's only my body, my future, my life that she ruins. But of course, you ruined it, too.

Oh, Alyssa was writing horrendously. I would cross it out, I would ruin all her hard work, but it's not worth it. Anyways, I'm Madelyn, your real murderer. After all, the best way to stop someone is to kill them. I wasn't about to let you hurt anyone else. As soon as I get out of this hellhole, I'll be taking down more people like you, and Alyssa won't be able to do anything about it.

From Alyssa Hawkins

Jakob Myre, 19, District 7

To the bitch that murdered my sister,

Robin was just trying to help. That man had been trapped, and you weren't going to do anything about it. Until, of course, you killed her in cold blood.

She didn't do anything wrong. You had no right to kill her—no right at all. No reason, no right, no nothing. You killed her because she wasn't listening. You left me no choice. You hurt her, killed her, and you deserved to die too. I was just returning the favor. Besides, it's not like anyone misses you now that you're gone. You were just another face behind a mask, a nameless figure we all hated, a pariah who aided the Capitol in oppressing us.

It's all your fault. Robin was just trying to help that man, being crushed beneath that tree, because you weren't going to do anything about it. Besides, I had the ax, you had the gun, you shot her, I killed you. You signed your own death warrant when you shot that gun. As soon as that bullet entered Robin's brain, you were as. Good. Dead.

I never even got to attend her funeral. I don't even know if she had one. Our parents would never allow that, would never, ever let Robin go un-memorialized but… I'm she's considered as much of a criminal as I am. The Capitol doesn't like it when criminals are remembered fondly, and I'm sure when I eventually kick the bucket, they probably won't even bury me. They'll burn my corpse and sing a song over my ashes. That's how the Capitol works. Who cares if those criminals were people? They're dead, nobody cares about dead people! You know, except their family, but since when do they matter? Oh, that's right, they don't. As long as they continue to reach their quotas, no one cares about. We're just puppets to the Capitol, and if we die, who cares? We're criminals. We deserve death, of course.

Fuck the Capitol.

From Jakob Myre

A/N: I really didn't do a whole lot of research on split personality disorder, so I hope Alyssa/Madelyn turned out okay and didn't suck. Anyways, what do you think of Alyssa? Of Jakob? Who do you prefer? Who do you think will last longer?

Also, I decided that I'm going to add a random question at the end of these chapters! You don't need to answer it if you don't want to, but I figure it might be fun.

Here's the first one: what's your favorite movie? Mine is either Avengers: Endgame (although it makes me cry), Spiderman: Homecoming, or Doctor Strange. As you can see, I love Marvel movies.

-Amanda